The Morning-After Proposal
The Morning-After Proposal
Sheri WhiteFeather
Like a man possessed, Dylan Trueno had searched for—and finally found—Julia Alcott, the one woman he could not forget.Though they were practically strangers, he vowed to brand her as his own…even if it meant preserving a secret that could destroy their very souls. How to resist such an uncompromisingly sexy man?Julia had fought so long to keep her identity, how could she allow herself to be swept into Dylan's conflicting world where secrets, scandals and the sensual danger of becoming his wife awaited her?
The
Morning-
After
Proposal
Sheri Whitefeather
To Diana Ventimiglia, my editor’s assistant.
Sometimes Diana seems like my assistant, too.
She helped me with the production schedule on this
series, one hectic day after the other. Thanks, Diana.
Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Epilogue
One
Dylan Trueno had finally found her. And he wasn’t letting her go.
Not this time.
Determined to make his point, he stared straight into her eyes, making her catch a stunned breath.
Instant recognition, he thought. The reoccurrence of a time-bomb attraction.
They stood face to face in the doorway of a cozy old house on the Rocking Horse Refuge. Dylan had been searching for her for eight months, and today he’d hit pay dirt.
He moved a little closer, and she took a step back. Just seconds ago, she’d answered the door to find him standing there, flinching at the sight of him.
She didn’t say anything and neither did he. He kept staring at her, piercing her with his gaze. She wore a floral-printed blouse and slim-fitting jeans with a frayed hemline. Her face was devoid of makeup and her jewelry consisted of a simple gold cross.
He thought she looked much too lean, as if she’d lost weight since the last time he’d seen her, as if she’d been to hell and back.
But he knew she had.
Trapped, she glanced away and fidgeted with the ends of her hair. It was blonde now, but she was still the same girl who’d purposely disappeared.
“Julia,” he finally said.
“My name is Janie Johnson,” she replied, using her alias, pretending to be someone else. “But my boss calls me JJ.”
Dylan assumed she worked for the old man who owned the refuge. “I spoke with Henry on the phone, and he’s expecting me.”
“He told me we were having company. A famous horse trainer. But I didn’t even think—”
“That it would be me?” He wanted to reach out, to hold her, to lift her into his arms like he’d done before. But he kept his hands to himself. “This isn’t a coincidence. I came here looking for you.”
“You’re mistaken. I’m not Julia.”
“Yes, you are. We both know you are.”
Silence stretched between them, and Dylan cursed beneath his breath. Finding her had become his relentless pursuit. And now that he’d located her, she denied being Julia.
Her stubbornness struck a frustrated chord. She wasn’t supposed to mess with his emotions. She wasn’t supposed to twist him out of shape, to contort every gut-clenching part of his life.
But she did.
Because he wanted her. He didn’t care if they were practically strangers. That wasn’t an issue for him. They’d shared a moment in time that went beyond logic.
The day they’d met, he thought. The day she’d cried in his arms. The day she’d almost kissed him.
“Why is Henry expecting you?” she asked suddenly.
“To discuss the fundraiser you’re having.”
“You lied to him? You offered to get involved?”
“I needed an excuse to look for you, to see if you were here. Would you have preferred that I told him the truth? Besides, you’re lying to him, too.” He challenged her, baiting her to admit who she was.
She did, in a disturbing way. “Henry knows me as JJ, and that’s who I want to be.”
“It’s too late for that.”
“Not if you go away.” She fussed with her hair again, making the ends flutter, like wheat in the wind. “Not if you leave.”
“I can’t do that.” He intended to take her home.
But first he had to tell her about her mother, to be the bearer of pain-packed news, something he would always despise himself for. “Come outside with me. I have to talk to you.”
Just then, a graveled voice sounded in the background. “JJ, is that our guest?”
She paused, got a panicked look in her eyes. Like a doe caught in the sites of a rifle, she went anxiety-ridden still, imploring Dylan to protect her identity.
For now, he agreed. “We’ll talk later.” The last thing he wanted was for her to get the urge to bolt, to run away.
She nodded, and within seconds, Henry appeared. He was a kind, crusty cowboy, with a bent body and a craggy-lined face.
He greeted Dylan, shaking his hand a bit too vigorously. The old man seemed excited to meet him. Of course Dylan had acquired a level of fame. He traveled extensively in his line of work, and western riders from all over the country paid top dollar to attend his clinics and demonstrations.
Henry invited him inside, escorting him to a small, homespun parlor. Dylan took the chair closest to Julia and focused his attention on her, determined to stay by her side.
To not lose her again.
JJ’s mind whirred like a tornado. Could she do this? Could she sit across from Dylan and pretend that he didn’t affect her?
He looked exactly the way she remembered him. He was dressed in a denim jacket, Wrangler jeans and a silver-and-turquoise belt buckle that glimmered at his waist. He wore his rain-straight onyx-colored hair to his shoulders, and a western hat rested on his head.
A cowboy, she thought. An Indian. A man who’d invaded her dreams. A man she’d clung to a little too deeply.
He lifted the brim of his hat, revealing an even deeper, more intense expression.
A connection to Julia. To the woman she used to be.
“JJ is my Girl Friday,” Henry said, interrupting her thoughts. “She’s my part-time housekeeper, personal assistant and events planner. She helps with the horses, too.”
“I’m impressed,” Dylan responded.
“Thank you.” JJ fought to keep her voice steady, to fake her way through this.
Dylan held her gaze, and the next bout of silence was deafening.
Like a chemistry project that was about to explode.
JJ released a shaky breath, and Henry became aware of the tension. He watched her and Dylan, closely, scooting to the edge of the sofa.
Not that Henry was clueless. He’d agreed to pay her wages in cash, suspecting that she was running from her past, even if he never probed her about it. JJ wasn’t the only drifter at the Rocking Horse Refuge. Henry didn’t just take in abused and abandoned horses. He catered to troubled people, as well, letting his employees keep their secrets.
Until now.
Henry kept watching them, and JJ counted the seconds in her mind. One. Two. Three. Henry wouldn’t remain quiet for long.
“What’s going on?” he blurted. “Are you two sweet on each other? Did you know each other before?”
Dylan glanced at JJ, and her heart trembled. Henry thought she and Dylan were former lovers. That he was the reason she’d run away.
The famous horse trainer kept silent, neither affirming nor denying the romantic allegation.
Nervous, she turned to her boss. She wasn’t about to admit that on the day Dylan had swept her into his arms, on the day he’d rescued her from a kidnapping, she’d almost kissed him, almost let the tenderness erupt into passion.
“This isn’t what you think, Henry.” She paused and chewed her bottom lip, tasting the waxy balm she wore.
“You sure about that?” he queried.
“Yes.”
The old man frowned, furrowing his thin gray brows. He wasn’t buying it. But neither was she. She remembered everything about Dylan: the breadth of his shoulders, the silkiness of his hair, the scent of hay and horses mingling with the faded note of his aftershave.
Dylan finally spoke. “It’s time to talk,” he told JJ. And to Henry, he added, “I’d like to be alone with her. It’s important.”
Her boss kept frowning. “I can see that it is.”
JJ gave into the inevitable, agreeing to have a private conversation with Dylan. As she headed for the front door, Henry sent her a reassuring nod. He would be waiting.
Dylan followed her, and their footsteps echoed on wooden planks. The weather-beaten porch wrapped around the house like a rugged embrace. The Rocking Horse Refuge was located at the foot of a mountainous Nevada region, a place with grassy valleys and forested slopes. In the distance, the highest peak whitened the horizon with snow.
She glanced at the graveled driveway and foliage-draped yard. A snakelike chill coiled in the breeze, creating leaf-laden dust devils.
Dylan removed his jacket and handed it to her. “You forgot your coat.”
She accepted his jacket, wishing that she didn’t long to feel the roughhewn fabric against her skin, to inhale his scent.
“I’ve been searching for you since you ran away. My brother and my cousin are P.I.s, and I hired them to investigate your case and consult with the FBI. I know all about your phony ID.” He watched her slip her arms into the denim sleeves. “But you don’t have to keep hiding, to keep pretending to be JJ.”
“Why? Because you found me?”
“Because the loan sharks who kidnapped you won’t be able to hurt you again. They’ve been caught.” His tone turned even more serious. “There was a hit man who was arrested, too.”
Her knees nearly buckled. “What are you talking about? I was kidnapped to scare my mom into paying her gambling debt.”
“I know. But after you and your mom took off, they put a contract on both of you.”
Oh, God. She reached back, feeling for a chair, for a place to sit. Once she found it, she lowered herself onto the rickety wood. “Mom and I had a fight. We parted ways two months ago.” She searched Dylan’s gaze and saw an uneasy condolence in his eyes. “My mother is dead, isn’t she?”
He sat next to her, taking an equally rickety chair. It creaked from his weight. “Yes, Miriam is gone. I’m so sorry, Julia.”
Dizzy, confused, lost in sudden grief, she corrected him. “JJ. I’m still JJ.”
“Not to me.”
“I’m no one to you, Dylan. We met by accident.”
His voice turned rough. “I buried your mother. I had a service for her.”
Guilt assaulted her hard and fast, and she hugged his jacket, pulling it tighter around her body. “I shouldn’t have argued with Mom. I shouldn’t have left her.” She rocked in her chair, feeling sick inside. “Was she shot? Is that how she died?”
“Yes.”
The sickness remained. “Thank you for taking responsibility for her. You weren’t obligated to do that.”
“I convinced the FBI that I was. That Miriam needed me.”
Because there was no one else, she thought. Besides JJ, her mother didn’t have any family.
She didn’t want to picture the woman who’d raised her being struck by a bullet, but the crimson-stained image presented itself, ripping into her mind, tearing at her conscience. “Where did you bury her?”
He shifted his feet, and his boots made a scraping sound. “Arizona.”
“Where you live. Where I used to live.” She caught a glimpse of untamed emotion in his eyes, and the look made him seem dangerous.
She didn’t understand why he affected her that way. He’d done nothing wrong. On the contrary, he’d done everything right. He’d rescued her from a kidnapping; he’d given her wayward mother a resting place.
Then why did his soul seem so dark? Why did his eyes betray him?
“Come home with me, Julia.”
“JJ.” Unable to control her reaction, she snapped at him.
“Julia.” He snapped at her, too.
And then they stared at each other, a hard-edged, pulse-hammering, uncomfortably possessive moment passing between them.
This man, the handsome cowboy who’d done everything right, wanted to steal the identity she’d created. To force Julia to bury JJ—the way he’d buried her mother.
“Come home with me,” he said again.
She shook her head, imagined herself in his arms. “No.”
“You need to visit Miriam,” he pressed. “To say goodbye to her.”
Heaven help her. She didn’t want to return to Arizona, to kneel beside Dylan at her mother’s gravesite. To trace the headstone he’d chosen. To let him see her cry.
She’d already cried on the day he’d rescued her from the mess her mother had gotten her into. She’d already wept in his arms when he’d carried her out of that dirty, dingy trailer and into the desert sun.
How much more reliant on him could she be? And how much more pain could she bear from her mother’s passing? From being safe at the Rocking Horse Refuge while her only parent lay dying?
“I loved my mom,” she said. “But things were never right with us. Not even when I was a little girl.”
“I know.”
“Yes, of course you do.” She frowned, realizing she was still wrapped in his jacket, in the scratchy warmth he’d provided. “You hired P.I.s to investigate me. You uncovered my secrets.”
“Maybe,” he said. “Or maybe I just touched the surface.”
No, she thought. He’d touched more than that. So much more. She removed his jacket and handed it to him. “I need to talk to Henry. To tell him what’s going on.”
“That’s fine.” The wind whipped Dylan’s hair, blowing a loose strand across his face, creating a dark slash against granite-cut cheekbones. “But I’m not leaving this refuge without you.”
When she walked to the front door and turned to look back at him, he looked directly at her, too.
Like a warrior who’d just raided a woman’s heart.
JJ went inside and approached Henry. She knew the parlor, with its cherry wood curio cabinet and doily-covered end tables, was his favorite room in the house. But only because his wife had crocheted the doilies and had packed the curio with things that were special to her, including a faded photograph from their wedding day.
JJ glanced at the picture and tears sprung to her eyes. She didn’t have any photographs of her mother. They’d run off in the middle of the night, leaving nearly everything behind. No keepsake items. No tangible memories.
“What happened?” Henry asked, when he saw her expression. “What did that boy say to you?”
“He told me that my mother was murdered.” She gripped the edge of the sofa. “But he told me that he buried her, too.”
Henry came forward and gave her a gruff yet tender hug. “I’m so sorry about your mama.”
“Me, too.” She knew the old cowboy understood grief. He’d been rattling around without his wife for the past five years. She gulped some air into her lungs and stepped back, afraid she would cry and not be able to stop. “I don’t know what to say. How to explain all of this.”
“Just start from the beginning, honey. Tell me who you are, and who Dylan is to you.”
“My real name is Julia Joyce Alcott, and eight months ago Dylan rescued me from a kidnapping. He stumbled upon me by accident. Afterward, my mother and I left town, and Dylan started searching for us because he learned there was a hit man on our trail.”
She kept talking, repeating everything Dylan had told her. Summoning personal details, she admitted that her mother was a compulsive gambler who’d borrowed an excessive amount of money from loan sharks and couldn’t pay it back. “I didn’t know who the kidnappers were until my mother told me what kind of trouble she was in. Then she begged me not to say anything. She said they would come after me again if we gave them up. But if we ran away, if we got new identities, we would be free. But once we were on the run, she started gambling again.”
“So you and your mama had a falling out?” Henry asked, filling in the blanks.
“Yes. And that’s how I ended up here and she ended up dead.”
“That hit man could have gotten you, too.” The old man shivered. “But you’re safe now, JJ. And you’ll always have a home here. You’ll always be part of the refuge, even if we’re struggling to make ends meet.”
She glanced at a blue and white doily, where the pattern frilled into a scalloped edge. “Thank you, Henry.”
They sat in silence for a moment. They both knew the refuge gave him purpose. He’d always been a cowboy, breeding cutting horses, but he’d started saving abused and abandoned animals after he’d lost his wife.
“So are you and Dylan sweet on each other?” he asked suddenly.
She shook her head, keeping her feelings, the heat Dylan evoked, to herself. “He keeps calling me Julia.”
“’Cause that’s the name he knows you by. Do you want me to call you Julia, too?”
“No. I want to be JJ.”
“It still fits, you know. Didn’t you say you’re real name was Julia Joyce?” He sent her a small smile. “You can still be JJ.”
She smiled, too. “Dylan wants me to go to Arizona with him to visit my mother’s grave.” Her smile fell. “But I don’t know if I can.”
“You have to, honey. You’ll suffer inside if you don’t make peace with her.”
“But it’s over now.”
“No, it isn’t. You haven’t even begun to mourn. You’re still in shock, still trying to wrap your mind around all of this. When it hits you, it’s gonna tear you apart. And if you don’t say a proper goodbye to your mama, it’ll only get worse.”
“Is that what happened to you when your wife died?”
He nodded. “I was angry at her passing on and leaving me alone. So for a while, I avoided saying goodbye. But that didn’t do anything but mess me up even more.”
JJ protested, defending her jumbled emotions. “I’m not angry at my mom for dying.”
“No, but you’re mad about the hell she put you through. And for that, you need to forgive her. So let Dylan take you back to Arizona to see her grave. Let him help you through this.”
She fidgeted, folding her hands, unfolding them. “He told me that he wasn’t leaving this place without me.”
“He seems like a good one, honey. Someone you can count on.”
Yes, she thought. But Dylan’s valor didn’t ease her mind. Because she feared that by going home with him, she was being kidnapped all over again.
And this time the man who’d rescued her, the man who’d carried her to safety, was her captor.
Two
Dylan waited for Julia to return to the porch, frowning at the landscape, thinking about the uncharacteristic way in which she consumed him.
He’d never been a possessive man, not until he’d stumbled upon her, bound and gagged with barbed wire cuts stinging her skin. Not until he’d freed her from her bonds and she’d reached for him, needing him like no one had ever needed him before.
Dylan would always remember the way she’d grazed his cheek, the way she’d moved her mouth closer to his, the way she’d almost kissed him.
Soft, he thought. Sweetly sensual.
He refused to feel guilty for wanting her, for being affected by her touch. He had something else to feel guilty about, something that was ripping a grenade-size hole in his chest.
Her mother’s murder.
Dylan hadn’t fired the gun, but he’d done something that had triggered the hit. He’d killed Miriam just the same.
But he couldn’t tell Julia. Not now. Not this soon. The truth wouldn’t bring Miriam back. It would only destroy what he intended to salvage with her daughter. The harshly tender, perilously intense connection.
He’d been living with the twisted need to protect Julia, to become part of her, even before her mother had died.
When the screen door creaked, his pulse jerked. Julia came outside and he stood up to look at her.
She inched forward. She’d put on a suede coat, but she still looked chilled.
And vulnerable.
The roots of her hair were coming in dark, defying the bleach she’d used. He knew she was an outdoorsy girl, but today she seemed lost, the power of the earth, of the trees, of the snow-capped mountains nearly swallowing her whole.
“Henry told me that I should go to Arizona with you,” she said. “So I’m going.”
Would he be able to purge his sin by taking Julia to her mother’s grave? Would kneeing beside her in the aftermath of murder free him? “I’m glad Henry sees things my way.”
“I have a feeling people always see things your way.”
He frowned. “You don’t.”
“I never expected to run into you again. And certainly not like this.” She slipped her hands into her pockets, burrowing into the lining of her coat.
He held her gaze. “So you tried to forget about me?”
“I tried to forget everything that happened.”
“But you couldn’t, could you, Julia?”
“No. Not completely. And please stop calling me that. I’m JJ, whether you like it or not.”
He didn’t like it, not one bit. She was pulling away from him already, not giving him a chance. “You’re attracted to me,” he said, refusing to let her deny the heat between them. “The way I’m into you.”
Rattled, she glanced away, fighting whatever she was feeling. He could see the struggle.
“You saved me from a dangerous situation,” she said, her voice cracking a little. “We both got caught up in that.”
He had another theory. “If we’d met under different circumstances, we’d still be attracted to each other. It would still be there.”
“Like some sort of cosmic energy?” She shook her head. “I don’t believe in fate. I think people create their own destiny.”
Dylan wanted to disagree, but he couldn’t. He’d gotten her mother killed. He’d created a tragedy that shouldn’t have happened.
“We should try to get a plane out of here tomorrow,” he said, changing the subject. “I’ll book the flight.”
She took a step back. “Why do we have to leave so soon?”
“What point is there in waiting? We both need to face this.”
“Both?” She made a curious expression. “What do you need to face?”
He fought the guilt. “Nothing.”
“Where am I supposed to stay when I’m in Arizona?” she asked.
“I have a guest room at my house. You can stay there.”
She wet her lips, as though her mouth had gone dry. “I keep telling myself that I’m supposed to trust you. That there’s nothing to worry about.”
“I would never hurt you.” He thought about Miriam’s murder and felt his lungs constrict. “Not purposely.”
“I know.” She inhaled a deep breath, her chest rising and falling. Then she shivered, rubbing her arms, even though they were covered in suede. “You let me cry in your arms.”
“We should go inside,” he said, the twisted need to protect her coming back. “You should get warmed up.”
She didn’t respond. He didn’t speak again, either.
He opened the screen door for her, and they entered the house.
Their silence bedeviling the air.
JJ fixed lunch. After being alone with Dylan, she needed something to do, something to keep her mind off of their intimate conversation.
While French onion soup simmered, she set the table, an old chrome and Formica booth that Henry and his wife had purchased from a bankrupt diner and reupholstered in a pretty fabric.
As she reached for the everyday china, white with tiny blue flowers, she thought about Henry’s widow. Her name was Lois and her recipe box was still on the counter. JJ used it regularly. In some odd way she felt closer to Lois, a woman she’d never even met, than she did her own mother. The thought made her teary-eyed. At this point, she would do anything to have her mom back, to start their relationship over.
Finally the meal was ready. She told herself to relax and call the men for lunch. Dylan was still here, still making her nerves jangle. Henry was giving him a quick tour of the refuge, probably trying to convince him to get involved in the fundraiser.
She used a hand-held radio, a common communication system on ranches, to tell Henry to come inside and bring their guest.
When they arrived, Dylan smiled at her, a barely-there tilt of his lips, and her knees went girlishly weak.
“This looks good,” he said.
“Thanks.” She met his gaze, memories drifting in and out of her mind. His touch, his scent, the kiss that never happened.
After a beat of silence, Henry interrupted. “We can wash up at the sink.”
By the time they sat down to eat, JJ couldn’t think clearly. Dylan was beside her in the booth, his shoulder nearly brushing hers.
Henry devoured his soup, where thick slices of toasted bread and melted cheese had been placed on top. Dylan seemed to enjoy his, too. Along with the ham sandwiches and Caesar salad she’d prepared.
“Henry asked me to help with the fundraiser,” Dylan said.
“We could use someone with his background,” the older cowboy added.
She turned to her boss. “I knew you’d talk him into it.”
“It didn’t take much talking. He’s happy to help. I told ya he was a good one.”
“Yes, you did.” She sent Henry a brave smile. She wasn’t about to spoil this for him. If Dylan’s participation in the fundraiser could keep the Rocking Horse afloat, then she who was she to complain?
“I owe this to Henry,” Dylan said. “I misrepresented myself when I first arrived. You know, using the fundraiser as an excuse to see if you were here.”
She speared a lettuce leaf. “Did you misrepresent yourself at other ranches, too?”
“Yes, but none of them are non-profit organizations. When I called them and set up phony meetings to discuss training their horses or conducting clinics or demonstrations, it wasn’t for charity.”
“How many other ranches did you search?” she asked, unable to quell her curiosity.
“I couldn’t begin to count.” He paused, studied her. “I’ve been all over this state. The FBI said you were probably hiding out on a horse farm in Nevada, working as a housekeeper.”
“Because I used to be a maid at a motel?”
He nodded. “And because you like horses. They figured you’d be drawn to a ranch setting. They did a profile on you.”
“Like on TV?” Henry seemed impressed. “I’m surprised they didn’t flash JJ’s picture on that missing person show.”
She was glad they hadn’t. She’d been bombarded with publicity right after the kidnapping, at least in her hometown. Dylan hadn’t made the papers, though. He’d been reported as “the private citizen” who’d found her.
And now, eight months later, he’d found her again.
Like fate? Like destiny?
No, she thought. She’d already told Dylan that she didn’t believe in those things. She used to, when she was Julia. But JJ was trying to be stronger than Julia. She was trying to rule her own life.
Henry reached for his sandwich. “I figured you young folks could work together on the fundraiser.”
Her pulse spiked. “Dylan and I?”
“Dylan has lots of rich acquaintances. The highfalutin horsey set who invite him to their parties and such.”
JJ shook her head. “I don’t see what that has to do with me.”
Dylan spoke up. “I’d like you to attend some of those parties with me, to charm these people into making sizable donations or bidding on the horses you’ll have up for adoption.”
“It’s a win-win situation,” Henry put in. “Either way, The Rocking Horse comes out on top.”
“It’s a great idea.” JJ’s nerves cranked up a notch. “But I’m not really the party type. Dylan would probably fare better without me.”
Henry disagreed. “Someone should be with him who represents the refuge. Besides, you’ve been cooped up here for months, hiding from the world. A couple of parties will do you good.”
Would it?
She glanced at Henry and he smiled, boosting her confidence. He was right. JJ, the woman she was becoming, needed to break free, to live a less sheltered life.
“You better introduce me as JJ,” she told Dylan.
He frowned a little. “What are you talking about?”
“At those parties.”
He didn’t respond, but she was glad she’d made her point. That she was fighting for her rights.
After the meal ended, Dylan returned to his motel room in town. But before he left, he asked JJ to walk him outside.
She got her coat, and they stood on the porch once again, with the breeze blowing bitterly around them.
“I’ll call you later,” he said. “To give you our flight itinerary.”
“That’s fine.” She tried to keep their conversation light. “Henry seems thrilled that you’re helping with the fundraiser and that I agreed to attend the parties.”
“Maybe so. But I’m not introducing you as JJ.”
She held her ground. “Yes, you are.”
The wind kicked up a notch, rustling his jacket. “No, I’m not.” He moved a little closer, scowled at her. “Being around you is so damn frustrating. Why can’t you—” He stalled, traced the battered porch rail, running his hand back and forth, caressing the wood, nearly catching a splinter.
She sucked in a much-needed breath. “Why can’t I what?”
“Behave like the girl I remember.” He trapped her gaze. “The girl who almost kissed me.”
Oh, God. Somewhere in the pit of her captive soul, she wanted to explore the knotted chemistry between them, to rekindle the moment their mouths had almost met.
But she wouldn’t dare. Not while she was on the verge of going home with him.
Her voice betrayed her. “I’m not Julia anymore.”
“Aren’t you?”
She didn’t reply, and he walked away without saying goodbye, without clearing the air. She watched him leave, wondering how long it would take for him to call.
After he was gone, she returned to the house, the forbidden kiss still lingering in her mind.
Hours passed, dragging with each tick of the clock. By the time the phone rang, JJ nearly jumped to answer it. Then she took a moment to calm her nerves. If it was Dylan, which she assumed it was, she didn’t want him to know she’d been waiting for him.
She picked it up on the fourth ring. “Hello?”
“Julia?” It was him, being headstrong as ever.
Irritation hit her hard and quick. Waiting for his call had been a mistake. She decided not to respond.
“Julia?” he said again. “I know damn well you’re there.”
She glanced out her window and saw the wind snag a branch on a barren fruit tree. Two could play at his game. “Maybe I should start calling you Darrin or something.”
He chuckled. “Like the husband in Bewitched? Are you trying to make a married man out of me?”
Heaven’s no, she thought. He would make a lousy husband. He wouldn’t even be able to get his wife’s name right. “Okay. Fine. I’ll call you Bob instead.”
“I get it. Bob Dylan.” This time he didn’t chuckle. His voice was strong, silky, richly masculine. “I like his music. His lyrics.” He paused, released an audible breath. “I’ve always been fascinated by the lady who is supposed to lay across his big brass bed.”
Her pulse panicked, quickened, jumped to her throat. That song never failed to give her chills. Romantic, sexy, poetic chills. “Never mind. Call me Julia. Do whatever the hell you want.” She frowned, considered hanging up on him. “You will anyway.”
“You’re right, I will.” His tone didn’t change; his voice remained strong and silky. “I have one, you know.”
Dare she ask? “Have one what?”
“A big brass bed.”
Sakes alive. JJ was in bed now, curled up in the predusk hours, wearing pink sweats and fuzzy socks. On the nightstand was a cup of herbal tea. Henry’s dog, a sweet old bloodhound, napped beside her. “I’m not going to be her.”
“Her who?” he asked, although she suspected that he knew.
“The lady in Dylan’s big brass bed.”
“Not his, no. But mine, yes. At least in my dreams. I already told you that I was into you, Julia.”
She was into him too, but she shouldn’t be. “You’ll just have to keep dreaming.”
“I’ve been doing that for eight months.” He shifted or moved or did something that rustled the phone. “I haven’t had a lover since then.”
She went silent. Completely still. She didn’t know what to say, how to feel, how to react.
“Did you hear me?” he asked.
“Yes.” She regained her senses. Or she tried to. Her head was still reeling. “I’ll bet that’s a record for you.”
He didn’t comment on his record. Instead, he pried into her sex life. “Has it been a long time for you, too? Or is there someone I should be jealous of?”
She looked at the dog, then ruffled his ears. He opened his droopy eyes and yawned at her. “Craig is in bed with me now.”
Dylan laughed. “I already met Henry’s dog. That lazy old hound doesn’t count.”
She laughed, too. Then they both fell silent.
“It’s going to happen,” he said suddenly.
Her heart nearly blasted its way out of her chest. She knew he meant the kiss. “Not if I don’t let it.”
“You will. Sooner or later you will.”
Struggling for control, she changed the subject. “So, what’s the deal with our trip? Did you book the flight?”
He didn’t respond. Instead he left her hanging, the intimacy he’d created hovering in the air.
She waited, her heart still pounding.
“Yes,” he finally said. “I took care of it. We leave tomorrow around three. I’ll pick you up around eleven-thirty. That’ll give us plenty of time to get to the airport and go through the security check and all that.”
“I’ll pay you back when I can,” she said, grateful the tension had passed.
“What for?” he asked.
“The flight.”
“I don’t mind. I’d rather pay your way.”
“I appreciate your generosity, but I don’t want to be indebted to you. Not anymore than I already am.” She could only imagine what her mother’s burial had cost. But she would find a way to reimburse him for that, too. Even if it took years.
“I’ll see you tomorrow, Dylan.”
“Yeah. But I’ll see you tonight, too,” he said, ending the call as roughly as it had begun.
Stonewalled, JJ hugged the phone, the empty dial tone, to her chest. He’d done it again. He’d gotten in the last word, the last romantic thought.
He would see her tonight.
In the fantasy of his mind.
Three
At bedtime, Dylan went half-mad. He wasn’t tired. Fresh from the shower, he was as wired as a tail-on-fire tomcat, stalking the motel room in his sweats.
He dragged a hand through his damp hair. Eight months, he thought. Eight-search-for-Julia months since he’d been with anyone.
He hadn’t deliberately deprived himself. He’d gotten so caught up in her, so consumed in finding her that nothing else mattered.
And now he was suffering for it.
Dylan cursed, using the harshest word that came to mind. He hated feeling this way. If he could purge her from his blood, he would. He didn’t like being enthralled by a woman. This wasn’t his idea of fun.
And neither was taking her to the cemetery.
But he owed her that much. Hell, he owed her more than that. He owed her the truth.
So tell her, he thought. Tell her why the hit man was hired.
And risk losing her this soon? No way. No damn way. He needed more time.
He glanced at the clock and decided to call his cousin. Aaron could blow this for Dylan. Aaron knew too much. But so did everyone else who was involved in the case.
He cursed again, then took action, dialing Aaron’s number. His cousin answered on the third ring.
“I found her,” Dylan said, right after Aaron voiced the customary hello.
“Dylan?”
“Yeah, it’s me.”
“You found Julia?”
“Yes. She’s at a horse refuge in Nevada. But she’s coming home with me to see her mother’s grave.”
“Damn. You finally found her. Did you call the FBI?”
“No.” He frowned at the phone. Here it comes.
“Why the hell not?”
“Because she isn’t in danger anymore.”
“They’ll still need to talk to her. They’ll want her to testify.”
“I know.” Dylan was testifying, too. “But I don’t see the point in rushing things. They haven’t even set a trial date.”
“You just don’t want Julia to hear all of the facts. But we keep telling you that what happened to Miriam wasn’t your fault.”
By “we” Aaron meant Dylan’s family. But they were biased. They would never let him take the rap for his mistake. “Don’t patronize me. Let me handle this on my own.”
“And keep information from Julia? You’re treading on dangerous ground.”
“It’s my ground. So stay off of it.”
Aaron lit into him. “I always thought you were a jerk. Even when you were a kid.”
“I’m not a kid anymore. And if I’m a jerk, so are you. You got married for revenge.”
“I love my wife,” came the defensive reply.
“And I want Julia. So if you ruin this for me, I’ll beat you to a pulp.”
“Screw you, Dylan.”
“Yeah, whatever.” He paused, stalked the room again, hit a snag with the cord and nearly dropped the phone.
“Promise me you’ll call the feds,” Aaron said. “Promise me you’ll do the right thing.”
“Fine. I’ll call them.” But he would do it on his own time, at his own pace. Not that he was going to admit that to Aaron.
“Good,” his cousin said. “This isn’t something to play around.”
Dylan’s heart tensed. “I wish I didn’t want her.”
“I guess it’s too late for that. So when is she coming home with you?”
“Tomorrow,” he responded, too damn anxious to see her again.
The moment JJ saw Dylan’s ranch, the horse farm he owned, she struggled with her emotions. The kidnapping site was just miles away.
Was her mother’s grave close by, too? Had Dylan chosen a resting place near his home?
If only her mom were still alive. If only they could work past the destruction.
Dylan turned toward her. “Are you okay?”
She feigned a positive response, wishing he wasn’t so observant. When he glanced away, she looked out the window. The airport limo took them down a long paved driveway leading to a sprawling adobe structure where the desert swerved into what seemed like an endless expanse of acreage.
Dylan’s success was showing. But so were his Native roots. Not that JJ knew anything about his culture. She didn’t even know what tribe he was from.
The car stopped, and once they were standing on the pavement, Dylan took charge of their luggage and paid the driver.
Without speaking, Dylan escorted her inside. She looked around the spacious living room and saw Old Mexico-style furniture, clay-tiled floors and roughly textured walls. Tiered windows curved in a sweeping line. A brick fireplace dominated the center of the room, with wooden crosses, Indian artifacts and brass relics on the mantle.
“Are we alone?” she asked.
“My ranch hands live out back.”
“I was talking about a housekeeper.”
He raised his eyebrows. “Do I look like I have a housekeeper?”
She couldn’t help but smile. As beautifully primitive as his custom-built home was, it was ruggedly messy, too. Charmed with cowboy-type clutter. “No, I suppose not.”
“Do you want the job?” he asked.
“You didn’t bring me all this way to clean your house.”
“No. But if I stole you away from Henry, you could be my mistress.” When she widened her eyes, he added, “I don’t see the problem with a woman being a housekeeper and a mistress. That’s the kind of wife I want someday.”
Stunned, she could only stare. What was he? A throwback from the fifties? A young, Stella-screaming Marlon Brando? “Please tell me you didn’t really say that.”
He shrugged, laughed. “You’re so easy to tease, Julia. You fall for everything.”
Because Julia was a fool, she thought. And JJ was learning to know better. “So what kind of wife do you want?”
“I’ll take you,” he said staring her down.
Her breath lodged in her throat.
“It was a joke,” he said.
Was it? She couldn’t tell. Either way, he’d just dropped a stick of dynamite onto her lap. As a little girl she’d secretly planned her wedding. She’d even dressed up in front of the mirror, holding a hand-picked bouquet of her favorite flowers.
Suddenly neither of them spoke. Not a word.
Finally, he defused the dynamite. “Do you want to see your room? Get settled?”
“Yes…please.”
He picked up her bag and escorted her down the hall.
The guest room he offered was decorated with pine furniture and animal-skin accents. A calfskin throw was draped over the headboard of a queen-size bed.
“The bathroom is attached.” He gestured. “Right through that door.”
“Thank you. This is nice.”
“I’m glad you think so.” He moved closer and reached out to touch her hair, getting personal once again. “Are you going to dye it back to its natural color?”
“No. I’m going to keep being a blonde.” Because Julia had dark hair, she thought. And JJ needed to be different from Julia.
He lifted her chin, looked into her eyes, spoke much too softly.
His voice all but caressed her. “You should stop fighting your identity. You are who you are.”
The woman who still wanted to kiss him, she thought.
But worse yet was the child she used to be. The dreamy little girl standing in front of the mirror, dressed in white and waiting for Prince Charming to sweep her into his arms.
The way Dylan had done on the day he’d rescued her.
Before she leaned into him, before she lost what was left of her sanity, she panicked, clouding desire with death.
“We need to get ready to go to the cemetery,” she said suddenly.
He started, frowned, stepped back. “We can’t. It’s too late. It’ll be dark soon. We’ll have to go tomorrow.”
Trapped, confused, beguiled, she fussed with her suitcase, with the metal latch. Suddenly the airtight container seemed as constricting as a coffin. “Then I need to be alone.”
His frown deepened, striking premature crow’s feet near the corners his eyes. “For how long?”
Forever, she thought. But she told him to check on her in a few hours. After JJ had enough time to control Julia.
And convince her to stop wanting him.
Dylan came for her two hours later, but she’d expected as much. She was ready for him, or so she told herself.
But it was a lie.
“Do you want to have dinner on the patio?” he asked, standing in her doorway in a white T-shirt, slightly frayed jeans and the beautifully crafted belt buckle he favored. “I ordered takeout.”
She accepted his invitation, assuming that his cupboards were bare. That his traditional adobe kitchen, with its copper pots and strings of dried chilies, wasn’t stocked for guests.
JJ followed him outside. He hadn’t done anything special to accommodate her. He’d simply placed the food cartons, the restaurant-style napkins and disposable drinks on a rugged wooden table and turned on the lights. But the scene was breathtaking. His flagstone patio flourished with greenery, with fragrant herbs and night-blooming plants.
“I have a gardener who takes care of all of this,” he said.
“It’s exquisite.”
He smiled, laughed a little. “Exquisite? No one talks like that.”
“I do.” When she was overwhelmed, when something captivated her. “I love being outside.”
“So do I. Sometimes when I can’t sleep, I come out here, have a beer and watch the stars.”
“I can hear the horses from here.” The soft whinny of a broodmare, she thought. “That’s nice, too.”
“They make you feel alive, don’t they? I specialize in AQHA, all-around and working cow horses.”
“I’m glad you agreed to help with the fundraiser. Henry was right about your background. It should make a difference.”
“Yeah. Malibu reeks of money.”
“Malibu?” JJ went on alert. “As in California?”
“Didn’t I mention that before?” He opened the food cartons and offered her a Mexican meal, sliding the combination platter in front of her, along with plastic utensils. “That’s where my high-society clients live.”
“The ones who have the parties? No, you didn’t mention that.”
“I guess I must have told Henry.”
“But both of you neglected to tell me? Like a couple of good old boys who forgot about the female in the bunch.”
He chuckled. “Good old boys? I’m only twenty-nine.”
“Don’t get smart. You know what I mean.” She grabbed her drink, used the straw and sucked out a swig. She was only twenty-eight. “Someone should have told me. I thought the parties were here.”
“In this modest little town?”
“Your ranch isn’t modest.”
“No, but it’s not a mansion in Malibu, either. Wait until you see those places. Houses as big as castles, stables that overlook the beach.”
“The beach,” she parroted.
“Yeah. You know…” He grinned, waggled his eyebrows. “The sand, the surf, muscle-bound guys, girls in itty-bitty bikinis.”
“Knock it off.” Now she was nervous about traveling to California with him, about jet setting to such a glamorous location.
He quit smiling, quit goofing around. “You’ll do fine, Julia.”
She scowled at him, hating that he’d tapped into her insecurities. “I’m not Julia,” she shot back, wishing she hadn’t given him permission to keep using her old name.
“You could have fooled me.” He pointed to her food. “Now eat your dinner.”
She glanced at the beef tamale, chile relleno and beans and rice he’d ordered for her. It was her favorite Mexican meal, her favorite combination platter. But he knew that, didn’t he? He knew because it must have come up in his investigation. “Is this from Casa Maria?” she asked, referring to a local restaurant she used to frequent.
He nodded. “See? You’re still Julia. You still like the same food, the same diet cola with extra ice, the same everything.”
She wanted to throw her dinner at him, but she was too darn hungry not to eat it. “Next time I want carne asada.”
“Carne asada gives you indigestion.”
“So do you.” She plowed into the tamale, and he had the gall to laugh. She huffed out a breath. How annoying could he be?
“Did you know that my last name means thunder in Spanish?” he asked.
“Dylan Thunder?” She went after a scoop of rice.
“Dylan Curtis Thunder.”
She liked his name, but she wasn’t about to compliment him. “I guess I’d know that if I’d investigated you.”
He shook his head, indulged in his food. He was eating soft tacos and nachos on the side, with a slew of hot sauce.
Enough to make her mouth burn without even tasting it.
“You need to calm down,” he said. “To relax.”
“And you need to stop telling me what to do. To stop being so aggressive.”
“I can’t change who I am anymore than you can.”
“You can try,” she argued.
“But I don’t want to.” He smiled, cracked a joke. “It’s the warrior in me.”
She decided that he wasn’t far off the mark. “What tribe are you from?” she asked, unable to curb her curiosity.
“White Mountain Apache.” He sat back in his seat, the amber glow from the outdoor lighting casting a soft, shadowy ambience. “My parents are originally from the rez, and I’m a full blood, but I wasn’t raised in an overly traditional way.”
To her, he seemed rooted to his heritage. She’d seen signs of it all over his house. On his person, too. “So do your brother and cousin live close by?” JJ recalled that that they’d been involved in her case.
“They live in L.A. You can meet them when we go to California. Oh, wait. You already know my brother’s fiancé.”
She started. “I do?”
He nodded. “Carrie Lipton. Her parents own the motel where you used to work.”
“Carrie? She was divorced when I knew her, from a man named—”
“Thunder,” Dylan supplied, laughing a little. “That’s what everyone calls my brother. They were married when they were teenagers, divorced for twenty years, and now they’re engaged again.”
“Wow.” She hadn’t made the connection. “What about your parents? Where do they live?”
“About ten miles from here. You can meet them, too.” He sat forward again, shifting in his chair. “Everyone in my family has been worried about you.”
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Sheri WhiteFeather
Like a man possessed, Dylan Trueno had searched for—and finally found—Julia Alcott, the one woman he could not forget.Though they were practically strangers, he vowed to brand her as his own…even if it meant preserving a secret that could destroy their very souls. How to resist such an uncompromisingly sexy man?Julia had fought so long to keep her identity, how could she allow herself to be swept into Dylan's conflicting world where secrets, scandals and the sensual danger of becoming his wife awaited her?
The
Morning-
After
Proposal
Sheri Whitefeather
To Diana Ventimiglia, my editor’s assistant.
Sometimes Diana seems like my assistant, too.
She helped me with the production schedule on this
series, one hectic day after the other. Thanks, Diana.
Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Epilogue
One
Dylan Trueno had finally found her. And he wasn’t letting her go.
Not this time.
Determined to make his point, he stared straight into her eyes, making her catch a stunned breath.
Instant recognition, he thought. The reoccurrence of a time-bomb attraction.
They stood face to face in the doorway of a cozy old house on the Rocking Horse Refuge. Dylan had been searching for her for eight months, and today he’d hit pay dirt.
He moved a little closer, and she took a step back. Just seconds ago, she’d answered the door to find him standing there, flinching at the sight of him.
She didn’t say anything and neither did he. He kept staring at her, piercing her with his gaze. She wore a floral-printed blouse and slim-fitting jeans with a frayed hemline. Her face was devoid of makeup and her jewelry consisted of a simple gold cross.
He thought she looked much too lean, as if she’d lost weight since the last time he’d seen her, as if she’d been to hell and back.
But he knew she had.
Trapped, she glanced away and fidgeted with the ends of her hair. It was blonde now, but she was still the same girl who’d purposely disappeared.
“Julia,” he finally said.
“My name is Janie Johnson,” she replied, using her alias, pretending to be someone else. “But my boss calls me JJ.”
Dylan assumed she worked for the old man who owned the refuge. “I spoke with Henry on the phone, and he’s expecting me.”
“He told me we were having company. A famous horse trainer. But I didn’t even think—”
“That it would be me?” He wanted to reach out, to hold her, to lift her into his arms like he’d done before. But he kept his hands to himself. “This isn’t a coincidence. I came here looking for you.”
“You’re mistaken. I’m not Julia.”
“Yes, you are. We both know you are.”
Silence stretched between them, and Dylan cursed beneath his breath. Finding her had become his relentless pursuit. And now that he’d located her, she denied being Julia.
Her stubbornness struck a frustrated chord. She wasn’t supposed to mess with his emotions. She wasn’t supposed to twist him out of shape, to contort every gut-clenching part of his life.
But she did.
Because he wanted her. He didn’t care if they were practically strangers. That wasn’t an issue for him. They’d shared a moment in time that went beyond logic.
The day they’d met, he thought. The day she’d cried in his arms. The day she’d almost kissed him.
“Why is Henry expecting you?” she asked suddenly.
“To discuss the fundraiser you’re having.”
“You lied to him? You offered to get involved?”
“I needed an excuse to look for you, to see if you were here. Would you have preferred that I told him the truth? Besides, you’re lying to him, too.” He challenged her, baiting her to admit who she was.
She did, in a disturbing way. “Henry knows me as JJ, and that’s who I want to be.”
“It’s too late for that.”
“Not if you go away.” She fussed with her hair again, making the ends flutter, like wheat in the wind. “Not if you leave.”
“I can’t do that.” He intended to take her home.
But first he had to tell her about her mother, to be the bearer of pain-packed news, something he would always despise himself for. “Come outside with me. I have to talk to you.”
Just then, a graveled voice sounded in the background. “JJ, is that our guest?”
She paused, got a panicked look in her eyes. Like a doe caught in the sites of a rifle, she went anxiety-ridden still, imploring Dylan to protect her identity.
For now, he agreed. “We’ll talk later.” The last thing he wanted was for her to get the urge to bolt, to run away.
She nodded, and within seconds, Henry appeared. He was a kind, crusty cowboy, with a bent body and a craggy-lined face.
He greeted Dylan, shaking his hand a bit too vigorously. The old man seemed excited to meet him. Of course Dylan had acquired a level of fame. He traveled extensively in his line of work, and western riders from all over the country paid top dollar to attend his clinics and demonstrations.
Henry invited him inside, escorting him to a small, homespun parlor. Dylan took the chair closest to Julia and focused his attention on her, determined to stay by her side.
To not lose her again.
JJ’s mind whirred like a tornado. Could she do this? Could she sit across from Dylan and pretend that he didn’t affect her?
He looked exactly the way she remembered him. He was dressed in a denim jacket, Wrangler jeans and a silver-and-turquoise belt buckle that glimmered at his waist. He wore his rain-straight onyx-colored hair to his shoulders, and a western hat rested on his head.
A cowboy, she thought. An Indian. A man who’d invaded her dreams. A man she’d clung to a little too deeply.
He lifted the brim of his hat, revealing an even deeper, more intense expression.
A connection to Julia. To the woman she used to be.
“JJ is my Girl Friday,” Henry said, interrupting her thoughts. “She’s my part-time housekeeper, personal assistant and events planner. She helps with the horses, too.”
“I’m impressed,” Dylan responded.
“Thank you.” JJ fought to keep her voice steady, to fake her way through this.
Dylan held her gaze, and the next bout of silence was deafening.
Like a chemistry project that was about to explode.
JJ released a shaky breath, and Henry became aware of the tension. He watched her and Dylan, closely, scooting to the edge of the sofa.
Not that Henry was clueless. He’d agreed to pay her wages in cash, suspecting that she was running from her past, even if he never probed her about it. JJ wasn’t the only drifter at the Rocking Horse Refuge. Henry didn’t just take in abused and abandoned horses. He catered to troubled people, as well, letting his employees keep their secrets.
Until now.
Henry kept watching them, and JJ counted the seconds in her mind. One. Two. Three. Henry wouldn’t remain quiet for long.
“What’s going on?” he blurted. “Are you two sweet on each other? Did you know each other before?”
Dylan glanced at JJ, and her heart trembled. Henry thought she and Dylan were former lovers. That he was the reason she’d run away.
The famous horse trainer kept silent, neither affirming nor denying the romantic allegation.
Nervous, she turned to her boss. She wasn’t about to admit that on the day Dylan had swept her into his arms, on the day he’d rescued her from a kidnapping, she’d almost kissed him, almost let the tenderness erupt into passion.
“This isn’t what you think, Henry.” She paused and chewed her bottom lip, tasting the waxy balm she wore.
“You sure about that?” he queried.
“Yes.”
The old man frowned, furrowing his thin gray brows. He wasn’t buying it. But neither was she. She remembered everything about Dylan: the breadth of his shoulders, the silkiness of his hair, the scent of hay and horses mingling with the faded note of his aftershave.
Dylan finally spoke. “It’s time to talk,” he told JJ. And to Henry, he added, “I’d like to be alone with her. It’s important.”
Her boss kept frowning. “I can see that it is.”
JJ gave into the inevitable, agreeing to have a private conversation with Dylan. As she headed for the front door, Henry sent her a reassuring nod. He would be waiting.
Dylan followed her, and their footsteps echoed on wooden planks. The weather-beaten porch wrapped around the house like a rugged embrace. The Rocking Horse Refuge was located at the foot of a mountainous Nevada region, a place with grassy valleys and forested slopes. In the distance, the highest peak whitened the horizon with snow.
She glanced at the graveled driveway and foliage-draped yard. A snakelike chill coiled in the breeze, creating leaf-laden dust devils.
Dylan removed his jacket and handed it to her. “You forgot your coat.”
She accepted his jacket, wishing that she didn’t long to feel the roughhewn fabric against her skin, to inhale his scent.
“I’ve been searching for you since you ran away. My brother and my cousin are P.I.s, and I hired them to investigate your case and consult with the FBI. I know all about your phony ID.” He watched her slip her arms into the denim sleeves. “But you don’t have to keep hiding, to keep pretending to be JJ.”
“Why? Because you found me?”
“Because the loan sharks who kidnapped you won’t be able to hurt you again. They’ve been caught.” His tone turned even more serious. “There was a hit man who was arrested, too.”
Her knees nearly buckled. “What are you talking about? I was kidnapped to scare my mom into paying her gambling debt.”
“I know. But after you and your mom took off, they put a contract on both of you.”
Oh, God. She reached back, feeling for a chair, for a place to sit. Once she found it, she lowered herself onto the rickety wood. “Mom and I had a fight. We parted ways two months ago.” She searched Dylan’s gaze and saw an uneasy condolence in his eyes. “My mother is dead, isn’t she?”
He sat next to her, taking an equally rickety chair. It creaked from his weight. “Yes, Miriam is gone. I’m so sorry, Julia.”
Dizzy, confused, lost in sudden grief, she corrected him. “JJ. I’m still JJ.”
“Not to me.”
“I’m no one to you, Dylan. We met by accident.”
His voice turned rough. “I buried your mother. I had a service for her.”
Guilt assaulted her hard and fast, and she hugged his jacket, pulling it tighter around her body. “I shouldn’t have argued with Mom. I shouldn’t have left her.” She rocked in her chair, feeling sick inside. “Was she shot? Is that how she died?”
“Yes.”
The sickness remained. “Thank you for taking responsibility for her. You weren’t obligated to do that.”
“I convinced the FBI that I was. That Miriam needed me.”
Because there was no one else, she thought. Besides JJ, her mother didn’t have any family.
She didn’t want to picture the woman who’d raised her being struck by a bullet, but the crimson-stained image presented itself, ripping into her mind, tearing at her conscience. “Where did you bury her?”
He shifted his feet, and his boots made a scraping sound. “Arizona.”
“Where you live. Where I used to live.” She caught a glimpse of untamed emotion in his eyes, and the look made him seem dangerous.
She didn’t understand why he affected her that way. He’d done nothing wrong. On the contrary, he’d done everything right. He’d rescued her from a kidnapping; he’d given her wayward mother a resting place.
Then why did his soul seem so dark? Why did his eyes betray him?
“Come home with me, Julia.”
“JJ.” Unable to control her reaction, she snapped at him.
“Julia.” He snapped at her, too.
And then they stared at each other, a hard-edged, pulse-hammering, uncomfortably possessive moment passing between them.
This man, the handsome cowboy who’d done everything right, wanted to steal the identity she’d created. To force Julia to bury JJ—the way he’d buried her mother.
“Come home with me,” he said again.
She shook her head, imagined herself in his arms. “No.”
“You need to visit Miriam,” he pressed. “To say goodbye to her.”
Heaven help her. She didn’t want to return to Arizona, to kneel beside Dylan at her mother’s gravesite. To trace the headstone he’d chosen. To let him see her cry.
She’d already cried on the day he’d rescued her from the mess her mother had gotten her into. She’d already wept in his arms when he’d carried her out of that dirty, dingy trailer and into the desert sun.
How much more reliant on him could she be? And how much more pain could she bear from her mother’s passing? From being safe at the Rocking Horse Refuge while her only parent lay dying?
“I loved my mom,” she said. “But things were never right with us. Not even when I was a little girl.”
“I know.”
“Yes, of course you do.” She frowned, realizing she was still wrapped in his jacket, in the scratchy warmth he’d provided. “You hired P.I.s to investigate me. You uncovered my secrets.”
“Maybe,” he said. “Or maybe I just touched the surface.”
No, she thought. He’d touched more than that. So much more. She removed his jacket and handed it to him. “I need to talk to Henry. To tell him what’s going on.”
“That’s fine.” The wind whipped Dylan’s hair, blowing a loose strand across his face, creating a dark slash against granite-cut cheekbones. “But I’m not leaving this refuge without you.”
When she walked to the front door and turned to look back at him, he looked directly at her, too.
Like a warrior who’d just raided a woman’s heart.
JJ went inside and approached Henry. She knew the parlor, with its cherry wood curio cabinet and doily-covered end tables, was his favorite room in the house. But only because his wife had crocheted the doilies and had packed the curio with things that were special to her, including a faded photograph from their wedding day.
JJ glanced at the picture and tears sprung to her eyes. She didn’t have any photographs of her mother. They’d run off in the middle of the night, leaving nearly everything behind. No keepsake items. No tangible memories.
“What happened?” Henry asked, when he saw her expression. “What did that boy say to you?”
“He told me that my mother was murdered.” She gripped the edge of the sofa. “But he told me that he buried her, too.”
Henry came forward and gave her a gruff yet tender hug. “I’m so sorry about your mama.”
“Me, too.” She knew the old cowboy understood grief. He’d been rattling around without his wife for the past five years. She gulped some air into her lungs and stepped back, afraid she would cry and not be able to stop. “I don’t know what to say. How to explain all of this.”
“Just start from the beginning, honey. Tell me who you are, and who Dylan is to you.”
“My real name is Julia Joyce Alcott, and eight months ago Dylan rescued me from a kidnapping. He stumbled upon me by accident. Afterward, my mother and I left town, and Dylan started searching for us because he learned there was a hit man on our trail.”
She kept talking, repeating everything Dylan had told her. Summoning personal details, she admitted that her mother was a compulsive gambler who’d borrowed an excessive amount of money from loan sharks and couldn’t pay it back. “I didn’t know who the kidnappers were until my mother told me what kind of trouble she was in. Then she begged me not to say anything. She said they would come after me again if we gave them up. But if we ran away, if we got new identities, we would be free. But once we were on the run, she started gambling again.”
“So you and your mama had a falling out?” Henry asked, filling in the blanks.
“Yes. And that’s how I ended up here and she ended up dead.”
“That hit man could have gotten you, too.” The old man shivered. “But you’re safe now, JJ. And you’ll always have a home here. You’ll always be part of the refuge, even if we’re struggling to make ends meet.”
She glanced at a blue and white doily, where the pattern frilled into a scalloped edge. “Thank you, Henry.”
They sat in silence for a moment. They both knew the refuge gave him purpose. He’d always been a cowboy, breeding cutting horses, but he’d started saving abused and abandoned animals after he’d lost his wife.
“So are you and Dylan sweet on each other?” he asked suddenly.
She shook her head, keeping her feelings, the heat Dylan evoked, to herself. “He keeps calling me Julia.”
“’Cause that’s the name he knows you by. Do you want me to call you Julia, too?”
“No. I want to be JJ.”
“It still fits, you know. Didn’t you say you’re real name was Julia Joyce?” He sent her a small smile. “You can still be JJ.”
She smiled, too. “Dylan wants me to go to Arizona with him to visit my mother’s grave.” Her smile fell. “But I don’t know if I can.”
“You have to, honey. You’ll suffer inside if you don’t make peace with her.”
“But it’s over now.”
“No, it isn’t. You haven’t even begun to mourn. You’re still in shock, still trying to wrap your mind around all of this. When it hits you, it’s gonna tear you apart. And if you don’t say a proper goodbye to your mama, it’ll only get worse.”
“Is that what happened to you when your wife died?”
He nodded. “I was angry at her passing on and leaving me alone. So for a while, I avoided saying goodbye. But that didn’t do anything but mess me up even more.”
JJ protested, defending her jumbled emotions. “I’m not angry at my mom for dying.”
“No, but you’re mad about the hell she put you through. And for that, you need to forgive her. So let Dylan take you back to Arizona to see her grave. Let him help you through this.”
She fidgeted, folding her hands, unfolding them. “He told me that he wasn’t leaving this place without me.”
“He seems like a good one, honey. Someone you can count on.”
Yes, she thought. But Dylan’s valor didn’t ease her mind. Because she feared that by going home with him, she was being kidnapped all over again.
And this time the man who’d rescued her, the man who’d carried her to safety, was her captor.
Two
Dylan waited for Julia to return to the porch, frowning at the landscape, thinking about the uncharacteristic way in which she consumed him.
He’d never been a possessive man, not until he’d stumbled upon her, bound and gagged with barbed wire cuts stinging her skin. Not until he’d freed her from her bonds and she’d reached for him, needing him like no one had ever needed him before.
Dylan would always remember the way she’d grazed his cheek, the way she’d moved her mouth closer to his, the way she’d almost kissed him.
Soft, he thought. Sweetly sensual.
He refused to feel guilty for wanting her, for being affected by her touch. He had something else to feel guilty about, something that was ripping a grenade-size hole in his chest.
Her mother’s murder.
Dylan hadn’t fired the gun, but he’d done something that had triggered the hit. He’d killed Miriam just the same.
But he couldn’t tell Julia. Not now. Not this soon. The truth wouldn’t bring Miriam back. It would only destroy what he intended to salvage with her daughter. The harshly tender, perilously intense connection.
He’d been living with the twisted need to protect Julia, to become part of her, even before her mother had died.
When the screen door creaked, his pulse jerked. Julia came outside and he stood up to look at her.
She inched forward. She’d put on a suede coat, but she still looked chilled.
And vulnerable.
The roots of her hair were coming in dark, defying the bleach she’d used. He knew she was an outdoorsy girl, but today she seemed lost, the power of the earth, of the trees, of the snow-capped mountains nearly swallowing her whole.
“Henry told me that I should go to Arizona with you,” she said. “So I’m going.”
Would he be able to purge his sin by taking Julia to her mother’s grave? Would kneeing beside her in the aftermath of murder free him? “I’m glad Henry sees things my way.”
“I have a feeling people always see things your way.”
He frowned. “You don’t.”
“I never expected to run into you again. And certainly not like this.” She slipped her hands into her pockets, burrowing into the lining of her coat.
He held her gaze. “So you tried to forget about me?”
“I tried to forget everything that happened.”
“But you couldn’t, could you, Julia?”
“No. Not completely. And please stop calling me that. I’m JJ, whether you like it or not.”
He didn’t like it, not one bit. She was pulling away from him already, not giving him a chance. “You’re attracted to me,” he said, refusing to let her deny the heat between them. “The way I’m into you.”
Rattled, she glanced away, fighting whatever she was feeling. He could see the struggle.
“You saved me from a dangerous situation,” she said, her voice cracking a little. “We both got caught up in that.”
He had another theory. “If we’d met under different circumstances, we’d still be attracted to each other. It would still be there.”
“Like some sort of cosmic energy?” She shook her head. “I don’t believe in fate. I think people create their own destiny.”
Dylan wanted to disagree, but he couldn’t. He’d gotten her mother killed. He’d created a tragedy that shouldn’t have happened.
“We should try to get a plane out of here tomorrow,” he said, changing the subject. “I’ll book the flight.”
She took a step back. “Why do we have to leave so soon?”
“What point is there in waiting? We both need to face this.”
“Both?” She made a curious expression. “What do you need to face?”
He fought the guilt. “Nothing.”
“Where am I supposed to stay when I’m in Arizona?” she asked.
“I have a guest room at my house. You can stay there.”
She wet her lips, as though her mouth had gone dry. “I keep telling myself that I’m supposed to trust you. That there’s nothing to worry about.”
“I would never hurt you.” He thought about Miriam’s murder and felt his lungs constrict. “Not purposely.”
“I know.” She inhaled a deep breath, her chest rising and falling. Then she shivered, rubbing her arms, even though they were covered in suede. “You let me cry in your arms.”
“We should go inside,” he said, the twisted need to protect her coming back. “You should get warmed up.”
She didn’t respond. He didn’t speak again, either.
He opened the screen door for her, and they entered the house.
Their silence bedeviling the air.
JJ fixed lunch. After being alone with Dylan, she needed something to do, something to keep her mind off of their intimate conversation.
While French onion soup simmered, she set the table, an old chrome and Formica booth that Henry and his wife had purchased from a bankrupt diner and reupholstered in a pretty fabric.
As she reached for the everyday china, white with tiny blue flowers, she thought about Henry’s widow. Her name was Lois and her recipe box was still on the counter. JJ used it regularly. In some odd way she felt closer to Lois, a woman she’d never even met, than she did her own mother. The thought made her teary-eyed. At this point, she would do anything to have her mom back, to start their relationship over.
Finally the meal was ready. She told herself to relax and call the men for lunch. Dylan was still here, still making her nerves jangle. Henry was giving him a quick tour of the refuge, probably trying to convince him to get involved in the fundraiser.
She used a hand-held radio, a common communication system on ranches, to tell Henry to come inside and bring their guest.
When they arrived, Dylan smiled at her, a barely-there tilt of his lips, and her knees went girlishly weak.
“This looks good,” he said.
“Thanks.” She met his gaze, memories drifting in and out of her mind. His touch, his scent, the kiss that never happened.
After a beat of silence, Henry interrupted. “We can wash up at the sink.”
By the time they sat down to eat, JJ couldn’t think clearly. Dylan was beside her in the booth, his shoulder nearly brushing hers.
Henry devoured his soup, where thick slices of toasted bread and melted cheese had been placed on top. Dylan seemed to enjoy his, too. Along with the ham sandwiches and Caesar salad she’d prepared.
“Henry asked me to help with the fundraiser,” Dylan said.
“We could use someone with his background,” the older cowboy added.
She turned to her boss. “I knew you’d talk him into it.”
“It didn’t take much talking. He’s happy to help. I told ya he was a good one.”
“Yes, you did.” She sent Henry a brave smile. She wasn’t about to spoil this for him. If Dylan’s participation in the fundraiser could keep the Rocking Horse afloat, then she who was she to complain?
“I owe this to Henry,” Dylan said. “I misrepresented myself when I first arrived. You know, using the fundraiser as an excuse to see if you were here.”
She speared a lettuce leaf. “Did you misrepresent yourself at other ranches, too?”
“Yes, but none of them are non-profit organizations. When I called them and set up phony meetings to discuss training their horses or conducting clinics or demonstrations, it wasn’t for charity.”
“How many other ranches did you search?” she asked, unable to quell her curiosity.
“I couldn’t begin to count.” He paused, studied her. “I’ve been all over this state. The FBI said you were probably hiding out on a horse farm in Nevada, working as a housekeeper.”
“Because I used to be a maid at a motel?”
He nodded. “And because you like horses. They figured you’d be drawn to a ranch setting. They did a profile on you.”
“Like on TV?” Henry seemed impressed. “I’m surprised they didn’t flash JJ’s picture on that missing person show.”
She was glad they hadn’t. She’d been bombarded with publicity right after the kidnapping, at least in her hometown. Dylan hadn’t made the papers, though. He’d been reported as “the private citizen” who’d found her.
And now, eight months later, he’d found her again.
Like fate? Like destiny?
No, she thought. She’d already told Dylan that she didn’t believe in those things. She used to, when she was Julia. But JJ was trying to be stronger than Julia. She was trying to rule her own life.
Henry reached for his sandwich. “I figured you young folks could work together on the fundraiser.”
Her pulse spiked. “Dylan and I?”
“Dylan has lots of rich acquaintances. The highfalutin horsey set who invite him to their parties and such.”
JJ shook her head. “I don’t see what that has to do with me.”
Dylan spoke up. “I’d like you to attend some of those parties with me, to charm these people into making sizable donations or bidding on the horses you’ll have up for adoption.”
“It’s a win-win situation,” Henry put in. “Either way, The Rocking Horse comes out on top.”
“It’s a great idea.” JJ’s nerves cranked up a notch. “But I’m not really the party type. Dylan would probably fare better without me.”
Henry disagreed. “Someone should be with him who represents the refuge. Besides, you’ve been cooped up here for months, hiding from the world. A couple of parties will do you good.”
Would it?
She glanced at Henry and he smiled, boosting her confidence. He was right. JJ, the woman she was becoming, needed to break free, to live a less sheltered life.
“You better introduce me as JJ,” she told Dylan.
He frowned a little. “What are you talking about?”
“At those parties.”
He didn’t respond, but she was glad she’d made her point. That she was fighting for her rights.
After the meal ended, Dylan returned to his motel room in town. But before he left, he asked JJ to walk him outside.
She got her coat, and they stood on the porch once again, with the breeze blowing bitterly around them.
“I’ll call you later,” he said. “To give you our flight itinerary.”
“That’s fine.” She tried to keep their conversation light. “Henry seems thrilled that you’re helping with the fundraiser and that I agreed to attend the parties.”
“Maybe so. But I’m not introducing you as JJ.”
She held her ground. “Yes, you are.”
The wind kicked up a notch, rustling his jacket. “No, I’m not.” He moved a little closer, scowled at her. “Being around you is so damn frustrating. Why can’t you—” He stalled, traced the battered porch rail, running his hand back and forth, caressing the wood, nearly catching a splinter.
She sucked in a much-needed breath. “Why can’t I what?”
“Behave like the girl I remember.” He trapped her gaze. “The girl who almost kissed me.”
Oh, God. Somewhere in the pit of her captive soul, she wanted to explore the knotted chemistry between them, to rekindle the moment their mouths had almost met.
But she wouldn’t dare. Not while she was on the verge of going home with him.
Her voice betrayed her. “I’m not Julia anymore.”
“Aren’t you?”
She didn’t reply, and he walked away without saying goodbye, without clearing the air. She watched him leave, wondering how long it would take for him to call.
After he was gone, she returned to the house, the forbidden kiss still lingering in her mind.
Hours passed, dragging with each tick of the clock. By the time the phone rang, JJ nearly jumped to answer it. Then she took a moment to calm her nerves. If it was Dylan, which she assumed it was, she didn’t want him to know she’d been waiting for him.
She picked it up on the fourth ring. “Hello?”
“Julia?” It was him, being headstrong as ever.
Irritation hit her hard and quick. Waiting for his call had been a mistake. She decided not to respond.
“Julia?” he said again. “I know damn well you’re there.”
She glanced out her window and saw the wind snag a branch on a barren fruit tree. Two could play at his game. “Maybe I should start calling you Darrin or something.”
He chuckled. “Like the husband in Bewitched? Are you trying to make a married man out of me?”
Heaven’s no, she thought. He would make a lousy husband. He wouldn’t even be able to get his wife’s name right. “Okay. Fine. I’ll call you Bob instead.”
“I get it. Bob Dylan.” This time he didn’t chuckle. His voice was strong, silky, richly masculine. “I like his music. His lyrics.” He paused, released an audible breath. “I’ve always been fascinated by the lady who is supposed to lay across his big brass bed.”
Her pulse panicked, quickened, jumped to her throat. That song never failed to give her chills. Romantic, sexy, poetic chills. “Never mind. Call me Julia. Do whatever the hell you want.” She frowned, considered hanging up on him. “You will anyway.”
“You’re right, I will.” His tone didn’t change; his voice remained strong and silky. “I have one, you know.”
Dare she ask? “Have one what?”
“A big brass bed.”
Sakes alive. JJ was in bed now, curled up in the predusk hours, wearing pink sweats and fuzzy socks. On the nightstand was a cup of herbal tea. Henry’s dog, a sweet old bloodhound, napped beside her. “I’m not going to be her.”
“Her who?” he asked, although she suspected that he knew.
“The lady in Dylan’s big brass bed.”
“Not his, no. But mine, yes. At least in my dreams. I already told you that I was into you, Julia.”
She was into him too, but she shouldn’t be. “You’ll just have to keep dreaming.”
“I’ve been doing that for eight months.” He shifted or moved or did something that rustled the phone. “I haven’t had a lover since then.”
She went silent. Completely still. She didn’t know what to say, how to feel, how to react.
“Did you hear me?” he asked.
“Yes.” She regained her senses. Or she tried to. Her head was still reeling. “I’ll bet that’s a record for you.”
He didn’t comment on his record. Instead, he pried into her sex life. “Has it been a long time for you, too? Or is there someone I should be jealous of?”
She looked at the dog, then ruffled his ears. He opened his droopy eyes and yawned at her. “Craig is in bed with me now.”
Dylan laughed. “I already met Henry’s dog. That lazy old hound doesn’t count.”
She laughed, too. Then they both fell silent.
“It’s going to happen,” he said suddenly.
Her heart nearly blasted its way out of her chest. She knew he meant the kiss. “Not if I don’t let it.”
“You will. Sooner or later you will.”
Struggling for control, she changed the subject. “So, what’s the deal with our trip? Did you book the flight?”
He didn’t respond. Instead he left her hanging, the intimacy he’d created hovering in the air.
She waited, her heart still pounding.
“Yes,” he finally said. “I took care of it. We leave tomorrow around three. I’ll pick you up around eleven-thirty. That’ll give us plenty of time to get to the airport and go through the security check and all that.”
“I’ll pay you back when I can,” she said, grateful the tension had passed.
“What for?” he asked.
“The flight.”
“I don’t mind. I’d rather pay your way.”
“I appreciate your generosity, but I don’t want to be indebted to you. Not anymore than I already am.” She could only imagine what her mother’s burial had cost. But she would find a way to reimburse him for that, too. Even if it took years.
“I’ll see you tomorrow, Dylan.”
“Yeah. But I’ll see you tonight, too,” he said, ending the call as roughly as it had begun.
Stonewalled, JJ hugged the phone, the empty dial tone, to her chest. He’d done it again. He’d gotten in the last word, the last romantic thought.
He would see her tonight.
In the fantasy of his mind.
Three
At bedtime, Dylan went half-mad. He wasn’t tired. Fresh from the shower, he was as wired as a tail-on-fire tomcat, stalking the motel room in his sweats.
He dragged a hand through his damp hair. Eight months, he thought. Eight-search-for-Julia months since he’d been with anyone.
He hadn’t deliberately deprived himself. He’d gotten so caught up in her, so consumed in finding her that nothing else mattered.
And now he was suffering for it.
Dylan cursed, using the harshest word that came to mind. He hated feeling this way. If he could purge her from his blood, he would. He didn’t like being enthralled by a woman. This wasn’t his idea of fun.
And neither was taking her to the cemetery.
But he owed her that much. Hell, he owed her more than that. He owed her the truth.
So tell her, he thought. Tell her why the hit man was hired.
And risk losing her this soon? No way. No damn way. He needed more time.
He glanced at the clock and decided to call his cousin. Aaron could blow this for Dylan. Aaron knew too much. But so did everyone else who was involved in the case.
He cursed again, then took action, dialing Aaron’s number. His cousin answered on the third ring.
“I found her,” Dylan said, right after Aaron voiced the customary hello.
“Dylan?”
“Yeah, it’s me.”
“You found Julia?”
“Yes. She’s at a horse refuge in Nevada. But she’s coming home with me to see her mother’s grave.”
“Damn. You finally found her. Did you call the FBI?”
“No.” He frowned at the phone. Here it comes.
“Why the hell not?”
“Because she isn’t in danger anymore.”
“They’ll still need to talk to her. They’ll want her to testify.”
“I know.” Dylan was testifying, too. “But I don’t see the point in rushing things. They haven’t even set a trial date.”
“You just don’t want Julia to hear all of the facts. But we keep telling you that what happened to Miriam wasn’t your fault.”
By “we” Aaron meant Dylan’s family. But they were biased. They would never let him take the rap for his mistake. “Don’t patronize me. Let me handle this on my own.”
“And keep information from Julia? You’re treading on dangerous ground.”
“It’s my ground. So stay off of it.”
Aaron lit into him. “I always thought you were a jerk. Even when you were a kid.”
“I’m not a kid anymore. And if I’m a jerk, so are you. You got married for revenge.”
“I love my wife,” came the defensive reply.
“And I want Julia. So if you ruin this for me, I’ll beat you to a pulp.”
“Screw you, Dylan.”
“Yeah, whatever.” He paused, stalked the room again, hit a snag with the cord and nearly dropped the phone.
“Promise me you’ll call the feds,” Aaron said. “Promise me you’ll do the right thing.”
“Fine. I’ll call them.” But he would do it on his own time, at his own pace. Not that he was going to admit that to Aaron.
“Good,” his cousin said. “This isn’t something to play around.”
Dylan’s heart tensed. “I wish I didn’t want her.”
“I guess it’s too late for that. So when is she coming home with you?”
“Tomorrow,” he responded, too damn anxious to see her again.
The moment JJ saw Dylan’s ranch, the horse farm he owned, she struggled with her emotions. The kidnapping site was just miles away.
Was her mother’s grave close by, too? Had Dylan chosen a resting place near his home?
If only her mom were still alive. If only they could work past the destruction.
Dylan turned toward her. “Are you okay?”
She feigned a positive response, wishing he wasn’t so observant. When he glanced away, she looked out the window. The airport limo took them down a long paved driveway leading to a sprawling adobe structure where the desert swerved into what seemed like an endless expanse of acreage.
Dylan’s success was showing. But so were his Native roots. Not that JJ knew anything about his culture. She didn’t even know what tribe he was from.
The car stopped, and once they were standing on the pavement, Dylan took charge of their luggage and paid the driver.
Without speaking, Dylan escorted her inside. She looked around the spacious living room and saw Old Mexico-style furniture, clay-tiled floors and roughly textured walls. Tiered windows curved in a sweeping line. A brick fireplace dominated the center of the room, with wooden crosses, Indian artifacts and brass relics on the mantle.
“Are we alone?” she asked.
“My ranch hands live out back.”
“I was talking about a housekeeper.”
He raised his eyebrows. “Do I look like I have a housekeeper?”
She couldn’t help but smile. As beautifully primitive as his custom-built home was, it was ruggedly messy, too. Charmed with cowboy-type clutter. “No, I suppose not.”
“Do you want the job?” he asked.
“You didn’t bring me all this way to clean your house.”
“No. But if I stole you away from Henry, you could be my mistress.” When she widened her eyes, he added, “I don’t see the problem with a woman being a housekeeper and a mistress. That’s the kind of wife I want someday.”
Stunned, she could only stare. What was he? A throwback from the fifties? A young, Stella-screaming Marlon Brando? “Please tell me you didn’t really say that.”
He shrugged, laughed. “You’re so easy to tease, Julia. You fall for everything.”
Because Julia was a fool, she thought. And JJ was learning to know better. “So what kind of wife do you want?”
“I’ll take you,” he said staring her down.
Her breath lodged in her throat.
“It was a joke,” he said.
Was it? She couldn’t tell. Either way, he’d just dropped a stick of dynamite onto her lap. As a little girl she’d secretly planned her wedding. She’d even dressed up in front of the mirror, holding a hand-picked bouquet of her favorite flowers.
Suddenly neither of them spoke. Not a word.
Finally, he defused the dynamite. “Do you want to see your room? Get settled?”
“Yes…please.”
He picked up her bag and escorted her down the hall.
The guest room he offered was decorated with pine furniture and animal-skin accents. A calfskin throw was draped over the headboard of a queen-size bed.
“The bathroom is attached.” He gestured. “Right through that door.”
“Thank you. This is nice.”
“I’m glad you think so.” He moved closer and reached out to touch her hair, getting personal once again. “Are you going to dye it back to its natural color?”
“No. I’m going to keep being a blonde.” Because Julia had dark hair, she thought. And JJ needed to be different from Julia.
He lifted her chin, looked into her eyes, spoke much too softly.
His voice all but caressed her. “You should stop fighting your identity. You are who you are.”
The woman who still wanted to kiss him, she thought.
But worse yet was the child she used to be. The dreamy little girl standing in front of the mirror, dressed in white and waiting for Prince Charming to sweep her into his arms.
The way Dylan had done on the day he’d rescued her.
Before she leaned into him, before she lost what was left of her sanity, she panicked, clouding desire with death.
“We need to get ready to go to the cemetery,” she said suddenly.
He started, frowned, stepped back. “We can’t. It’s too late. It’ll be dark soon. We’ll have to go tomorrow.”
Trapped, confused, beguiled, she fussed with her suitcase, with the metal latch. Suddenly the airtight container seemed as constricting as a coffin. “Then I need to be alone.”
His frown deepened, striking premature crow’s feet near the corners his eyes. “For how long?”
Forever, she thought. But she told him to check on her in a few hours. After JJ had enough time to control Julia.
And convince her to stop wanting him.
Dylan came for her two hours later, but she’d expected as much. She was ready for him, or so she told herself.
But it was a lie.
“Do you want to have dinner on the patio?” he asked, standing in her doorway in a white T-shirt, slightly frayed jeans and the beautifully crafted belt buckle he favored. “I ordered takeout.”
She accepted his invitation, assuming that his cupboards were bare. That his traditional adobe kitchen, with its copper pots and strings of dried chilies, wasn’t stocked for guests.
JJ followed him outside. He hadn’t done anything special to accommodate her. He’d simply placed the food cartons, the restaurant-style napkins and disposable drinks on a rugged wooden table and turned on the lights. But the scene was breathtaking. His flagstone patio flourished with greenery, with fragrant herbs and night-blooming plants.
“I have a gardener who takes care of all of this,” he said.
“It’s exquisite.”
He smiled, laughed a little. “Exquisite? No one talks like that.”
“I do.” When she was overwhelmed, when something captivated her. “I love being outside.”
“So do I. Sometimes when I can’t sleep, I come out here, have a beer and watch the stars.”
“I can hear the horses from here.” The soft whinny of a broodmare, she thought. “That’s nice, too.”
“They make you feel alive, don’t they? I specialize in AQHA, all-around and working cow horses.”
“I’m glad you agreed to help with the fundraiser. Henry was right about your background. It should make a difference.”
“Yeah. Malibu reeks of money.”
“Malibu?” JJ went on alert. “As in California?”
“Didn’t I mention that before?” He opened the food cartons and offered her a Mexican meal, sliding the combination platter in front of her, along with plastic utensils. “That’s where my high-society clients live.”
“The ones who have the parties? No, you didn’t mention that.”
“I guess I must have told Henry.”
“But both of you neglected to tell me? Like a couple of good old boys who forgot about the female in the bunch.”
He chuckled. “Good old boys? I’m only twenty-nine.”
“Don’t get smart. You know what I mean.” She grabbed her drink, used the straw and sucked out a swig. She was only twenty-eight. “Someone should have told me. I thought the parties were here.”
“In this modest little town?”
“Your ranch isn’t modest.”
“No, but it’s not a mansion in Malibu, either. Wait until you see those places. Houses as big as castles, stables that overlook the beach.”
“The beach,” she parroted.
“Yeah. You know…” He grinned, waggled his eyebrows. “The sand, the surf, muscle-bound guys, girls in itty-bitty bikinis.”
“Knock it off.” Now she was nervous about traveling to California with him, about jet setting to such a glamorous location.
He quit smiling, quit goofing around. “You’ll do fine, Julia.”
She scowled at him, hating that he’d tapped into her insecurities. “I’m not Julia,” she shot back, wishing she hadn’t given him permission to keep using her old name.
“You could have fooled me.” He pointed to her food. “Now eat your dinner.”
She glanced at the beef tamale, chile relleno and beans and rice he’d ordered for her. It was her favorite Mexican meal, her favorite combination platter. But he knew that, didn’t he? He knew because it must have come up in his investigation. “Is this from Casa Maria?” she asked, referring to a local restaurant she used to frequent.
He nodded. “See? You’re still Julia. You still like the same food, the same diet cola with extra ice, the same everything.”
She wanted to throw her dinner at him, but she was too darn hungry not to eat it. “Next time I want carne asada.”
“Carne asada gives you indigestion.”
“So do you.” She plowed into the tamale, and he had the gall to laugh. She huffed out a breath. How annoying could he be?
“Did you know that my last name means thunder in Spanish?” he asked.
“Dylan Thunder?” She went after a scoop of rice.
“Dylan Curtis Thunder.”
She liked his name, but she wasn’t about to compliment him. “I guess I’d know that if I’d investigated you.”
He shook his head, indulged in his food. He was eating soft tacos and nachos on the side, with a slew of hot sauce.
Enough to make her mouth burn without even tasting it.
“You need to calm down,” he said. “To relax.”
“And you need to stop telling me what to do. To stop being so aggressive.”
“I can’t change who I am anymore than you can.”
“You can try,” she argued.
“But I don’t want to.” He smiled, cracked a joke. “It’s the warrior in me.”
She decided that he wasn’t far off the mark. “What tribe are you from?” she asked, unable to curb her curiosity.
“White Mountain Apache.” He sat back in his seat, the amber glow from the outdoor lighting casting a soft, shadowy ambience. “My parents are originally from the rez, and I’m a full blood, but I wasn’t raised in an overly traditional way.”
To her, he seemed rooted to his heritage. She’d seen signs of it all over his house. On his person, too. “So do your brother and cousin live close by?” JJ recalled that that they’d been involved in her case.
“They live in L.A. You can meet them when we go to California. Oh, wait. You already know my brother’s fiancé.”
She started. “I do?”
He nodded. “Carrie Lipton. Her parents own the motel where you used to work.”
“Carrie? She was divorced when I knew her, from a man named—”
“Thunder,” Dylan supplied, laughing a little. “That’s what everyone calls my brother. They were married when they were teenagers, divorced for twenty years, and now they’re engaged again.”
“Wow.” She hadn’t made the connection. “What about your parents? Where do they live?”
“About ten miles from here. You can meet them, too.” He sat forward again, shifting in his chair. “Everyone in my family has been worried about you.”
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Sheri WhiteFeather
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Жанр: Современные любовные романы
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Дата публикации: 16.04.2024
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О книге: Like a man possessed, Dylan Trueno had searched for—and finally found—Julia Alcott, the one woman he could not forget.Though they were practically strangers, he vowed to brand her as his own…even if it meant preserving a secret that could destroy their very souls. How to resist such an uncompromisingly sexy man?Julia had fought so long to keep her identity, how could she allow herself to be swept into Dylan′s conflicting world where secrets, scandals and the sensual danger of becoming his wife awaited her?