Possessed by the Highlander
Possessed by the Highlander
Terri Brisbin
An alliance dangerous and irresistible. . .Marian Robertson rescued a child and destroyed her reputation. Now, to keep her family safe, she must marry the stern, dark-eyed warrior negotiating a truce between their clans ; and risk her heart to protect the truth.Manipulated into marrying the exiled Robertson Harlot', Duncan, peacemaker for the MacLerie clan, finds his new wife's courage and spirit make it impossible to resist her. But will he put his honour at stake to free her from her past ; and claim her love for ever?'Expertly laced with danger and sweetened with sensuality. ' ; Booklist on TAMING THE HIGHLANDER
You did not come, he said.
I could not.
I wanted you there. I wanted to see you, Duncan whispered, close enough for Marian to feel his breath on her face. Then he kissed her neck, the heat of his mouth sending chills through her. Still she dared not move. I wanted to taste you.
He leaned down until his lips met hers. It was only a moment before the kiss changed from tender to possessive and she lost the ability to think or to move. Heat raced through her and centred itself in that place deep inside. Soon Marian discovered that her limbs had lost the ability to support her and she leaned towards him.
Shed been completely prepared to fight him away. Now she was not so certain. He slid his arms around her, touching her stomach, then her breasts. The caresses excited her, making her shiver.
Was this passion, then? Was this what made men lose their minds and what brought clans to war?
Praise for Terri Brisbin:
A welcome new voice in romance
you wont want to miss.
Bestselling author Susan Wiggs
SURRENDER TO THE HIGHLANDER
a carefully crafted plot spiced with a realistic
measure of deadly intrigue and a richly detailed,
fascinating medieval setting.
Chicago Tribune
a seductive, vivid love story
Romance Reviews Today
TAMING THE HIGHLANDER
TAMING THE HIGHLANDER is a lively, frolicking
tale of life in the highlands; truly a must-read.
Historical Romance Writers
THE COUNTESS BRIDE
The author uses a time in history
that is fraught with war, deceit and uncertainty to move
her characters into love, conflict and danger. Brisbin
woos her readers with laughter and tears
in this delightful and interesting tale of love.
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Terri Brisbin is wife to one, mother of three, and dental hygienist to hundreds when not living the life of a glamorous romance author. She was born, raised and is still living in the southern New Jersey suburbs. Teris love of history led her to write time-travel romances and historical romances set in Scotland and England. Readers are invited to visit her website for more information at www.terribrisbin.com, or contact her at PO Box 41, Berlin, NJ 08009-0041, USA.
Recent novels by the same author:
THE DUMONT BRIDE
LOVE AT FIRST STEP
(short story in The Christmas Visit) THE NORMANS BRIDE THE COUNTESS BRIDE THE EARLS SECRET TAMING THE HIGHLANDER SURRENDER TO THE HIGHLANDER
POSSESSED BY THE HIGHLANDER
Terri Brisbin
MILLS & BOON
www.millsandboon.co.uk (http://www.millsandboon.co.uk/)
Id like to dedicate this book to my friend Mo Boylan.
She was one of my first fans when my first book
came out in 1998 and she remains my friend now!
To over 10 years of friendship! Thanks, Mo, for all
your support and help and for having fun with me, too!
Many thanks go out to my writing colleague
Jennifer Wagner for her willingness to listen
as I rambled on and on about Duncan and Marian
and their dilemmasand for her help in
making it all make sense! Thanks, Jen!
Chapter One
Tis said that her breasts fill a mans hand with their creamy fullness.
Or his mouth! another in the back shouted.
I heard the tale that her legs can circle a mans girth and pull him into heavens very grasp. This from the youngest of the group. And her hair falls in raven waves down her back. Duncan swore he could hear an almost wistful longing in the voice of a boy on the verge of manhood.
Nay, tis the palest of blond hair, called out another.
I heard as red asHamishs! said Tavis.
They laughed at that bit of overblown if confused imagery, but the chuckling quieted quickly and Duncan realized they were all thinking the same thing.
Aye, laddie, Hamish called out then as he tossed his head, making his dark red hair flow down his back. And I heard the tale that her hair was all that covered the lasss charms when she were caught by her da, the old laird, wi two men or mayhap three in her bed.
Duncan was tempted to warn them off, but Hamish began singing just then. It was a quick little tune that was familiar to all of them, but Hamish changed a few of the words and turned it into something bawdy about the sexual delights offered by the woman in the Robertson clan called the Harlot as well as her various physical attributes. Duncan let a few more minutes of merriment to go by before he finally intervened.
Tis one thing to say such things among ourselves, but talk like that could ruin all my efforts to negotiate with the girls brother, he said, meeting the gaze of each one in turn. Discretion is one of my important tools and I expect that you will guard your tongues. She is ruined and she was exiled. There is nothing else to say of her.
The men behind him grumbled under their breaths, but he knew they would follow his orders. Hed chosen them for that very reasonhe needed to know he could count on their obedience during the possibly contentious negotiations that he faced. One wrong word, one wrong act, one untoward glance even and the months of preparation and preliminary work would be undone.
The sun broke through the clouds just as the men reached the point in the path where they could look across the valley to the beginning of Robertson lands. Lands that spread for miles from here in the Grampian Mountains out to Perth near the eastern coast of Scotland. Lands that held villages, acres of thick forests, well-stocked rivers, rich farmland and rolling mountains. And thousands of fighting men who had stood at Robert the Bruces back decades before.
Aye, the Robertsons were well-stocked and wellarmed and that simply added to the appeal of the proposed alliance. For a moment, Duncan shielded his eyes from the sun and searched across the valley for the road leading to the keep.
You can make camp here and wait for my return, Duncan said as he turned to face them. It should take no more than three days.
He just wants the Harlot to himself, Donald said, with a laugh.
Duncan could not stifle the curse that burst out of his mouth. The men nodded in acceptance of this new warning, except for Hamish. Damn him, he simply winked. Hamish knew too much of Duncans recent dissatisfaction with life and with women to not make some comment, but he wisely left it at the wink.
At midday three days hence ride to the western edge of the village and meet me, Duncan said as he turned his horse and began down the path to the village in the distance.
His men knew their duties and he did not doubt that they would have a small, unnoticeable camp set up by dark. And he would be well on his way to meet the man from the Robertson clan who provided him with details and news not easily found about the clan and their new laird.
The old lairds passing two years before had been the opening he needed to begin negotiations. But, it had not been without hard work, determination and the complete support of Connor MacLerie. As Duncan passed through a thick copse of trees, he followed the path of a stream as it moved downhill and onto Robertson lands. From the maps hed studied, he knew that he would reach a village in another two or so hours of riding.
As he rode, he reviewed his plans, his questions for Ranald, and the provisions of the treaty he carried for his laird. Contingency plans and alternate demands were already prepared, for Duncan believed and had learned through experience that triumph came from planning and thorough preparation and left nothing to chance.
Planning and preparation were the keys to a successful campaign of any kind whether it be an alliance or a war. And since everyone knew that the relationship between the clans could go from alliance to war in moments over nothing more than a word spoken wrongly, hed spent the last months readying himself for this series of meetings.
The land leveled out before him, but the trees stayed thick, blocking most of the sunlight where he rode. Watching for the place where the stream split and each branch curved away, one making a path to the stilldistant keep and one flowing farther down and off toward the east, Duncan knew he was approaching the meeting place outside the village. When the low stone bridge came into sight, he slowed his horse to a walk and approached it slowly and quietly.
By the look of it, hed arrived a bit earlier than planned, so after he watered the horse, he took the skin of ale from his bag and drank deeply. Seeing a small break in the trees, he dismounted and walked his horse there. Searching inside the bag for his supplies, he found the wrapped piece of cheese and hard crust of bread hed brought along. Ranald would see him wellfed, so this would be enough to keep his stomach from growling until then.
A short while passed and Duncan found himself on edge, the importance of these talks no doubt the reason for it. Leaving his horse tethered in the small clearing, he strode toward the bridge to see if he could catch sight of Ranald. Without crossing, he searched along the path that led toward the village for any sign of him.
None.
Twas not like Ranald to be late or to miss a meeting. Duncan decided to give the man some time before leaving and returning to his men since he could not travel on to the Robertsons keep without them. Pacing near the bridge, just out of sight of the path, he waited. The only sounds he heard were those of the forest creatures and a few birds flying overheadand the sound of his jaws and teeth as he ground them.
No matter his reputation for a boundless supply of patience when in the midst of difficult negotiations, Duncan was, in reality, a man with little of it. And, as the time passed slowly, that fact was made new to him. The scream, when it came, seemed so out of place as to be in his imagination.
Tilting his head and listening intently so as to discover the screams origin, Duncan turned around and waited for only a moment before another one came. This one was not as loud, but he was able to locate it and began to trot over the bridge toward the sound. Turning off the path, he pushed through the trees and found himself behind a small stone cottage. Listening as he made his way to one side, Duncan crept to the corner and looked around it toward the front of the building.
Never expecting the need for it, Duncan realized his sword remained on his horse, so he reached down and drew forth his dagger. More a short sword than a knife, Duncan relied on it many times and in many scrapes and trouble. He took a quick step away from the cottage and used a huge tree a pace away as cover to find the trouble.
And there it wasa woman struggling in the arms of a man who was much taller and stronger than she.
Duncan took a moment to assess the situation and realized that the woman did not appear to be in imminent danger, but she certainly was not welcoming such an embrace. Her kerchief loosened as she fought off the mans hold and fell to the ground revealing a wealth of brown hair, but now he noticed she did not scream. Actually, as he observed them, he noticed that she purposely turned them so that the man faced the path and not the cottage.
A sound drew his attention then and, as he looked at the side of the cottage, he met the gaze of a small child. A young girl, who could have been no more than five years and who had the palest blond hair hed seen, peered out of the small window. He read the fear in her wide eyes and trembling mouth and tried to allay it by smiling slightly and raising his finger to his own lips to warn her to stay quiet.
Now he understood why the woman turned the mans attention from the cottageto protect the child within. Duncan stood up and stepped out from the shadows. He cleared his throat loudly and waited for the man to acknowledge him. It took only a moment and the man took pains to position the woman between them, even as she pivoted to turn from the front of the cottage.
Twould seem the lady wishes not for your attentions, Duncan said quietly. Leave her in peace now. The man stopped at his warning but did not release her.
I think ye should no meddle in whats no yers to hiv a concern aboot, the man called back to him, dragging her a few steps back to separate them more.
Watching the woman, he noticed that she seemed more disgruntled than fearful. A calm look of purpose filled her face and, although she did not relax in the mans hold, neither did she now struggle as before. She whispered something only the man could hear as though warning the man of something.
Release her and go on your way, he repeated, this time moving his dagger between them to show he was armed.
This was the last thing he needed now and especially when negotiations were tentative. He would not hesitate to protect the woman if necessary, but it would raise questions about his private presence here without knowledge of the laird. Duncan hoped the man would simply believe he would not hesitate to use the weapon and hoped he would not be forced to. Release her.
Although he looked ready to offer argument, the man dropped his arms and pushed her away from him. Without a backward glance, he ran down the narrow path and into the woods.
Duncan stepped forward to catch the stumbling woman who regained her balance before he could help. She grabbed her kerchief from the ground, shook it out quickly and efficiently wrapped it around her hair before turning to face him. Her glance at his dagger reminded him he still held his weapon at the ready. He sheathed it and then took a closer look at the woman before him.
She would reach only as high as his chest, if she were close enough, and was younger than he thought. Her clothing made her appear older and widerat first glance. Duncan knew her hair was long and a muddy shade of brown. Her eyes were the feature that most impressed him, both with their clear intelligent gaze and their deep icy-blue color.
But it was her mouth that distracted him from his purpose. Full pale red lips that she now licked with the tip of her tongue.
I thank you for your help, sir. He was more nuisance than danger, she offered, without moving toward him. Once more he noticed that she positioned herself away from the cottage.
Like any good mother would, drawing the danger from her daughter to herself.
Your scream said otherwise, mistress He waited for her to explain.
Laren surprised me, tis all. She nodded to the path and then looked at him. You are not from the village. The woman searched the area around her cottage and then looked down at the path. What would bring you to my door?
I am a visitor, mistress, he answered calmly. Twas the truth of the matter so why not use it?
Then, surely your business lies elsewhere?
Her words were clearly a dismissal, but from the expression in her eyes, Duncan knew shed only just realized that she could have exchanged the so-called nuisance for something truly dangerousif his intent had been such as that. But, his intent should have been to avoid identification by any of the Robertsons before his official arrival at their keep.
And, now that you are safe, I will take my leave, mistress. You can see to your daughter without fear, he reassured her as he turned away. But not before she gasped at his words and took a few steps to put herself between him and the cottage now. She waits for you inside. I but saw her at the cottage window as I passed, he explained. I will make certain that Laren has gone before continuing on my journey.
He watched as she ran inside the cottage and heard the bar drop behind the door a moment later. A stout bar from the sturdy sound of it. Duncan searched the area around her cottage to convince himself that the man had left before retracing his steps back to the main path and the bridge. Crossing the stream, he went down the road to check his horse and his belongings before returning to wait for Ranald at their prearranged place.
But in those next minutes before his friend appeared, his thoughts were filled not with alliances and treaties, but with the image of one woman who tried very hard not to let her true appearance show through.
And he knew not even her name.
Marian cursed herself a fool as she tried to catch her breath. In spite of her attempts to remain calm, her heart raced and her chest hurt from the fear. Not of Laren, who truly was more a nuisance than a danger, but of the stranger whod stepped in to save her from harm. Before she could think on his dark gaze and tall stature, a small voice cried out to her.
Mama! her daughter cried before running into her skirts and wrapping her small arms around her legs. Mama The words drifted off and were replaced by sobs.
Ciara, my sweet, she soothed, peeling her daughter loose and pulling her into her arms. We are well, my love, she whispered, smoothing the pale hair back and out of her eyes. Marian sat down, arranged Ciara on her lap and rocked her until she stopped crying.
When Laren surprised her while she worked in her garden, Marian had ordered Ciara inside. They had practiced such a thing from the time theyd returned to Dunalastair from her fathers distant holdings in the south. Living apart from her family, alone without the protection of a husband or father, could present dangers of a sort she wished to avoid. Even if most had not realized who she was, a woman alone with a child could be a dangerous thing to be.
Ciara knew to run into the cottage and hide next to the cupboard, if need be. Marian had always prayed it would not be necessary, but today had shown her she could probably not escape her past. Ciara quieted in her arms and Marian loosened her hold just a bit. Kissing her on the head, she whispered to her of her love and her pride that Ciara had followed her instructions. So, her daughters words came as a surprise and reminded her of that which she was trying to avoid thinking onthe stranger who had come to her aid.
Mama, who was the man? Ciara asked, rubbing her eyes and lifting her head from Marians chest. Is he gone?
That was Laren, my sweet, and yes he is gone. He will not bother us again, I think, she said, trying to reassure the child.
Not him, Mama. The nice one who smiled at me.
Marian lost her words, for she would not have thought the man who stepped forward to help her could smile or be nice. His face was filled with stern, angry eyes and chiseled, masculine angles that had no softness and certainly no smiles. With his huge dagger drawn and dark expression she feared she would be his target once hed disposed of Laren. Hed stood taller than even her older brother Iain and was broader in the shoulders than even Ranald the blacksmith here in the village. A shiver raced through her.
Formidable might be a more accurate way to describe him.
Yet, even at the moment when she knew he was aware of her fear, she did not feel in danger. His sheer physical presence overwhelmed her, but not a sense that he would attack her. Twas obvious that her daughter was simply having the fanciful thoughts that young children seemed to have at times.
I dinna ken him, she whispered to Ciara, whose head began to drop against her.
Growing fast, but still a bairn in so many ways, her daughter still napped most days. Now that the excitement was past, Ciara began sliding into sleep in her arms. Marian gathered her back close and hummed a soft tune to guide her way to sleep. A few minutes later, she carried her to the bed and laid her on it. After watching Ciara settle in and covering her with a woolen blanket, Marian lifted the bar on the door and went back outside to make certain no one was there.
The late summer breezes moved through the trees, but there was a hint of something cooler in the air. In just a few weeks, the clan would prepare to harvest most of the crops theyd planted in the surrounding fields and the drovers would plan which herds would be moved from the hills to winter grazing and which would be slaughtered or sold. Marian looked over at her own garden plot and knew she would be busy picking and drying the herbs she grew for use in the coming winter.
Walking around the perimeter of her small cottage and garden plot, she looked for any signs of incursion, or of the stranger who has walked in and out of her life so quickly. Nothing looked amiss, her garden lay peaceful and no sign of trampling appeared. Marian lifted her head and listened to the sounds of the day as it passed. Birds flew overhead, trees rustled in the wind, clouds floated across the sky, just as they should on this September day.
If not for the racing of her heart and the blood pounding through her veins, even she would have thought it a usual day in Dunalastair. Marian tried to concentrate on those tasks she still needed to complete, but all she could do was think of the stranger who had stepped in to protect her.
All she could see in her mind were his eyesso dark to be almost blackgleaming in anger at Laren and then with intensity at her when he mentioned seeing to her daughter inside the cottage. And it was those expressions along with his strong and masculine stature that now made it difficult to breathe.
For not once had she, the Robertson Harlot, ever found a man to be so intriguing to her. Never had she let down her guard in the last five years and allowed herself to be affected by a man. Twas so much danger in even considering such a lapse in control to occur that it never occurred to her to be on guard against such a thing.
Shed expected the nuisances of men such as Laren, at least once the news of who she really was got out. Her brother would give orders that would frighten away any serious approaches.
But shed never expected the danger to come from such a stranger, and, after looking into his deep, dark eyes, she knew he was more dangerous than any who had come before him and any who would come after. It was the memory of his eyes that plagued her all through the day.
Chapter Two
Duncan spied the bridge as they rode toward it on the road and his stomach tightened. Twas the way of it when he approached a new series of negotiations. His gut was ever his weakness, but his thoughts were clear and focused for now. His two days of visiting and talking with Ranald revealed no surprises that should cause problems with the laird.
Indeed, he discovered that the Robertsons were as strong and well-managed as his reports had said. Word was out now that once this alliance was in place, the laird would seek a new wife from the northern clans to further cement and strengthen their position as the guardians of Scotland. Some worrisome rumors still floated about regarding the new laird some years agowhile his father still livedand, as Duncan knew from his own lairds experience, rumor and innuendo could destroy a reputation quickly. So, a move toward a new marriage, after his first one ended in the death of his wife in childbirth, was a good one on the lairds part.
One of his men called out and Duncan looked at the road ahead of them. A contingent of heavily armed Robertson warriors awaited them on the other side of the bridge. Straightening up on his own mount, he warned his men before going on.
You have your orders and know the importance of what we do here. From here on, report anything untoward to me. Bring your questions to me. Agree to nothing in Connors name.
Do we need yer permission to piss then, too, Duncan? asked Hamish from behind.
Aye, Hamish, een that, he replied without breaking a smile. More importantly, watch your drink and watch out for the lasses. Those two things can cause a man more trouble than almost anything else.
He took their grumbling as assent and nudged his horse forward. Adjusting the tartan and badge on his shoulder, Duncan led the MacLeries over the bridge and into Dunalastair. The Robertsons man greeted them formally and invited them to follow to the entrance of the keep still some distance away and Duncan nodded and accepted the welcome.
It was only as he found himself searching the faces of the villagers whod gathered to watch their arrival that he realized he was looking for her.
Hed carefully controlled the growing curiosity within himself to ask about her when he stayed with Ranald. He did not stray from Ranalds croft or smithy and did not seek out neighbors or villagers in order to remain anonymous. But, the urge to know more about her increased until now he found himself examining the face of everyone who stood watching along the path.
And not finding her.
Cursing himself for not remaining on task, he realized hed slowed his pace while he had gawked. Caelan, the Robertson who led them, turned back to say something, but his gaze moved off to something in the shadows along one of the other paths. Following it, Duncan discovered the woman hed been thinking about and the little girl. They stood back, away from the other villagers, far enough to be out of the way, yet close enough to see what had drawn the Robertson soldiers to the village.
The girl was tucked deeply into her mothers skirts, only her head was visible as she said something to the woman. The woman leaned down and answered the child without ever taking her eyes off Caelan. Glancing back at the lairds younger brother, Duncan noticed the protective gaze and began to wonder if the woman was Caelans leman. Just a few moments after hed found her, she disappeared into the maze of cottages, dismissed by just a nod from Caelan.
If hed forgotten his own instructions, he found himself reminded of them by a very distinctive clearing of the throat by Hamish. The others took it up for only a second, but he knew that his attention to the woman had been noticed by them, too. He quelled the minor rebellion with a glance of his own and then quickened the pace to move along the path faster.
Forcing his thoughts on what awaited them at the keep, Duncan was able to think on numbers of men the clan could call on in battle and the number of cattle the Robertson clan owned and how many meetings and talks faced him in the next few weeks. And he would later pride himself that he only thought about the woman with the pain in her gaze and the lovely child at her feet once during the ride to the keep.
Holy Mother, protect her!
Marian clasped Ciaras hand in hers and practically ran toward her cottage. Making it a game so her daughter would not object, she sang a ditty and counted the stones along the way. The words sounded strange to her, but it was the beating of her heart that almost blocked out every sound around her.
Caelan! Caelan was there!
Shed mistook him for someone else as he rode by the place where she stood, backed enough into the shadows of the surrounding crofts to be unnoticeable to anyone. The noise of the soldiers arrival at the bridge, the excitement of the news of the MacLeries mans entrance into the village and the purpose of his presence all fueled the gossip that swirled through the small village.
Visitors were always of interest, but a man who carried with him the tidings and power of the one still called, though in whispered tones, the Beast of the Highlands, was something that would stir anticipation and storytelling for weeks to come. Curious, Marian had followed some of the women to observe their arrival.
Then, the first shock had hit her.
The man who led the MacLerie soldiers was the stranger whod chased Laren away just three days past! Oh, he was dressed better now, with his clan badge gleaming on the plaid he wore over his shoulder, but she would have recognized that face and those eyes anywhere. Now he had eight warriors at his back as he rode into Dunalastair. He had not seen her yet, so she ducked back a bit, drawing Ciara with her.
Then the second shock of the dayher youngest brother Caelan led the soldiers to the keep. Shed heard he had returned recently but had not seen him anywhere near the village. Her father had sent him off to foster with a cousin near Skye about three years beforebeforebefore everything had happened five years ago. He must have nigh on ten-and-six years now and be almost a man. Iain must have great faith and trust in Caelan to allow him the honor of escorting such a guest into Dunalastair.
Marian reached her cottage and sat down on a stool she kept near the entrance to her garden. Usually a place for her to clean the plants she harvested or the cuttings she culled, she plopped down and tried to calm her racing heart. When Ciara touched her wet cheek and asked why she was sad, Marian realized shed been crying all the way from the road when she first saw Caelan. Wiping the tears with the back of her hand, she took in a deep breath and let out a ragged one before she even tried to speak.
I am not sad, my sweet, she said, pasting on a smile she neither wanted nor felt. Twas simply the excitement of seeing so many horses and men and everyone gathering around.
Did you see the big black horse? Ciara asked. It was the biggest horse I have ever seen!
Marian laughed then, for Ciara loved horses. In spite of not having one at her disposal as she had in her fathers house, shed passed her love of them down to her daughter just by stories and sightings.
He did seem to be the largest one. Marian wiped the last of the moisture off her cheeks and smiled then. I thought brown was your favorite color?
I used to like brown, she answered, her eyes bright with merriment as she talked about something she liked. But I think black is the prettiest now.
Marian paused and realized that there had been only one black horse among all of them, and that had been his horse. The MacLeries man. Now she knew who he was but still had no name for him.
Ciara began to chatter about horses, and that horse, and Marian took up her shovel and began where she had stopped before theyd gone to watch the soldiers cross the bridge. Digging into the dirt, she lost herself in her work and tried not to think about the man on the black horse and what trouble he could bring to her doorstep.
Duncan lifted the satchel of parchment scrolls, charts and sheets from the back of his horse and searched for a certain one before turning back to follow Caelan into the keep where the laird awaited him. Handing the leather bag to Hamish to carry, they walked inside and up the stone steps to the second floor where the corridor led to a large chamber. Those waiting on their arrival milled around the whole of the room, which was about half the size of the one at Lairig Dubh.
Still, it was clean and tapestries depicting folk tales and myths of their countrys past covered the walls. A huge hearth stood at one side and next to it was a dais with a long table that ran its length. In front of the table, at the top of the steps leading to it, sat a huge wooden chair, engraved and carved with symbols, he knew, from the Robertson clan badge. And in it sat Iain the Bold, son of Stout Duncan and now second chief of the Clan Donnachaidh or Robertson as they preferred to be called.
Standing behind him and at his side were the other three remaining sons of Stout DuncanCaelan, Padruig and Graemas well as other clan elders and councillors. With Hamish at his own side and the others behind them, he walked quickly to meet the laird. All conversation stopped as they approached the dais.
Greetings, my lord, he began with a deep bow. I bring regards and a personal message from the MacLerie. Duncan moved closer and held out the scroll.
The Robertson laird stood and walked down the steps instead of summoning him forward. He took the scroll and tucked it inside his shirt and then held out his arm in greeting. Welcome to Dunalastair Keep, Duncan. The lairds grasp was strong and sure as they clasped arms and shook. I offer you and your men the hospitality of my home and hearth as we discuss the future of the alliance between the Robertsons and the MacLeries.
As clapping and cheering exploded throughout the hall at his words, Duncan took a moment to assess the laird. The reports hed received were very close to the reality of the man. The laird was a tall man, nearly as tall as he, and a young man, too, having followed his father into the high chair of the clan at only five-and-twenty years old. Young, yes, but clearly well-liked and secure in his clans backing. Duncan sensed no hesitation or divide among those at the lairds side and had learned of none in his investigations.
A servant came forward with a mug of ale and offered some to his men as well. The Robertson climbed the steps so that he could be seen by all in the hall and raised a cup of his own. Duncan waited, preparing his own words.
I welcome you, Duncan MacLerie, and bid you to be at ease in my hall, my keep and my village. You and your men are welcome to move freely among the Robertsons as the talks commence that will surely make us allies and friends.
Duncan smiled and met Hamishs gaze. No sign of suspicion there, a good omen then, for Hamish had the instincts of a fox in seeking out any sign of subterfuge or dishonesty. The laird came down the steps, leaned over and spoke close to his ear, so he could hear it above the din.
Your reputation is quite well-known here. Duncan the Peacemaker you are called for all the times you have averted war and battle between factions, clans, even countries. I am honored by your presence in this matter.
That was not expected. Duncan nodded his head, accepting the compliment without allowing it to swell his head. He recognized it for the strategy it was. When the cheering quieted, Duncan raised his own mug as did his men.
On behalf of Connor MacLerie, Earl of Douran and chief of the Clan MacLerie, I thank you for your welcome and the hospitality you offer and promise to use all good counsel so that our clans may be united in the bond of friendship and treaty. Raising his cup higher, he called out, A Robertson! A Robertson! His men joined in and then so did everyone else in the hall, which echoed with the chant for several minutes.
The laird smiled and drank deeply of his cup. Waving Duncan onto the dais, he brought him and the others to the long table. Trays and platters of food, breads, cheeses, fruits and cooked meats filled the table and the laird directed them to stools around it. Once they had gained their seats, servants circled the table and the guests, filling cups, serving food and seeing to their needs.
Your journey was a good one, Duncan?
Aye, my lord, he replied, tearing off a piece of bread. The weather held and the winds, when we needed them, were fair and strong.
Did you come directly here from Lairig Dubh?
The question was asked in a convivial tone, but it was a test nonetheless. The Robertsons wanted to know who else he was negotiating with and who their competition was. The truth was the easiest way.
Nay, my lord. We traveled to both Glasgow and Edinburgh on the earls business before heading north to Dunalastair. Duncan caught Hamishs eye as he took a mouthful of ale from his cup.
So you having been traveling since?
Since midsummers day, my lord.
We are friends, or are soon to be friends. Please call me Iain, as those in the clan do, the laird offered.
He passed the test, apparently, for the laird nodded to several of his councillors.
As you wish, Iain, he replied.
Let me make you known to my brothers, the sons of Duncan the Stout. This one you have met he patted the man next to him on the shoulder my youngest brother Caelan. Duncan nodded as Iain continued, He has only just recently returned from his fostering with the MacLeans.
Point takenan established relationship with the powerful MacLean clan of the isles.
Duncan watched Caelan and realized he was much too young to be husband or lover to the woman hed metand he was gone when the child was conceived, if Duncan knew anything about calculations. The little girl was nigh on five which meant she could not be his. Not certain why this was important to him, Duncan turned to the man seated next to him as the laird continued the introductions.
That is my brother Padruig and his betrothed next to him, Iseabail of the MacKendimens.
The MacKendimens were a small, but not inconsequential clan near Dalmally, not far from Lairig Dubh. Another connection made and acknowledged. Duncan the Stout would have been proud of Iains neat handling of showing their strength without ever raising a weapon. With a nod to both of them, Duncan waited for the last brother to be introduced.
And that is Graem, Iain began, with a tilt of his head at the last brother who was seated opposite of Hamish, who has been invited by the Bishop of Dunkeld to take up studies under his tutelage.
And that was the final connectionto one of the most powerful and important bishops in Scotland, giving the clan a link to the Church. The sons of Duncan the Stout were well-established and connected to important clans, big and small, throughout Scotland. And the clan was one of the oldest families in the land, tracing their heritage back to the Celtic lords of Atholl. Their heraldry and position had been announced more effectively than calling the roll of ancestors. Duncan admired the efficiency with which Iain had established their position.
Iain may only have been laird for just over two years, but he was firmly in command and knew his mind. From the expressions of the others seated at the table, they were proud of him as well and would back his efforts and decisions.
Duncan recognized a challenge made and he could feel the blood in his veins begin to pulse in anticipation of a good fight. He relished nothing more than a worthy adversary across the negotiating table and now knew that the next few weeks would test his abilities on every front.
We will begin on the morrow, if that suits you, Duncan? Iain asked.
Aye, tis fine. Duncan was anxious to get into the thick of battle.
My steward will see to your comfort, he said. An older man came forward and stood at Iains side. If there is anything you need, Struan will see to it. Struan bowed and, after asking about their preferences for rooming, left to make the arrangements.
The rest of the meal passed pleasurably, but Duncan discovered he did not even remember what he ate or drank, though the latter was sparsely done. He wanted and needed time to make his final review of the possibilities and their offer before night fell. He could not wait for the thrill of the process. And like a child with a wrapped gift sitting before him, Duncan found that he could not wait for the day to be over and the negotiations to begin.
Duncan would look back, at some time later, and laugh over his misbegotten anticipation and excitement of what was to come. And five days later, in the middle of a heated discussion, and for the first time in all the treaties hed negotiated, Duncan the Peacemaker lost his temper.
Chapter Three
You cannot be serious, Duncan shouted as his fists pounded on the table, scattering documents and scrolls in the wake. You already agreed with that provision nearly two days ago!
He sensed his control slipping and could not pull himself back. Never had he felt as though the very ground beneath him lay coated with oil and his feet could find no purchase. Hamish glared at himagain. The Robertsonss chief negotiator glared again. Even the laird, who usually stood by silently and watched the proceedings, glared. The thing that Duncan did not understand was what had sent him down such a course that resulted in his anger.
I was under the impression, sir, that all matters were still negotiable until the laird signs the final treaty. Is that no longer the way we are proceeding? Symon asked, turning to Iain, again, for confirmation.
Duncan leaned back in his chair and took a deep breath. He gathered and straightened the documents and scrolls hed scattered and decided that what he needed most was a short time away from Symon before his control snapped completely, for he feared Symons neck would be the next thing in the room to snap. Having made the decision, he pushed back from the table, bowed in Iains direction and walked to the door.
The weather has cleared and I feel that a short break now might clear my head. With your permission, Iain?
Without waiting for permission, Duncan pulled open the door, followed the corridor and then the steps down to the lower floor and made his way to the stables. He had spoken the truth, for the last four days had been one torrential rainstorm, complete with winds and lightning that split the sky and rumbled over Dunalastair with fierce power. This morn had dawned clear and crisp as though the storm had raged only in their imaginations. And mayhap it had?
He reached the stables and his horse greeted him with the same snorts and stamping hed just offered to Symon, telling Duncan that they both needed a good run to burn off some of the tension that built within them. Readying the horse himself, it was only a short time before they both raced toward the keeps gate and out through the village. Crossing the bridge, Duncan let the horse have his head for a short time. Using muscles that had been too long unused, Duncan brought the mount under control and laughed as the exertion revived his body and his spirits. A short time and distance later, he turned around and headed back to the keep.
As he rode, he tumbled this morns work over and over in his head, searching for the problem. There had been significant progress and then he felt as though they hit a stone wall. Each word, each provision was contested. Reviewing it brought him no clarity and he continued to assess the strengths and weaknesses in his offer. When next he looked up, he was sitting on the path that led to the womans cottage without any knowledge of how hed gotten there.
He knew he should leave and return to his duties and to the keep where others waited on his return.
He knew he should avoid her for she was like every other distraction that pulled him from his task.
He knew there was nothing remarkable about her, yet something drew him to her and something enticed him to discover more about her.
Duncan shook his head at such nonsensical thoughts. He must be more tired than he thought if he lost his concentration so easily now. Mayhap if he learned her name, her appeal would lessen? Twas a chance that it was the mystery of her that made her attractive to him? Hed nearly talked himself out of staying to speak with her when the door to the cottage opened and the woman came out.
Once more struck by the way she looked from a distance and how differently she appeared up close, he watched as her daughter followed a few moments later and skipped along in her mothers shadow, through a gate and into a garden next to the croft. Their soft and completely feminine laughter floated to him where he sat, still on his horse, in the shadows of the tree-lined path.
Hed watched and listened to Connors wife, Jocelyn, as she played and frolicked with her son and, more recently, her daughter and his heart did the same thing now as then. He felt as though a fist wrapped around it and tightened. With each soft peal of laughter or each word spoken in love and encouragement, the grasp grew tighter and tighter in his chest. A longing so strong he could not breathe filled his heart and soul.
His horse must have sensed the tension, for it began to shift and become skittish beneath him. When he gathered the reins to try to calm it, he dropped one and cursed at his stupidity. Sliding from his seat, he collected the reins and prepared to mount again when he noticed the silence around him. Glancing toward the garden, he did not hear the two any longer. Had they seen him and gone inside?
Twould be untoward for him to deliberately approach the woman, so he decided it was time to leave. Duncan chose to walk the horse back to the keep and he was just about to when he saw the blond little head peek over the stone wall that surrounded the garden. He could not help the smile that tugged at the corners of his mouth. Some whispering followed and then he spied her pale hair again. Finally he settled on a new approach, damn it all.
Good day, he called out, as he hobbled the horse near the path.
Silence followed his call. Tempted to give up but not willing to, he tried once more. Good day.
Good day, my lord, the woman said as she rose from her hunched-over position and stood at the gate.
I am not your lord, he said, shaking his head. My name is Duncan.
Marian knew both of those things, but fought not to reply with the sarcasm she felt. If the truth be told, she was higher in precedence than he and could rightly be called my lady. But that life was so far away that she dared not even think of it. The Peacemaker, she said instead.
Just Duncan, he answered as he walked toward the gate. And you are called? he asked her.
She hesitated for a moment, dreading and anticipating the sound of her name on his lips, but she answered in spite of her fears. I am called Mara.
The gate opened and Ciara ran out. She stopped a few steps from Marian and her eyes widened as she caught sight of his horse. Her mouth dropped open in awe and although she tried to say something, no words could be heard. Then only one.
Pretty, she whispered on a sigh.
Ciara, Marian called. Come away now with mama.
Ignored because of the animal, Marian grew nervous and held out her hand to her daughter. Ciara, my sweet, come to mama now. She took a step, but Ciara was faster and bolted in the direction of the horse. Marian froze in fear.
Luckily the man called the Peacemaker did not. With little effort, he leaned down and intercepted her daughter before she could pass. And, in an effort that was made apurpose, he lifted her up and swung her around to make it seem a game. By the time hed circled her around once, Marian reached his side.
My thanks, sir, she said, reaching out to take her from him. Instead he gathered Ciara in his arms and took a step toward his horse. Sir, please!
Fear not, Mara. I would but show her the horse. If you would permit it? he asked before taking another step.
Marian watched as Ciara settled into his arms, leaning against his chest and examining everything in her world from this new height. Pointing to the horse, she uttered that word again. Pretty.
Then, the daughter who never talked to strangers and never strayed more than a step from her side abandoned her completely.
What is his name? she asked the man, even as she leaned toward the horse, forcing Duncan to move or risk dropping her on the ground. With a quick nod of consent Marian freed him and then followed right behind as they approached the horse.
He has no name. I call him horse, he answered.
Ciara laughed then and for a moment Marian could not decipher the expression in his eyes when he watched her daughter laugh aloud. The same ones she thought were so hard and ungiving melted, and yet now she witnessed a longing there so strong it made her knees almost buckle beneath her. And then it was gone as quickly as it happened. He carried her closer, but stopped a few paces away.
We must let him learn us or he will try to run, he explained in a calm voice. Let him learn your smell.
Ciara giggled then as though that was the funniest thing shed ever heard. The horses ears pricked up and he snorted once and then again, watching them get closer now.
Tis true, lass. We all smell funny to horses and you have to let them learn what you smell like before you get close.
She watched as he took her daughters hand and held it out to the horse. Whether it was her daughters scent or its masters that it recognized, the horse calmed and gently nudged both of them. Ciara turned back to her with the greatest smile on her face.
He would become your friend if you gave him something to eat, Duncan said seriously. Horses like food.
I have none to give him, Ciara said.
Shaking her head, she looked around as though she would find something on the ground. Before she could answer, Duncan reached beneath his cloak and took out the stub of a carrot.
Ah, he said, heres just the thing.
Under his guidance, Ciara took hold of it and held it out to the horse, who first sniffed it and then pulled it into its mouth. Ciara laughed again, claiming it tickled.
In that moment, Marians world tilted before her.
No man had ever held her daughter so. No man had made her laugh this way. No man.
Now, there she sat in the arms of a stranger, feeding his horse and giggling over the way its wet tongue felt against her palm. Marian stumbled then, just a step or two, but enough that he noticed it and he reached his free hand out to steady her.
Are you ill, mistress?
Nay, sir. Not ill, just a bit dizzy, she said. Marian reached up to take Ciara from him, but he shook his head and stepped back.
You cannot carry her if you are unbalanced. He noticed Ciara staring at her, the enthusiasm of the horse now waning as she must have picked up on Marians concern. Your mama is worried about us being so close to such a big horse. Come, lets look at him from a bit further away then.
He walked toward the cottage and crouched down to lower Ciara to her feet. Instead of letting her go, he spoke softly to her, telling her about how old the horse was, and how many teeth it had and its favorite foods. Marian felt as though shed regained her balance by the time he stood and smiled at her.
I am sorry if it made you worry. I meant no harm, he said.
Looking at Ciaras face and the pure joy that shone there, she knew he had not. My thanks for such kindness to my daughter.
Twas nothing, Mara. His voice poured through her and he turned his attention to her as he had to her daughter just minutes ago. Tis not often I find a woman, although she is a wee bit younger than most I speak with, who likes my brute of a horse as much as I do.
She laughed, for she doubted he ever had trouble finding women to talk toor flirt withor do the other things men and women do together. Marian met his gaze and wondered how she ever thought him stern or forbidding.
His eyes flashed with amusement as he watched Ciara talking to herself merrily about the horse. Marian was close enough to notice the small flashes of gold in their centers. And she noticed that his hair, worn loose around his shoulders, that had seemed all one color, now caught the sun as it shone through the trees above and gleamed with all the shades of brown.
When the direction of her thoughts struck her, Marian began to tremble. She purposely did not allow herself to notice such things and went out of her way to disguise any such attractive traits in herself so they would not be noticed by others. Being noticed meant trouble. And it was trouble she neither welcomed nor could afford.
My thanks again for this small treat for my daughter, sir. We must not keep you from your duties any longer. Marian reached out for Ciaras hand and grabbed it when she did not move quickly enough.
Ciara, thank Sir Duncan for letting you feed his horse.
Duncan is fine, Mara. She can call me Duncan.
Ciara mumbled her thanks, still in awe of the horse and its owner and, with a nod, Marian led her to the cottage door.
Mayhap Ciara can suggest a name when next I visit? he asked.
She hurried inside, hoping her daughter had not heard his words. Closing it behind them, she resisted the urge to drop the bar and secure it. Such an action could be construed as an insult, since hed offered nothing but pleasant company to her and her daughter. Even as Ciara went searching through her small box of toys for the horse made of sticks, Marian walked to the small window that faced the front of the cottage and peeked carefully through the covering to watch him leave.
He untangled the reins from the horses legs and pulled himself onto its back. The strength in his arms and legs was obvious as he brought the strong horse under control and turned it toward the village. If shed thought him only a man of meetings and discussion, shed been so very wrong. Duncan the Peacemaker was first a warrior and then a negotiator.
Marian watched as he leaned down and said something to the animal that made it rear up and shake its head and snort. Instead of trying to overpower the animal, Duncan laughed loudly and patted its head and neck in approval. Then just before he guided the horse into the path, he turned and nodded in her direction.
Had she been so obvious in her observation of him? What must he think of her gaping and gawking at him through her window? Shocked, she backed away but she knew it was too late. Her transgression had been witnessed. Luckily Ciara was completely engrossed in playing and reliving every moment of her horse experience and so she missed the embarrassing display her mother was making.
Tugging the kerchief from her hair and loosening the braid to allow her hair to fall freely, Marian moved about the cottage finishing tasks left undone when theyd been drawn out by the first flashes of sunshine in days. Now, she worried over the results and thought on his parting words.
Mayhap Ciara can suggest a name when next I visit?
A shiver pulsed through her body and claws of fear pulled at her as she considered all the dangers inherent in his words and possibly in his intentions, too. She knew how men thought, but her daughter did not. If Ciara became attached to this man, it would break her heart when he leftas he no doubt would.
She must discourage him somehow. Discreetly of course and in a way that did not offer insult to his honor. Although she kept apart from the machinations within the clan, even she understood the importance of his work and the alliance his laird offered her brother. Marian must turn his attentions from her, for whatever reason they were focused on her mattered not, and keep it on his duties and responsibilities.
She must convince him that she was not worthy of or interested in his concern and she must do it in a way that seemed like his idea. Regardless that he had stepped forward to help her rid herself of Laren. Regardless of the kindness hed shown her daughter. Regardless that, as the clans honored guest, he should be granted any, any, measure of hospitality that gained his attention.
Discourage without insult.
Ignore without insult.
Direct his interest without insult.
Marian knew these were the tasks before her and she prayed that she was up to it. For the sake of her daughter and everyone she loved and for the multitude of sins she bore, she must be.
Duncan returned to the keep with a clear head and a much lighter spirit than when hed left. Leaving the horse with a boy in the stables, he trotted to the great hall and found those hed left behind readying for the noon meal. He climbed the dais, bowed to the laird and sat in the stool left open for him.
If anyone wanted to redress him for his abrupt departure earlier, none did. Platters of food were passed and cups filled and then simple and congenial conversation followed as they ate. Soon they all rose and prepared to return to the lairds solar where the discussions were being held.
Mayhap he had been the problem? Mayhap his own attitude had been at fault and this short break would improve the business still ahead of them?
He spied Tavis in the corridor as he walked behind the laird and called him over. Taviss talent was just what he needed for a special gift he would need within the next few days. With a few instructions and a warning to speak of it to no one, Tavis headed off to find what he needed.
Duncan smiled then, thinking on the expression the childs face would wear when she saw the surprise he was planning. And, if he did that, made the little girl smile, mayhap he could draw one from her mother as well?
Chapter Four
Duncan allowed three more days to pass, three long, unending days, before he permitted his thoughts to drift from the numbers and the clauses of the treaties under discussion to the woman and the wee child who lived at the edge of the village. Yet, for every step forward the negotiations took, they fell two behind. If the pattern had not repeated itself three times so far, he would have doubted his assessment. But, even Hamish had noticed it.
This time, Iain had suggested a break, with some hunting to refresh their larder and their spirits. His men agreed rapidly, as he knew they would, for they tired of their close quarters and good behavior. A hard ride and some good hunting would burn off the building tension. That and the feast that the laird had announced for two days hence. Fearing that hed kept them on too tight a hold, Duncan accepted the invitation and extended it to the MacLerie men.
The day was fair and the storm clouds that built on the horizon in the morn seemed to drift in other directions, giving them the perfect conditions for their hunt. The Robertsons seemed a congenial lotmock battles of their hunting skills carried them through the day, with each clan proving themselves as worthy adversaries. Even the laird brought down a stag, to the wild cheering of his men. Duncan allowed him his moment of triumph, deciding that he and the tentative negotiations did not need him to demonstrate his own prowess in the hunt. By the time the sun began to slide down toward the dusk, the group was heading toward the village and the keep behind it.
It was as they rode over the bridge that Duncans attention shifted for only a moment, but it was time enough to be noticed by Hamish. Feeling under his cloak for the toy, he took leave of the laird, announcing his intention to visit with his clansman Ranald. After the others traveled on ahead, he did indeed go to the smithys cottage, for he had questions on his mind and could trust Ranald for honest answers and discretion.
A mug of ale and a short conversation later, and Duncan headed to the cottage off the path. Along with the carved wooden toy, he also carried several game birds caught this day. A gift for Ciara and her mother.
He shifted on the horse as he realized how much planning hed put into this supposed casual visit to the girl and her mother, but after that brief moment of doubt, Duncan continued down the path. Listening to the sounds around him, he did not hear the sounds of laughter that had greeted him previously. Nor did he hear any sounds of a struggle. Dismounting and tethering his horse to a tree, he walked toward the front of the cottage.
A glance and a listen told him that Ciara and Mara worked not in their garden. He strode over to the stone wall that surrounded it and peered into the enclosure. Examining it without the distraction of the women who cared for it, Duncan noticed that, though small in size, it was efficiently laid out and well-cared for. He recognized both some cooking and healing herbs that Jocelyn and her women used in Lairig Dubh, but there were many he did not. Still, the signs told him that the gardens keeper was organized and dependable in its care.
Still hearing no sounds from the cottage, he returned to its door and knocked softly. When no reply came, he called out their names softly and still heard no response. He should have turned and walked awayand taken it as the sign he needed to tarry no longer in this interest. But, something made him stay, reach for the latch and open the door.
The cottage was small, but clean and dry. Several mats lay strewn over the packed dirt floor and a small palette was positioned in the farthest corner from the door. A cupboard and another trunk sat on the other wall. There was a small hearth in the far wall and, in the middle of the room, a small round table with two stools. Again, simple and efficient, in its contents and care. It was the few items on the table that made his chest tighten.
A childs meager toys, made of sticks and cloth, sat in a pile there, as though waiting for their owner to return. One was a doll; another was a horse. Duncan smiled, knowing that the one inside his cloak would please the girl. And for some reason still to be deciphered, that pleased him.
Now, looking around the room, he acknowledged for the first time to himself, that this was what he wanted. No more traveling from one end of Scotland to the other on the clans business. No more always living and traveling in the middle of tension and danger and strife. His life had been and still was about peace at any price, but that did not mean he did not wish it to be different, with a wife, some children and lands to tend.
In his heart, Duncan the Peacemaker wanted to be nothing more than Duncan the Farmer.
Oh, Connor and Rurik would get a hearty laugh out of that. They would double over from laughing so hard at such a thought, but Duncan knew it for the truth it was. And now, standing here, in the quiet of this plain cottage, he believed it for the first time.
He was so caught up in contemplating his future that he never heard their approach. It was the girls gasp that drew him from his thoughts and made him realize he was an intruder here.
My pardon, he began, looking into the shocked eyes of the mother. I was looking for you and thought you might be inside, he explained.
Marian took Ciaras hand, knowing that her daughter would run to him. The man had been the subject of her childish ramblings since his last visit here and now that he stood before them, Marian did not discount her daughters infatuation. His very size made her reluctant to enter the cottage, for he nearly touched the roof of it when he stood at his full height. It was Ciaras other infatuation that saved her.
Sir, can I see your horse? her daughter asked.
A smile filled his face, once more softening his gaze and his eyes, as he nodded. But before he agreed aloud, he looked to her for permission. She was prepared for this, having thought through all sorts of scenarios after his last visit and knowing she must guide him into disinterest before it became dangerous.
Marian was prepared to wave off such an invita-tionuntil she looked at her daughters face.
Never had she seen such an expression in Ciaras eyeswonderment and anticipation blended and practically shone like the sun there. Was it the attention of such a man that enthralled her daughter? Was it the simple interest in a lively animal? Or was there something else happening here? With a worried twisting in her stomach, she gave in without a word. All it took was a slight nod, and Ciara grabbed the Peacemakers hands and dragged him outside toward the horse.
Marian followed along, all but forgotten by both of them, or so she thought, until they reached the horse. Having seen it rear and rage, its docile stance now made her nervous. But, from the confident way that Ciara strode at Duncans side without hesitation, her daughter carried none of that fear. Although the horse raised its head and watched their approach, it stood still as they moved closer.
Duncan crouched down and whispered instructions to the girl before he took her to the horses side. She was as sure as anyone hed seen in her manner around the animal and even the horses great size did not scare her off. He smiled and turned to her mother.
With your permission, I would let her ride, he said.
And he waited. He knew Mara was uncomfortable with even his presence, but he was counting on her desire to please her daughter to see this through.
She is so small. I Mara shook her head. Though, if he could read her expression, she seemed less opposed to the idea and more fearful of it.
Come, he said, holding his hand out to her, you get on first and place her in front of you.
If he had thought her afraid, hed been wrong. Duncan watched as the idea took hold within her and, in a second, he was no longer certain if shed hesitated at all. Mara accepted his hand and stepped toward them.
Shed surprised her daughter as well, for the girls mouth dropped open, her eyes widened and then she uttered one word filled with such awe and appreciation and wonderment.
Mama.
Duncan left the horse tethered to the tree and stood by the saddle. He lifted his foot and placed it in the stirrup to give her something to leverage herself up. Surprising him with her ability, Mara stepped on his foot and climbed into the saddle. Patting the horses neck, she seemed as much at home on the animal as he might be. After a moment of adjusting her skirts around her, she held her arms out for her daughter.
And she smiled.
The corners of her mouth curved up and the whole countenance of her face changed. Her appearance brightened and he discovered another woman instead of the stern one hed met. This one seemed younger than the other and there was a mischievous glimmer in her eyes that made him question his first, second and third appraisals of her.
You have ridden? Although a statement, it came out as a question.
Aye, sir. But, it has been many years since then.
Her body adapted to the horses shifting as though she were born to it, regardless of her claims. Duncan reached down and took Ciara up in his arms and then handed her to Mara, who settled the girl before her. Their heads bent together and they whispered words he could not hear, but could guess. He stood back and watched them for a few moments and the tightness in his chest returned.
Marian dared not meet his gaze, for his eyes had taken on that soft look of yearning that shed glimpsed before. He stepped away from them and, after a few minutes of letting the horse accustom itself to their weight (though together they did not weigh as much as he did) and presence, he tugged the reins free of the tree and turned to face her.
Shall I walk you or would you like the reins? he asked.
It was a quiet question but it caused a yearning of her own to creep into her heart.
When she lived here those years ago, a daughter of the laird surrounded by all the honor and comforts of such a position, riding had been her passion and her talent. Her brother told her she rode better than any man he knew and that had been a source of pride to her. Now, though, owning or riding a mount such as the one shed had or one such as this would bring too much attention to her and would remind too many of her past. So, she exercised the self-control that had served her this long and wrapped her arms around her daughter.
We would be pleased if you would control the horse, sir, she said softly.
Oh, yes, Duncan, Ciara said. Please?
Her daughter knew nothing of her past, and she intended to keep it that way now. Twas safer for all involved. Mara held on to her and watched with a feeling of pride as Ciara sat confidently before her, reaching out to pat the horses mane and to ask the Peacemaker an unending string of questions. So many in fact that he finally laughed a loud at them.
When they reached the end of the lane to her door, he turned, thankfully, not toward the rest of the village, but away and down the path that led to the bridge and off into the forest. He walked quietly at their side, guiding the horse to a slow and even gait. He continued across the bridge and down the road and then stopped just out of sight of the bridge.
How was that, Ciara? he asked. Did you enjoy riding my horse?
Oh, yes, she said in that soft, childish tone. And Mama did, as well.
Did she now? he asked her daughter while shifting his gaze to hers.
Marian swallowed and then swallowed again, trying to clear her throat of the tightness that had taken control. She did not understand the how or why of it, but a glance from this man made parts of her feel alive and awake. Parts that had never been tempted to feel anything, now pulsed with some sense of anticipation. Regardless of her past, regardless of her lack of experience in such things, she had the urge to touch her mouth to determine why it tingled so. Finally she blinked and freed herself from his gaze.
Aye, sir. And my thanks for such a pleasant ride. She smiled and kissed the top of Ciaras head before handing her over to him. Twas an uncommon treat for us.
Ciara babbled on to him as he lowered her to the ground, nodding or shaking his head in quick succession as the questions and comments flowed unabated. Ciara, as much as she, was unused to the presence of such a man in her life. Pretending to be a widowed cousin of the laird extended a certain protection and excuse to their lives and, except for the occasional incursion of someone like Laren, the men of the clan gave them no troubles or even attention. What Iain had said, or what orders hed given, she knew not. But, the result was that Ciara knew very few men at all.
Duncan stood and held out his hand for a moment before dropping it to his side. Marian shook her foot free of the straps on the other side of the horse and was preparing to climb down when his words stopped her.
In spite of his sometimes-brutish behavior, the horse is usually well-mannered, he began, reaching out to stroke the horses head. He held out the reins to her. If you would like to ride him down the road a bit, he wouldna mind.
Of all the things he could offer, this one was truly temptation. She forced her hand to stay on the edge of the saddle and shook her head.
I could not do that, sir. But I She was about to thank him when he interrupted.
You have the skills. Any man with eyes in his head could see that. He held the leather straps up closer. I will keep watch on the lass while you go a bit down the road and back.
How could she fight this? How could she resist such a simple and innocent pleasure? Ciara, once more, decided her answer before she could.
Oh, Mama! she exclaimed from the ground, where she stood safely at the mans side. Marian noticed that he kept her close enough to shield her from any such movements by the horse. Ride the horse, please! That expression of awe filled her face again and Marian was unable to refuse and make that look go away.
May I? she asked, just to be certain she did not misunderstand. And you will wait here with Sir Duncan for a moment or two, Ciara?
Her daughter, fearless as she was, slipped her hand into Duncans larger one and nodded. We will watch you.
Marian nodded and took the reins from him. The two of them stepped back, still hand in hand, but now her daughter stood silent. Wrapping the leather straps around her hands, through her fingers and on her wrists as was her custom when riding, Marian brought her knees forward and leaned down to gain a better balance. With a touch on its sides, the horse began to trot down the pathway.
It felt familiar within scant moments: the feel of being atop of horse and using her legs to control it and the motion as they moved along the road. Glancing back, she saw the two standing there, waving to her and a wild thought entered her mind.
But, did she dare?
She laughed then, something of the old Marian filled her and then, with more pressure and a flick of the reins, she gave the horse its head and held on as the black stallion took it. The trees raced by her. The wind tore her kerchief from her head and loosened her hair from its bonds, but she cared not. Leaning down closer to the horses head, she whispered words of encouragement as it sped up even more. It was a glorious animal.
Marian soon realized she must go back. The daylight was dwindling and tasks lay before her. And she should feel guilty about leaving her daughter with the MacLeries man, but she knew down deep inside that he was trustworthy or would not be who he was.
Still, this small pleasure would sustain for years. Now, she must return before anyone witnessed her behavior. Gathering the reins in and drawing the horse to a slower speed, she guided it back toward the bridge and her daughter. Retrieving her kerchief from the branch that captured it on her passing, she returned a bit slower than shed ridden away.
Marian arrived at the bridge and slowed the horse to a walk, allowing it to cool from the run. Looking around, she could not find either the Peacemaker or her daughter. Tamping down the urge to panic, she guided the horse back toward her cottage, looking ahead as she rode. When she saw them standing at the edge of the trees, she slowed the horse to a walk and approached them slowly. Once more Ciara surprised her by waiting at Sir Duncans side and not running up to the horse.
Her cheeks held color now, whether from exhilaration or the pleasure of the ride, he knew not. Duncan watched as she changed before his eyes, from a vibrant young woman who obviously enjoyed riding to someone much older and more staid. As she wrapped the kerchief back over her hair and tied it, Mara became a different person.
Hed only seen glimpses of it before and those had heightened his curiosity about the woman. Ranald would give no more information about her than that she was a widowed cousin of the lairds, recently returned to live there with her daughter. His reticence gave Duncan pause and now, after watching this, he knew there was much, much more going on here.
Mara tugged the horse to stop and he walked over to help her down. Her waist was slight in his hands, narrower than her clothing gave the appearance it would be. He guided her to her feet and would have let go, but she stumbled and he grabbed her to keep her from falling. This time, his hands did not land on her waist, but higher, where he could feel the fullness of her breasts.
Breasts she hid from the rest.
Breasts that would fill his hands, if he but moved them a wee bit higher.
His body shivered then and he grew hard at the feel of her womanly curves in his grasp. Mara stilled in his hold and he knew that she felt the growing hardness positioned between them. In that instant, an awareness of her as a woman took hold of him that shocked him in its simplicity. Hed been intrigued by her, amused by and interested in many things about her. But, now, on a more visceral, more primitive level, he was aroused by her.
It may have only been a moment, but it stretched on for a piece of forever, broken only when the girls voice called his name. Releasing her from his hold, Duncan stepped away from Mara and turned to her daughter.
Mama, look what Sir Duncan gave me! Ciara squealed. Holding her hand out, she showed her mother the horse that Tavis had carved at his request.
What is this? Marian asked. Her gaze met his and he saw a myriad of questions in it. Then she took the horse from Ciara and examined it.
The sight of her fingers following the smooth curves of the wood sent alternating waves of heat and ice through his body now, which seemed to recognize the pleasure that would be gained if such a caress slid over it instead of the wood. Duncan inhaled sharply trying to break the growing spell that surrounded him now.
One of my men makes them for his wee sisters and brothers. I thought Ciara might like one, he offered.
You are kind, sir, but we cannot accept this.
Her eyes hardened in that moment and she shook her head. Ciara gasped and then reached out for the toy.
Mama! she cried. Please!
He tried to figure out what had happened and how this innocent gesture had gone wrong. Then the truth struck him. A gift given to a woman who lived without the protection of a man meant one thing.
It is only a small toy for the child, Mara. I meant no disrespect by it, he explained in a low voice. He neither wished to make the situation worse, nor did he wish to undermine her authority in her daughters eyes.
Mara looked at her daughter for a moment and relented. She handed the toy back to Ciara and motioned with a tilt of her head.
Thank you, Sir Duncan! Ciara chirped. Thank you!
Before he could answer, Mara interrupted. Ciara, take the horse in and let it meet your other toys.
Ciara laughed aloud and left them both, as she skipped back to the cottage and her other toys, intent on introducing a new plaything to the existing ones. He watched her path for a few seconds before turning back to face her mother.
After the physical reaction his body had shown to her nearness, Duncan suspected that his gift had not been all that respectful. Not the carved toy, but the chance to ride his horse.
Hed read her desire to ride free of his presence and even that of her daughter in her face whenever she glanced at his horse. It was like seeing a secret past flitting over her features, moments and memories of pleasure and happiness now held deep inside and only let loose when she thought no one saw or recognized them.
But he had.
His years of reading expressions during negotiations and interpreting them, ascertaining weaknesses and strengths, had not stopped simply because she was a woman and not involved in the meetings. Hed seen the desire and the aching want there on her face, in her eyes, and allowing her that short pleasure seemed an easy thing.
But his body had interpreted the basic, raw part of the offer and she had, too. In spite of his inability to see it, both gifts came with an expectation. He should apologize. Twas the right thing to do. But the awareness between them made it difficult to deny its existence.
Mara, he began, but she stopped him with a shake of her head.
Sir Duncan, she said quietly, let me be candid with you. I returned here with the lairds permission and have tried to lead a circumspect life with my daughter.
He thought her choice of words strange, especially since she sounded much more educated than a poor widow living on the lairds beneficence. But he waited for more.
You are an honored guest of the lairds and I would not offer insult or be inhospitable to you or in any way threaten the success of your work here, but
She glanced at him and then away, taking in and letting out a deep breath, as though fortifying herself for the rest of it. Still he waited.
But your presence here and your attentions to me and my daughter, regardless of your intentions, can bring only problems to us all.
Well, at least shed allowed that his intentions might be simply innocent ones. Practicing the patience he was known for, Duncan let the silence go on, knowing she had more to say. It was her touch, her hand placed on his arm, that nearly undid his control.
There can be nothing more between us, sir. If you seek only a fleeting amusement, there are others in the village who would gladly provide it to such a man as you. She paused then for another breath. And I know that you cannot seek more than that, for your duties to your clan and your laird will call for your return and you will be gone from these lands. And a woman like me has nothing to offer you.
Part of him wanted to argue each point with her. He did not seek only amusements of the flesh. His actions did not ask for that. He would not simply engage her in something meaningless and then return to Lairig Dubh and she insulted him with such an accusation. However, his pride stung with the truth of her words and he took a moment to think a bit before speaking.
I did not mean to insult you, mistress, he began, as he stepped back and added some space between them. Her hand dropped from his arm, but the heat of the touch still pulsed through his skin. In all candor, I did not think of the consequences of my visits to you or my gift to your daughter. Since I have no wish to cause trouble for either of you, I will not seek your company again.
Duncan turned to leave, but she stopped himagain with her hand on his arm. Facing her, he now read fear in her expression. And he did not like it.
Your pardon, sir, for my boldness. I did not mean to insult you or your kindness to my daughter, Mara said, bowing her head in a gesture of submission that did not fit her and that he wanted not to ever see her perform.
He knew as she did, that she would not, indeed, could not refuse him any request he made. Duncan had the lairds welcome and they both knew it extended to anything or anyone in the lairds control. And that meant her. If hed wanted her in his bed, naked and there for his pleasure, she would be there with the lairds blessing.
That was one thing he would never do. One limitation he had set for himself early on in his experience. He did not use women for his comfort no matter that he could. Reaching over he lifted her chin with his fingers and waited for her to meet his gaze.
You have nothing to fear from me, mistress. Truly. I take my leave of you and hope you will give my farewells to your daughter.
He offered a slight bow and turned away then, even as so many unspoken words entered his thoughts. Some of them would explain his actions, some would simply muddy the waters between them now. Duncan listened as he walked to his horse and mounted it, hoping deep inside that she would call him back.
But she did not.
The pragmatic man within whod never before been distracted from his duties understood and accepted her actions for what they werethe sensible thing to do for both of them.
Marian watched him leave before returning to her own duties that waited inside the cottage. Dinner, some mending and sewing, taking care of Ciara and more. The strength drained from her and she struggled to complete even the simplest of tasks. Ciara seemed to know she was out-of-sorts and did not press her for too many songs or stories before sliding under the blankets on her pallet and into the sleep of the innocent.
But sleep did not come to Marian.
She tossed and turned, feeling every bump in the pallet beneath her. Deep in her heart, grief and anger grew until she could no longer deny that it raged within. The only warning was the burning in her throat and eyes before the tears began pouring out. Marian tugged the end of the blanket up and held it against her mouth to capture any noise that might wake Ciara.
Once the grief was loosed, it would not go quietly back under control. The years of loneliness, the ongoing humiliation, the loss of family and friends broke through and she sobbed at the pain. The worst of it were the feelings that this stranger had caused, feelings that could never be part of her life. Desires and yearnings for a life of her own, buried these last five years, now tore free. For a husband and children.
Some minutes later, when the tempest calmed, Marian turned over and looked at the one thing that had made it all worthwhile. Ciara was the one joy in her life and made every moment of suffering and every lost possibility bearable. Reaching over to smooth her daughters hair away from her face, she knew she would bear this sorrow as well.
Iain nodded to the villager to come forward. Leaning over he listened to the mans words and then sent him on his way with another nod. Turning to his steward, Iain grinned with the smile of the vindicated.
So, his interest in my sister grows then, he commented.
Aye, Struan answered. Do you think tis wise not to interfere?
The MacLeries man has done nothing that needs my intervention, Struan. At least not yet. And especially since not many know she is my sister.
Struan bowed and moved away, leaving Iain alone. Glancing around the room at the others present, he realized that so much had changed since that terrible night five years before. His brothers had grown, he had inherited the clan leadership from his father and had instituted many changes that were beneficial to them. These negotiations were only one of them.
Still, the guilt that Marian carried the burden of his own actions had weighed on him lately. Hed allowed her to return, hoping that a solution would come to him about her future. None had until just these last days.
The Peacemakers interest in her was intriguing. He was not known to turn his attentions from his work while negotiating. He did not seek out the company of women while traveling on his lairds business. So, the turning of his attentions to any woman was remarkable. That the woman was Iains own sister made it even more so.
Iain drank deeply from his cup and thought on the possibilities. A few hours later, as the fire in the hearth burned down to only embers and the chamber emptied around him, he still sat deep in thought.
Chapter Five
Duncan listened but could not believe the words he heard. The Robertsons man had just relinquished his objections to a primary clause in their treaty and given in to Connors demands on several other issues as well. Theyd made more progress in hours than they had in the days since their arrival there. And if there was a reason, Duncan could see it not.
Still, he found himself pleased by the concessions made so far and he felt the temptation to continue to press for more. If the Robertson was feeling generous, why ever not? When Hamish nodded at him, Duncan knew his friend noticed the same thing.
and I have ordered a feast for tomorrow eve to mark our progress, Iain finished.
A feast? Pardon my inattention, Iain. A feast on the morrow? he repeated.
Aye. Many of my people have voiced an interest in meeting the MacLeries emissary and his men, so I thought a feast would give them that opportunity.
Something in this offer made Duncan prickle with unease. Truly, Iain, though I, and my men, appreciate this sign of friendship, this will distract us from our purpose. He turned and looked at the others in the chamber. Mayhap we should finish our work and celebrate the results then?
Iain walked to his side and put his arm on Duncans shoulder. I assure you I will not be dissuaded from my purpose in this. We are a few measures from completing the agreements and may even be done by tomorrow eve.
Duncan recognized defeat, but he also kenned when and when not to argue with a powerful man. With a nod, he acquiesced to the plans.
Dinna worry so, Duncan, Iain said as he stepped away and waved his steward out of the chambers. I will leave you all to your task and you will not be bothered by the preparations.
But Duncan did worry. He was fighting a battle within himself to keep his own thoughts and attentions on the dozen or so clauses yet to be agreed to and off the woman whose mournful eyes plagued him even now. Hamish approached and he leaned close to hear his words.
Do ye have some fear or concern over this feast that I should ken aboot, Duncan? Something I should be taking a look at?
Duncan brought a parchment up in front of them as though pointing something out to his man, but truly to cover their words. Tis not his words, but something in his manner, that is amiss. I cannot give you an exact thing, but
Hamish nodded. I get yer meaning. But Ive sensed nothing from him that I wouldnahe is nervous aboot the treaty, but no more than I would expect.
Be alert, Hamish.
Duncan lowered the parchment back to the table and sat in his chair. Well, sirs, shall we proceed then and hopefully finish our business in time for the lairds feast?
There was a certain amiable air in the chamber as they worked through the rest of the day. Duncan chose to eat in the solar and organize his thoughts and strategies for what he believed would be the final day of negotiating with the Robertsons. Although most issues were resolved, a few important ones remained to discuss.
As was his practice, he walked through his concerns one by one in his thoughts until he was clear on his path. What surprised him, though, was what, or who, waited there in the silence as he cleared his path of actions for the morrow.
Mara filled his thoughts then and through the night and the next day. Unlike any other woman hed encountered, she presented more questions than she answered. The flush in her cheeks as she rode his horse toward him aroused him more than any woman had inmonths. The way she humbled herself to beg him, nay there was no doubt she begged, to turn his attentions elsewhere and spare her and her daughter from any scandal. The false face she presented to the world intrigued him rather than angering him. Mara was a riddle, a puzzle full of twists and turns and unexpected secrets, that called to him.
And he excelled at solving riddles and puzzles.
That thought tugged at him the next day as the keep and village bustled around him, preparing for the feast ordered by its laird. Duncan worked by rote through his tasks, and as he suspected, the final clause stayed just out of reach through the day. They would need to meet on the morrow and finish. Within a sennight, they could all be home in Lairig Dubh.
Now, seated in a place of honor next to Iain, Duncan cast a glance across the crowded hall looking for the one person hed like most to speak with. Deep inside, hed known she would not attend, but his damned heart had held on to a spark of hope. Twould most likely be the last time hed see her and to see her smile and possibly to share a dance would have been a good thing.
He noticed that his men were seated in different parts of the hall, each one involved in some measure of flirting or enjoying some womans company and Duncan suspected that his men would be sleeping outside the keep this night. Even Hamish conversed with a woman, though Duncan kenned that Hamish would never stray from his faithfulness to his Margaret. Since all the women seemed to be offering their companionship freely, he had no problems with whoever among his men wanted to accept that.
He drank deeply from the cup in his hand and shook his head. Mayhap that was exactly what he needed tonight? His journey all over Scotland this summer had been long, the negotiations tenuous at times and lengthier than hed expected, and a night wrapped around a willing and welcoming lass would not be the worst thing he could do.
Are you looking for someone, Duncan? Iain asked as he motioned for a servant to fill his cup once more. Try this mead, one of the villagers makes it and it is the smoothest brew I have ever tasted.
One mouthful proved Iains words true, but Duncan took another to avoid answering the question. It worked for only a few seconds.
Do you seek someone?
This time Iains voice was pitched lower and seemed to coax a reply from him he did not want to give. But it was there, in his thoughts.
Mara was not there tonight.
Hed searched through the crowd, looking from face to face and she was not there. Something flashed through himdisappointment? Lust? Longing? It must have been written on his face for Iain leaned in closer and spoke.
I would not have the man upon whose favor the success of our negotiations rests to be unhappy hereor to have any need go unmet, Duncan. Speak her name or say what you need and I will order it done.
Some insane desire sparked within him at that moment. He wanted to call out her name, call her to him and demand what he wanted from her. The thought of bedding her, peeling off her garments to see what truly lay beneath them and making her blush with the same pleasure that riding his horse had given her was one thing. And the urge to say it and demand it grew so strong, he drank another mouthful of the tasty brew to keep the words from flowing out.
He heard Hamish cough then and knew it for their signal, but his head swam now with thoughts and desires of Mara and the warmth brought by the mead. And again Iain plagued him.
Well, Peacemaker, what say you? Is there someone that you fancy? Someone I can call to your chambers to offer you a night of pleasure? There are many who would be willing.
Duncans body responded to the words and the offer. His cock hardened as it had when he held Mara in his arms and hed noticed her ample breasts almost in his hands. That part of him had no indecision in itit was ready and able for her touch and her taking. All he had to do was speak her name.
speak her name, Iain urged temptingly in a whisper.
He shook his head, grasping the now-empty cup as he fought the battle within. A servant reached over his shoulder and filled the cup. Heat poured through him, but he tossed the mead down and watched as the room swayed before him.
Mara was not here. Mara was the name he wanted to scream.
Marahad begged him not to.
He knew he could drink all night and not be affected, but this felt different. The villagers seem to melt together as they moved to the music that swirled around him. Tavis waved to him, but Duncan found that his hand did not move fast enough and Tavis had already moved past him when he did raise it.
Waves of heat surrounded him and he knew he needed to get out into the cool night air. Duncan tried to make his legs move, but they would not. The only part of him moving was the hardness between his legs, for it pulsed and throbbed and reminded him of what he really wanted this night.
Mara.
Pushing the hair back from his face, he leaned away from Iain who seemed not to notice the heat at all. Though he moved slowly, Iains face twisted and smeared into something not quite a face at all. But his voice never stopped echoing through Duncans head.
You have but to speak her name and it will be so.
Speak her name.
Her name
Duncan stood then, fighting the words, fighting the heat, fighting the urges that grew and filled him and threatened to explode. His stomach tumbled inside and he felt the need to empty itand soon. Searching for the door that would lead him out of the hall and the keep, Duncan found, not Hamish, but Iain at his side.
Come, friend. You look to need some air, he said, while guiding his steps down from the dais, through the celebrating crowds, along the corridor and out through the door.
The cool night breezes gave him some ease, but did not clear his head as hed hoped. And the growing desire to touch Mara did not lessen, either. He cared not where their path led, so he allowed Iain to guide his steps away from the keep and into the quiet of the village. In a moment or some while later, they stopped.
She did not come tonight, Iain said.
Duncan looked up and realized they stood before Maras cottage. No light shone in the window and no sounds could be heard.
She knew you favored her, yet she did not come as commanded, the laird said. She was told you wished for her presence at the feast, but she spurned you.
Something was not right here. Part of him, the logical, calm part he relied on, was being pushed back and held at bay by some wild madness within him. His chest hurt and his breathing labored, his muscles trembled and his desire raged stronger by the moment. And the object of that desire lay just behind the door of this cottage.
Mara is her name, Duncan. Say her name.
Duncan took a step toward the cottage and felt her name on his lips. He just wanted to see her, to hear his name on her lips, to understand the strange and powerful feelings surging through him about her. Looking around, he found himself alone, standing just yards now from her door. The moonlight poured through the trees, dappling the ground at his feet and even the patterns seemed to urge his feet forward. The wind moved through the leaves and once more the voice whispered.
Just say her name.
Unable to resist it any longer, her name poured out of him into the dark of the night.
Marian sat up at the sound. More like an animal bellowing in pain than a man speaking, she drew the blankets up around and over Ciara before climbing from the pallet and going to the door. Checking the bar, she knew the door was secure against most dangers, but what lurked outside this night? Grabbing her cloak from a hook, she wrapped it around her shoulders and peered into the darkness through the small, high window.
The light of the nearly full moon made much in the area around her cottage visible to her, but she did not need light to recognize his voice when he spoke. The MacLeries man.
Mara! he called again, leaning over with his hands on his knees.
Sweet Jesus! He would wake not only Ciara but the entire village if he continued bellowing like a wounded bear. Deciding to take a chance that she could quiet him better face-to-face, she slid the bar up and set it aside. Lifting the latch, she opened the door a bit so she could speak to him.
Sir Duncan, she whispered. My daughter sleeps within. Marian stepped out and tugged the door closed behind her. As does the rest of the village. Can we not speak of what concerns you in the morn?
He stood up then, rising to his full height that made him tower over her and he strode directly to her. More than anything, she wanted to scamper back in the cottage, close the door, drop the bar and gain any protection that the croft could offer, and she did try. But, he moved too quickly. He blocked the door with his foot, making it impossible for her to close it. His hand slid up the edge of the door, making any thought of keeping him out a hopeless one.
Please, my daughter she began in a whisper. Glancing at the pallet and seeing no movement there, she stepped forward to block his view into her home.
I need to see you, Mara, he said in a low, gruff voice. Come out, so I can see you.
He stuttered his words and Marian suspected he was in his cups, but that did not make him less dangerous. But, her choice was clearher safety or her daughtersso she released her hold on the door and stepped away. His gaze was hot as it passed over her, from her head to the toes that peeked out from beneath the bottom of her chemise. She tugged her cloak closer around her and walked outside.
Marian could see him out of the corner of her eye and she watched as his hands curled and relaxed, curled and relaxed and then again. He allowed her to walk past him and then he followed where she ledaway from where her daughter could see or hear them. She suspected how this would end and she did not want Ciara to witness it. When she reached a small clearing in the trees next to the path, she stopped and turned to face him.
His eyes were wild, but there was a sadness and longing deep inside them that made her heart hurt. Her chest tightened and she found it difficult to take in a breath as she waited for him to do something. When his touch came, the tenderness of it was the true surprise. With only the tip of his finger, he traced the edge of her chin and then her mouth. His hand shook as he did it and her body began to tremble beneath his touch.
You did not come, he said.
I could not.
I wanted you there. I wanted to see you, he whispered, closer now, close enough for her to feel his breath on her face. Then he kissed her neck and the heat of his mouth sent chills through her. Still, she dared not move. I wanted to taste you.
He lifted her face to his and leaned down until his lips met hers. It was only a moment before the kiss changed from tender to possessive and she lost the ability to think or to move. Now, heat raced through her and centered itself in that place deep inside. He guided her face to one side and she felt his tongue pressing against her lips. Opening her mouth to him, Marian discovered that her limbs lost the ability to support her and she leaned toward him.
When hed called out her name and told her to come out, shed been completely prepared to fight or reason him away. Now, though, she was not so certain. He slid his arms around her, touching her stomach, her thighs and then her breasts as he did. Instead of giving her the strength to resist, the caresses excited her, making the place between her legs throb in some unrecognizable way.
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An alliance dangerous and irresistible. . .Marian Robertson rescued a child and destroyed her reputation. Now, to keep her family safe, she must marry the stern, dark-eyed warrior negotiating a truce between their clans ; and risk her heart to protect the truth.Manipulated into marrying the exiled Robertson Harlot', Duncan, peacemaker for the MacLerie clan, finds his new wife's courage and spirit make it impossible to resist her. But will he put his honour at stake to free her from her past ; and claim her love for ever?'Expertly laced with danger and sweetened with sensuality. ' ; Booklist on TAMING THE HIGHLANDER
You did not come, he said.
I could not.
I wanted you there. I wanted to see you, Duncan whispered, close enough for Marian to feel his breath on her face. Then he kissed her neck, the heat of his mouth sending chills through her. Still she dared not move. I wanted to taste you.
He leaned down until his lips met hers. It was only a moment before the kiss changed from tender to possessive and she lost the ability to think or to move. Heat raced through her and centred itself in that place deep inside. Soon Marian discovered that her limbs had lost the ability to support her and she leaned towards him.
Shed been completely prepared to fight him away. Now she was not so certain. He slid his arms around her, touching her stomach, then her breasts. The caresses excited her, making her shiver.
Was this passion, then? Was this what made men lose their minds and what brought clans to war?
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Terri Brisbin is wife to one, mother of three, and dental hygienist to hundreds when not living the life of a glamorous romance author. She was born, raised and is still living in the southern New Jersey suburbs. Teris love of history led her to write time-travel romances and historical romances set in Scotland and England. Readers are invited to visit her website for more information at www.terribrisbin.com, or contact her at PO Box 41, Berlin, NJ 08009-0041, USA.
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Id like to dedicate this book to my friend Mo Boylan.
She was one of my first fans when my first book
came out in 1998 and she remains my friend now!
To over 10 years of friendship! Thanks, Mo, for all
your support and help and for having fun with me, too!
Many thanks go out to my writing colleague
Jennifer Wagner for her willingness to listen
as I rambled on and on about Duncan and Marian
and their dilemmasand for her help in
making it all make sense! Thanks, Jen!
Chapter One
Tis said that her breasts fill a mans hand with their creamy fullness.
Or his mouth! another in the back shouted.
I heard the tale that her legs can circle a mans girth and pull him into heavens very grasp. This from the youngest of the group. And her hair falls in raven waves down her back. Duncan swore he could hear an almost wistful longing in the voice of a boy on the verge of manhood.
Nay, tis the palest of blond hair, called out another.
I heard as red asHamishs! said Tavis.
They laughed at that bit of overblown if confused imagery, but the chuckling quieted quickly and Duncan realized they were all thinking the same thing.
Aye, laddie, Hamish called out then as he tossed his head, making his dark red hair flow down his back. And I heard the tale that her hair was all that covered the lasss charms when she were caught by her da, the old laird, wi two men or mayhap three in her bed.
Duncan was tempted to warn them off, but Hamish began singing just then. It was a quick little tune that was familiar to all of them, but Hamish changed a few of the words and turned it into something bawdy about the sexual delights offered by the woman in the Robertson clan called the Harlot as well as her various physical attributes. Duncan let a few more minutes of merriment to go by before he finally intervened.
Tis one thing to say such things among ourselves, but talk like that could ruin all my efforts to negotiate with the girls brother, he said, meeting the gaze of each one in turn. Discretion is one of my important tools and I expect that you will guard your tongues. She is ruined and she was exiled. There is nothing else to say of her.
The men behind him grumbled under their breaths, but he knew they would follow his orders. Hed chosen them for that very reasonhe needed to know he could count on their obedience during the possibly contentious negotiations that he faced. One wrong word, one wrong act, one untoward glance even and the months of preparation and preliminary work would be undone.
The sun broke through the clouds just as the men reached the point in the path where they could look across the valley to the beginning of Robertson lands. Lands that spread for miles from here in the Grampian Mountains out to Perth near the eastern coast of Scotland. Lands that held villages, acres of thick forests, well-stocked rivers, rich farmland and rolling mountains. And thousands of fighting men who had stood at Robert the Bruces back decades before.
Aye, the Robertsons were well-stocked and wellarmed and that simply added to the appeal of the proposed alliance. For a moment, Duncan shielded his eyes from the sun and searched across the valley for the road leading to the keep.
You can make camp here and wait for my return, Duncan said as he turned to face them. It should take no more than three days.
He just wants the Harlot to himself, Donald said, with a laugh.
Duncan could not stifle the curse that burst out of his mouth. The men nodded in acceptance of this new warning, except for Hamish. Damn him, he simply winked. Hamish knew too much of Duncans recent dissatisfaction with life and with women to not make some comment, but he wisely left it at the wink.
At midday three days hence ride to the western edge of the village and meet me, Duncan said as he turned his horse and began down the path to the village in the distance.
His men knew their duties and he did not doubt that they would have a small, unnoticeable camp set up by dark. And he would be well on his way to meet the man from the Robertson clan who provided him with details and news not easily found about the clan and their new laird.
The old lairds passing two years before had been the opening he needed to begin negotiations. But, it had not been without hard work, determination and the complete support of Connor MacLerie. As Duncan passed through a thick copse of trees, he followed the path of a stream as it moved downhill and onto Robertson lands. From the maps hed studied, he knew that he would reach a village in another two or so hours of riding.
As he rode, he reviewed his plans, his questions for Ranald, and the provisions of the treaty he carried for his laird. Contingency plans and alternate demands were already prepared, for Duncan believed and had learned through experience that triumph came from planning and thorough preparation and left nothing to chance.
Planning and preparation were the keys to a successful campaign of any kind whether it be an alliance or a war. And since everyone knew that the relationship between the clans could go from alliance to war in moments over nothing more than a word spoken wrongly, hed spent the last months readying himself for this series of meetings.
The land leveled out before him, but the trees stayed thick, blocking most of the sunlight where he rode. Watching for the place where the stream split and each branch curved away, one making a path to the stilldistant keep and one flowing farther down and off toward the east, Duncan knew he was approaching the meeting place outside the village. When the low stone bridge came into sight, he slowed his horse to a walk and approached it slowly and quietly.
By the look of it, hed arrived a bit earlier than planned, so after he watered the horse, he took the skin of ale from his bag and drank deeply. Seeing a small break in the trees, he dismounted and walked his horse there. Searching inside the bag for his supplies, he found the wrapped piece of cheese and hard crust of bread hed brought along. Ranald would see him wellfed, so this would be enough to keep his stomach from growling until then.
A short while passed and Duncan found himself on edge, the importance of these talks no doubt the reason for it. Leaving his horse tethered in the small clearing, he strode toward the bridge to see if he could catch sight of Ranald. Without crossing, he searched along the path that led toward the village for any sign of him.
None.
Twas not like Ranald to be late or to miss a meeting. Duncan decided to give the man some time before leaving and returning to his men since he could not travel on to the Robertsons keep without them. Pacing near the bridge, just out of sight of the path, he waited. The only sounds he heard were those of the forest creatures and a few birds flying overheadand the sound of his jaws and teeth as he ground them.
No matter his reputation for a boundless supply of patience when in the midst of difficult negotiations, Duncan was, in reality, a man with little of it. And, as the time passed slowly, that fact was made new to him. The scream, when it came, seemed so out of place as to be in his imagination.
Tilting his head and listening intently so as to discover the screams origin, Duncan turned around and waited for only a moment before another one came. This one was not as loud, but he was able to locate it and began to trot over the bridge toward the sound. Turning off the path, he pushed through the trees and found himself behind a small stone cottage. Listening as he made his way to one side, Duncan crept to the corner and looked around it toward the front of the building.
Never expecting the need for it, Duncan realized his sword remained on his horse, so he reached down and drew forth his dagger. More a short sword than a knife, Duncan relied on it many times and in many scrapes and trouble. He took a quick step away from the cottage and used a huge tree a pace away as cover to find the trouble.
And there it wasa woman struggling in the arms of a man who was much taller and stronger than she.
Duncan took a moment to assess the situation and realized that the woman did not appear to be in imminent danger, but she certainly was not welcoming such an embrace. Her kerchief loosened as she fought off the mans hold and fell to the ground revealing a wealth of brown hair, but now he noticed she did not scream. Actually, as he observed them, he noticed that she purposely turned them so that the man faced the path and not the cottage.
A sound drew his attention then and, as he looked at the side of the cottage, he met the gaze of a small child. A young girl, who could have been no more than five years and who had the palest blond hair hed seen, peered out of the small window. He read the fear in her wide eyes and trembling mouth and tried to allay it by smiling slightly and raising his finger to his own lips to warn her to stay quiet.
Now he understood why the woman turned the mans attention from the cottageto protect the child within. Duncan stood up and stepped out from the shadows. He cleared his throat loudly and waited for the man to acknowledge him. It took only a moment and the man took pains to position the woman between them, even as she pivoted to turn from the front of the cottage.
Twould seem the lady wishes not for your attentions, Duncan said quietly. Leave her in peace now. The man stopped at his warning but did not release her.
I think ye should no meddle in whats no yers to hiv a concern aboot, the man called back to him, dragging her a few steps back to separate them more.
Watching the woman, he noticed that she seemed more disgruntled than fearful. A calm look of purpose filled her face and, although she did not relax in the mans hold, neither did she now struggle as before. She whispered something only the man could hear as though warning the man of something.
Release her and go on your way, he repeated, this time moving his dagger between them to show he was armed.
This was the last thing he needed now and especially when negotiations were tentative. He would not hesitate to protect the woman if necessary, but it would raise questions about his private presence here without knowledge of the laird. Duncan hoped the man would simply believe he would not hesitate to use the weapon and hoped he would not be forced to. Release her.
Although he looked ready to offer argument, the man dropped his arms and pushed her away from him. Without a backward glance, he ran down the narrow path and into the woods.
Duncan stepped forward to catch the stumbling woman who regained her balance before he could help. She grabbed her kerchief from the ground, shook it out quickly and efficiently wrapped it around her hair before turning to face him. Her glance at his dagger reminded him he still held his weapon at the ready. He sheathed it and then took a closer look at the woman before him.
She would reach only as high as his chest, if she were close enough, and was younger than he thought. Her clothing made her appear older and widerat first glance. Duncan knew her hair was long and a muddy shade of brown. Her eyes were the feature that most impressed him, both with their clear intelligent gaze and their deep icy-blue color.
But it was her mouth that distracted him from his purpose. Full pale red lips that she now licked with the tip of her tongue.
I thank you for your help, sir. He was more nuisance than danger, she offered, without moving toward him. Once more he noticed that she positioned herself away from the cottage.
Like any good mother would, drawing the danger from her daughter to herself.
Your scream said otherwise, mistress He waited for her to explain.
Laren surprised me, tis all. She nodded to the path and then looked at him. You are not from the village. The woman searched the area around her cottage and then looked down at the path. What would bring you to my door?
I am a visitor, mistress, he answered calmly. Twas the truth of the matter so why not use it?
Then, surely your business lies elsewhere?
Her words were clearly a dismissal, but from the expression in her eyes, Duncan knew shed only just realized that she could have exchanged the so-called nuisance for something truly dangerousif his intent had been such as that. But, his intent should have been to avoid identification by any of the Robertsons before his official arrival at their keep.
And, now that you are safe, I will take my leave, mistress. You can see to your daughter without fear, he reassured her as he turned away. But not before she gasped at his words and took a few steps to put herself between him and the cottage now. She waits for you inside. I but saw her at the cottage window as I passed, he explained. I will make certain that Laren has gone before continuing on my journey.
He watched as she ran inside the cottage and heard the bar drop behind the door a moment later. A stout bar from the sturdy sound of it. Duncan searched the area around her cottage to convince himself that the man had left before retracing his steps back to the main path and the bridge. Crossing the stream, he went down the road to check his horse and his belongings before returning to wait for Ranald at their prearranged place.
But in those next minutes before his friend appeared, his thoughts were filled not with alliances and treaties, but with the image of one woman who tried very hard not to let her true appearance show through.
And he knew not even her name.
Marian cursed herself a fool as she tried to catch her breath. In spite of her attempts to remain calm, her heart raced and her chest hurt from the fear. Not of Laren, who truly was more a nuisance than a danger, but of the stranger whod stepped in to save her from harm. Before she could think on his dark gaze and tall stature, a small voice cried out to her.
Mama! her daughter cried before running into her skirts and wrapping her small arms around her legs. Mama The words drifted off and were replaced by sobs.
Ciara, my sweet, she soothed, peeling her daughter loose and pulling her into her arms. We are well, my love, she whispered, smoothing the pale hair back and out of her eyes. Marian sat down, arranged Ciara on her lap and rocked her until she stopped crying.
When Laren surprised her while she worked in her garden, Marian had ordered Ciara inside. They had practiced such a thing from the time theyd returned to Dunalastair from her fathers distant holdings in the south. Living apart from her family, alone without the protection of a husband or father, could present dangers of a sort she wished to avoid. Even if most had not realized who she was, a woman alone with a child could be a dangerous thing to be.
Ciara knew to run into the cottage and hide next to the cupboard, if need be. Marian had always prayed it would not be necessary, but today had shown her she could probably not escape her past. Ciara quieted in her arms and Marian loosened her hold just a bit. Kissing her on the head, she whispered to her of her love and her pride that Ciara had followed her instructions. So, her daughters words came as a surprise and reminded her of that which she was trying to avoid thinking onthe stranger who had come to her aid.
Mama, who was the man? Ciara asked, rubbing her eyes and lifting her head from Marians chest. Is he gone?
That was Laren, my sweet, and yes he is gone. He will not bother us again, I think, she said, trying to reassure the child.
Not him, Mama. The nice one who smiled at me.
Marian lost her words, for she would not have thought the man who stepped forward to help her could smile or be nice. His face was filled with stern, angry eyes and chiseled, masculine angles that had no softness and certainly no smiles. With his huge dagger drawn and dark expression she feared she would be his target once hed disposed of Laren. Hed stood taller than even her older brother Iain and was broader in the shoulders than even Ranald the blacksmith here in the village. A shiver raced through her.
Formidable might be a more accurate way to describe him.
Yet, even at the moment when she knew he was aware of her fear, she did not feel in danger. His sheer physical presence overwhelmed her, but not a sense that he would attack her. Twas obvious that her daughter was simply having the fanciful thoughts that young children seemed to have at times.
I dinna ken him, she whispered to Ciara, whose head began to drop against her.
Growing fast, but still a bairn in so many ways, her daughter still napped most days. Now that the excitement was past, Ciara began sliding into sleep in her arms. Marian gathered her back close and hummed a soft tune to guide her way to sleep. A few minutes later, she carried her to the bed and laid her on it. After watching Ciara settle in and covering her with a woolen blanket, Marian lifted the bar on the door and went back outside to make certain no one was there.
The late summer breezes moved through the trees, but there was a hint of something cooler in the air. In just a few weeks, the clan would prepare to harvest most of the crops theyd planted in the surrounding fields and the drovers would plan which herds would be moved from the hills to winter grazing and which would be slaughtered or sold. Marian looked over at her own garden plot and knew she would be busy picking and drying the herbs she grew for use in the coming winter.
Walking around the perimeter of her small cottage and garden plot, she looked for any signs of incursion, or of the stranger who has walked in and out of her life so quickly. Nothing looked amiss, her garden lay peaceful and no sign of trampling appeared. Marian lifted her head and listened to the sounds of the day as it passed. Birds flew overhead, trees rustled in the wind, clouds floated across the sky, just as they should on this September day.
If not for the racing of her heart and the blood pounding through her veins, even she would have thought it a usual day in Dunalastair. Marian tried to concentrate on those tasks she still needed to complete, but all she could do was think of the stranger who had stepped in to protect her.
All she could see in her mind were his eyesso dark to be almost blackgleaming in anger at Laren and then with intensity at her when he mentioned seeing to her daughter inside the cottage. And it was those expressions along with his strong and masculine stature that now made it difficult to breathe.
For not once had she, the Robertson Harlot, ever found a man to be so intriguing to her. Never had she let down her guard in the last five years and allowed herself to be affected by a man. Twas so much danger in even considering such a lapse in control to occur that it never occurred to her to be on guard against such a thing.
Shed expected the nuisances of men such as Laren, at least once the news of who she really was got out. Her brother would give orders that would frighten away any serious approaches.
But shed never expected the danger to come from such a stranger, and, after looking into his deep, dark eyes, she knew he was more dangerous than any who had come before him and any who would come after. It was the memory of his eyes that plagued her all through the day.
Chapter Two
Duncan spied the bridge as they rode toward it on the road and his stomach tightened. Twas the way of it when he approached a new series of negotiations. His gut was ever his weakness, but his thoughts were clear and focused for now. His two days of visiting and talking with Ranald revealed no surprises that should cause problems with the laird.
Indeed, he discovered that the Robertsons were as strong and well-managed as his reports had said. Word was out now that once this alliance was in place, the laird would seek a new wife from the northern clans to further cement and strengthen their position as the guardians of Scotland. Some worrisome rumors still floated about regarding the new laird some years agowhile his father still livedand, as Duncan knew from his own lairds experience, rumor and innuendo could destroy a reputation quickly. So, a move toward a new marriage, after his first one ended in the death of his wife in childbirth, was a good one on the lairds part.
One of his men called out and Duncan looked at the road ahead of them. A contingent of heavily armed Robertson warriors awaited them on the other side of the bridge. Straightening up on his own mount, he warned his men before going on.
You have your orders and know the importance of what we do here. From here on, report anything untoward to me. Bring your questions to me. Agree to nothing in Connors name.
Do we need yer permission to piss then, too, Duncan? asked Hamish from behind.
Aye, Hamish, een that, he replied without breaking a smile. More importantly, watch your drink and watch out for the lasses. Those two things can cause a man more trouble than almost anything else.
He took their grumbling as assent and nudged his horse forward. Adjusting the tartan and badge on his shoulder, Duncan led the MacLeries over the bridge and into Dunalastair. The Robertsons man greeted them formally and invited them to follow to the entrance of the keep still some distance away and Duncan nodded and accepted the welcome.
It was only as he found himself searching the faces of the villagers whod gathered to watch their arrival that he realized he was looking for her.
Hed carefully controlled the growing curiosity within himself to ask about her when he stayed with Ranald. He did not stray from Ranalds croft or smithy and did not seek out neighbors or villagers in order to remain anonymous. But, the urge to know more about her increased until now he found himself examining the face of everyone who stood watching along the path.
And not finding her.
Cursing himself for not remaining on task, he realized hed slowed his pace while he had gawked. Caelan, the Robertson who led them, turned back to say something, but his gaze moved off to something in the shadows along one of the other paths. Following it, Duncan discovered the woman hed been thinking about and the little girl. They stood back, away from the other villagers, far enough to be out of the way, yet close enough to see what had drawn the Robertson soldiers to the village.
The girl was tucked deeply into her mothers skirts, only her head was visible as she said something to the woman. The woman leaned down and answered the child without ever taking her eyes off Caelan. Glancing back at the lairds younger brother, Duncan noticed the protective gaze and began to wonder if the woman was Caelans leman. Just a few moments after hed found her, she disappeared into the maze of cottages, dismissed by just a nod from Caelan.
If hed forgotten his own instructions, he found himself reminded of them by a very distinctive clearing of the throat by Hamish. The others took it up for only a second, but he knew that his attention to the woman had been noticed by them, too. He quelled the minor rebellion with a glance of his own and then quickened the pace to move along the path faster.
Forcing his thoughts on what awaited them at the keep, Duncan was able to think on numbers of men the clan could call on in battle and the number of cattle the Robertson clan owned and how many meetings and talks faced him in the next few weeks. And he would later pride himself that he only thought about the woman with the pain in her gaze and the lovely child at her feet once during the ride to the keep.
Holy Mother, protect her!
Marian clasped Ciaras hand in hers and practically ran toward her cottage. Making it a game so her daughter would not object, she sang a ditty and counted the stones along the way. The words sounded strange to her, but it was the beating of her heart that almost blocked out every sound around her.
Caelan! Caelan was there!
Shed mistook him for someone else as he rode by the place where she stood, backed enough into the shadows of the surrounding crofts to be unnoticeable to anyone. The noise of the soldiers arrival at the bridge, the excitement of the news of the MacLeries mans entrance into the village and the purpose of his presence all fueled the gossip that swirled through the small village.
Visitors were always of interest, but a man who carried with him the tidings and power of the one still called, though in whispered tones, the Beast of the Highlands, was something that would stir anticipation and storytelling for weeks to come. Curious, Marian had followed some of the women to observe their arrival.
Then, the first shock had hit her.
The man who led the MacLerie soldiers was the stranger whod chased Laren away just three days past! Oh, he was dressed better now, with his clan badge gleaming on the plaid he wore over his shoulder, but she would have recognized that face and those eyes anywhere. Now he had eight warriors at his back as he rode into Dunalastair. He had not seen her yet, so she ducked back a bit, drawing Ciara with her.
Then the second shock of the dayher youngest brother Caelan led the soldiers to the keep. Shed heard he had returned recently but had not seen him anywhere near the village. Her father had sent him off to foster with a cousin near Skye about three years beforebeforebefore everything had happened five years ago. He must have nigh on ten-and-six years now and be almost a man. Iain must have great faith and trust in Caelan to allow him the honor of escorting such a guest into Dunalastair.
Marian reached her cottage and sat down on a stool she kept near the entrance to her garden. Usually a place for her to clean the plants she harvested or the cuttings she culled, she plopped down and tried to calm her racing heart. When Ciara touched her wet cheek and asked why she was sad, Marian realized shed been crying all the way from the road when she first saw Caelan. Wiping the tears with the back of her hand, she took in a deep breath and let out a ragged one before she even tried to speak.
I am not sad, my sweet, she said, pasting on a smile she neither wanted nor felt. Twas simply the excitement of seeing so many horses and men and everyone gathering around.
Did you see the big black horse? Ciara asked. It was the biggest horse I have ever seen!
Marian laughed then, for Ciara loved horses. In spite of not having one at her disposal as she had in her fathers house, shed passed her love of them down to her daughter just by stories and sightings.
He did seem to be the largest one. Marian wiped the last of the moisture off her cheeks and smiled then. I thought brown was your favorite color?
I used to like brown, she answered, her eyes bright with merriment as she talked about something she liked. But I think black is the prettiest now.
Marian paused and realized that there had been only one black horse among all of them, and that had been his horse. The MacLeries man. Now she knew who he was but still had no name for him.
Ciara began to chatter about horses, and that horse, and Marian took up her shovel and began where she had stopped before theyd gone to watch the soldiers cross the bridge. Digging into the dirt, she lost herself in her work and tried not to think about the man on the black horse and what trouble he could bring to her doorstep.
Duncan lifted the satchel of parchment scrolls, charts and sheets from the back of his horse and searched for a certain one before turning back to follow Caelan into the keep where the laird awaited him. Handing the leather bag to Hamish to carry, they walked inside and up the stone steps to the second floor where the corridor led to a large chamber. Those waiting on their arrival milled around the whole of the room, which was about half the size of the one at Lairig Dubh.
Still, it was clean and tapestries depicting folk tales and myths of their countrys past covered the walls. A huge hearth stood at one side and next to it was a dais with a long table that ran its length. In front of the table, at the top of the steps leading to it, sat a huge wooden chair, engraved and carved with symbols, he knew, from the Robertson clan badge. And in it sat Iain the Bold, son of Stout Duncan and now second chief of the Clan Donnachaidh or Robertson as they preferred to be called.
Standing behind him and at his side were the other three remaining sons of Stout DuncanCaelan, Padruig and Graemas well as other clan elders and councillors. With Hamish at his own side and the others behind them, he walked quickly to meet the laird. All conversation stopped as they approached the dais.
Greetings, my lord, he began with a deep bow. I bring regards and a personal message from the MacLerie. Duncan moved closer and held out the scroll.
The Robertson laird stood and walked down the steps instead of summoning him forward. He took the scroll and tucked it inside his shirt and then held out his arm in greeting. Welcome to Dunalastair Keep, Duncan. The lairds grasp was strong and sure as they clasped arms and shook. I offer you and your men the hospitality of my home and hearth as we discuss the future of the alliance between the Robertsons and the MacLeries.
As clapping and cheering exploded throughout the hall at his words, Duncan took a moment to assess the laird. The reports hed received were very close to the reality of the man. The laird was a tall man, nearly as tall as he, and a young man, too, having followed his father into the high chair of the clan at only five-and-twenty years old. Young, yes, but clearly well-liked and secure in his clans backing. Duncan sensed no hesitation or divide among those at the lairds side and had learned of none in his investigations.
A servant came forward with a mug of ale and offered some to his men as well. The Robertson climbed the steps so that he could be seen by all in the hall and raised a cup of his own. Duncan waited, preparing his own words.
I welcome you, Duncan MacLerie, and bid you to be at ease in my hall, my keep and my village. You and your men are welcome to move freely among the Robertsons as the talks commence that will surely make us allies and friends.
Duncan smiled and met Hamishs gaze. No sign of suspicion there, a good omen then, for Hamish had the instincts of a fox in seeking out any sign of subterfuge or dishonesty. The laird came down the steps, leaned over and spoke close to his ear, so he could hear it above the din.
Your reputation is quite well-known here. Duncan the Peacemaker you are called for all the times you have averted war and battle between factions, clans, even countries. I am honored by your presence in this matter.
That was not expected. Duncan nodded his head, accepting the compliment without allowing it to swell his head. He recognized it for the strategy it was. When the cheering quieted, Duncan raised his own mug as did his men.
On behalf of Connor MacLerie, Earl of Douran and chief of the Clan MacLerie, I thank you for your welcome and the hospitality you offer and promise to use all good counsel so that our clans may be united in the bond of friendship and treaty. Raising his cup higher, he called out, A Robertson! A Robertson! His men joined in and then so did everyone else in the hall, which echoed with the chant for several minutes.
The laird smiled and drank deeply of his cup. Waving Duncan onto the dais, he brought him and the others to the long table. Trays and platters of food, breads, cheeses, fruits and cooked meats filled the table and the laird directed them to stools around it. Once they had gained their seats, servants circled the table and the guests, filling cups, serving food and seeing to their needs.
Your journey was a good one, Duncan?
Aye, my lord, he replied, tearing off a piece of bread. The weather held and the winds, when we needed them, were fair and strong.
Did you come directly here from Lairig Dubh?
The question was asked in a convivial tone, but it was a test nonetheless. The Robertsons wanted to know who else he was negotiating with and who their competition was. The truth was the easiest way.
Nay, my lord. We traveled to both Glasgow and Edinburgh on the earls business before heading north to Dunalastair. Duncan caught Hamishs eye as he took a mouthful of ale from his cup.
So you having been traveling since?
Since midsummers day, my lord.
We are friends, or are soon to be friends. Please call me Iain, as those in the clan do, the laird offered.
He passed the test, apparently, for the laird nodded to several of his councillors.
As you wish, Iain, he replied.
Let me make you known to my brothers, the sons of Duncan the Stout. This one you have met he patted the man next to him on the shoulder my youngest brother Caelan. Duncan nodded as Iain continued, He has only just recently returned from his fostering with the MacLeans.
Point takenan established relationship with the powerful MacLean clan of the isles.
Duncan watched Caelan and realized he was much too young to be husband or lover to the woman hed metand he was gone when the child was conceived, if Duncan knew anything about calculations. The little girl was nigh on five which meant she could not be his. Not certain why this was important to him, Duncan turned to the man seated next to him as the laird continued the introductions.
That is my brother Padruig and his betrothed next to him, Iseabail of the MacKendimens.
The MacKendimens were a small, but not inconsequential clan near Dalmally, not far from Lairig Dubh. Another connection made and acknowledged. Duncan the Stout would have been proud of Iains neat handling of showing their strength without ever raising a weapon. With a nod to both of them, Duncan waited for the last brother to be introduced.
And that is Graem, Iain began, with a tilt of his head at the last brother who was seated opposite of Hamish, who has been invited by the Bishop of Dunkeld to take up studies under his tutelage.
And that was the final connectionto one of the most powerful and important bishops in Scotland, giving the clan a link to the Church. The sons of Duncan the Stout were well-established and connected to important clans, big and small, throughout Scotland. And the clan was one of the oldest families in the land, tracing their heritage back to the Celtic lords of Atholl. Their heraldry and position had been announced more effectively than calling the roll of ancestors. Duncan admired the efficiency with which Iain had established their position.
Iain may only have been laird for just over two years, but he was firmly in command and knew his mind. From the expressions of the others seated at the table, they were proud of him as well and would back his efforts and decisions.
Duncan recognized a challenge made and he could feel the blood in his veins begin to pulse in anticipation of a good fight. He relished nothing more than a worthy adversary across the negotiating table and now knew that the next few weeks would test his abilities on every front.
We will begin on the morrow, if that suits you, Duncan? Iain asked.
Aye, tis fine. Duncan was anxious to get into the thick of battle.
My steward will see to your comfort, he said. An older man came forward and stood at Iains side. If there is anything you need, Struan will see to it. Struan bowed and, after asking about their preferences for rooming, left to make the arrangements.
The rest of the meal passed pleasurably, but Duncan discovered he did not even remember what he ate or drank, though the latter was sparsely done. He wanted and needed time to make his final review of the possibilities and their offer before night fell. He could not wait for the thrill of the process. And like a child with a wrapped gift sitting before him, Duncan found that he could not wait for the day to be over and the negotiations to begin.
Duncan would look back, at some time later, and laugh over his misbegotten anticipation and excitement of what was to come. And five days later, in the middle of a heated discussion, and for the first time in all the treaties hed negotiated, Duncan the Peacemaker lost his temper.
Chapter Three
You cannot be serious, Duncan shouted as his fists pounded on the table, scattering documents and scrolls in the wake. You already agreed with that provision nearly two days ago!
He sensed his control slipping and could not pull himself back. Never had he felt as though the very ground beneath him lay coated with oil and his feet could find no purchase. Hamish glared at himagain. The Robertsonss chief negotiator glared again. Even the laird, who usually stood by silently and watched the proceedings, glared. The thing that Duncan did not understand was what had sent him down such a course that resulted in his anger.
I was under the impression, sir, that all matters were still negotiable until the laird signs the final treaty. Is that no longer the way we are proceeding? Symon asked, turning to Iain, again, for confirmation.
Duncan leaned back in his chair and took a deep breath. He gathered and straightened the documents and scrolls hed scattered and decided that what he needed most was a short time away from Symon before his control snapped completely, for he feared Symons neck would be the next thing in the room to snap. Having made the decision, he pushed back from the table, bowed in Iains direction and walked to the door.
The weather has cleared and I feel that a short break now might clear my head. With your permission, Iain?
Without waiting for permission, Duncan pulled open the door, followed the corridor and then the steps down to the lower floor and made his way to the stables. He had spoken the truth, for the last four days had been one torrential rainstorm, complete with winds and lightning that split the sky and rumbled over Dunalastair with fierce power. This morn had dawned clear and crisp as though the storm had raged only in their imaginations. And mayhap it had?
He reached the stables and his horse greeted him with the same snorts and stamping hed just offered to Symon, telling Duncan that they both needed a good run to burn off some of the tension that built within them. Readying the horse himself, it was only a short time before they both raced toward the keeps gate and out through the village. Crossing the bridge, Duncan let the horse have his head for a short time. Using muscles that had been too long unused, Duncan brought the mount under control and laughed as the exertion revived his body and his spirits. A short time and distance later, he turned around and headed back to the keep.
As he rode, he tumbled this morns work over and over in his head, searching for the problem. There had been significant progress and then he felt as though they hit a stone wall. Each word, each provision was contested. Reviewing it brought him no clarity and he continued to assess the strengths and weaknesses in his offer. When next he looked up, he was sitting on the path that led to the womans cottage without any knowledge of how hed gotten there.
He knew he should leave and return to his duties and to the keep where others waited on his return.
He knew he should avoid her for she was like every other distraction that pulled him from his task.
He knew there was nothing remarkable about her, yet something drew him to her and something enticed him to discover more about her.
Duncan shook his head at such nonsensical thoughts. He must be more tired than he thought if he lost his concentration so easily now. Mayhap if he learned her name, her appeal would lessen? Twas a chance that it was the mystery of her that made her attractive to him? Hed nearly talked himself out of staying to speak with her when the door to the cottage opened and the woman came out.
Once more struck by the way she looked from a distance and how differently she appeared up close, he watched as her daughter followed a few moments later and skipped along in her mothers shadow, through a gate and into a garden next to the croft. Their soft and completely feminine laughter floated to him where he sat, still on his horse, in the shadows of the tree-lined path.
Hed watched and listened to Connors wife, Jocelyn, as she played and frolicked with her son and, more recently, her daughter and his heart did the same thing now as then. He felt as though a fist wrapped around it and tightened. With each soft peal of laughter or each word spoken in love and encouragement, the grasp grew tighter and tighter in his chest. A longing so strong he could not breathe filled his heart and soul.
His horse must have sensed the tension, for it began to shift and become skittish beneath him. When he gathered the reins to try to calm it, he dropped one and cursed at his stupidity. Sliding from his seat, he collected the reins and prepared to mount again when he noticed the silence around him. Glancing toward the garden, he did not hear the two any longer. Had they seen him and gone inside?
Twould be untoward for him to deliberately approach the woman, so he decided it was time to leave. Duncan chose to walk the horse back to the keep and he was just about to when he saw the blond little head peek over the stone wall that surrounded the garden. He could not help the smile that tugged at the corners of his mouth. Some whispering followed and then he spied her pale hair again. Finally he settled on a new approach, damn it all.
Good day, he called out, as he hobbled the horse near the path.
Silence followed his call. Tempted to give up but not willing to, he tried once more. Good day.
Good day, my lord, the woman said as she rose from her hunched-over position and stood at the gate.
I am not your lord, he said, shaking his head. My name is Duncan.
Marian knew both of those things, but fought not to reply with the sarcasm she felt. If the truth be told, she was higher in precedence than he and could rightly be called my lady. But that life was so far away that she dared not even think of it. The Peacemaker, she said instead.
Just Duncan, he answered as he walked toward the gate. And you are called? he asked her.
She hesitated for a moment, dreading and anticipating the sound of her name on his lips, but she answered in spite of her fears. I am called Mara.
The gate opened and Ciara ran out. She stopped a few steps from Marian and her eyes widened as she caught sight of his horse. Her mouth dropped open in awe and although she tried to say something, no words could be heard. Then only one.
Pretty, she whispered on a sigh.
Ciara, Marian called. Come away now with mama.
Ignored because of the animal, Marian grew nervous and held out her hand to her daughter. Ciara, my sweet, come to mama now. She took a step, but Ciara was faster and bolted in the direction of the horse. Marian froze in fear.
Luckily the man called the Peacemaker did not. With little effort, he leaned down and intercepted her daughter before she could pass. And, in an effort that was made apurpose, he lifted her up and swung her around to make it seem a game. By the time hed circled her around once, Marian reached his side.
My thanks, sir, she said, reaching out to take her from him. Instead he gathered Ciara in his arms and took a step toward his horse. Sir, please!
Fear not, Mara. I would but show her the horse. If you would permit it? he asked before taking another step.
Marian watched as Ciara settled into his arms, leaning against his chest and examining everything in her world from this new height. Pointing to the horse, she uttered that word again. Pretty.
Then, the daughter who never talked to strangers and never strayed more than a step from her side abandoned her completely.
What is his name? she asked the man, even as she leaned toward the horse, forcing Duncan to move or risk dropping her on the ground. With a quick nod of consent Marian freed him and then followed right behind as they approached the horse.
He has no name. I call him horse, he answered.
Ciara laughed then and for a moment Marian could not decipher the expression in his eyes when he watched her daughter laugh aloud. The same ones she thought were so hard and ungiving melted, and yet now she witnessed a longing there so strong it made her knees almost buckle beneath her. And then it was gone as quickly as it happened. He carried her closer, but stopped a few paces away.
We must let him learn us or he will try to run, he explained in a calm voice. Let him learn your smell.
Ciara giggled then as though that was the funniest thing shed ever heard. The horses ears pricked up and he snorted once and then again, watching them get closer now.
Tis true, lass. We all smell funny to horses and you have to let them learn what you smell like before you get close.
She watched as he took her daughters hand and held it out to the horse. Whether it was her daughters scent or its masters that it recognized, the horse calmed and gently nudged both of them. Ciara turned back to her with the greatest smile on her face.
He would become your friend if you gave him something to eat, Duncan said seriously. Horses like food.
I have none to give him, Ciara said.
Shaking her head, she looked around as though she would find something on the ground. Before she could answer, Duncan reached beneath his cloak and took out the stub of a carrot.
Ah, he said, heres just the thing.
Under his guidance, Ciara took hold of it and held it out to the horse, who first sniffed it and then pulled it into its mouth. Ciara laughed again, claiming it tickled.
In that moment, Marians world tilted before her.
No man had ever held her daughter so. No man had made her laugh this way. No man.
Now, there she sat in the arms of a stranger, feeding his horse and giggling over the way its wet tongue felt against her palm. Marian stumbled then, just a step or two, but enough that he noticed it and he reached his free hand out to steady her.
Are you ill, mistress?
Nay, sir. Not ill, just a bit dizzy, she said. Marian reached up to take Ciara from him, but he shook his head and stepped back.
You cannot carry her if you are unbalanced. He noticed Ciara staring at her, the enthusiasm of the horse now waning as she must have picked up on Marians concern. Your mama is worried about us being so close to such a big horse. Come, lets look at him from a bit further away then.
He walked toward the cottage and crouched down to lower Ciara to her feet. Instead of letting her go, he spoke softly to her, telling her about how old the horse was, and how many teeth it had and its favorite foods. Marian felt as though shed regained her balance by the time he stood and smiled at her.
I am sorry if it made you worry. I meant no harm, he said.
Looking at Ciaras face and the pure joy that shone there, she knew he had not. My thanks for such kindness to my daughter.
Twas nothing, Mara. His voice poured through her and he turned his attention to her as he had to her daughter just minutes ago. Tis not often I find a woman, although she is a wee bit younger than most I speak with, who likes my brute of a horse as much as I do.
She laughed, for she doubted he ever had trouble finding women to talk toor flirt withor do the other things men and women do together. Marian met his gaze and wondered how she ever thought him stern or forbidding.
His eyes flashed with amusement as he watched Ciara talking to herself merrily about the horse. Marian was close enough to notice the small flashes of gold in their centers. And she noticed that his hair, worn loose around his shoulders, that had seemed all one color, now caught the sun as it shone through the trees above and gleamed with all the shades of brown.
When the direction of her thoughts struck her, Marian began to tremble. She purposely did not allow herself to notice such things and went out of her way to disguise any such attractive traits in herself so they would not be noticed by others. Being noticed meant trouble. And it was trouble she neither welcomed nor could afford.
My thanks again for this small treat for my daughter, sir. We must not keep you from your duties any longer. Marian reached out for Ciaras hand and grabbed it when she did not move quickly enough.
Ciara, thank Sir Duncan for letting you feed his horse.
Duncan is fine, Mara. She can call me Duncan.
Ciara mumbled her thanks, still in awe of the horse and its owner and, with a nod, Marian led her to the cottage door.
Mayhap Ciara can suggest a name when next I visit? he asked.
She hurried inside, hoping her daughter had not heard his words. Closing it behind them, she resisted the urge to drop the bar and secure it. Such an action could be construed as an insult, since hed offered nothing but pleasant company to her and her daughter. Even as Ciara went searching through her small box of toys for the horse made of sticks, Marian walked to the small window that faced the front of the cottage and peeked carefully through the covering to watch him leave.
He untangled the reins from the horses legs and pulled himself onto its back. The strength in his arms and legs was obvious as he brought the strong horse under control and turned it toward the village. If shed thought him only a man of meetings and discussion, shed been so very wrong. Duncan the Peacemaker was first a warrior and then a negotiator.
Marian watched as he leaned down and said something to the animal that made it rear up and shake its head and snort. Instead of trying to overpower the animal, Duncan laughed loudly and patted its head and neck in approval. Then just before he guided the horse into the path, he turned and nodded in her direction.
Had she been so obvious in her observation of him? What must he think of her gaping and gawking at him through her window? Shocked, she backed away but she knew it was too late. Her transgression had been witnessed. Luckily Ciara was completely engrossed in playing and reliving every moment of her horse experience and so she missed the embarrassing display her mother was making.
Tugging the kerchief from her hair and loosening the braid to allow her hair to fall freely, Marian moved about the cottage finishing tasks left undone when theyd been drawn out by the first flashes of sunshine in days. Now, she worried over the results and thought on his parting words.
Mayhap Ciara can suggest a name when next I visit?
A shiver pulsed through her body and claws of fear pulled at her as she considered all the dangers inherent in his words and possibly in his intentions, too. She knew how men thought, but her daughter did not. If Ciara became attached to this man, it would break her heart when he leftas he no doubt would.
She must discourage him somehow. Discreetly of course and in a way that did not offer insult to his honor. Although she kept apart from the machinations within the clan, even she understood the importance of his work and the alliance his laird offered her brother. Marian must turn his attentions from her, for whatever reason they were focused on her mattered not, and keep it on his duties and responsibilities.
She must convince him that she was not worthy of or interested in his concern and she must do it in a way that seemed like his idea. Regardless that he had stepped forward to help her rid herself of Laren. Regardless of the kindness hed shown her daughter. Regardless that, as the clans honored guest, he should be granted any, any, measure of hospitality that gained his attention.
Discourage without insult.
Ignore without insult.
Direct his interest without insult.
Marian knew these were the tasks before her and she prayed that she was up to it. For the sake of her daughter and everyone she loved and for the multitude of sins she bore, she must be.
Duncan returned to the keep with a clear head and a much lighter spirit than when hed left. Leaving the horse with a boy in the stables, he trotted to the great hall and found those hed left behind readying for the noon meal. He climbed the dais, bowed to the laird and sat in the stool left open for him.
If anyone wanted to redress him for his abrupt departure earlier, none did. Platters of food were passed and cups filled and then simple and congenial conversation followed as they ate. Soon they all rose and prepared to return to the lairds solar where the discussions were being held.
Mayhap he had been the problem? Mayhap his own attitude had been at fault and this short break would improve the business still ahead of them?
He spied Tavis in the corridor as he walked behind the laird and called him over. Taviss talent was just what he needed for a special gift he would need within the next few days. With a few instructions and a warning to speak of it to no one, Tavis headed off to find what he needed.
Duncan smiled then, thinking on the expression the childs face would wear when she saw the surprise he was planning. And, if he did that, made the little girl smile, mayhap he could draw one from her mother as well?
Chapter Four
Duncan allowed three more days to pass, three long, unending days, before he permitted his thoughts to drift from the numbers and the clauses of the treaties under discussion to the woman and the wee child who lived at the edge of the village. Yet, for every step forward the negotiations took, they fell two behind. If the pattern had not repeated itself three times so far, he would have doubted his assessment. But, even Hamish had noticed it.
This time, Iain had suggested a break, with some hunting to refresh their larder and their spirits. His men agreed rapidly, as he knew they would, for they tired of their close quarters and good behavior. A hard ride and some good hunting would burn off the building tension. That and the feast that the laird had announced for two days hence. Fearing that hed kept them on too tight a hold, Duncan accepted the invitation and extended it to the MacLerie men.
The day was fair and the storm clouds that built on the horizon in the morn seemed to drift in other directions, giving them the perfect conditions for their hunt. The Robertsons seemed a congenial lotmock battles of their hunting skills carried them through the day, with each clan proving themselves as worthy adversaries. Even the laird brought down a stag, to the wild cheering of his men. Duncan allowed him his moment of triumph, deciding that he and the tentative negotiations did not need him to demonstrate his own prowess in the hunt. By the time the sun began to slide down toward the dusk, the group was heading toward the village and the keep behind it.
It was as they rode over the bridge that Duncans attention shifted for only a moment, but it was time enough to be noticed by Hamish. Feeling under his cloak for the toy, he took leave of the laird, announcing his intention to visit with his clansman Ranald. After the others traveled on ahead, he did indeed go to the smithys cottage, for he had questions on his mind and could trust Ranald for honest answers and discretion.
A mug of ale and a short conversation later, and Duncan headed to the cottage off the path. Along with the carved wooden toy, he also carried several game birds caught this day. A gift for Ciara and her mother.
He shifted on the horse as he realized how much planning hed put into this supposed casual visit to the girl and her mother, but after that brief moment of doubt, Duncan continued down the path. Listening to the sounds around him, he did not hear the sounds of laughter that had greeted him previously. Nor did he hear any sounds of a struggle. Dismounting and tethering his horse to a tree, he walked toward the front of the cottage.
A glance and a listen told him that Ciara and Mara worked not in their garden. He strode over to the stone wall that surrounded it and peered into the enclosure. Examining it without the distraction of the women who cared for it, Duncan noticed that, though small in size, it was efficiently laid out and well-cared for. He recognized both some cooking and healing herbs that Jocelyn and her women used in Lairig Dubh, but there were many he did not. Still, the signs told him that the gardens keeper was organized and dependable in its care.
Still hearing no sounds from the cottage, he returned to its door and knocked softly. When no reply came, he called out their names softly and still heard no response. He should have turned and walked awayand taken it as the sign he needed to tarry no longer in this interest. But, something made him stay, reach for the latch and open the door.
The cottage was small, but clean and dry. Several mats lay strewn over the packed dirt floor and a small palette was positioned in the farthest corner from the door. A cupboard and another trunk sat on the other wall. There was a small hearth in the far wall and, in the middle of the room, a small round table with two stools. Again, simple and efficient, in its contents and care. It was the few items on the table that made his chest tighten.
A childs meager toys, made of sticks and cloth, sat in a pile there, as though waiting for their owner to return. One was a doll; another was a horse. Duncan smiled, knowing that the one inside his cloak would please the girl. And for some reason still to be deciphered, that pleased him.
Now, looking around the room, he acknowledged for the first time to himself, that this was what he wanted. No more traveling from one end of Scotland to the other on the clans business. No more always living and traveling in the middle of tension and danger and strife. His life had been and still was about peace at any price, but that did not mean he did not wish it to be different, with a wife, some children and lands to tend.
In his heart, Duncan the Peacemaker wanted to be nothing more than Duncan the Farmer.
Oh, Connor and Rurik would get a hearty laugh out of that. They would double over from laughing so hard at such a thought, but Duncan knew it for the truth it was. And now, standing here, in the quiet of this plain cottage, he believed it for the first time.
He was so caught up in contemplating his future that he never heard their approach. It was the girls gasp that drew him from his thoughts and made him realize he was an intruder here.
My pardon, he began, looking into the shocked eyes of the mother. I was looking for you and thought you might be inside, he explained.
Marian took Ciaras hand, knowing that her daughter would run to him. The man had been the subject of her childish ramblings since his last visit here and now that he stood before them, Marian did not discount her daughters infatuation. His very size made her reluctant to enter the cottage, for he nearly touched the roof of it when he stood at his full height. It was Ciaras other infatuation that saved her.
Sir, can I see your horse? her daughter asked.
A smile filled his face, once more softening his gaze and his eyes, as he nodded. But before he agreed aloud, he looked to her for permission. She was prepared for this, having thought through all sorts of scenarios after his last visit and knowing she must guide him into disinterest before it became dangerous.
Marian was prepared to wave off such an invita-tionuntil she looked at her daughters face.
Never had she seen such an expression in Ciaras eyeswonderment and anticipation blended and practically shone like the sun there. Was it the attention of such a man that enthralled her daughter? Was it the simple interest in a lively animal? Or was there something else happening here? With a worried twisting in her stomach, she gave in without a word. All it took was a slight nod, and Ciara grabbed the Peacemakers hands and dragged him outside toward the horse.
Marian followed along, all but forgotten by both of them, or so she thought, until they reached the horse. Having seen it rear and rage, its docile stance now made her nervous. But, from the confident way that Ciara strode at Duncans side without hesitation, her daughter carried none of that fear. Although the horse raised its head and watched their approach, it stood still as they moved closer.
Duncan crouched down and whispered instructions to the girl before he took her to the horses side. She was as sure as anyone hed seen in her manner around the animal and even the horses great size did not scare her off. He smiled and turned to her mother.
With your permission, I would let her ride, he said.
And he waited. He knew Mara was uncomfortable with even his presence, but he was counting on her desire to please her daughter to see this through.
She is so small. I Mara shook her head. Though, if he could read her expression, she seemed less opposed to the idea and more fearful of it.
Come, he said, holding his hand out to her, you get on first and place her in front of you.
If he had thought her afraid, hed been wrong. Duncan watched as the idea took hold within her and, in a second, he was no longer certain if shed hesitated at all. Mara accepted his hand and stepped toward them.
Shed surprised her daughter as well, for the girls mouth dropped open, her eyes widened and then she uttered one word filled with such awe and appreciation and wonderment.
Mama.
Duncan left the horse tethered to the tree and stood by the saddle. He lifted his foot and placed it in the stirrup to give her something to leverage herself up. Surprising him with her ability, Mara stepped on his foot and climbed into the saddle. Patting the horses neck, she seemed as much at home on the animal as he might be. After a moment of adjusting her skirts around her, she held her arms out for her daughter.
And she smiled.
The corners of her mouth curved up and the whole countenance of her face changed. Her appearance brightened and he discovered another woman instead of the stern one hed met. This one seemed younger than the other and there was a mischievous glimmer in her eyes that made him question his first, second and third appraisals of her.
You have ridden? Although a statement, it came out as a question.
Aye, sir. But, it has been many years since then.
Her body adapted to the horses shifting as though she were born to it, regardless of her claims. Duncan reached down and took Ciara up in his arms and then handed her to Mara, who settled the girl before her. Their heads bent together and they whispered words he could not hear, but could guess. He stood back and watched them for a few moments and the tightness in his chest returned.
Marian dared not meet his gaze, for his eyes had taken on that soft look of yearning that shed glimpsed before. He stepped away from them and, after a few minutes of letting the horse accustom itself to their weight (though together they did not weigh as much as he did) and presence, he tugged the reins free of the tree and turned to face her.
Shall I walk you or would you like the reins? he asked.
It was a quiet question but it caused a yearning of her own to creep into her heart.
When she lived here those years ago, a daughter of the laird surrounded by all the honor and comforts of such a position, riding had been her passion and her talent. Her brother told her she rode better than any man he knew and that had been a source of pride to her. Now, though, owning or riding a mount such as the one shed had or one such as this would bring too much attention to her and would remind too many of her past. So, she exercised the self-control that had served her this long and wrapped her arms around her daughter.
We would be pleased if you would control the horse, sir, she said softly.
Oh, yes, Duncan, Ciara said. Please?
Her daughter knew nothing of her past, and she intended to keep it that way now. Twas safer for all involved. Mara held on to her and watched with a feeling of pride as Ciara sat confidently before her, reaching out to pat the horses mane and to ask the Peacemaker an unending string of questions. So many in fact that he finally laughed a loud at them.
When they reached the end of the lane to her door, he turned, thankfully, not toward the rest of the village, but away and down the path that led to the bridge and off into the forest. He walked quietly at their side, guiding the horse to a slow and even gait. He continued across the bridge and down the road and then stopped just out of sight of the bridge.
How was that, Ciara? he asked. Did you enjoy riding my horse?
Oh, yes, she said in that soft, childish tone. And Mama did, as well.
Did she now? he asked her daughter while shifting his gaze to hers.
Marian swallowed and then swallowed again, trying to clear her throat of the tightness that had taken control. She did not understand the how or why of it, but a glance from this man made parts of her feel alive and awake. Parts that had never been tempted to feel anything, now pulsed with some sense of anticipation. Regardless of her past, regardless of her lack of experience in such things, she had the urge to touch her mouth to determine why it tingled so. Finally she blinked and freed herself from his gaze.
Aye, sir. And my thanks for such a pleasant ride. She smiled and kissed the top of Ciaras head before handing her over to him. Twas an uncommon treat for us.
Ciara babbled on to him as he lowered her to the ground, nodding or shaking his head in quick succession as the questions and comments flowed unabated. Ciara, as much as she, was unused to the presence of such a man in her life. Pretending to be a widowed cousin of the laird extended a certain protection and excuse to their lives and, except for the occasional incursion of someone like Laren, the men of the clan gave them no troubles or even attention. What Iain had said, or what orders hed given, she knew not. But, the result was that Ciara knew very few men at all.
Duncan stood and held out his hand for a moment before dropping it to his side. Marian shook her foot free of the straps on the other side of the horse and was preparing to climb down when his words stopped her.
In spite of his sometimes-brutish behavior, the horse is usually well-mannered, he began, reaching out to stroke the horses head. He held out the reins to her. If you would like to ride him down the road a bit, he wouldna mind.
Of all the things he could offer, this one was truly temptation. She forced her hand to stay on the edge of the saddle and shook her head.
I could not do that, sir. But I She was about to thank him when he interrupted.
You have the skills. Any man with eyes in his head could see that. He held the leather straps up closer. I will keep watch on the lass while you go a bit down the road and back.
How could she fight this? How could she resist such a simple and innocent pleasure? Ciara, once more, decided her answer before she could.
Oh, Mama! she exclaimed from the ground, where she stood safely at the mans side. Marian noticed that he kept her close enough to shield her from any such movements by the horse. Ride the horse, please! That expression of awe filled her face again and Marian was unable to refuse and make that look go away.
May I? she asked, just to be certain she did not misunderstand. And you will wait here with Sir Duncan for a moment or two, Ciara?
Her daughter, fearless as she was, slipped her hand into Duncans larger one and nodded. We will watch you.
Marian nodded and took the reins from him. The two of them stepped back, still hand in hand, but now her daughter stood silent. Wrapping the leather straps around her hands, through her fingers and on her wrists as was her custom when riding, Marian brought her knees forward and leaned down to gain a better balance. With a touch on its sides, the horse began to trot down the pathway.
It felt familiar within scant moments: the feel of being atop of horse and using her legs to control it and the motion as they moved along the road. Glancing back, she saw the two standing there, waving to her and a wild thought entered her mind.
But, did she dare?
She laughed then, something of the old Marian filled her and then, with more pressure and a flick of the reins, she gave the horse its head and held on as the black stallion took it. The trees raced by her. The wind tore her kerchief from her head and loosened her hair from its bonds, but she cared not. Leaning down closer to the horses head, she whispered words of encouragement as it sped up even more. It was a glorious animal.
Marian soon realized she must go back. The daylight was dwindling and tasks lay before her. And she should feel guilty about leaving her daughter with the MacLeries man, but she knew down deep inside that he was trustworthy or would not be who he was.
Still, this small pleasure would sustain for years. Now, she must return before anyone witnessed her behavior. Gathering the reins in and drawing the horse to a slower speed, she guided it back toward the bridge and her daughter. Retrieving her kerchief from the branch that captured it on her passing, she returned a bit slower than shed ridden away.
Marian arrived at the bridge and slowed the horse to a walk, allowing it to cool from the run. Looking around, she could not find either the Peacemaker or her daughter. Tamping down the urge to panic, she guided the horse back toward her cottage, looking ahead as she rode. When she saw them standing at the edge of the trees, she slowed the horse to a walk and approached them slowly. Once more Ciara surprised her by waiting at Sir Duncans side and not running up to the horse.
Her cheeks held color now, whether from exhilaration or the pleasure of the ride, he knew not. Duncan watched as she changed before his eyes, from a vibrant young woman who obviously enjoyed riding to someone much older and more staid. As she wrapped the kerchief back over her hair and tied it, Mara became a different person.
Hed only seen glimpses of it before and those had heightened his curiosity about the woman. Ranald would give no more information about her than that she was a widowed cousin of the lairds, recently returned to live there with her daughter. His reticence gave Duncan pause and now, after watching this, he knew there was much, much more going on here.
Mara tugged the horse to stop and he walked over to help her down. Her waist was slight in his hands, narrower than her clothing gave the appearance it would be. He guided her to her feet and would have let go, but she stumbled and he grabbed her to keep her from falling. This time, his hands did not land on her waist, but higher, where he could feel the fullness of her breasts.
Breasts she hid from the rest.
Breasts that would fill his hands, if he but moved them a wee bit higher.
His body shivered then and he grew hard at the feel of her womanly curves in his grasp. Mara stilled in his hold and he knew that she felt the growing hardness positioned between them. In that instant, an awareness of her as a woman took hold of him that shocked him in its simplicity. Hed been intrigued by her, amused by and interested in many things about her. But, now, on a more visceral, more primitive level, he was aroused by her.
It may have only been a moment, but it stretched on for a piece of forever, broken only when the girls voice called his name. Releasing her from his hold, Duncan stepped away from Mara and turned to her daughter.
Mama, look what Sir Duncan gave me! Ciara squealed. Holding her hand out, she showed her mother the horse that Tavis had carved at his request.
What is this? Marian asked. Her gaze met his and he saw a myriad of questions in it. Then she took the horse from Ciara and examined it.
The sight of her fingers following the smooth curves of the wood sent alternating waves of heat and ice through his body now, which seemed to recognize the pleasure that would be gained if such a caress slid over it instead of the wood. Duncan inhaled sharply trying to break the growing spell that surrounded him now.
One of my men makes them for his wee sisters and brothers. I thought Ciara might like one, he offered.
You are kind, sir, but we cannot accept this.
Her eyes hardened in that moment and she shook her head. Ciara gasped and then reached out for the toy.
Mama! she cried. Please!
He tried to figure out what had happened and how this innocent gesture had gone wrong. Then the truth struck him. A gift given to a woman who lived without the protection of a man meant one thing.
It is only a small toy for the child, Mara. I meant no disrespect by it, he explained in a low voice. He neither wished to make the situation worse, nor did he wish to undermine her authority in her daughters eyes.
Mara looked at her daughter for a moment and relented. She handed the toy back to Ciara and motioned with a tilt of her head.
Thank you, Sir Duncan! Ciara chirped. Thank you!
Before he could answer, Mara interrupted. Ciara, take the horse in and let it meet your other toys.
Ciara laughed aloud and left them both, as she skipped back to the cottage and her other toys, intent on introducing a new plaything to the existing ones. He watched her path for a few seconds before turning back to face her mother.
After the physical reaction his body had shown to her nearness, Duncan suspected that his gift had not been all that respectful. Not the carved toy, but the chance to ride his horse.
Hed read her desire to ride free of his presence and even that of her daughter in her face whenever she glanced at his horse. It was like seeing a secret past flitting over her features, moments and memories of pleasure and happiness now held deep inside and only let loose when she thought no one saw or recognized them.
But he had.
His years of reading expressions during negotiations and interpreting them, ascertaining weaknesses and strengths, had not stopped simply because she was a woman and not involved in the meetings. Hed seen the desire and the aching want there on her face, in her eyes, and allowing her that short pleasure seemed an easy thing.
But his body had interpreted the basic, raw part of the offer and she had, too. In spite of his inability to see it, both gifts came with an expectation. He should apologize. Twas the right thing to do. But the awareness between them made it difficult to deny its existence.
Mara, he began, but she stopped him with a shake of her head.
Sir Duncan, she said quietly, let me be candid with you. I returned here with the lairds permission and have tried to lead a circumspect life with my daughter.
He thought her choice of words strange, especially since she sounded much more educated than a poor widow living on the lairds beneficence. But he waited for more.
You are an honored guest of the lairds and I would not offer insult or be inhospitable to you or in any way threaten the success of your work here, but
She glanced at him and then away, taking in and letting out a deep breath, as though fortifying herself for the rest of it. Still he waited.
But your presence here and your attentions to me and my daughter, regardless of your intentions, can bring only problems to us all.
Well, at least shed allowed that his intentions might be simply innocent ones. Practicing the patience he was known for, Duncan let the silence go on, knowing she had more to say. It was her touch, her hand placed on his arm, that nearly undid his control.
There can be nothing more between us, sir. If you seek only a fleeting amusement, there are others in the village who would gladly provide it to such a man as you. She paused then for another breath. And I know that you cannot seek more than that, for your duties to your clan and your laird will call for your return and you will be gone from these lands. And a woman like me has nothing to offer you.
Part of him wanted to argue each point with her. He did not seek only amusements of the flesh. His actions did not ask for that. He would not simply engage her in something meaningless and then return to Lairig Dubh and she insulted him with such an accusation. However, his pride stung with the truth of her words and he took a moment to think a bit before speaking.
I did not mean to insult you, mistress, he began, as he stepped back and added some space between them. Her hand dropped from his arm, but the heat of the touch still pulsed through his skin. In all candor, I did not think of the consequences of my visits to you or my gift to your daughter. Since I have no wish to cause trouble for either of you, I will not seek your company again.
Duncan turned to leave, but she stopped himagain with her hand on his arm. Facing her, he now read fear in her expression. And he did not like it.
Your pardon, sir, for my boldness. I did not mean to insult you or your kindness to my daughter, Mara said, bowing her head in a gesture of submission that did not fit her and that he wanted not to ever see her perform.
He knew as she did, that she would not, indeed, could not refuse him any request he made. Duncan had the lairds welcome and they both knew it extended to anything or anyone in the lairds control. And that meant her. If hed wanted her in his bed, naked and there for his pleasure, she would be there with the lairds blessing.
That was one thing he would never do. One limitation he had set for himself early on in his experience. He did not use women for his comfort no matter that he could. Reaching over he lifted her chin with his fingers and waited for her to meet his gaze.
You have nothing to fear from me, mistress. Truly. I take my leave of you and hope you will give my farewells to your daughter.
He offered a slight bow and turned away then, even as so many unspoken words entered his thoughts. Some of them would explain his actions, some would simply muddy the waters between them now. Duncan listened as he walked to his horse and mounted it, hoping deep inside that she would call him back.
But she did not.
The pragmatic man within whod never before been distracted from his duties understood and accepted her actions for what they werethe sensible thing to do for both of them.
Marian watched him leave before returning to her own duties that waited inside the cottage. Dinner, some mending and sewing, taking care of Ciara and more. The strength drained from her and she struggled to complete even the simplest of tasks. Ciara seemed to know she was out-of-sorts and did not press her for too many songs or stories before sliding under the blankets on her pallet and into the sleep of the innocent.
But sleep did not come to Marian.
She tossed and turned, feeling every bump in the pallet beneath her. Deep in her heart, grief and anger grew until she could no longer deny that it raged within. The only warning was the burning in her throat and eyes before the tears began pouring out. Marian tugged the end of the blanket up and held it against her mouth to capture any noise that might wake Ciara.
Once the grief was loosed, it would not go quietly back under control. The years of loneliness, the ongoing humiliation, the loss of family and friends broke through and she sobbed at the pain. The worst of it were the feelings that this stranger had caused, feelings that could never be part of her life. Desires and yearnings for a life of her own, buried these last five years, now tore free. For a husband and children.
Some minutes later, when the tempest calmed, Marian turned over and looked at the one thing that had made it all worthwhile. Ciara was the one joy in her life and made every moment of suffering and every lost possibility bearable. Reaching over to smooth her daughters hair away from her face, she knew she would bear this sorrow as well.
Iain nodded to the villager to come forward. Leaning over he listened to the mans words and then sent him on his way with another nod. Turning to his steward, Iain grinned with the smile of the vindicated.
So, his interest in my sister grows then, he commented.
Aye, Struan answered. Do you think tis wise not to interfere?
The MacLeries man has done nothing that needs my intervention, Struan. At least not yet. And especially since not many know she is my sister.
Struan bowed and moved away, leaving Iain alone. Glancing around the room at the others present, he realized that so much had changed since that terrible night five years before. His brothers had grown, he had inherited the clan leadership from his father and had instituted many changes that were beneficial to them. These negotiations were only one of them.
Still, the guilt that Marian carried the burden of his own actions had weighed on him lately. Hed allowed her to return, hoping that a solution would come to him about her future. None had until just these last days.
The Peacemakers interest in her was intriguing. He was not known to turn his attentions from his work while negotiating. He did not seek out the company of women while traveling on his lairds business. So, the turning of his attentions to any woman was remarkable. That the woman was Iains own sister made it even more so.
Iain drank deeply from his cup and thought on the possibilities. A few hours later, as the fire in the hearth burned down to only embers and the chamber emptied around him, he still sat deep in thought.
Chapter Five
Duncan listened but could not believe the words he heard. The Robertsons man had just relinquished his objections to a primary clause in their treaty and given in to Connors demands on several other issues as well. Theyd made more progress in hours than they had in the days since their arrival there. And if there was a reason, Duncan could see it not.
Still, he found himself pleased by the concessions made so far and he felt the temptation to continue to press for more. If the Robertson was feeling generous, why ever not? When Hamish nodded at him, Duncan knew his friend noticed the same thing.
and I have ordered a feast for tomorrow eve to mark our progress, Iain finished.
A feast? Pardon my inattention, Iain. A feast on the morrow? he repeated.
Aye. Many of my people have voiced an interest in meeting the MacLeries emissary and his men, so I thought a feast would give them that opportunity.
Something in this offer made Duncan prickle with unease. Truly, Iain, though I, and my men, appreciate this sign of friendship, this will distract us from our purpose. He turned and looked at the others in the chamber. Mayhap we should finish our work and celebrate the results then?
Iain walked to his side and put his arm on Duncans shoulder. I assure you I will not be dissuaded from my purpose in this. We are a few measures from completing the agreements and may even be done by tomorrow eve.
Duncan recognized defeat, but he also kenned when and when not to argue with a powerful man. With a nod, he acquiesced to the plans.
Dinna worry so, Duncan, Iain said as he stepped away and waved his steward out of the chambers. I will leave you all to your task and you will not be bothered by the preparations.
But Duncan did worry. He was fighting a battle within himself to keep his own thoughts and attentions on the dozen or so clauses yet to be agreed to and off the woman whose mournful eyes plagued him even now. Hamish approached and he leaned close to hear his words.
Do ye have some fear or concern over this feast that I should ken aboot, Duncan? Something I should be taking a look at?
Duncan brought a parchment up in front of them as though pointing something out to his man, but truly to cover their words. Tis not his words, but something in his manner, that is amiss. I cannot give you an exact thing, but
Hamish nodded. I get yer meaning. But Ive sensed nothing from him that I wouldnahe is nervous aboot the treaty, but no more than I would expect.
Be alert, Hamish.
Duncan lowered the parchment back to the table and sat in his chair. Well, sirs, shall we proceed then and hopefully finish our business in time for the lairds feast?
There was a certain amiable air in the chamber as they worked through the rest of the day. Duncan chose to eat in the solar and organize his thoughts and strategies for what he believed would be the final day of negotiating with the Robertsons. Although most issues were resolved, a few important ones remained to discuss.
As was his practice, he walked through his concerns one by one in his thoughts until he was clear on his path. What surprised him, though, was what, or who, waited there in the silence as he cleared his path of actions for the morrow.
Mara filled his thoughts then and through the night and the next day. Unlike any other woman hed encountered, she presented more questions than she answered. The flush in her cheeks as she rode his horse toward him aroused him more than any woman had inmonths. The way she humbled herself to beg him, nay there was no doubt she begged, to turn his attentions elsewhere and spare her and her daughter from any scandal. The false face she presented to the world intrigued him rather than angering him. Mara was a riddle, a puzzle full of twists and turns and unexpected secrets, that called to him.
And he excelled at solving riddles and puzzles.
That thought tugged at him the next day as the keep and village bustled around him, preparing for the feast ordered by its laird. Duncan worked by rote through his tasks, and as he suspected, the final clause stayed just out of reach through the day. They would need to meet on the morrow and finish. Within a sennight, they could all be home in Lairig Dubh.
Now, seated in a place of honor next to Iain, Duncan cast a glance across the crowded hall looking for the one person hed like most to speak with. Deep inside, hed known she would not attend, but his damned heart had held on to a spark of hope. Twould most likely be the last time hed see her and to see her smile and possibly to share a dance would have been a good thing.
He noticed that his men were seated in different parts of the hall, each one involved in some measure of flirting or enjoying some womans company and Duncan suspected that his men would be sleeping outside the keep this night. Even Hamish conversed with a woman, though Duncan kenned that Hamish would never stray from his faithfulness to his Margaret. Since all the women seemed to be offering their companionship freely, he had no problems with whoever among his men wanted to accept that.
He drank deeply from the cup in his hand and shook his head. Mayhap that was exactly what he needed tonight? His journey all over Scotland this summer had been long, the negotiations tenuous at times and lengthier than hed expected, and a night wrapped around a willing and welcoming lass would not be the worst thing he could do.
Are you looking for someone, Duncan? Iain asked as he motioned for a servant to fill his cup once more. Try this mead, one of the villagers makes it and it is the smoothest brew I have ever tasted.
One mouthful proved Iains words true, but Duncan took another to avoid answering the question. It worked for only a few seconds.
Do you seek someone?
This time Iains voice was pitched lower and seemed to coax a reply from him he did not want to give. But it was there, in his thoughts.
Mara was not there tonight.
Hed searched through the crowd, looking from face to face and she was not there. Something flashed through himdisappointment? Lust? Longing? It must have been written on his face for Iain leaned in closer and spoke.
I would not have the man upon whose favor the success of our negotiations rests to be unhappy hereor to have any need go unmet, Duncan. Speak her name or say what you need and I will order it done.
Some insane desire sparked within him at that moment. He wanted to call out her name, call her to him and demand what he wanted from her. The thought of bedding her, peeling off her garments to see what truly lay beneath them and making her blush with the same pleasure that riding his horse had given her was one thing. And the urge to say it and demand it grew so strong, he drank another mouthful of the tasty brew to keep the words from flowing out.
He heard Hamish cough then and knew it for their signal, but his head swam now with thoughts and desires of Mara and the warmth brought by the mead. And again Iain plagued him.
Well, Peacemaker, what say you? Is there someone that you fancy? Someone I can call to your chambers to offer you a night of pleasure? There are many who would be willing.
Duncans body responded to the words and the offer. His cock hardened as it had when he held Mara in his arms and hed noticed her ample breasts almost in his hands. That part of him had no indecision in itit was ready and able for her touch and her taking. All he had to do was speak her name.
speak her name, Iain urged temptingly in a whisper.
He shook his head, grasping the now-empty cup as he fought the battle within. A servant reached over his shoulder and filled the cup. Heat poured through him, but he tossed the mead down and watched as the room swayed before him.
Mara was not here. Mara was the name he wanted to scream.
Marahad begged him not to.
He knew he could drink all night and not be affected, but this felt different. The villagers seem to melt together as they moved to the music that swirled around him. Tavis waved to him, but Duncan found that his hand did not move fast enough and Tavis had already moved past him when he did raise it.
Waves of heat surrounded him and he knew he needed to get out into the cool night air. Duncan tried to make his legs move, but they would not. The only part of him moving was the hardness between his legs, for it pulsed and throbbed and reminded him of what he really wanted this night.
Mara.
Pushing the hair back from his face, he leaned away from Iain who seemed not to notice the heat at all. Though he moved slowly, Iains face twisted and smeared into something not quite a face at all. But his voice never stopped echoing through Duncans head.
You have but to speak her name and it will be so.
Speak her name.
Her name
Duncan stood then, fighting the words, fighting the heat, fighting the urges that grew and filled him and threatened to explode. His stomach tumbled inside and he felt the need to empty itand soon. Searching for the door that would lead him out of the hall and the keep, Duncan found, not Hamish, but Iain at his side.
Come, friend. You look to need some air, he said, while guiding his steps down from the dais, through the celebrating crowds, along the corridor and out through the door.
The cool night breezes gave him some ease, but did not clear his head as hed hoped. And the growing desire to touch Mara did not lessen, either. He cared not where their path led, so he allowed Iain to guide his steps away from the keep and into the quiet of the village. In a moment or some while later, they stopped.
She did not come tonight, Iain said.
Duncan looked up and realized they stood before Maras cottage. No light shone in the window and no sounds could be heard.
She knew you favored her, yet she did not come as commanded, the laird said. She was told you wished for her presence at the feast, but she spurned you.
Something was not right here. Part of him, the logical, calm part he relied on, was being pushed back and held at bay by some wild madness within him. His chest hurt and his breathing labored, his muscles trembled and his desire raged stronger by the moment. And the object of that desire lay just behind the door of this cottage.
Mara is her name, Duncan. Say her name.
Duncan took a step toward the cottage and felt her name on his lips. He just wanted to see her, to hear his name on her lips, to understand the strange and powerful feelings surging through him about her. Looking around, he found himself alone, standing just yards now from her door. The moonlight poured through the trees, dappling the ground at his feet and even the patterns seemed to urge his feet forward. The wind moved through the leaves and once more the voice whispered.
Just say her name.
Unable to resist it any longer, her name poured out of him into the dark of the night.
Marian sat up at the sound. More like an animal bellowing in pain than a man speaking, she drew the blankets up around and over Ciara before climbing from the pallet and going to the door. Checking the bar, she knew the door was secure against most dangers, but what lurked outside this night? Grabbing her cloak from a hook, she wrapped it around her shoulders and peered into the darkness through the small, high window.
The light of the nearly full moon made much in the area around her cottage visible to her, but she did not need light to recognize his voice when he spoke. The MacLeries man.
Mara! he called again, leaning over with his hands on his knees.
Sweet Jesus! He would wake not only Ciara but the entire village if he continued bellowing like a wounded bear. Deciding to take a chance that she could quiet him better face-to-face, she slid the bar up and set it aside. Lifting the latch, she opened the door a bit so she could speak to him.
Sir Duncan, she whispered. My daughter sleeps within. Marian stepped out and tugged the door closed behind her. As does the rest of the village. Can we not speak of what concerns you in the morn?
He stood up then, rising to his full height that made him tower over her and he strode directly to her. More than anything, she wanted to scamper back in the cottage, close the door, drop the bar and gain any protection that the croft could offer, and she did try. But, he moved too quickly. He blocked the door with his foot, making it impossible for her to close it. His hand slid up the edge of the door, making any thought of keeping him out a hopeless one.
Please, my daughter she began in a whisper. Glancing at the pallet and seeing no movement there, she stepped forward to block his view into her home.
I need to see you, Mara, he said in a low, gruff voice. Come out, so I can see you.
He stuttered his words and Marian suspected he was in his cups, but that did not make him less dangerous. But, her choice was clearher safety or her daughtersso she released her hold on the door and stepped away. His gaze was hot as it passed over her, from her head to the toes that peeked out from beneath the bottom of her chemise. She tugged her cloak closer around her and walked outside.
Marian could see him out of the corner of her eye and she watched as his hands curled and relaxed, curled and relaxed and then again. He allowed her to walk past him and then he followed where she ledaway from where her daughter could see or hear them. She suspected how this would end and she did not want Ciara to witness it. When she reached a small clearing in the trees next to the path, she stopped and turned to face him.
His eyes were wild, but there was a sadness and longing deep inside them that made her heart hurt. Her chest tightened and she found it difficult to take in a breath as she waited for him to do something. When his touch came, the tenderness of it was the true surprise. With only the tip of his finger, he traced the edge of her chin and then her mouth. His hand shook as he did it and her body began to tremble beneath his touch.
You did not come, he said.
I could not.
I wanted you there. I wanted to see you, he whispered, closer now, close enough for her to feel his breath on her face. Then he kissed her neck and the heat of his mouth sent chills through her. Still, she dared not move. I wanted to taste you.
He lifted her face to his and leaned down until his lips met hers. It was only a moment before the kiss changed from tender to possessive and she lost the ability to think or to move. Now, heat raced through her and centered itself in that place deep inside. He guided her face to one side and she felt his tongue pressing against her lips. Opening her mouth to him, Marian discovered that her limbs lost the ability to support her and she leaned toward him.
When hed called out her name and told her to come out, shed been completely prepared to fight or reason him away. Now, though, she was not so certain. He slid his arms around her, touching her stomach, her thighs and then her breasts as he did. Instead of giving her the strength to resist, the caresses excited her, making the place between her legs throb in some unrecognizable way.
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О книге: An alliance dangerous and irresistible. . .Marian Robertson rescued a child and destroyed her reputation. Now, to keep her family safe, she must marry the stern, dark-eyed warrior negotiating a truce between their clans ; and risk her heart to protect the truth.Manipulated into marrying the exiled Robertson Harlot′, Duncan, peacemaker for the MacLerie clan, finds his new wife′s courage and spirit make it impossible to resist her. But will he put his honour at stake to free her from her past ; and claim her love for ever?′Expertly laced with danger and sweetened with sensuality. ′ ; Booklist on TAMING THE HIGHLANDER