Déjà Vu
Déjà Vu
Lisa Childs
Alaina knows she’s lived before.And that a sinister secret lies behind her death. The gifted hands of a handsome lover. A gleaming knife and blood-curdling screams for help. That was all Alaina remembered from her past life and the reason she investigated serial murders for the FBI…including her own.Reclusive writer Trent was her prime suspect. An empath barricaded in a fortress-like home, Trent included details in his books that mirrored the murders…and that no one could possibly know. But one look at Trent and Alaina recalled their passionate embraces. Then the murders began anew…
“We’re not those people any more—those people we once were.”
“But we are,” Trent said. “We have their memories, their souls.”
But not their hearts. At least not hers.
Alaina reached for Trent. This time he came to her, desire catching fire between them.
She was overwhelmed. “I can feel you … what you feel.”
“I can feel you, too.”
“You want me,” she said. “So take me. I want to know what it was like between us.”
Trent shuddered now. She knew him so well. And still she wanted him?
He took her in his arms. “This is your last chance,” he warned her. “Your last chance to leave.”
She shook her head. “You don’t scare me.”
“Then that makes one of us.”
Dear Reader,
Have you ever had a sense of déjà vu? I have. Maybe it’s just because I’m quite forgetful and don’t remember the first experience. But the fanciful part of me would rather believe I really have experienced it before—in another life.
FBI agent Alaina Paulsen has that sense of déjà vu when she meets infamous horror author Trent Baines. But she doesn’t know if the man was her lover in a previous life or her killer. She remembers her past death, a murder so gruesome that she still has a scar. The killer has also carried over into this life, and he’s determined to kill her again. I hope you enjoy reading about Alaina and Trent’s thrilling Déjà Vu!
Lisa Childs
About the Author
LISA CHILDS has been writing since she could first form sentences. At eleven, she won her first writing award and was interviewed by the local newspaper. That story’s plot revolved around a kidnapping, probably something she wished on any of her six siblings. A Halloween birthday predestined a life of writing paranormal and intrigue. Readers can write to Lisa at PO Box 139, Marne, MI 49435, USA, or visit her at her website www.lisachilds.com.
Déjà Vu
Lisa Childs
www.millsandboon.co.uk (http://www.millsandboon.co.uk)
With great appreciation to Tara Gavin and Shawna Rice. Thank you for everything!
Prologue
Light glinted off metal as a clenched fist lifted a knife high in the air. The blade flashed again as it descended, slicing through flesh until the point plunged deep into her heart. The fist withdrew the knife and blood gurgled out of the wound as her last breath gasped from her lungs.
“You’ll stop loving him now,” the man murmured as he wiped her blood from his knife.
She stared up at him, her eyes still wide with fear even as she died and her spirit left this body….
With the image so vivid in her mind, Alaina struggled to focus on the one in the mirror on the bathroom door. Her image. The steam blurred her features, so that she saw only blond hair and pale skin. She wiped a hand over the fogged-up glass, then dropped her towel.
Her heart pounded hard beneath her breast. She lifted her hand to it and traced the puckered flesh of the scar. While it was on her body, the scar was not hers. She’d had no injury that had inflicted it. She’d been born with it. Alaina had brought the scar with her from a former life. A life, and a death, she remembered only in flashes.
She hadn’t seen enough yet to identify her killer. But somehow she knew that he was still out there—waiting to kill her. Again.
Chapter 1
“Do you want me to call your lawyer?”
Trent Baines spun his chair away from the window that looked out over the thickly wooded hillside, the trees the fresh green of new life, of spring. His hands shaking slightly, he planted his palms on the shiny mahogany surface of his desk and said, “That’s not necessary. I don’t need a lawyer to talk to her.”
“But she’s with the FBI,” Dietrich said, the big man’s deep voice pitched low as if he worried she would overhear him, although he stood close to Trent’s desk and she was on the other side of the doors, at least. Probably down the hall in the living room or foyer. Dietrich was paid well to protect Trent’s privacy.
A grin tugged at Trent’s mouth. “Do you think I’ve done something that puts me in need of a lawyer?”
“I didn’t mean to imply …”
“Do you think the FBI has a valid reason for questioning me?”
“Sir—”
Trent lifted a hand to wave off his employee’s contrition. “I’m just messing with you, Dietrich.”
Anything to get a reaction out of the usually expressionless man—and to distract himself from what awaited him outside the pocket doors of his mahogany-paneled den. Fate.
He drew in a deep, bracing breath and directed his assistant. “Show her in.”
“She’s not alone,” the other man reminded him.
Trent shrugged. “I don’t care who’s with her. I’ll only see her.”
He had already felt her, drawing nearer as she drove up to the estate. Even if he hadn’t had the call to warn him, he would have known she was coming. With a connection this strong, she had to be the one.
He had to be the one. Everything had led her here—to him. Trent Baines had to be the killer.
“He will see you.”
Startled, Alaina whirled away from the window and its fog-enshrouded view of the treetops. How had such a big man moved so quietly back into the living room where he’d left her and Agent Vonner? Then the young man, wearing a suit as dark as Vonner’s, turned to leave again.
Vonner trailed after him and, her pulse racing, she followed Vonner. Their footsteps on dark slate flooring echoed in the two-story foyer through which they passed. On one side of it were the double doors from which they’d entered. On the other, an elaborate double staircase with a cathedral-size stained-glass window on the landing.
As Vonner had commented, the place was a castle. And only one man lived here, with his servants?
The butler or bodyguard—or whatever the young man was—held out a hand as if stopping traffic at the closed pocket doors at the end of the wide hall. “Mr. Baines will only see the woman.”
“Agent Paulsen,” Alaina supplied her name.
“No,” Vonner protested.
“It’s fine,” she said. Her gun heavy on the holster on her belt, she wasn’t afraid for her safety.
The man—Dietrich he had called himself when he’d let them in earlier—began to slide open the pocket doors.
“You can’t see him alone,” Vonner protested and reached out to grasp Alaina’s arm.
She glanced from the fingers crushing the sleeve of her dark suit jacket to his face. Then she arched a brow, uncertain of Vonner’s motives. Did he not want her to get all the glory if they had, at last, found a genuine lead? Or was his concern only for her safety?
Neither option comforted her. In fact, she had been uneasy ever since Vonner had been assigned to the cold case with her. The male agent acted more interested in her than the case.
Vonner released her, but his dark-eyed gaze had gone beyond her to the man standing inside the dark-paneled den. “He’s not old enough …”
To be the killer? Was that what Vonner was about to say?
Alaina stepped away from her partner. As she joined Trent Baines in his inner sanctum, the pocket doors slid shut, closing her inside, alone with him. Despite what her partner believed, she knew Trent Baines could still be the killer. The cold cases they investigated now had occurred before this lifetime of his. Alaina was aware of her other life. Was he?
His gaze met hers, his green eyes burning with an intensity that had heat streaking through her body. Even though several feet separated them, she could feel not just the touch of his stare but the touch of his hands, caressing the curve of her waist, the slope of her hip, cupping the weight of her breasts….
She could feel his skin sliding over hers as she lay naked beneath him, her hands clutching at the rippling muscles of his back. Images flashed through her mind, images of his face as he lowered his head to hers, his mouth touching her lips. But this man didn’t look like Trent Baines, who had dark blond hair and penetrating green eyes. The man in the images had brown hair and eyes, but something about him was eerily similar to Trent, almost as if they were the same man.
Her lips parted, and a shaky breath escaped her aching lungs. Was he the man she had loved or the man who had killed her for loving someone else?
“You feel it, too,” Baines remarked, his voice thick with a sexy huskiness.
“Feel what?” Her heart pounded with fear and emotion.
“The connection.”
Determined to pull herself together, Alaina lifted her chin and arched a brow. “Not a very original come-on. I expected more creativity from a New York Times bestselling author.”
“Are you a fan, Agent …?”
“Paulsen.”
“Do you have a first name?”
“Yes.”
His mouth, his lips full and unsettlingly sexy, curved into a grin. “You’re not willing to share?”
“I don’t think it’s necessary for us to be on a first-name basis, Mr. Baines,” she said. Not when she could already feel his touch, his kiss … “I’m only here to ask you some questions.”
“You don’t want my autograph?” he asked, a teasing glint brightening his eyes. He reached behind him, onto his desk, and lifted a hardcover book. “I’d be happy to sign a copy for you. To your first name.”
“I don’t want a signed book.” Or for him to know her first name. She already felt too intimately connected to him, more intimately connected than she’d felt to any other man she’d met … in this life. “I’ve read everything you’ve written.”
Baines picked up a pen from the leather blotter on his desk and, as if he hadn’t heard her, flipped through the first couple pages of the book. “So you are a fan.”
“I’m an investigator.”
He scribbled something and held out the book to her. She hesitated to step closer, but she couldn’t reach it unless she moved nearer to where he sat now on the edge of his desk. He was tall, like his employee, but his body had the lean, muscular build of a runner. He obviously didn’t spend all his time behind his desk. Yet how had he written so many books, and achieved so much success, at an age she guessed to be close to her own thirty years?
Curiosity overcame her reluctance, and she closed the distance between them. When she grasped the book, he pulled it back, tugging her nearer so that her thighs rubbed against his as she stumbled between his knees. Her heart slammed against her ribs as it began to beat furiously. “Mr. Baines—”
“Trent,” he corrected her, his voice a raspy drawl. “Call me Trent.”
She shook her head, hoping to break the hold he had on her—the one that was more emotional than physical. “I didn’t come here for your autograph. I’m not a fan, Mr. Baines.”
His shoulders rippled beneath his thin black T-shirt as he shrugged. “I have few fans in law enforcement.”
“I’m surprised you have any,” she remarked.
He released the book she hadn’t realized she still held, and advised, “Read the autograph.”
Her fingers trembling slightly, she opened the cover and flipped to the title page, to the masculine scrawl of his signature and the words above it. To Alaina, I feel it, too.
She lifted her gaze from the book to his face. With sculpted features and those sexy lips, the man was beyond handsome. He was fascinating. “You know my name.”
His grin flashed again. “I’m an investigator, too.”
“Your editor called you,” she surmised because she had only been able to track him down through his publisher. The man had gone to extremes to protect his privacy.
“Of course. The publisher makes too much money off me not to take care of me,” he said with glib arrogance. But his green eyes sparkled with amusement, as if he laughed at himself.
“And Dietrich?” she asked, referring to the man who’d shown her to his den. “Does he take care of you, too? Is he your butler or your bodyguard?”
“He’s my assistant.”
“So you don’t do your own research?” she asked, wondering now if she was talking to the wrong man. But then he moved, and his knee rubbed against the side of her thigh. Her pulse raced in reaction and she knew … this was the man. She stepped back, needing some distance between them, needing to not touch him.
“I’m not sure what exactly Dietrich assists me with,” he said, his brow furrowing in confusion, “but it’s not my writing. No one helps me with that.”
Her hand shaking slightly, she closed the hardcover book. “So you’ve done all your own research for this series?”
He nodded. “Do you want some investigative pointers?”
A smile threatened, but she bit her bottom lip. She should have been irritated instead of amused by his arrogance. “I am here because I want some information.”
“What do you want to know, Alaina?”
Her name on his lips lifted goose bumps along her skin and the fine hairs on the nape of her neck. “I want to know how you found out details that were never released to the public.”
He arched a dark blond brow. “Details of what?”
“Of the murders you sensationalized in your books.”
“Sensationalized?” He tapped a finger against the spine of the book she held. “It’s fiction.”
Her stomach muscles tightened in dread. “No, it’s not. Every one of those murders actually happened.”
And one of those murders had been hers.
Chapter 2
“No, no, they haven’t.” Trent denied the veracity of her claim even though he knew she spoke the truth. For some time he had suspected that the images in his head weren’t products of an overactive imagination but memories. Someone else’s memories. “It’s fiction,” he insisted. “Just fiction.” “I have case files—” “I want to see them,” he demanded. He hadn’t wanted to know before, so he had never looked up old news stories or pulled police records. But now he needed proof; he needed to prove that the murders in his books didn’t match the ones about which Agent Paulsen had come to question him.
She shook her head with enough force that one silky tendril of blond hair slipped free of the knot at the back of her head. “That isn’t possible.”
“Why not?” he challenged her. “Are you afraid I’d write about them? According to you, I already have.”
“Yes, it’s like those poor women have been brutally murdered twice,” she said. “Once in reality and then again in your novels.”
Trent squeezed his eyes shut on a wave of self-disgust. “I didn’t know.”
Because he hadn’t let himself believe …
“You had to know. You used too many details,” she said, releasing a shaky sigh. “You used every detail, some that had never been released, details of which very few people were aware.”
“That’s why you’re here,” he surmised.
“Of course. What other reason would I have?”
Because she’d been looking for him, as he’d been looking for her—for the woman with whom he knew he would share this special connection. Yet even as connected as he was with her, he couldn’t feel her emotions like he was able to experience the emotions of others. He had no idea if she was really feeling what he was. The fierce, breath-stealing attraction and heart-pounding desire.
“The police like to hassle me from time to time,” he admitted. “I’m used to it.”
“In your books the serial killer,” she said, her pretty mouth twisting in disgust, “is the hero.”
“I wouldn’t call him a hero.” Complex. Multidimensional. That was what the critics called the protagonist of Trent Baines’s Thief of Hearts horror series.
“But,” she said, “you’ve written him as being smarter than law enforcement.”
That was what tended to piss off the authorities.
Her smoky gray-blue eyes darkened with frustration, and she added, “He always gets away.”
“Didn’t your killer?”
“What?” The faint color drained from her porcelain skin. “How do you know?”
“This killer you’re after,” Trent said even as he wondered at her reaction, wishing again that he could feel her emotions. “You wouldn’t still be after him if he hadn’t gotten away.”
“How do you know I’m after him?”
“You wouldn’t be here if you weren’t. We’ve already established that you’re not a fan.” And she wasn’t likely to become one now. Despite whatever they might have meant to each other in another time, he was the writer that law enforcement hated.
“I could just be following up on a case,” she pointed out. “Checking out why you know things that only the killer would.”
He swallowed hard, but the knot in his throat wouldn’t go down. “Only the killer?”
Color rushed back into her face. “Or his victims.”
“But none of his victims could have survived to share their stories,” Trent said. If those real murders were exactly like the ones in his books, in his mind, no one could have survived the brutal attacks, the ritualistic mutilation. But they could have come back, returning from the dead into a new life.
Was that what had happened to him? Had he lived before? Was that why he had these memories that were not his? Whose were they, then? The memories of the killer that Alaina Paulsen sought?
“No, none of his victims survived,” she con firmed.
“How long ago did the murders happen?”
“I didn’t come here to share information with you,” she reminded him.
“You came here to get information from me.” The irony had his lips twitching into a grin. How could a man who had no idea what was real and what was fiction aid in a federal investigation?
“So tell me, Mr. Baines,” she persisted, “how you know things no one else knows about these murders.”
He tapped a fingertip against his forehead. “Imagination, Alaina.” That was what he’d been telling himself the past ten years—that he was only imagining things.
But he wasn’t imagining the connection between him and this woman, this stranger. Needing to touch her, he reached out, but before his fingertips could skim her cheek, she caught his wrist.
“Don’t.” She dropped his arm and stepped back, increasing the distance between them.
But he could still feel her touch, his skin tingling where her fingers had held his wrist.
“You might be able to ignore it, but I can’t,” he said. “There’s something here….” Something in her that pulled at him, that drew him to her. “There’s something between us.”
“Your ego,” she quipped.
He laughed. Sick of adoring fans, he found her attitude refreshing and attractive. But then, he found everything about her attractive. “Alaina …”
“These books,” she said as she lifted the one she still held, “these murders, aren’t from just your imagination. They are exactly the same as the real ones.”
He shrugged again. “Haven’t you heard? There is no such thing as an original idea.”
“I’ve heard that, but the saying I believe is that there is no such thing as coincidence.” She narrowed her eyes. “There’s no way you have all those details exactly the same by coincidence.”
“I don’t believe in coincidence, either,” he admitted. “I believe in fate, Alaina. I think that’s what brought you here.” He stood and closed the distance between them. This time when he reached for her, she didn’t catch his wrist. She didn’t stop him. His fingertips slid along the curve of her cheekbone, then down her neck to where her pulse pounded fast and hard beneath her pale skin. “Fate is what brought you to me.”
Her throat moved as she swallowed. Then her tongue slid out from between her lips, sliding over the fuller bottom one.
Trent leaned forward, drawn to her mouth, to her lips. But before he could taste more than her breath, the doors rattled under a pounding fist.
“Alaina, c’mon,” a male voice called out to her. Trent felt and heard the man’s impatience. “We have to go!”
As close as Trent was to her, just a breath apart, he caught the flash of regret in Alaina’s eyes before she pulled back.
“No, you have to stay,” Trent urged her.
She shook her head and, with a trembling hand, pulled a cell phone from her pocket. “I—I have to go.”
“You will come back,” he said.
“Yes,” she said to his relief, but then she dashed his hopes. “But just because you haven’t answered any of my questions.”
He shook his head. “No, because you won’t be able to stay away from me.”
She didn’t deny his claim. She just pulled open the doors and walked away, joining her impatient partner in the hall, so she didn’t hear his next words.
“And because I won’t be able to stay away from you …”
She turned back, their gazes meeting, holding like he’d longed to hold her. And he suspected that she knew, even if she hadn’t heard him.
“What the hell was going on in there?” Vonner asked.
Fortunately, he had to concentrate on the hairpin turns of the tree-lined road leading away from Trent Baines’s remote hilltop estate in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan. So he couldn’t see Alaina’s face, which was certain to reveal everything she felt: stunned, overwhelmed and disappointed. Leaving Trent Baines hadn’t been easy; staying away would probably prove as hard as he’d warned her.
She stared at the facedown book on her lap. His publicity shot added to the mystery surrounding the reclusive author, as his raised hand covered most of his face. Only the strong line of his jaw and wind-tousled dark blond hair were visible around his palm and fingers.
“Alaina?” Vonner prodded her. “What happened in there? What was going on?”
Fighting to steady her voice, she said, “I don’t know what you mean….”
“Why’d you waste so much time?” the dark-haired agent persisted. “He’s not the guy. According to Igor—”
“Igor?”
“His butler,” Vonner explained. “According to him, Baines is only twenty-nine years old. As we both know, the last of these murders happened thirty years ago. Whatever Baines knows about the cases, he probably just figured out by reading old newspaper articles or talking to someone who was around back when the murders happened.”
“But now there’s been another murder.” She reminded him of the call she hadn’t heard because she’d been too distracted. Or captivated.
Trent Baines had nearly kissed her. And she was disappointed that he hadn’t, that they had been interrupted before she’d learned how his lips would feel, how his mouth would taste….
Guilt gripped her now. While she’d been distracted, someone else had been murdered. Brut ally. Ritualistically. The M.O. exactly matched those thirty-year-old cases.
“This murder is further proof that Baines can’t be the killer,” Vonner added. “Because you were with him when we got the call.”
“We don’t know how long ago the murder occurred.” Due to a weak cell signal, Alaina hadn’t heard much of what her supervisor had said except that she needed to quit wasting her time on an unsubstantiated lead.
Only she knew it wasn’t unsubstantiated. Only she knew that Baines had used details that weren’t even in the files of those cold cases. But if she told her bosses how she knew—that she remembered a past life … and death—she’d lose whatever respect and credibility she had in the Bureau. They would think she was as crazy as the killer.
“The guy’s so isolated up here,” Vonner pointed out, cursing beneath his breath as a tire dropped off the edge of the drive onto the loose gravel shoulder. “There are no quick trips for him.”
“We can’t rule him out yet,” she insisted, “not until we have more information about the murder.”
“They’re not going to release the scene until we get there,” Vonner assured her. “But still I can’t see how Baines is involved.”
And Alaina couldn’t see how he couldn’t be involved. He knew too much—and made her feel too much—to not be deeply involved.
With the murders?
Or just her?
He’d found her. Or had she found him?
With her blond hair and grayish eyes, she didn’t look or sound or smell the same, but then she was in a different body. Only her soul and her spirit had returned in the beautiful form of Alaina Paulsen.
This time she would love him, only him. And if, like last time, she refused to give him her heart, he’d just have to take it.
Again.
Chapter 3
Emotion overwhelmed him. This was why he isolated himself in the wooded hills of his estate—because he couldn’t block out what others were feeling. He couldn’t help but feel it, too.
Disgust and fear emanated from the uniformed officers guarding the door. Trent passed them and ducked under the yellow tape. The crime scene had already been processed, so he was alone in the studio apartment. The victim’s body was on its way to the morgue, but he could feel the residual emotion left in the room.
The paralyzing terror hung heavy in the air. He winced as the echo of the victim’s screams reverberated inside his head. He widened his eyes as he studied the scene—the blood spattered on the white walls and drying to a dark burgundy, the blood pooled on the hardwood floor, as thick and dark as tar. He inhaled deeply, trying to fill his shallow lungs, but he breathed in the cloying metallic scent of blood.
His stomach cramped, and he doubled over, crippled with pain. But the pain was not his. It was never his. He always felt others’ pain, others’ emotions. Never his own.
Until today. Until he’d met Alaina Paulsen.
“What the hell!” a vaguely familiar male voice exclaimed in surprise.
“How—Why are you here?” asked a woman. The woman—Alaina Paulsen.
Like earlier today when he’d been with her, Trent felt none of her emotions. He felt no emotions but his own. Attraction, fascination and an overwhelming sense of destiny …
“You can’t be here,” the man said.
Trent assumed he was the other agent, the one he’d refused to see because he’d only been able to see her. This time he took a moment to compose himself, schooling his features back into his usual cocky mask, before he straightened up and turned to her.
“How did you get here before us?” Alaina asked.
“He must have a helicopter,” her partner answered for Trent. The man stood close to her, protectively. Were they more than professional partners?
Trent didn’t care what they’d been. The guy was no threat to him. No other man had the claim on her that he did. As he met her gaze, one emotion gripped him—possessiveness. Mine.
Her eyes widened, as if she’d read his mind, and she dragged in a shaky breath. “That explains how you got to Detroit before we did,” she said, “but how did you get here?” She gestured at the apartment. “Into our crime scene.”
The “our” to which she referred was not her and her partner; Trent couldn’t accept that. It was him and her. She knew just as well as he did that he was part of this. If only he knew, for certain, which part.
“I told you,” he reminded her. “I have a few fans in law enforcement.”
“In the Bureau?” the male agent asked, his dark eyes narrowed with doubt. His suspicion was as palpable in the air as the scent of the victim’s blood.
“Check out my story,” Trent suggested, more to get rid of the guy than to reassure him.
The agent turned to Alaina, who offered a brief nod. With a warning glare at Trent, the man ducked under the crime-scene tape and slipped out into the hall.
“So you’re the senior agent,” Trent observed.
“What?”
“He checked with you before leaving.” Or maybe her partner had just wanted to make sure she would be all right alone with Trent.
Alaina didn’t satisfy his curiosity as she ignored his observation. “That’s why I went to your estate,” she said, “to check out your story. To find out what your involvement was in those old murders.”
Her brow knitted as she glanced around the room, taking in the crime scene. Again, the color faded from her porcelain skin, leaving her ghostly pale.
But she wasn’t a ghost. She was real. And for the first time in the memory of his own life, Trent felt real. His emotions were finally his own instead of what he’d empathetically picked up from someone or somewhere else.
“Those murders happened before I was born,” he reminded her.
“You do have a friend in the Bureau,” she said, accepting his claim without the confirmation her partner required. “A source.”
He shrugged. “I wouldn’t call him a source,” he clarified. “More like a fan.” Someone who had contacted him a couple times throughout the years and whom Trent had felt comfortable calling to find out all he could about Agent Paulsen—like where she’d rushed off to in such a hurry.
Before he’d had a chance to kiss her and test the strength of the passion she’d drawn from his soul.
“A fan?” She shook her head, as if she doubted his claim or doubted that anyone would actually enjoy the novels he’d written.
Sometimes he wondered about that himself. He didn’t enjoy writing them; they exhausted him as much as experiencing the emotions of others.
“This murder didn’t happen before you were born,” she pointed out, her teeth nibbling at her full bottom lip. “Did you get sick of just writing about murder and decide to reenact one that you wrote about?”
“No.” He wasn’t a killer … in this life. But if he had the soul of a killer …
“No?” she repeated as if disappointed by his short response. “That’s it? You’re not going to eloquently profess your innocence?”
While he shrugged, he was anything but unconcerned. “It doesn’t matter how eloquent I am. You’ve already made up your mind about me, Alaina.”
“You’re involved,” she insisted. “Somehow, someway, you’re involved.”
He wished like hell that he wasn’t. But he couldn’t deny her allegations.
As if she dismissed him, she began to inspect the crime scene, ignoring his presence. He couldn’t ignore her; he could do nothing but stare at her.
Then she uttered a sudden gasp.
He followed her gaze to discover what had elicited the reaction from her. The blood, the gore? He would have expected that she was used to those things in crime scenes. Then he saw it, too: his book, lying atop the day-bed where the victim had been raped and mutilated. The book lay facedown, the hand lifted over Trent’s face in the publicity shot spattered with blood.
As if he hadn’t already been blaming himself for this woman’s death.
Her blood was on his hand. It had only been a book, Alaina kept reminding herself. But still she couldn’t get the image out of her head. She couldn’t get Trent out, either. She worried that he was in deeper than her mind, that he owned a part of her reincarnated soul.
“Why are you so hung up on Baines?”
She jerked away from her intense scrutiny of the bright lights of the cityscape outside her office window. Vonner’s startling question brought forth a rage of denial and resentment. “Why the hell would you say something so—”
He held up a palm to interrupt her tirade and clarified, “As the killer. Why are you so hung up on him being the killer? Yeah, I get that the helicopter access makes him a suspect in this case, but he wasn’t even alive when the other murders occurred.”
She turned back to the window, leaving Vonner sitting in front of her desk piled high with cold-case files. She only needed to glance at one of the folders to know exactly what was inside; she’d read them all so many times. But how did Trent know so many of the details it had taken her years to learn? “He knows too much.”
“So you think he knows who the killer is?” Vonner asked with a heavy sigh. “That he interviewed him when he started writing those horror books of his?”
He should have been excited by the lead he’d been chasing for months—Alaina for years—but they’d spent hours on the road after very little sleep. She understood his weariness.
But Alaina doubted she would sleep anytime soon. The killing had started again. She knew this murder would not be a onetime thing; she knew it with as much certainty as she knew the contents of every one of those cold-case files. This new victim’s case would never get onto that pile on her desk; Alaina would not rest until Penelope Otten’s murderer was found.
“Yes, I think he knows who the killer is.” Or he had been the killer in another life and his evil soul had called him to kill again …?
She sucked in a breath at the horrific thought. She didn’t want him to be the killer. She just wanted—
Vonner said, “We’ll have to talk to him again.”
That was what she was afraid of—talking to him, touching him, kissing him, giving in to the passion that had burned so hotly between them that it was forever a part of her soul. But she would do whatever was necessary to find the killer. “Yes, we’ll need to interview him.”
“That’s if the bosses will let us.” Vonner pushed a hand through his disheveled hair. “I still can’t believe he was granted access to a crime scene.”
“A crime he could have committed,” she reminded her partner and herself. He could be a killer in this life, too.
“Think the Bureau will let us use the helicopter to get back to the U.P.?” he asked. “I hate to think of doing that drive again.”
“He’s here now,” she murmured, her skin tingling as she sensed him close.
“What?”
“He’s somewhere in the building,” she said.
“What? Did Security notify you when he came in?” Vonner asked.
“Something like that …” Her phone rang, saving her from offering a more specific explanation. Her partner would not understand her special connection with the horror author; she didn’t understand it herself.
Vonner grabbed the receiver. “Agent Paulsen’s desk.”
She held out her hand for the phone, but instead of passing it to her, he hung it up. “Who was that?” she asked.
“The morgue.”
Trent gripped the edge of the metal table on which the victim’s body lay. His vision blurred, a red haze blinding him as pain overwhelmed him. He felt every emotion she had experienced in those final moments before her death. Panic shortened his breath and quickened his pulse. Then the fear intensified to a terror so acute that his lungs burned with a scream he couldn’t utter. His throat ached as if strong hands wrapped tight around his neck, choking the life from his body. But before the threatening blackness claimed him, the pressure eased. He gasped for breath, trying to fill his aching lungs. Then pain shot through his heart, so sharp and intense he clutched a hand to his chest and dropped to his knees.
“What’s he doing?” a male voice whispered. “Having a heart attack?”
Trent turned toward where Alaina stood in the doorway to Autopsy. He hadn’t felt her this time. He’d been too connected to the dead woman, to the emotions echoing from her soul within the empty shell of her mutilated body.
Those emotions clung to him no matter that he tried to shake them off. Exhaustion weighing heavy on his limbs, he lurched to his feet and staggered into the metal table. The woman’s stiff arm dropped off the edge, her hand open as if reaching out to him.
Alaina stared at him, her eyes narrowed and her brow slightly creased beneath the fall of blond hair. The man, her partner, stood almost in front of her, as if protecting her from Trent or trying to come between them.
A memory tugged at him, a memory of frustration and jealousy. Someone else had tried to come between them. In another life?
“What the hell’s wrong with you?” Agent Vonner asked. “Are you drunk?”
He ignored the man as if he was invisible. To Trent he was; he could see only her now.
“What are you doing?” she asked him finally.
“I was given access—”
“To the Bureau’s morgue?” Vonner asked, his voice cracking with shock and indignation. “Who the hell gave you access?”
Because she lifted a dark blond brow in question, Trent answered, “Phillip Graves.”
A breath hissed out between Vonner’s clenched teeth at the mention of the director’s name. He turned his back on Trent and spoke softly to her. “We gotta stop this, Alaina. We can’t have a suspect getting access to the crime scene and the evidence. We have to talk to the director.”
“You need to talk to Agent Bilski first,” she corrected her coworker as she slipped past him to stand on the opposite side of the metal table from Trent. “Don’t go over his head.”
“Okay, Bilski first,” Vonner agreed. “But you have to come with me to talk to him.”
She shook her head in denial.
Trent’s lips twitched into an amused grin. She didn’t like being told what to do. He could identify; he’d never liked taking orders.
“I can’t leave you alone with him,” Vonner said.
She lifted her gaze from the victim to Trent. “Where’s Dr. Rosenthal?”
“He stepped out to get something for me,” Trent admitted.
“What the hell? Are you ordering him around like you do that ape you have on your payroll?” Vonner asked.
“Oh, I’m glad you’re still here,” Dr. Rosenthal said as he rushed back into the room. “Thank you for waiting for me.”
The gray-haired coroner’s admiration and awe physically washed over Trent, drawing a smile from him even as Vonner’s disgust and distrust pummeled him from the other side of the room. But he experienced none of Alaina’s emotions. He could only feel her, like a touch on his skin, a kiss on his lips….
Dr. Rosenthal held out a book and a pen to Trent. “Do you mind signing my copy for me?”
Trent steadied his hand as he reached for the book, the same edition that had been spattered with blood at the crime scene. Even though this cover was clean, he could see the blood again on his hand.
How was he involved in all of this? It was more than mere coincidence. He knew this. And so did she.
Vonner snorted and turned on his heel, leaving the room. Trent noted his exit, but Alaina didn’t so much as glance at her partner. Instead, she stared at him, as if trying to figure out who he was or where she’d seen him before.
An image chased through Trent’s mind. The curve of a woman’s throat as she arched her neck. Her hands, with slender, red-tipped fingers, cupping and caressing her own breasts as she moved her hips, rocking back and forth on his pulsing erection. Then her cry of pleasure as she came. The woman had red hair and green eyes; she looked nothing like Alaina. But to him, she felt the same.
“Mr. Baines,” the coroner said, glancing from him to Agent Paulsen. Confusion wrinkled his brow. “Do you mind autographing …?”
“Not at all,” Trent assured him, flipping through until he came to the title page. Then he scrawled the doctor’s name, some platitude and his own, although sometimes he didn’t feel as if his name was really his. Even though he hadn’t taken a pen name, Trent Baines felt like an alias; he felt as if he was really someone else.
“So, Dr. Rosenthal,” Alaina said, drawing the coroner’s attention away from him, “when will you have the autopsy report ready?”
“I need more time,” Dr. Rosenthal said, his face flushing with color.
“How long?” Alaina asked sharply, her impatience with the doctor’s lack of professionalism obvious.
“I can’t tell you how long it will take me,” the doctor said. “It’s getting late….”
“How long has she been dead?” she clarified.
“I did a liver temp. Twenty-four hours.”
She glanced at Trent. No doubt he was back on her suspect list. Then she turned to the doctor again and advised, “Let me know as soon as you finish the autopsy. And don’t call me again if you don’t have any information for me.”
Dr. Rosenthal sputtered, “B-but I didn’t—”
“I called you,” Trent admitted, irritation gripping him that the male agent had answered her phone.
“Why?” she asked.
“Because I can tell you what happened to her.”
She said nothing, only turned that unfathomable stare on him again.
He continued, anyway. “She was raped, then strangled until she nearly blacked out.”
Dr. Rosenthal gestured toward the victim’s throat. “There is bruising around her neck that supports that.”
“And then she was stabbed,” he said with a twinge in his chest as he relived the woman’s pain. He drew in a ragged breath before finishing his assessment, “And her heart removed from her chest.”
The doctor did not need to point out the gaping hole and missing organ in the mutilated corpse. Dr. Rosenthal only added, “His M.O. is just like that of the protagonist in your books, just like the Thief of Hearts.”
“Exactly like the Thief of Hearts,” Alaina agreed, her eyes unblinking as she studied Trent.
Did she expect a confession?
Chapter 4
“I want to talk to you,” Alaina said from the shadows of the dimly lit corridor. She’d waited for Trent outside the morgue, unwilling to watch the coroner continue to fawn over the author. And she’d been unable to stand beside the body of the red-haired woman who’d died such a violent death—the same death Alaina was certain she had experienced.
Trent grinned as if not a bit surprised to find her in the hall, waiting for him. Then he reminded her, “I warned you that you wouldn’t be able to stay away from me.”
Heat flushed her skin as she remembered what he’d told her when she’d left him that morning. Then another memory flashed through her mind: a thumb stroking across her bottom lip, back and forth. A hungry mouth sliding down her throat, nibbling along her collarbone before skimming over the slope of her breast to the nipple that peaked, begging for attention. His attention.
She swallowed hard, choking down the desire that overwhelmed her. “I only want to talk to you.”
His naughty, sexy grin widened as he stepped closer to her, trapping her against the wall. “Why waste our time talking?” he asked, his voice a seductive purr. “I’m not going to tell you what you want to hear.”
“What’s that?” She leaned her head back, away from the temptation of his lips. “What do I want to hear?”
“That I’m the killer.”
“If only it were that easy …” She sighed, bone-deep weary from a day that had started with her and Vonner on the road at dawn, driving up to Trent Baines’s remote castle in the Upper Peninsula. Now, night had fallen and she was back where she’d started in Detroit … only with Trent Baines. Just as he’d said, she couldn’t stay away from him.
The image flashed through her mind again—lips tugging at her nipple, a tongue flicking across the tip, hands caressing her back, then along her sides to the curve of her hips. She arched and parted her legs, silently begging for him to take her….
But he pulled back.
Trent stepped away from her and asked, “Killers don’t spontaneously confess like on television?” His green eyes sparkled with feigned innocence.
“No one who’d actually committed a crime ever spontaneously confessed to me.” She crossed her arms across her chest. It was cold in the hall, but her skin was hot, flushed with desire for the man in her mind.
And maybe the one in the hall …
“Innocent people confess?” he asked.
“Innocent? I don’t know how innocent they are when they interfere with an investigation just to get attention. Screwed up, yeah.” But then, so was she, to be attracted to a man who might be a killer.
He lifted his shoulders in a slight shrug. “Well, I’m not going to confess either my guilt or innocence. You’re wasting your time talking to me.”
“And you’re wasting your time going to the crime scene, visiting the morgue.” Tension pounded at her temples and knotted the muscles in her neck and shoulders. “What are you doing here in the middle of my investigation?”
“I got clearance.”
“But why would you ask for it? Why would you want to go to a crime scene or visit the morgue?” She had to know. “Is this what you do? Is this how you research your novels?”
“That’s what the director thinks,” he admitted with a wink. “But I’m really not one to do much research.”
“Then I’ll ask you again. What are you doing here?” Trying to cover up evidence that might have implicated him? Sure, the crime scene had already been processed, the evidence collected, before he’d arrived. But still his presence there, and at the morgue, unsettled her, raising her suspicions about him even more.
He stepped forward again and touched her, just the pad of his thumb sliding along the line of her jaw. “I’m here for you.”
She shivered at the intensity of his gaze and the heat of his touch. Both felt eerily familiar. “Why? You won’t answer my questions.”
“I want to help you, Alaina,” he said, his deep voice full of seductive promise. “I want you to figure out what you need to know.”
“I need to know who this killer is,” she said. “I need to catch him.” She’d wanted that for so long, even before he’d killed again. Now she had to find him, to stop him….
“That’s not all you need to know.” He leaned closer, his forehead nearly touching hers. “You need to know about us.”
She pushed her hands against his chest and shoved him back. Ignoring the tingling in her palms from the heat of his body and the hardness of his muscles, she shook her head. “There is no us. And there will never be.”
But had there been? In another life? Was he the lover she dreamed of, even wide-awake? Was he the man who had loved her so passionately in her past life that no other man in this life had ever measured up?
“You feel it, Alaina,” he insisted, his voice a rough whisper. “I know you feel it, too.”
Staring into his eyes, she could almost glimpse the images in their depths, the images that had been taunting her, of two naked bodies intimately connected, physically and emotionally. Alaina dragged in a ragged breath of air and shook her head again, trying to clear it. “All I feel for you is suspicion. You know more than you’re telling me about those old murders and this one.”
His grin flashed again. “You feel more than that. You feel what I feel….”
It didn’t matter what she felt. “I don’t trust you,” she stated unequivocally, reminding herself. “All I want is the truth.”
“Since you don’t trust me, you won’t believe that anything I tell you is the truth,” he pointed out. “So I guess we have nothing to talk about.”
Images, like slides in a projector, flicked through her mind—a sculpted chest pressed against her breasts, heavily muscled arms holding her close, perspiration glistening on slick skin….
She opened, then closed, her mouth, knowing it was useless to ask Trent Baines any more questions. Like he’d said, she wouldn’t trust the veracity of his answers.
But since she didn’t trust anyone with her secrets, she couldn’t expect him to share his willingly. She’d have to find out what she wanted to know another way.
“Come with me,” he urged her, his green eyes glittering with desire and erotic promises. “Come with me and we won’t have to talk at all.”
Temptation pulled at her to see if he could deliver on those promises. To see if he could make her feel what she only imagined….
“I shouldn’t be here,” she whispered, as if afraid someone might overhear her and catch them. “It’s so wrong….”
“That’s what makes it so exciting,” he pointed out as he reached for her.
She pressed her palms against his chest, as if about to push him away again. Her eyes wide with confusion, she stared up at him. “I don’t know why I’m here.”
“I told you,” he reminded her, “that you wouldn’t be able to stay away from me … any more than I can stay away from you. You belong with me.”
She shook her head, trying to deny him, trying to deny her feelings.
He cupped her chin in his hand and tipped her face up. “Look at me. I’m the man you’re meant to be with. You can feel it, too.” He lowered his lips and just brushed them across hers. “When I kiss you …” He trailed his fingers across her cheek, along the length of her neck to the curve of her breast. “When I touch you …”
Her fingers clenched the fabric of his shirt, dragging him closer. “I want you.”
Want. It wasn’t love. And what he wanted—needed—was her love.
The soft click of a door opening drew Trent’s attention from his computer screen. He lifted his head as Dietrich stepped inside his room of the hotel suite they shared.
“I’m sorry, sir,” the big man said. “I didn’t mean to interrupt your writing.”
“No, that’s fine.” He didn’t want to be writing, anyway; he wanted to be with Alaina. But she had refused his proposition and denied her feelings for him.
Hell, maybe he was wrong about her. Maybe he couldn’t feel what she felt because she felt nothing for him. Maybe this connection between them, this sense of destiny, was only in his mind.
Trent rubbed a hand across his forehead where tension pounded with the onslaught of the emotions of others. “Did you get this floor cleared?”
Dietrich nodded. “The concierge helped convince them to move to the new rooms you’re paying for.”
“And everyone moved?” Because he could still feel the anxiety of someone about to do something … Apply for a new job? Ask someone to marry him?
And the couple that fought …
Trent felt their anger and resentment, the hurt and pain that felt eerily familiar even though he’d never been in a relationship that had lasted beyond a week or two of physical pleasure.
At least, he hadn’t in this life.
Had he lived before? Or was it that through their emotions he lived everyone else’s life right now?
Dietrich nodded. “Everyone on this floor has moved. But there are people on the floor below and in the buildings surrounding this hotel. We should go home, where it’s quiet and peaceful,” he urged. “The city is too much for you.”
Trent closed his eyes as a red haze of emotion rushed over him. Then oblivion, black and comforting, tempted him to slip into unconsciousness. He’d done it before. Blacked out when he was too overwhelmed to deal with the pain of others.
At the crime scene and the morgue, he’d nearly lost consciousness. The terror and pain had been so intense.
But he was stronger now than the kid he’d once been … the kid who’d escaped into his own little world so he wouldn’t have to deal with others. He opened his eyes to the screen of his laptop. The words he’d just written all blurred together unintelligibly.
And he realized it hadn’t been his own little world.
Other people had lived in it with him … Before he had killed them?
Dietrich cleared his throat, drawing Trent’s attention back to where he hovered, like a mother hen, in the doorway of the suite. He spoke hesitantly, dropping each word softly into the silence. “I don’t understand why we’re here.”
Trent leaned back in his chair at the desk. Too weary to speak, he just arched a brow.
“You have that book to finish.”
He’d already missed his deadline.
“Your editor called again today.” Dietrich relayed the message, as much secretary as bodyguard. “Twice.”
Evan was pissed, not just about the deadline but because Trent had told him this book would be the last in the lucrative Thief of Hearts series. It was time to end it. But he’d been struggling before Alaina Paulsen had shattered his peace and quiet and confirmed that his fiction was actually fact.
Fact that Trent didn’t know if he was strong enough yet to face….
“I’ll get the book done,” he promised Dietrich and himself.
“But it’s easier for you to write back at the estate,” his assistant insisted. “You have fewer distractions.”
It wasn’t just his empathy that distracted him now; it was her. And Dietrich must have noticed.
Hell, Trent had left shortly after she had that morning. But it hadn’t been just that he was drawn to her, connected in some way he couldn’t explain. It had been because of the murder. He’d called the Bureau to find out why she’d been called away so abruptly and he’d learned of it. The ritualistic killing that so closely matched the M.O. of the protagonist of his Thief of Hearts novels. He’d had to see for himself if the nightmares he’d hoped were only products of his imagination matched the horrifying reality.
“I was there,” he murmured, the dead woman’s terror gripping him again. “It was just like.” The violent images once again took center stage in his mind.
“It’s not your fault,” Dietrich said, “if someone copied your book. You can’t be held responsible for someone else’s actions.”
But what if they’d once been his?
He closed his eyes, and passionate images replaced the violent ones. A woman’s nails raking his back, clutching at his butt as he thrust inside her again and again. Alaina Paulsen was more than just an agent investigating murders; she was part of it, too.
She had once been his … and he couldn’t leave until she was again.
Excitement coursed through him, but he fought it down, fought to control his emotions.
But it was all so perfect.
He wanted to scream, wanted to thump his fist in the air in celebration. But he had rejoiced another way, a far more satisfying way….
He lifted the cover from the box. He’d found it, like he had so many other things, when he’d opened that door and allowed the past to come rushing back into his mind.
A chuckle rumbled in his chest. Trent Baines had unlocked that door with his books. And until today the man had had no idea that he’d let the monster loose.
He gazed inside that box at the heart he’d stolen. In his mind, it beat yet. For him.
But it wasn’t the heart he really wanted. That heart beat now inside Alaina Paulsen’s chest. But he knew to whom it had once belonged. The woman she had once been and the man she had once loved.
Now he knew who they all were and who they all had once been … before he’d killed them.
He closed the lid on the box, which would soon fill with more hearts. Because now he knew what he had to do, who he had to kill. Again.
Chapter 5
“So did you talk to the director?” Alaina asked as Vonner dropped into the chair across from her desk. Dust danced in the morning sun streaming through the windows. Since she’d forbidden the night-shift cleaners from touching her office, and potentially misplacing some of those files, she’d have to clean it herself soon.
After taking a swig of coffee from his paper cup, Vonner grimaced and shook his head. “No. I talked to Bilski first, like you suggested.”
“And?”
He shrugged. “He doesn’t think Baines is a problem.”
Alaina rubbed her fingers over her tired eyes. She hadn’t slept at all last night, plagued by the images chasing through her mind. Of that poor woman … and Trent, leaning close to her in the hall, his eyes promising her the passion she remembered from another life. Maybe she should have gone with him, wherever he’d wanted to take her. Maybe she should have let him take her….
Maybe then she would have had the answers she’d sought for so many years.
She opened her eyes and focused on the pile of cold cases. Which woman had she been of the twelve murdered at the hands of a sadistic serial killer?
“You and I both know better,” Vonner prodded her.
“What?” Heat flushed her face. She did know better than to trust a man who could have been that killer.
“We both know that Baines is a problem,” Vonner explained. “A big one.”
Yes, a problem for her peace of mind. For her heart.
But was he the killer? God, she hoped not.
“So Bilski wouldn’t speak to the director?” she asked, trying to follow the conversation when she was tempted instead to follow her heart.
“No.” Vonner snorted his disgust. “He figures Baines already left.”
A twinge of regret tightened her chest. She rubbed her knuckles over it, feeling the faint ridge of the scar beneath the thin fabric of her lightweight sweater. She closed her eyes again, as an image taunted her.
Lips on her breast, the skin smooth and clear over her heart. Hands tightening on her hips, lifting her to meet his thrusts.
She opened her eyes, trying to clear her head, and she met his deep green gaze. Trent Baines stood behind Vonner, leaning against the open door of her small office. Heat rushed to her face as if he’d caught her like she’d been in that memory—naked and vulnerable.
“Good morning,” he greeted them.
Startled, Vonner jerked and inadvertently squeezed his paper cup. Coffee surged between the rim and the lid and ran over his fingers. He set the cup on the floor and cursed.
Trent clicked his tongue against his teeth. “I figured you’d have sharper reflexes, being an agent.”
“Damn you.”
He shook his head. “You better run some cold water over that. Looks like it could be a nasty burn.”
Vonner, his dark eyes hot with anger, glanced back at Alaina. “Go ahead,” she assured him. “I can show Mr. Baines out.”
“Show me out?” he asked after Vonner knocked against him, passing him in the door way.
She rose from behind her desk and walked around it, blocking it and those files from his view. This was her personal space; she wanted him nowhere near it. “You must be leaving, right? Heading back to the U.P.?”
“Not yet,” he said, his gaze intent on her face, as if he knew what she’d been thinking, what she’d been seeing.
“There’s no reason for you to stick around,” she pointed out. “You won’t talk.”
“There’s another reason for me to stick around,” he said, leaning close.
She needed to step back, to get away from him, in case he tried to kiss her. Because somehow she knew that if his lips touched hers, she’d be lost.
But instead of kissing her, he murmured, “I need to see those cold-case files.”
She stepped closer to him, tempted to shove him out the door. “You exploited those women enough already,” she said, anger choking her. “You’re not using them anymore.”
“I only have your word that my books match those murders,” he said.
“You were there yesterday, at the crime scene.” It still galled her that he’d beaten her there. “You know those murders match the books.”
“No, I know that murder matched my books.” And it drove him crazy that that woman might have died because of him, because some lunatic had decided to copy what he’d written. Or what he’d done.
“It’s the same as the others,” she insisted. “There’s no need for you to go through the files.”
“You should want me to take a look at them,” he said. “I can help you.”
She shook her head, and while he couldn’t feel her emotions, he glimpsed the fear in the depths of her gray-blue eyes. Maybe, like him, she was afraid of the answers to the questions, afraid of what she would learn about herself. “What makes you think I need your help?”
“You came to me,” he reminded her.
“For answers. You haven’t given me any.” Her eyes narrowed with suspicion. “You have nothing to offer me.”
His lips twitched, and he grinned at her challenge. “We both know I have a lot to offer you.”
He had to touch her, so he reached out to skim his fingertips along her delicate jaw. But she pulled back so his skin just brushed hers. It was enough that he felt her heat. And he knew that if he ever really touched her, passion would burn between them, brighter and hotter than even those images that flashed through his mind. “I can give you pleasure….”
“You arrogant bastard,” she said. “You might be used to women falling at your feet. But I’m not a fan. You don’t impress me.”
“Has any man?” he wondered. Or had she spent her life as he had, searching for something, for someone, he hadn’t been able to find? Until now.
“My personal life is none of your damn business,” she told him.
“Do you have one?” he wondered. “The director told me you’ve been working this case for a long time, almost obsessively.” He narrowed his eyes, studying her face, wishing he could feel what she felt. But only his own emotions—his attraction and fascination with her—consumed him. And others’ emotions edged in: pain, frustration, anger and resentment. “Why does this case mean so much to you, Alaina?”
“Every case means a lot to me,” she said, but her voice lacked the strength of conviction.
“This case is personal to you,” he said. “Why? Was one of those women your mother? Sister? Aunt?” Or, as he suspected, her?
“No.”
“C’mon, Alaina, let me help you,” Trent urged her. “You’ve gone over those files so many times that I’m sure you’ve missed something. I can be your fresh eyes, your fresh perspective.”
“She doesn’t need you,” a deep voice informed him. The surly agent had returned. The cold water must have soothed away the burn of the hot coffee, for his fingers weren’t red anymore.
Yet Trent saw the red in his mind, as if he weren’t the only one with blood on his hands. Maybe he was just projecting, looking for someone else to blame for what he’d caused.
Vonner stated, “I’m her fresh eyes on this case.”
“You just recently got assigned to it?”
Vonner nodded. “Unless you’re willing to tell us who fed you the information from those files, you really have no reason to be here.” The guy’s dark gaze flicked to Alaina, as if staking his claim. “Why don’t you end your little field trip to the FBI and go back home, Baines?”
“I have every reason to be here.” And she stood right in front of him, her eyes narrowed with distrust. She was smart not to trust him when he didn’t even trust himself.
Vonner was right; Trent needed to leave. It was better if he returned to the oblivion in which he’d been living. No emotions, others’ or his own. No desires, like the passion that burned inside him for her.
As he met her gaze, he saw another woman, one with red hair and pale skin, standing naked before him, her lips curved into a smile of pure temptation. Her image superimposed over Alaina’s until the two became one, as if the soul of the red-haired woman lived inside Alaina’s beautiful face and body.
It had to be her….
She shivered, despite the turtleneck she wore beneath her dark suit jacket. She’d worn a high-necked sweater yesterday, too.
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Lisa Childs
Alaina knows she’s lived before.And that a sinister secret lies behind her death. The gifted hands of a handsome lover. A gleaming knife and blood-curdling screams for help. That was all Alaina remembered from her past life and the reason she investigated serial murders for the FBI…including her own.Reclusive writer Trent was her prime suspect. An empath barricaded in a fortress-like home, Trent included details in his books that mirrored the murders…and that no one could possibly know. But one look at Trent and Alaina recalled their passionate embraces. Then the murders began anew…
“We’re not those people any more—those people we once were.”
“But we are,” Trent said. “We have their memories, their souls.”
But not their hearts. At least not hers.
Alaina reached for Trent. This time he came to her, desire catching fire between them.
She was overwhelmed. “I can feel you … what you feel.”
“I can feel you, too.”
“You want me,” she said. “So take me. I want to know what it was like between us.”
Trent shuddered now. She knew him so well. And still she wanted him?
He took her in his arms. “This is your last chance,” he warned her. “Your last chance to leave.”
She shook her head. “You don’t scare me.”
“Then that makes one of us.”
Dear Reader,
Have you ever had a sense of déjà vu? I have. Maybe it’s just because I’m quite forgetful and don’t remember the first experience. But the fanciful part of me would rather believe I really have experienced it before—in another life.
FBI agent Alaina Paulsen has that sense of déjà vu when she meets infamous horror author Trent Baines. But she doesn’t know if the man was her lover in a previous life or her killer. She remembers her past death, a murder so gruesome that she still has a scar. The killer has also carried over into this life, and he’s determined to kill her again. I hope you enjoy reading about Alaina and Trent’s thrilling Déjà Vu!
Lisa Childs
About the Author
LISA CHILDS has been writing since she could first form sentences. At eleven, she won her first writing award and was interviewed by the local newspaper. That story’s plot revolved around a kidnapping, probably something she wished on any of her six siblings. A Halloween birthday predestined a life of writing paranormal and intrigue. Readers can write to Lisa at PO Box 139, Marne, MI 49435, USA, or visit her at her website www.lisachilds.com.
Déjà Vu
Lisa Childs
www.millsandboon.co.uk (http://www.millsandboon.co.uk)
With great appreciation to Tara Gavin and Shawna Rice. Thank you for everything!
Prologue
Light glinted off metal as a clenched fist lifted a knife high in the air. The blade flashed again as it descended, slicing through flesh until the point plunged deep into her heart. The fist withdrew the knife and blood gurgled out of the wound as her last breath gasped from her lungs.
“You’ll stop loving him now,” the man murmured as he wiped her blood from his knife.
She stared up at him, her eyes still wide with fear even as she died and her spirit left this body….
With the image so vivid in her mind, Alaina struggled to focus on the one in the mirror on the bathroom door. Her image. The steam blurred her features, so that she saw only blond hair and pale skin. She wiped a hand over the fogged-up glass, then dropped her towel.
Her heart pounded hard beneath her breast. She lifted her hand to it and traced the puckered flesh of the scar. While it was on her body, the scar was not hers. She’d had no injury that had inflicted it. She’d been born with it. Alaina had brought the scar with her from a former life. A life, and a death, she remembered only in flashes.
She hadn’t seen enough yet to identify her killer. But somehow she knew that he was still out there—waiting to kill her. Again.
Chapter 1
“Do you want me to call your lawyer?”
Trent Baines spun his chair away from the window that looked out over the thickly wooded hillside, the trees the fresh green of new life, of spring. His hands shaking slightly, he planted his palms on the shiny mahogany surface of his desk and said, “That’s not necessary. I don’t need a lawyer to talk to her.”
“But she’s with the FBI,” Dietrich said, the big man’s deep voice pitched low as if he worried she would overhear him, although he stood close to Trent’s desk and she was on the other side of the doors, at least. Probably down the hall in the living room or foyer. Dietrich was paid well to protect Trent’s privacy.
A grin tugged at Trent’s mouth. “Do you think I’ve done something that puts me in need of a lawyer?”
“I didn’t mean to imply …”
“Do you think the FBI has a valid reason for questioning me?”
“Sir—”
Trent lifted a hand to wave off his employee’s contrition. “I’m just messing with you, Dietrich.”
Anything to get a reaction out of the usually expressionless man—and to distract himself from what awaited him outside the pocket doors of his mahogany-paneled den. Fate.
He drew in a deep, bracing breath and directed his assistant. “Show her in.”
“She’s not alone,” the other man reminded him.
Trent shrugged. “I don’t care who’s with her. I’ll only see her.”
He had already felt her, drawing nearer as she drove up to the estate. Even if he hadn’t had the call to warn him, he would have known she was coming. With a connection this strong, she had to be the one.
He had to be the one. Everything had led her here—to him. Trent Baines had to be the killer.
“He will see you.”
Startled, Alaina whirled away from the window and its fog-enshrouded view of the treetops. How had such a big man moved so quietly back into the living room where he’d left her and Agent Vonner? Then the young man, wearing a suit as dark as Vonner’s, turned to leave again.
Vonner trailed after him and, her pulse racing, she followed Vonner. Their footsteps on dark slate flooring echoed in the two-story foyer through which they passed. On one side of it were the double doors from which they’d entered. On the other, an elaborate double staircase with a cathedral-size stained-glass window on the landing.
As Vonner had commented, the place was a castle. And only one man lived here, with his servants?
The butler or bodyguard—or whatever the young man was—held out a hand as if stopping traffic at the closed pocket doors at the end of the wide hall. “Mr. Baines will only see the woman.”
“Agent Paulsen,” Alaina supplied her name.
“No,” Vonner protested.
“It’s fine,” she said. Her gun heavy on the holster on her belt, she wasn’t afraid for her safety.
The man—Dietrich he had called himself when he’d let them in earlier—began to slide open the pocket doors.
“You can’t see him alone,” Vonner protested and reached out to grasp Alaina’s arm.
She glanced from the fingers crushing the sleeve of her dark suit jacket to his face. Then she arched a brow, uncertain of Vonner’s motives. Did he not want her to get all the glory if they had, at last, found a genuine lead? Or was his concern only for her safety?
Neither option comforted her. In fact, she had been uneasy ever since Vonner had been assigned to the cold case with her. The male agent acted more interested in her than the case.
Vonner released her, but his dark-eyed gaze had gone beyond her to the man standing inside the dark-paneled den. “He’s not old enough …”
To be the killer? Was that what Vonner was about to say?
Alaina stepped away from her partner. As she joined Trent Baines in his inner sanctum, the pocket doors slid shut, closing her inside, alone with him. Despite what her partner believed, she knew Trent Baines could still be the killer. The cold cases they investigated now had occurred before this lifetime of his. Alaina was aware of her other life. Was he?
His gaze met hers, his green eyes burning with an intensity that had heat streaking through her body. Even though several feet separated them, she could feel not just the touch of his stare but the touch of his hands, caressing the curve of her waist, the slope of her hip, cupping the weight of her breasts….
She could feel his skin sliding over hers as she lay naked beneath him, her hands clutching at the rippling muscles of his back. Images flashed through her mind, images of his face as he lowered his head to hers, his mouth touching her lips. But this man didn’t look like Trent Baines, who had dark blond hair and penetrating green eyes. The man in the images had brown hair and eyes, but something about him was eerily similar to Trent, almost as if they were the same man.
Her lips parted, and a shaky breath escaped her aching lungs. Was he the man she had loved or the man who had killed her for loving someone else?
“You feel it, too,” Baines remarked, his voice thick with a sexy huskiness.
“Feel what?” Her heart pounded with fear and emotion.
“The connection.”
Determined to pull herself together, Alaina lifted her chin and arched a brow. “Not a very original come-on. I expected more creativity from a New York Times bestselling author.”
“Are you a fan, Agent …?”
“Paulsen.”
“Do you have a first name?”
“Yes.”
His mouth, his lips full and unsettlingly sexy, curved into a grin. “You’re not willing to share?”
“I don’t think it’s necessary for us to be on a first-name basis, Mr. Baines,” she said. Not when she could already feel his touch, his kiss … “I’m only here to ask you some questions.”
“You don’t want my autograph?” he asked, a teasing glint brightening his eyes. He reached behind him, onto his desk, and lifted a hardcover book. “I’d be happy to sign a copy for you. To your first name.”
“I don’t want a signed book.” Or for him to know her first name. She already felt too intimately connected to him, more intimately connected than she’d felt to any other man she’d met … in this life. “I’ve read everything you’ve written.”
Baines picked up a pen from the leather blotter on his desk and, as if he hadn’t heard her, flipped through the first couple pages of the book. “So you are a fan.”
“I’m an investigator.”
He scribbled something and held out the book to her. She hesitated to step closer, but she couldn’t reach it unless she moved nearer to where he sat now on the edge of his desk. He was tall, like his employee, but his body had the lean, muscular build of a runner. He obviously didn’t spend all his time behind his desk. Yet how had he written so many books, and achieved so much success, at an age she guessed to be close to her own thirty years?
Curiosity overcame her reluctance, and she closed the distance between them. When she grasped the book, he pulled it back, tugging her nearer so that her thighs rubbed against his as she stumbled between his knees. Her heart slammed against her ribs as it began to beat furiously. “Mr. Baines—”
“Trent,” he corrected her, his voice a raspy drawl. “Call me Trent.”
She shook her head, hoping to break the hold he had on her—the one that was more emotional than physical. “I didn’t come here for your autograph. I’m not a fan, Mr. Baines.”
His shoulders rippled beneath his thin black T-shirt as he shrugged. “I have few fans in law enforcement.”
“I’m surprised you have any,” she remarked.
He released the book she hadn’t realized she still held, and advised, “Read the autograph.”
Her fingers trembling slightly, she opened the cover and flipped to the title page, to the masculine scrawl of his signature and the words above it. To Alaina, I feel it, too.
She lifted her gaze from the book to his face. With sculpted features and those sexy lips, the man was beyond handsome. He was fascinating. “You know my name.”
His grin flashed again. “I’m an investigator, too.”
“Your editor called you,” she surmised because she had only been able to track him down through his publisher. The man had gone to extremes to protect his privacy.
“Of course. The publisher makes too much money off me not to take care of me,” he said with glib arrogance. But his green eyes sparkled with amusement, as if he laughed at himself.
“And Dietrich?” she asked, referring to the man who’d shown her to his den. “Does he take care of you, too? Is he your butler or your bodyguard?”
“He’s my assistant.”
“So you don’t do your own research?” she asked, wondering now if she was talking to the wrong man. But then he moved, and his knee rubbed against the side of her thigh. Her pulse raced in reaction and she knew … this was the man. She stepped back, needing some distance between them, needing to not touch him.
“I’m not sure what exactly Dietrich assists me with,” he said, his brow furrowing in confusion, “but it’s not my writing. No one helps me with that.”
Her hand shaking slightly, she closed the hardcover book. “So you’ve done all your own research for this series?”
He nodded. “Do you want some investigative pointers?”
A smile threatened, but she bit her bottom lip. She should have been irritated instead of amused by his arrogance. “I am here because I want some information.”
“What do you want to know, Alaina?”
Her name on his lips lifted goose bumps along her skin and the fine hairs on the nape of her neck. “I want to know how you found out details that were never released to the public.”
He arched a dark blond brow. “Details of what?”
“Of the murders you sensationalized in your books.”
“Sensationalized?” He tapped a finger against the spine of the book she held. “It’s fiction.”
Her stomach muscles tightened in dread. “No, it’s not. Every one of those murders actually happened.”
And one of those murders had been hers.
Chapter 2
“No, no, they haven’t.” Trent denied the veracity of her claim even though he knew she spoke the truth. For some time he had suspected that the images in his head weren’t products of an overactive imagination but memories. Someone else’s memories. “It’s fiction,” he insisted. “Just fiction.” “I have case files—” “I want to see them,” he demanded. He hadn’t wanted to know before, so he had never looked up old news stories or pulled police records. But now he needed proof; he needed to prove that the murders in his books didn’t match the ones about which Agent Paulsen had come to question him.
She shook her head with enough force that one silky tendril of blond hair slipped free of the knot at the back of her head. “That isn’t possible.”
“Why not?” he challenged her. “Are you afraid I’d write about them? According to you, I already have.”
“Yes, it’s like those poor women have been brutally murdered twice,” she said. “Once in reality and then again in your novels.”
Trent squeezed his eyes shut on a wave of self-disgust. “I didn’t know.”
Because he hadn’t let himself believe …
“You had to know. You used too many details,” she said, releasing a shaky sigh. “You used every detail, some that had never been released, details of which very few people were aware.”
“That’s why you’re here,” he surmised.
“Of course. What other reason would I have?”
Because she’d been looking for him, as he’d been looking for her—for the woman with whom he knew he would share this special connection. Yet even as connected as he was with her, he couldn’t feel her emotions like he was able to experience the emotions of others. He had no idea if she was really feeling what he was. The fierce, breath-stealing attraction and heart-pounding desire.
“The police like to hassle me from time to time,” he admitted. “I’m used to it.”
“In your books the serial killer,” she said, her pretty mouth twisting in disgust, “is the hero.”
“I wouldn’t call him a hero.” Complex. Multidimensional. That was what the critics called the protagonist of Trent Baines’s Thief of Hearts horror series.
“But,” she said, “you’ve written him as being smarter than law enforcement.”
That was what tended to piss off the authorities.
Her smoky gray-blue eyes darkened with frustration, and she added, “He always gets away.”
“Didn’t your killer?”
“What?” The faint color drained from her porcelain skin. “How do you know?”
“This killer you’re after,” Trent said even as he wondered at her reaction, wishing again that he could feel her emotions. “You wouldn’t still be after him if he hadn’t gotten away.”
“How do you know I’m after him?”
“You wouldn’t be here if you weren’t. We’ve already established that you’re not a fan.” And she wasn’t likely to become one now. Despite whatever they might have meant to each other in another time, he was the writer that law enforcement hated.
“I could just be following up on a case,” she pointed out. “Checking out why you know things that only the killer would.”
He swallowed hard, but the knot in his throat wouldn’t go down. “Only the killer?”
Color rushed back into her face. “Or his victims.”
“But none of his victims could have survived to share their stories,” Trent said. If those real murders were exactly like the ones in his books, in his mind, no one could have survived the brutal attacks, the ritualistic mutilation. But they could have come back, returning from the dead into a new life.
Was that what had happened to him? Had he lived before? Was that why he had these memories that were not his? Whose were they, then? The memories of the killer that Alaina Paulsen sought?
“No, none of his victims survived,” she con firmed.
“How long ago did the murders happen?”
“I didn’t come here to share information with you,” she reminded him.
“You came here to get information from me.” The irony had his lips twitching into a grin. How could a man who had no idea what was real and what was fiction aid in a federal investigation?
“So tell me, Mr. Baines,” she persisted, “how you know things no one else knows about these murders.”
He tapped a fingertip against his forehead. “Imagination, Alaina.” That was what he’d been telling himself the past ten years—that he was only imagining things.
But he wasn’t imagining the connection between him and this woman, this stranger. Needing to touch her, he reached out, but before his fingertips could skim her cheek, she caught his wrist.
“Don’t.” She dropped his arm and stepped back, increasing the distance between them.
But he could still feel her touch, his skin tingling where her fingers had held his wrist.
“You might be able to ignore it, but I can’t,” he said. “There’s something here….” Something in her that pulled at him, that drew him to her. “There’s something between us.”
“Your ego,” she quipped.
He laughed. Sick of adoring fans, he found her attitude refreshing and attractive. But then, he found everything about her attractive. “Alaina …”
“These books,” she said as she lifted the one she still held, “these murders, aren’t from just your imagination. They are exactly the same as the real ones.”
He shrugged again. “Haven’t you heard? There is no such thing as an original idea.”
“I’ve heard that, but the saying I believe is that there is no such thing as coincidence.” She narrowed her eyes. “There’s no way you have all those details exactly the same by coincidence.”
“I don’t believe in coincidence, either,” he admitted. “I believe in fate, Alaina. I think that’s what brought you here.” He stood and closed the distance between them. This time when he reached for her, she didn’t catch his wrist. She didn’t stop him. His fingertips slid along the curve of her cheekbone, then down her neck to where her pulse pounded fast and hard beneath her pale skin. “Fate is what brought you to me.”
Her throat moved as she swallowed. Then her tongue slid out from between her lips, sliding over the fuller bottom one.
Trent leaned forward, drawn to her mouth, to her lips. But before he could taste more than her breath, the doors rattled under a pounding fist.
“Alaina, c’mon,” a male voice called out to her. Trent felt and heard the man’s impatience. “We have to go!”
As close as Trent was to her, just a breath apart, he caught the flash of regret in Alaina’s eyes before she pulled back.
“No, you have to stay,” Trent urged her.
She shook her head and, with a trembling hand, pulled a cell phone from her pocket. “I—I have to go.”
“You will come back,” he said.
“Yes,” she said to his relief, but then she dashed his hopes. “But just because you haven’t answered any of my questions.”
He shook his head. “No, because you won’t be able to stay away from me.”
She didn’t deny his claim. She just pulled open the doors and walked away, joining her impatient partner in the hall, so she didn’t hear his next words.
“And because I won’t be able to stay away from you …”
She turned back, their gazes meeting, holding like he’d longed to hold her. And he suspected that she knew, even if she hadn’t heard him.
“What the hell was going on in there?” Vonner asked.
Fortunately, he had to concentrate on the hairpin turns of the tree-lined road leading away from Trent Baines’s remote hilltop estate in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan. So he couldn’t see Alaina’s face, which was certain to reveal everything she felt: stunned, overwhelmed and disappointed. Leaving Trent Baines hadn’t been easy; staying away would probably prove as hard as he’d warned her.
She stared at the facedown book on her lap. His publicity shot added to the mystery surrounding the reclusive author, as his raised hand covered most of his face. Only the strong line of his jaw and wind-tousled dark blond hair were visible around his palm and fingers.
“Alaina?” Vonner prodded her. “What happened in there? What was going on?”
Fighting to steady her voice, she said, “I don’t know what you mean….”
“Why’d you waste so much time?” the dark-haired agent persisted. “He’s not the guy. According to Igor—”
“Igor?”
“His butler,” Vonner explained. “According to him, Baines is only twenty-nine years old. As we both know, the last of these murders happened thirty years ago. Whatever Baines knows about the cases, he probably just figured out by reading old newspaper articles or talking to someone who was around back when the murders happened.”
“But now there’s been another murder.” She reminded him of the call she hadn’t heard because she’d been too distracted. Or captivated.
Trent Baines had nearly kissed her. And she was disappointed that he hadn’t, that they had been interrupted before she’d learned how his lips would feel, how his mouth would taste….
Guilt gripped her now. While she’d been distracted, someone else had been murdered. Brut ally. Ritualistically. The M.O. exactly matched those thirty-year-old cases.
“This murder is further proof that Baines can’t be the killer,” Vonner added. “Because you were with him when we got the call.”
“We don’t know how long ago the murder occurred.” Due to a weak cell signal, Alaina hadn’t heard much of what her supervisor had said except that she needed to quit wasting her time on an unsubstantiated lead.
Only she knew it wasn’t unsubstantiated. Only she knew that Baines had used details that weren’t even in the files of those cold cases. But if she told her bosses how she knew—that she remembered a past life … and death—she’d lose whatever respect and credibility she had in the Bureau. They would think she was as crazy as the killer.
“The guy’s so isolated up here,” Vonner pointed out, cursing beneath his breath as a tire dropped off the edge of the drive onto the loose gravel shoulder. “There are no quick trips for him.”
“We can’t rule him out yet,” she insisted, “not until we have more information about the murder.”
“They’re not going to release the scene until we get there,” Vonner assured her. “But still I can’t see how Baines is involved.”
And Alaina couldn’t see how he couldn’t be involved. He knew too much—and made her feel too much—to not be deeply involved.
With the murders?
Or just her?
He’d found her. Or had she found him?
With her blond hair and grayish eyes, she didn’t look or sound or smell the same, but then she was in a different body. Only her soul and her spirit had returned in the beautiful form of Alaina Paulsen.
This time she would love him, only him. And if, like last time, she refused to give him her heart, he’d just have to take it.
Again.
Chapter 3
Emotion overwhelmed him. This was why he isolated himself in the wooded hills of his estate—because he couldn’t block out what others were feeling. He couldn’t help but feel it, too.
Disgust and fear emanated from the uniformed officers guarding the door. Trent passed them and ducked under the yellow tape. The crime scene had already been processed, so he was alone in the studio apartment. The victim’s body was on its way to the morgue, but he could feel the residual emotion left in the room.
The paralyzing terror hung heavy in the air. He winced as the echo of the victim’s screams reverberated inside his head. He widened his eyes as he studied the scene—the blood spattered on the white walls and drying to a dark burgundy, the blood pooled on the hardwood floor, as thick and dark as tar. He inhaled deeply, trying to fill his shallow lungs, but he breathed in the cloying metallic scent of blood.
His stomach cramped, and he doubled over, crippled with pain. But the pain was not his. It was never his. He always felt others’ pain, others’ emotions. Never his own.
Until today. Until he’d met Alaina Paulsen.
“What the hell!” a vaguely familiar male voice exclaimed in surprise.
“How—Why are you here?” asked a woman. The woman—Alaina Paulsen.
Like earlier today when he’d been with her, Trent felt none of her emotions. He felt no emotions but his own. Attraction, fascination and an overwhelming sense of destiny …
“You can’t be here,” the man said.
Trent assumed he was the other agent, the one he’d refused to see because he’d only been able to see her. This time he took a moment to compose himself, schooling his features back into his usual cocky mask, before he straightened up and turned to her.
“How did you get here before us?” Alaina asked.
“He must have a helicopter,” her partner answered for Trent. The man stood close to her, protectively. Were they more than professional partners?
Trent didn’t care what they’d been. The guy was no threat to him. No other man had the claim on her that he did. As he met her gaze, one emotion gripped him—possessiveness. Mine.
Her eyes widened, as if she’d read his mind, and she dragged in a shaky breath. “That explains how you got to Detroit before we did,” she said, “but how did you get here?” She gestured at the apartment. “Into our crime scene.”
The “our” to which she referred was not her and her partner; Trent couldn’t accept that. It was him and her. She knew just as well as he did that he was part of this. If only he knew, for certain, which part.
“I told you,” he reminded her. “I have a few fans in law enforcement.”
“In the Bureau?” the male agent asked, his dark eyes narrowed with doubt. His suspicion was as palpable in the air as the scent of the victim’s blood.
“Check out my story,” Trent suggested, more to get rid of the guy than to reassure him.
The agent turned to Alaina, who offered a brief nod. With a warning glare at Trent, the man ducked under the crime-scene tape and slipped out into the hall.
“So you’re the senior agent,” Trent observed.
“What?”
“He checked with you before leaving.” Or maybe her partner had just wanted to make sure she would be all right alone with Trent.
Alaina didn’t satisfy his curiosity as she ignored his observation. “That’s why I went to your estate,” she said, “to check out your story. To find out what your involvement was in those old murders.”
Her brow knitted as she glanced around the room, taking in the crime scene. Again, the color faded from her porcelain skin, leaving her ghostly pale.
But she wasn’t a ghost. She was real. And for the first time in the memory of his own life, Trent felt real. His emotions were finally his own instead of what he’d empathetically picked up from someone or somewhere else.
“Those murders happened before I was born,” he reminded her.
“You do have a friend in the Bureau,” she said, accepting his claim without the confirmation her partner required. “A source.”
He shrugged. “I wouldn’t call him a source,” he clarified. “More like a fan.” Someone who had contacted him a couple times throughout the years and whom Trent had felt comfortable calling to find out all he could about Agent Paulsen—like where she’d rushed off to in such a hurry.
Before he’d had a chance to kiss her and test the strength of the passion she’d drawn from his soul.
“A fan?” She shook her head, as if she doubted his claim or doubted that anyone would actually enjoy the novels he’d written.
Sometimes he wondered about that himself. He didn’t enjoy writing them; they exhausted him as much as experiencing the emotions of others.
“This murder didn’t happen before you were born,” she pointed out, her teeth nibbling at her full bottom lip. “Did you get sick of just writing about murder and decide to reenact one that you wrote about?”
“No.” He wasn’t a killer … in this life. But if he had the soul of a killer …
“No?” she repeated as if disappointed by his short response. “That’s it? You’re not going to eloquently profess your innocence?”
While he shrugged, he was anything but unconcerned. “It doesn’t matter how eloquent I am. You’ve already made up your mind about me, Alaina.”
“You’re involved,” she insisted. “Somehow, someway, you’re involved.”
He wished like hell that he wasn’t. But he couldn’t deny her allegations.
As if she dismissed him, she began to inspect the crime scene, ignoring his presence. He couldn’t ignore her; he could do nothing but stare at her.
Then she uttered a sudden gasp.
He followed her gaze to discover what had elicited the reaction from her. The blood, the gore? He would have expected that she was used to those things in crime scenes. Then he saw it, too: his book, lying atop the day-bed where the victim had been raped and mutilated. The book lay facedown, the hand lifted over Trent’s face in the publicity shot spattered with blood.
As if he hadn’t already been blaming himself for this woman’s death.
Her blood was on his hand. It had only been a book, Alaina kept reminding herself. But still she couldn’t get the image out of her head. She couldn’t get Trent out, either. She worried that he was in deeper than her mind, that he owned a part of her reincarnated soul.
“Why are you so hung up on Baines?”
She jerked away from her intense scrutiny of the bright lights of the cityscape outside her office window. Vonner’s startling question brought forth a rage of denial and resentment. “Why the hell would you say something so—”
He held up a palm to interrupt her tirade and clarified, “As the killer. Why are you so hung up on him being the killer? Yeah, I get that the helicopter access makes him a suspect in this case, but he wasn’t even alive when the other murders occurred.”
She turned back to the window, leaving Vonner sitting in front of her desk piled high with cold-case files. She only needed to glance at one of the folders to know exactly what was inside; she’d read them all so many times. But how did Trent know so many of the details it had taken her years to learn? “He knows too much.”
“So you think he knows who the killer is?” Vonner asked with a heavy sigh. “That he interviewed him when he started writing those horror books of his?”
He should have been excited by the lead he’d been chasing for months—Alaina for years—but they’d spent hours on the road after very little sleep. She understood his weariness.
But Alaina doubted she would sleep anytime soon. The killing had started again. She knew this murder would not be a onetime thing; she knew it with as much certainty as she knew the contents of every one of those cold-case files. This new victim’s case would never get onto that pile on her desk; Alaina would not rest until Penelope Otten’s murderer was found.
“Yes, I think he knows who the killer is.” Or he had been the killer in another life and his evil soul had called him to kill again …?
She sucked in a breath at the horrific thought. She didn’t want him to be the killer. She just wanted—
Vonner said, “We’ll have to talk to him again.”
That was what she was afraid of—talking to him, touching him, kissing him, giving in to the passion that had burned so hotly between them that it was forever a part of her soul. But she would do whatever was necessary to find the killer. “Yes, we’ll need to interview him.”
“That’s if the bosses will let us.” Vonner pushed a hand through his disheveled hair. “I still can’t believe he was granted access to a crime scene.”
“A crime he could have committed,” she reminded her partner and herself. He could be a killer in this life, too.
“Think the Bureau will let us use the helicopter to get back to the U.P.?” he asked. “I hate to think of doing that drive again.”
“He’s here now,” she murmured, her skin tingling as she sensed him close.
“What?”
“He’s somewhere in the building,” she said.
“What? Did Security notify you when he came in?” Vonner asked.
“Something like that …” Her phone rang, saving her from offering a more specific explanation. Her partner would not understand her special connection with the horror author; she didn’t understand it herself.
Vonner grabbed the receiver. “Agent Paulsen’s desk.”
She held out her hand for the phone, but instead of passing it to her, he hung it up. “Who was that?” she asked.
“The morgue.”
Trent gripped the edge of the metal table on which the victim’s body lay. His vision blurred, a red haze blinding him as pain overwhelmed him. He felt every emotion she had experienced in those final moments before her death. Panic shortened his breath and quickened his pulse. Then the fear intensified to a terror so acute that his lungs burned with a scream he couldn’t utter. His throat ached as if strong hands wrapped tight around his neck, choking the life from his body. But before the threatening blackness claimed him, the pressure eased. He gasped for breath, trying to fill his aching lungs. Then pain shot through his heart, so sharp and intense he clutched a hand to his chest and dropped to his knees.
“What’s he doing?” a male voice whispered. “Having a heart attack?”
Trent turned toward where Alaina stood in the doorway to Autopsy. He hadn’t felt her this time. He’d been too connected to the dead woman, to the emotions echoing from her soul within the empty shell of her mutilated body.
Those emotions clung to him no matter that he tried to shake them off. Exhaustion weighing heavy on his limbs, he lurched to his feet and staggered into the metal table. The woman’s stiff arm dropped off the edge, her hand open as if reaching out to him.
Alaina stared at him, her eyes narrowed and her brow slightly creased beneath the fall of blond hair. The man, her partner, stood almost in front of her, as if protecting her from Trent or trying to come between them.
A memory tugged at him, a memory of frustration and jealousy. Someone else had tried to come between them. In another life?
“What the hell’s wrong with you?” Agent Vonner asked. “Are you drunk?”
He ignored the man as if he was invisible. To Trent he was; he could see only her now.
“What are you doing?” she asked him finally.
“I was given access—”
“To the Bureau’s morgue?” Vonner asked, his voice cracking with shock and indignation. “Who the hell gave you access?”
Because she lifted a dark blond brow in question, Trent answered, “Phillip Graves.”
A breath hissed out between Vonner’s clenched teeth at the mention of the director’s name. He turned his back on Trent and spoke softly to her. “We gotta stop this, Alaina. We can’t have a suspect getting access to the crime scene and the evidence. We have to talk to the director.”
“You need to talk to Agent Bilski first,” she corrected her coworker as she slipped past him to stand on the opposite side of the metal table from Trent. “Don’t go over his head.”
“Okay, Bilski first,” Vonner agreed. “But you have to come with me to talk to him.”
She shook her head in denial.
Trent’s lips twitched into an amused grin. She didn’t like being told what to do. He could identify; he’d never liked taking orders.
“I can’t leave you alone with him,” Vonner said.
She lifted her gaze from the victim to Trent. “Where’s Dr. Rosenthal?”
“He stepped out to get something for me,” Trent admitted.
“What the hell? Are you ordering him around like you do that ape you have on your payroll?” Vonner asked.
“Oh, I’m glad you’re still here,” Dr. Rosenthal said as he rushed back into the room. “Thank you for waiting for me.”
The gray-haired coroner’s admiration and awe physically washed over Trent, drawing a smile from him even as Vonner’s disgust and distrust pummeled him from the other side of the room. But he experienced none of Alaina’s emotions. He could only feel her, like a touch on his skin, a kiss on his lips….
Dr. Rosenthal held out a book and a pen to Trent. “Do you mind signing my copy for me?”
Trent steadied his hand as he reached for the book, the same edition that had been spattered with blood at the crime scene. Even though this cover was clean, he could see the blood again on his hand.
How was he involved in all of this? It was more than mere coincidence. He knew this. And so did she.
Vonner snorted and turned on his heel, leaving the room. Trent noted his exit, but Alaina didn’t so much as glance at her partner. Instead, she stared at him, as if trying to figure out who he was or where she’d seen him before.
An image chased through Trent’s mind. The curve of a woman’s throat as she arched her neck. Her hands, with slender, red-tipped fingers, cupping and caressing her own breasts as she moved her hips, rocking back and forth on his pulsing erection. Then her cry of pleasure as she came. The woman had red hair and green eyes; she looked nothing like Alaina. But to him, she felt the same.
“Mr. Baines,” the coroner said, glancing from him to Agent Paulsen. Confusion wrinkled his brow. “Do you mind autographing …?”
“Not at all,” Trent assured him, flipping through until he came to the title page. Then he scrawled the doctor’s name, some platitude and his own, although sometimes he didn’t feel as if his name was really his. Even though he hadn’t taken a pen name, Trent Baines felt like an alias; he felt as if he was really someone else.
“So, Dr. Rosenthal,” Alaina said, drawing the coroner’s attention away from him, “when will you have the autopsy report ready?”
“I need more time,” Dr. Rosenthal said, his face flushing with color.
“How long?” Alaina asked sharply, her impatience with the doctor’s lack of professionalism obvious.
“I can’t tell you how long it will take me,” the doctor said. “It’s getting late….”
“How long has she been dead?” she clarified.
“I did a liver temp. Twenty-four hours.”
She glanced at Trent. No doubt he was back on her suspect list. Then she turned to the doctor again and advised, “Let me know as soon as you finish the autopsy. And don’t call me again if you don’t have any information for me.”
Dr. Rosenthal sputtered, “B-but I didn’t—”
“I called you,” Trent admitted, irritation gripping him that the male agent had answered her phone.
“Why?” she asked.
“Because I can tell you what happened to her.”
She said nothing, only turned that unfathomable stare on him again.
He continued, anyway. “She was raped, then strangled until she nearly blacked out.”
Dr. Rosenthal gestured toward the victim’s throat. “There is bruising around her neck that supports that.”
“And then she was stabbed,” he said with a twinge in his chest as he relived the woman’s pain. He drew in a ragged breath before finishing his assessment, “And her heart removed from her chest.”
The doctor did not need to point out the gaping hole and missing organ in the mutilated corpse. Dr. Rosenthal only added, “His M.O. is just like that of the protagonist in your books, just like the Thief of Hearts.”
“Exactly like the Thief of Hearts,” Alaina agreed, her eyes unblinking as she studied Trent.
Did she expect a confession?
Chapter 4
“I want to talk to you,” Alaina said from the shadows of the dimly lit corridor. She’d waited for Trent outside the morgue, unwilling to watch the coroner continue to fawn over the author. And she’d been unable to stand beside the body of the red-haired woman who’d died such a violent death—the same death Alaina was certain she had experienced.
Trent grinned as if not a bit surprised to find her in the hall, waiting for him. Then he reminded her, “I warned you that you wouldn’t be able to stay away from me.”
Heat flushed her skin as she remembered what he’d told her when she’d left him that morning. Then another memory flashed through her mind: a thumb stroking across her bottom lip, back and forth. A hungry mouth sliding down her throat, nibbling along her collarbone before skimming over the slope of her breast to the nipple that peaked, begging for attention. His attention.
She swallowed hard, choking down the desire that overwhelmed her. “I only want to talk to you.”
His naughty, sexy grin widened as he stepped closer to her, trapping her against the wall. “Why waste our time talking?” he asked, his voice a seductive purr. “I’m not going to tell you what you want to hear.”
“What’s that?” She leaned her head back, away from the temptation of his lips. “What do I want to hear?”
“That I’m the killer.”
“If only it were that easy …” She sighed, bone-deep weary from a day that had started with her and Vonner on the road at dawn, driving up to Trent Baines’s remote castle in the Upper Peninsula. Now, night had fallen and she was back where she’d started in Detroit … only with Trent Baines. Just as he’d said, she couldn’t stay away from him.
The image flashed through her mind again—lips tugging at her nipple, a tongue flicking across the tip, hands caressing her back, then along her sides to the curve of her hips. She arched and parted her legs, silently begging for him to take her….
But he pulled back.
Trent stepped away from her and asked, “Killers don’t spontaneously confess like on television?” His green eyes sparkled with feigned innocence.
“No one who’d actually committed a crime ever spontaneously confessed to me.” She crossed her arms across her chest. It was cold in the hall, but her skin was hot, flushed with desire for the man in her mind.
And maybe the one in the hall …
“Innocent people confess?” he asked.
“Innocent? I don’t know how innocent they are when they interfere with an investigation just to get attention. Screwed up, yeah.” But then, so was she, to be attracted to a man who might be a killer.
He lifted his shoulders in a slight shrug. “Well, I’m not going to confess either my guilt or innocence. You’re wasting your time talking to me.”
“And you’re wasting your time going to the crime scene, visiting the morgue.” Tension pounded at her temples and knotted the muscles in her neck and shoulders. “What are you doing here in the middle of my investigation?”
“I got clearance.”
“But why would you ask for it? Why would you want to go to a crime scene or visit the morgue?” She had to know. “Is this what you do? Is this how you research your novels?”
“That’s what the director thinks,” he admitted with a wink. “But I’m really not one to do much research.”
“Then I’ll ask you again. What are you doing here?” Trying to cover up evidence that might have implicated him? Sure, the crime scene had already been processed, the evidence collected, before he’d arrived. But still his presence there, and at the morgue, unsettled her, raising her suspicions about him even more.
He stepped forward again and touched her, just the pad of his thumb sliding along the line of her jaw. “I’m here for you.”
She shivered at the intensity of his gaze and the heat of his touch. Both felt eerily familiar. “Why? You won’t answer my questions.”
“I want to help you, Alaina,” he said, his deep voice full of seductive promise. “I want you to figure out what you need to know.”
“I need to know who this killer is,” she said. “I need to catch him.” She’d wanted that for so long, even before he’d killed again. Now she had to find him, to stop him….
“That’s not all you need to know.” He leaned closer, his forehead nearly touching hers. “You need to know about us.”
She pushed her hands against his chest and shoved him back. Ignoring the tingling in her palms from the heat of his body and the hardness of his muscles, she shook her head. “There is no us. And there will never be.”
But had there been? In another life? Was he the lover she dreamed of, even wide-awake? Was he the man who had loved her so passionately in her past life that no other man in this life had ever measured up?
“You feel it, Alaina,” he insisted, his voice a rough whisper. “I know you feel it, too.”
Staring into his eyes, she could almost glimpse the images in their depths, the images that had been taunting her, of two naked bodies intimately connected, physically and emotionally. Alaina dragged in a ragged breath of air and shook her head again, trying to clear it. “All I feel for you is suspicion. You know more than you’re telling me about those old murders and this one.”
His grin flashed again. “You feel more than that. You feel what I feel….”
It didn’t matter what she felt. “I don’t trust you,” she stated unequivocally, reminding herself. “All I want is the truth.”
“Since you don’t trust me, you won’t believe that anything I tell you is the truth,” he pointed out. “So I guess we have nothing to talk about.”
Images, like slides in a projector, flicked through her mind—a sculpted chest pressed against her breasts, heavily muscled arms holding her close, perspiration glistening on slick skin….
She opened, then closed, her mouth, knowing it was useless to ask Trent Baines any more questions. Like he’d said, she wouldn’t trust the veracity of his answers.
But since she didn’t trust anyone with her secrets, she couldn’t expect him to share his willingly. She’d have to find out what she wanted to know another way.
“Come with me,” he urged her, his green eyes glittering with desire and erotic promises. “Come with me and we won’t have to talk at all.”
Temptation pulled at her to see if he could deliver on those promises. To see if he could make her feel what she only imagined….
“I shouldn’t be here,” she whispered, as if afraid someone might overhear her and catch them. “It’s so wrong….”
“That’s what makes it so exciting,” he pointed out as he reached for her.
She pressed her palms against his chest, as if about to push him away again. Her eyes wide with confusion, she stared up at him. “I don’t know why I’m here.”
“I told you,” he reminded her, “that you wouldn’t be able to stay away from me … any more than I can stay away from you. You belong with me.”
She shook her head, trying to deny him, trying to deny her feelings.
He cupped her chin in his hand and tipped her face up. “Look at me. I’m the man you’re meant to be with. You can feel it, too.” He lowered his lips and just brushed them across hers. “When I kiss you …” He trailed his fingers across her cheek, along the length of her neck to the curve of her breast. “When I touch you …”
Her fingers clenched the fabric of his shirt, dragging him closer. “I want you.”
Want. It wasn’t love. And what he wanted—needed—was her love.
The soft click of a door opening drew Trent’s attention from his computer screen. He lifted his head as Dietrich stepped inside his room of the hotel suite they shared.
“I’m sorry, sir,” the big man said. “I didn’t mean to interrupt your writing.”
“No, that’s fine.” He didn’t want to be writing, anyway; he wanted to be with Alaina. But she had refused his proposition and denied her feelings for him.
Hell, maybe he was wrong about her. Maybe he couldn’t feel what she felt because she felt nothing for him. Maybe this connection between them, this sense of destiny, was only in his mind.
Trent rubbed a hand across his forehead where tension pounded with the onslaught of the emotions of others. “Did you get this floor cleared?”
Dietrich nodded. “The concierge helped convince them to move to the new rooms you’re paying for.”
“And everyone moved?” Because he could still feel the anxiety of someone about to do something … Apply for a new job? Ask someone to marry him?
And the couple that fought …
Trent felt their anger and resentment, the hurt and pain that felt eerily familiar even though he’d never been in a relationship that had lasted beyond a week or two of physical pleasure.
At least, he hadn’t in this life.
Had he lived before? Or was it that through their emotions he lived everyone else’s life right now?
Dietrich nodded. “Everyone on this floor has moved. But there are people on the floor below and in the buildings surrounding this hotel. We should go home, where it’s quiet and peaceful,” he urged. “The city is too much for you.”
Trent closed his eyes as a red haze of emotion rushed over him. Then oblivion, black and comforting, tempted him to slip into unconsciousness. He’d done it before. Blacked out when he was too overwhelmed to deal with the pain of others.
At the crime scene and the morgue, he’d nearly lost consciousness. The terror and pain had been so intense.
But he was stronger now than the kid he’d once been … the kid who’d escaped into his own little world so he wouldn’t have to deal with others. He opened his eyes to the screen of his laptop. The words he’d just written all blurred together unintelligibly.
And he realized it hadn’t been his own little world.
Other people had lived in it with him … Before he had killed them?
Dietrich cleared his throat, drawing Trent’s attention back to where he hovered, like a mother hen, in the doorway of the suite. He spoke hesitantly, dropping each word softly into the silence. “I don’t understand why we’re here.”
Trent leaned back in his chair at the desk. Too weary to speak, he just arched a brow.
“You have that book to finish.”
He’d already missed his deadline.
“Your editor called again today.” Dietrich relayed the message, as much secretary as bodyguard. “Twice.”
Evan was pissed, not just about the deadline but because Trent had told him this book would be the last in the lucrative Thief of Hearts series. It was time to end it. But he’d been struggling before Alaina Paulsen had shattered his peace and quiet and confirmed that his fiction was actually fact.
Fact that Trent didn’t know if he was strong enough yet to face….
“I’ll get the book done,” he promised Dietrich and himself.
“But it’s easier for you to write back at the estate,” his assistant insisted. “You have fewer distractions.”
It wasn’t just his empathy that distracted him now; it was her. And Dietrich must have noticed.
Hell, Trent had left shortly after she had that morning. But it hadn’t been just that he was drawn to her, connected in some way he couldn’t explain. It had been because of the murder. He’d called the Bureau to find out why she’d been called away so abruptly and he’d learned of it. The ritualistic killing that so closely matched the M.O. of the protagonist of his Thief of Hearts novels. He’d had to see for himself if the nightmares he’d hoped were only products of his imagination matched the horrifying reality.
“I was there,” he murmured, the dead woman’s terror gripping him again. “It was just like.” The violent images once again took center stage in his mind.
“It’s not your fault,” Dietrich said, “if someone copied your book. You can’t be held responsible for someone else’s actions.”
But what if they’d once been his?
He closed his eyes, and passionate images replaced the violent ones. A woman’s nails raking his back, clutching at his butt as he thrust inside her again and again. Alaina Paulsen was more than just an agent investigating murders; she was part of it, too.
She had once been his … and he couldn’t leave until she was again.
Excitement coursed through him, but he fought it down, fought to control his emotions.
But it was all so perfect.
He wanted to scream, wanted to thump his fist in the air in celebration. But he had rejoiced another way, a far more satisfying way….
He lifted the cover from the box. He’d found it, like he had so many other things, when he’d opened that door and allowed the past to come rushing back into his mind.
A chuckle rumbled in his chest. Trent Baines had unlocked that door with his books. And until today the man had had no idea that he’d let the monster loose.
He gazed inside that box at the heart he’d stolen. In his mind, it beat yet. For him.
But it wasn’t the heart he really wanted. That heart beat now inside Alaina Paulsen’s chest. But he knew to whom it had once belonged. The woman she had once been and the man she had once loved.
Now he knew who they all were and who they all had once been … before he’d killed them.
He closed the lid on the box, which would soon fill with more hearts. Because now he knew what he had to do, who he had to kill. Again.
Chapter 5
“So did you talk to the director?” Alaina asked as Vonner dropped into the chair across from her desk. Dust danced in the morning sun streaming through the windows. Since she’d forbidden the night-shift cleaners from touching her office, and potentially misplacing some of those files, she’d have to clean it herself soon.
After taking a swig of coffee from his paper cup, Vonner grimaced and shook his head. “No. I talked to Bilski first, like you suggested.”
“And?”
He shrugged. “He doesn’t think Baines is a problem.”
Alaina rubbed her fingers over her tired eyes. She hadn’t slept at all last night, plagued by the images chasing through her mind. Of that poor woman … and Trent, leaning close to her in the hall, his eyes promising her the passion she remembered from another life. Maybe she should have gone with him, wherever he’d wanted to take her. Maybe she should have let him take her….
Maybe then she would have had the answers she’d sought for so many years.
She opened her eyes and focused on the pile of cold cases. Which woman had she been of the twelve murdered at the hands of a sadistic serial killer?
“You and I both know better,” Vonner prodded her.
“What?” Heat flushed her face. She did know better than to trust a man who could have been that killer.
“We both know that Baines is a problem,” Vonner explained. “A big one.”
Yes, a problem for her peace of mind. For her heart.
But was he the killer? God, she hoped not.
“So Bilski wouldn’t speak to the director?” she asked, trying to follow the conversation when she was tempted instead to follow her heart.
“No.” Vonner snorted his disgust. “He figures Baines already left.”
A twinge of regret tightened her chest. She rubbed her knuckles over it, feeling the faint ridge of the scar beneath the thin fabric of her lightweight sweater. She closed her eyes again, as an image taunted her.
Lips on her breast, the skin smooth and clear over her heart. Hands tightening on her hips, lifting her to meet his thrusts.
She opened her eyes, trying to clear her head, and she met his deep green gaze. Trent Baines stood behind Vonner, leaning against the open door of her small office. Heat rushed to her face as if he’d caught her like she’d been in that memory—naked and vulnerable.
“Good morning,” he greeted them.
Startled, Vonner jerked and inadvertently squeezed his paper cup. Coffee surged between the rim and the lid and ran over his fingers. He set the cup on the floor and cursed.
Trent clicked his tongue against his teeth. “I figured you’d have sharper reflexes, being an agent.”
“Damn you.”
He shook his head. “You better run some cold water over that. Looks like it could be a nasty burn.”
Vonner, his dark eyes hot with anger, glanced back at Alaina. “Go ahead,” she assured him. “I can show Mr. Baines out.”
“Show me out?” he asked after Vonner knocked against him, passing him in the door way.
She rose from behind her desk and walked around it, blocking it and those files from his view. This was her personal space; she wanted him nowhere near it. “You must be leaving, right? Heading back to the U.P.?”
“Not yet,” he said, his gaze intent on her face, as if he knew what she’d been thinking, what she’d been seeing.
“There’s no reason for you to stick around,” she pointed out. “You won’t talk.”
“There’s another reason for me to stick around,” he said, leaning close.
She needed to step back, to get away from him, in case he tried to kiss her. Because somehow she knew that if his lips touched hers, she’d be lost.
But instead of kissing her, he murmured, “I need to see those cold-case files.”
She stepped closer to him, tempted to shove him out the door. “You exploited those women enough already,” she said, anger choking her. “You’re not using them anymore.”
“I only have your word that my books match those murders,” he said.
“You were there yesterday, at the crime scene.” It still galled her that he’d beaten her there. “You know those murders match the books.”
“No, I know that murder matched my books.” And it drove him crazy that that woman might have died because of him, because some lunatic had decided to copy what he’d written. Or what he’d done.
“It’s the same as the others,” she insisted. “There’s no need for you to go through the files.”
“You should want me to take a look at them,” he said. “I can help you.”
She shook her head, and while he couldn’t feel her emotions, he glimpsed the fear in the depths of her gray-blue eyes. Maybe, like him, she was afraid of the answers to the questions, afraid of what she would learn about herself. “What makes you think I need your help?”
“You came to me,” he reminded her.
“For answers. You haven’t given me any.” Her eyes narrowed with suspicion. “You have nothing to offer me.”
His lips twitched, and he grinned at her challenge. “We both know I have a lot to offer you.”
He had to touch her, so he reached out to skim his fingertips along her delicate jaw. But she pulled back so his skin just brushed hers. It was enough that he felt her heat. And he knew that if he ever really touched her, passion would burn between them, brighter and hotter than even those images that flashed through his mind. “I can give you pleasure….”
“You arrogant bastard,” she said. “You might be used to women falling at your feet. But I’m not a fan. You don’t impress me.”
“Has any man?” he wondered. Or had she spent her life as he had, searching for something, for someone, he hadn’t been able to find? Until now.
“My personal life is none of your damn business,” she told him.
“Do you have one?” he wondered. “The director told me you’ve been working this case for a long time, almost obsessively.” He narrowed his eyes, studying her face, wishing he could feel what she felt. But only his own emotions—his attraction and fascination with her—consumed him. And others’ emotions edged in: pain, frustration, anger and resentment. “Why does this case mean so much to you, Alaina?”
“Every case means a lot to me,” she said, but her voice lacked the strength of conviction.
“This case is personal to you,” he said. “Why? Was one of those women your mother? Sister? Aunt?” Or, as he suspected, her?
“No.”
“C’mon, Alaina, let me help you,” Trent urged her. “You’ve gone over those files so many times that I’m sure you’ve missed something. I can be your fresh eyes, your fresh perspective.”
“She doesn’t need you,” a deep voice informed him. The surly agent had returned. The cold water must have soothed away the burn of the hot coffee, for his fingers weren’t red anymore.
Yet Trent saw the red in his mind, as if he weren’t the only one with blood on his hands. Maybe he was just projecting, looking for someone else to blame for what he’d caused.
Vonner stated, “I’m her fresh eyes on this case.”
“You just recently got assigned to it?”
Vonner nodded. “Unless you’re willing to tell us who fed you the information from those files, you really have no reason to be here.” The guy’s dark gaze flicked to Alaina, as if staking his claim. “Why don’t you end your little field trip to the FBI and go back home, Baines?”
“I have every reason to be here.” And she stood right in front of him, her eyes narrowed with distrust. She was smart not to trust him when he didn’t even trust himself.
Vonner was right; Trent needed to leave. It was better if he returned to the oblivion in which he’d been living. No emotions, others’ or his own. No desires, like the passion that burned inside him for her.
As he met her gaze, he saw another woman, one with red hair and pale skin, standing naked before him, her lips curved into a smile of pure temptation. Her image superimposed over Alaina’s until the two became one, as if the soul of the red-haired woman lived inside Alaina’s beautiful face and body.
It had to be her….
She shivered, despite the turtleneck she wore beneath her dark suit jacket. She’d worn a high-necked sweater yesterday, too.
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Lisa Childs
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Жанр: Современные любовные романы
Язык: на английском языке
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Дата публикации: 16.04.2024
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О книге: Alaina knows she’s lived before.And that a sinister secret lies behind her death. The gifted hands of a handsome lover. A gleaming knife and blood-curdling screams for help. That was all Alaina remembered from her past life and the reason she investigated serial murders for the FBI…including her own.Reclusive writer Trent was her prime suspect. An empath barricaded in a fortress-like home, Trent included details in his books that mirrored the murders…and that no one could possibly know. But one look at Trent and Alaina recalled their passionate embraces. Then the murders began anew…