Second Chance For Love
Second Chance For Love
SUSANNE MCCARTHY
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CHAPTER ONE (#u9bfd1435-689c-5930-b91d-f658bc06c61f)
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Josey sensed thatpeople were covertlywatching her
She could feel the curiosity of their eyes resting on her. So this was the woman who was living with Tom Quinn. However, she could hardly stand here and announce to the assembled company, Its not what you think.
And Tom wasnt exactly helping matters, standing so close behind her like that, as possessive as a dog with a bone. No one looking at them would doubt that they were lovers
SUSANNE McCARTHY grew up in South London, England, but she always wanted to live in the country, and shortly after her marriage she moved to Shropshire with her husband. They live in a house on a hill, with lots of dogs and cats. She loves to travelbut she loves to come home. As well as her writing, she still enjoys her career as a teacher in adult education, though she only works part-time now.
Second Chance for Love
Susanne McCarthy
www.millsandboon.co.uk (http://www.millsandboon.co.uk)
CHAPTER ONE (#ulink_19513da9-1d19-5bd2-885c-d69fed1a8f60)
MANIAC! The driver of the delivery-van almost had to stand on his brakes, swerving sharply to avoid a head-on collision as the white Porsche took the bend too wide, veering over towards the oncoming traffic. Look where youre damned well going, he advised fiercely, though the woman at the wheel would not have heard him.
In fact, Josey had barely even been aware of the near-accident. She had driven all the way from London in a kind of trance. All she had in the car were the few clothes she had thrown into a bag. Everything else she had left behind her, along with nine years of her life.
She had known for a long time that her marriage was over. But it had come as a bitter blow when Colin had announced, as coolly as you liked, that he wanted a divorceso that he could marry his secretary. It wasnt losing him that hurt. No, it was the fact that Paula was pregnantand that he was delighted.
He had never wanted her to have children, she reminded herself, the bitterness welling up. A baby wouldnt fit in with their lifestyle, he had said. He worked hard all day, he had said. He didnt want to come home to a house full of toys and nappies, and be kept awake all night by a baby crying.
Maybe she should have left him years ago. But somehow there had never seemed to be quite enough reason to take such a serious stepvague suspicions that he was having affairs, which she had never quite been able to bring herself to confront him with. She was sure Paula wasnt the firsthe probably seduced all his secretaries. She ought to knowshe had been his secretary herself once.
She had been just twenty-one when she had first gone to work for himand he had been the stuff of every young girls dreams: good-looking, urbane and dynamic. Too dynamic for the respectable, well-established firm he was inhe was keen to branch out on his own. He had exercised all his considerable charm to persuade her to take the plunge, and go with him.
It had been fun, at first, watching the small company mushroom with success. But she had always kept their relationship strictly businessshe had already had a very nice boyfriend, to whom she was unofficially engaged. Ironically, it was a row with Derek about the long hours she was working that had precipitated the change. Colin had been so incredibly kind and understanding. He had taken her out to dinner to cheer her upand somehow she had found herself in his bed.
Why, out of all his conquests, had he chosen to marry her? Probably to secure her loyalty, at a time when she would have been indispensable to the business, she mused wryly. And he had probably seen her as a social asset, toosomeone to organise the vitally important social side of his life, preside over his dinner parties with grace, making intelligent conversation with all his tedious guests.
And of course she had been beautiful then. She hardly recognised herself now in the thin, pallid creature she had become. Her hair was lank and lifeless, the russet glints it had once held dimmed, and her eyes were dull. She was only thirty-one, but she looked nearer forty. Maybe she couldnt blame him for looking elsewhere.
It was hard to know when it had all started to go wrong. Maybe it was since she had given up her career. She had been overjoyed when Colin had first suggested that, since the company was prospering so well, she no longer needed to work; at last, she had believed, it was his intention that they should start a family. But she had been in for a bitter disappointment.
In the beginning she had tried to persuade him. But every time she had brought the subject up he had accused her of nagging, and eventually he had begun to get more and more annoyed. She had hated the rows, so gradually she had ceased to even try to discuss the issue.
And gradually they had grown further and further apart. She had already grown disillusioned with their shallow lifestyle, with friends who seemed as disposable as last years fashions. If they could even have had a proper house with a garden to tend, and maybe room for a dog, she might have been a little happier. But their ultra-smart City apartment had begun to seem like a prison: she had been bored, with nothing to do but shop and go the hairdressersand that hollow, aching longing for a baby had never gone away.
With a hand that shook slightly she reached out to the dashboard, and found the half-empty pack of cigarettes. That was something else, she mused bitterly as she fumbled for her lighter. She had only begun smoking a couple of years ago, to calm her nerves. She had tried countless times to give them upit was a habit she hatedbut she couldnt do without them.
Colin had caught her by surprise, coming home in the middle of the afternoon like that. She had been slopping around the apartment in a pair of old jeans and a faded T-shirt. Somehow that made it all so much worsehe liked a woman to be elegant, and the look of faintly veiled contempt in his eyes had undermined any hope she might have had of dealing with the situation with any kind of dignity.
If Paula hadnt been pregnantShe hadnt been able to handle that. She had cried, making her eyes ugly and red, and he had become exasperated. In the end she had fled to the bedroom, packed a bag, and told him he could have his divorce, have the apartment, have anything he wanted. Then she had just climbed into her car and driven off.
She had had no clear idea of where she was going. It wasnt until she had found herself driving around the M25, the orbital motorway around London, for the second time, that she had given that problem any consideration. And then she had thought of the cottage out in the wilds of Norfolk, left to her by her great-aunt Floss a couple of years before.
She hadnt been there since she was a child, but she remembered that it was remote, on the edge of a tiny village, miles from anywhere. Suddenly that had seemed enormously appealing, and she had set off, with only a vague idea of how far it was to Cottisham.
Through the fine Norfolk drizzle misting the windscreen, a road-sign showed her that the next turn was to her destination, and she took it. The road was dark, but even if it had been daylight she doubted that she would have recognised itshe would have been no more than about ten years old the last time she was here.
What sort of state would the cottage be in? Aunt Floss had diedoh, it must have been three years ago. For the first time, she began to consider that the place would probably be in a bit of a mess. The electricity would probably have been turned off, and maybe even the water too. But at least she was nearly thereshe could just go straight to bed tonight, and sort out any problems in the morning.
Her hand found the cigarette-lighter at last, and she flicked it into flame, bending her head to draw deeply on the tobacco
The headlights came out of nowhere, straight towards her, and too late she realised that the road bent away sharply to the left. In an instinct of panic she snatched at the wheel, braking hard, and the tyres lost their grip on the damp road, sliding into a lazy treacherous skid. In front of her, the beam of her own headlights stabbed out into nothingness
She wasnt dead, thenit couldnt have been as bad as she had thought it was going to be. She had had an image, fleetingly, of the car tipping over some steep incline and rolling over and over, crushing her. But she seemed to be the right way up, though the car was tipped up at an odd angle, and the windscreen was shatteredAnd someone was asking her if she was all right.
Damnhow was she going to get to the cottage now? And that was blood trickling down her cheekSuddenly she realised that she was hurt, and started to scream.
All rightsteady. You cant be too badly injured if you can make that sort of noise. The voice was calm and competent, and he had reached into the car, unfastening her seatbelt, and was running what felt like an expert hand over her body.
Are you a doctor? she whispered, looking up to find a pair of intriguing hazel eyes just a few inches above her own.
He laughed drily. No, Im a vet. You dont seem to have done yourself too much harmwhich is more than can be said for your car. Do you think you can move?
I think so. But my wrist hurts.
Show me.
She held it out to him gingerly, but his examination was so gentle that she hardly felt it. Some part of her mind was incongruously registering the thought that he was one of the most attractive men she had ever seen: thick dark hair, shaggily cut, fell over a high, intelligent forehead, and his face was starkly masculine, with a strong aquiline nose, and a lean, hard jaw.
Are you really a vet? she asked curiously.
Yesbut the principles pretty much the same, he reassured her. I think youve broken this. If you can get to my car, Ill take you to the hospital.
Your cars all right?
You didnt hit meI managed to brake and get out of your way, he told her, a faintly sardonic inflexion in his voice. What happened? Didnt you see the sign for the bend?
She tried to shake her head, but found it a jarring experience.
Steady, he advised. Youve been pretty badly shaken up. Take it slowly.
Supporting her with one strong arm around her shoulders, the other holding her injured arm steady, he eased her very gradually from the car. It was crazy, but she found herself leaning on him just a little more than was strictly necessary; it just felt so good to have a man treating her with a little tenderness, a little kindness, after so many years of Colins indifference.
His car was just a few feet away, slewed across on to the wrong side of the road, and with a small stab of horror she realised just how dangerously close she had come to a much more serious accident. That thought made her feel slightly sick, and she found that she really did need all his support to make it the short distance to his car.
Dimly she took in that it was an old Land Rover: of coursehe would need a tough car if he was a vet. An elderly black and white border collie was sitting in the front seat, but he gave it a crisp order, and with a look of mild indignation at being banished it skipped over into the back.
It was a relief to be able to collapse into the front seat. She closed her eyes, for a few moments conscious only of the fires of pain in her wrist and her head. But she had had a very lucky escape. Opening her eyes, she peered across at her own car.
Well, she had certainly made a mess of that! It was tail-up in a ditch, the bonnet crumpled and the offside badly smashed in. It was probably going to be a complete insurance write-off. Well, that was Colins problem, she reflected with vicious satisfactionboth the car and the insurance were in his name.
Her rescuer had placed a warning triangle in front of the wreck to alert any oncoming cars, and was coming back with her suitcase and her handbag. She offered him a grateful smilebut what she really needed was something to steady her nerves.
Did you bring my cigarettes? she pleaded urgently.
Your cigarettes? The impatient frown that crossed his brow warned her that he didnt much approve of the habit.
They were on the dashboard guiltily she remembered that it had been in lighting a cigarette that she had taken her eyes off the road for just that fatal fraction of a second and my lighter, she begged. It might have fallen down.
All right, he conceded grudgingly. Ill get them.
Josey watched him walk back to her car, registering the easy, athletic stride, and the impressive breadth of shoulder beneath his green oiled-cotton jacket. She found herself wishing she hadnt asked him to fetch her cigaretteshe had made her feel about two inches tall, as if she hadnt felt bad enough already. If only she had been able to give up the disgusting things. Somehowfoolishlyit mattered to her what he thought of her.
Not that he was going to think much anyway, she reminded herself miserably. The glass of the Land Rovers windscreen reflected her face to her all too clearly. She looked awful; correctioneven more awful than usual. Her eyes were hollow and puffy from crying, and now there was a nice graze on her forehead, still trickling blood. She sought in her handbag for a tissue to dab it away as he came back.
He swung himself behind the steering-wheel, tossing her cigarettes and lighter into her lap, making no effort to conceal his contempt. No, I dont mind if you smoke in my carjust this once, he grated, preempting her routinely polite enquiry as if he had doubted whether she would have the manners to ask.
Thank you, she mumbled, clumsily trying to open the packet with her one good hand. Tears of frustration welled into her eyes.
Oh, here, give them to me, he snapped, taking them from her. He drew one cigarette from the packet and put it between her lips, and then flicked the lighter for her. You seem pretty determined to kill yourself, one way or another.
She stared up at him in shock. I wasnt trying to kill myself, she protested.
Werent you? he queried drily, starting up the Land Rover. It was pretty suicidal, the way you were driving.
Ihad things on my mind. She looked down into her lap. Just at the moment she didnt feel like telling anyone about her marital problemsleast of all this man. He already thought she was a pretty pathetic specimen.
What were you doing on this road anyway? he enquired. Were you lost?
No. I was heading for the village.
Cottisham? At this time of night?
I was left a cottage there, by my aunt, she explained. I was going to stay there for aa holiday.
He slanted her a look of surprise. You dont mean old Florrie Calders place?
Do you know it? she asked.
He laughed with sardonic humour. Yes, I do. If you were planning to stay there, its a pity you didnt do something about it beforethe place is practically derelict.
Derelict? Oh, dearI didnt realise
How many years is it since you bothered to visit the old lady? he enquired, a hard edge in his voice.
I havent been up since I was a little girl, she countered defensively. She was my mothers aunt, really, and my mother died when I was twelve.
She was all on her own. Dont you think you could have taken a little more interest in her welfare?
She hung her head, feeling ashamed. He was perfectly rightbut it had simply never occurred to her to keep in touch. Even her mother had never been particularly close to the rather eccentric old lady, and after she had diedto be honest she had virtually forgotten her existence, until the letter had come from the solicitor informing her that she had been left the cottage. At the time even that had been of little interestas Colin had said, it was really not very well located for a holiday home.
II never thought she mumbled.
No, I dont suppose you did. His tone implied that he would have expected no better of her. Turning his attention impatiently away from her, he pulled over for a moment, reached down and switched on the car-phone. First he called the hospital and warned them of their arrival, then he dialled another number. A womans voice answered. Hello, Maggie, he said. Its Tom. Look, Im sorryIm ringing to let you know Ive been delayed. There was a bit of an accident on the road, and Im running someone to the hospital. Ill get to you as soon as I can.
OhRight, came the steady response. Thank you for letting me know, Tom.
So who was Maggie? Josey wondered dully. His wife? She had sounded as if it was a regular occurence for him to be held up by something or other. It must take a great deal of patience to be the wife of a country vet, she reflectedalways on call, never knowing when he would have to go out or when he would be back. She would have to be a remarkably strong woman.
She felt a twinge of envy as her imagination began to paint a pictureof a warm, rambling cottage, with the elderly collie snoozing beside the hearth, and a couple of fine strapping sons who took after their father
They had set off again. Her head was beginning to ache quite badly, and she felt as if she would have liked to cry. Today had very definitely been the worst day of her whole life.
Is there anyone you want to get in touch with, to let them know youre all right? he asked, his voice suddenly gentle.
No. One single tear escaped from the corner of her eye, and began to track slowly down her cheek. She brushed it away with her good hand. Thank youyouve been very kind.
Youre in shock, he said. Dont worrywell be at the hospital in a couple of minutes.
She nodded gratefully. It would be nice to be able to lie down, and have someone take away the pain. But a strange pang of regret tugged at her heartonce he had deposited her at the hospital, Tom would go away, and she wouldnt see him again. He probably wouldnt even spare her another thought, except as the crazy woman who had almost smashed into his car.
Stupid, she scolded herself crossly. The last thing she needed at the moment was to start fancying she was attracted to some total stranger, who had crossed her path by complete chance. And yethe was very attractive, she conceded, slanting him a covert glance from beneath her lashes. Six feet plus of rangy, well-built male, the kind that no woman could ignore.
And his handsThey were beautiful, with long, sensitive fingers, and strong wrists. She found herself remembering the gentle way those hands had examined her, and a shimmer of heat ran through her
Noit was all just reaction. The shock of Colins announcement, followed by the accident, had left her off balance. And he was so very different from ColinColin with his immaculately combed hair, his designer suits, his decaffeinated coffee. She couldnt imagine this man drinking decaffeinated coffee. He wouldnt need to fuss with such things, not with the healthy, active life he must lead. So very different
It was pleasant, this feeling of being close to him, cocooned in the warmth of the carlike some comfortable dream from which she never wanted to wake up
Here we are.
She opened her eyes quickly to find that he had brought the car to a halt beside a wide porch, with a pair of battered plastic swing doors of the type used so much in hospitals. A sign above the entrance said ACCIDENT AND EMERGENCY. A young nurse had come out to the car, bringing a wheelchair.
I dont need a chair, Josey mumbled, feeling guilty for causing such a lot of fuss.
Better if you do, Tom insisted firmly, climbing out of the Land Rover and coming round to help her out.
And indeed she found that she did. During the short drive her body seemed to have stiffened; she could hardly move, and as he helped her gently to her feet her head swam sickeningly. She dropped heavily into the chair, and half closed her eyes again.
With part of her mind she was conscious of the nurse flirting with him somewhere above her head, but she was past caring. They wheeled her into a small reception area, and straight over to a narrow cubicle, curtained with some ancient flowered cotton.
Could you just pop up on the trolley? asked the nurse, gratingly bright.
She looked round for Tom, but he had goneand he hadnt even said goodbye. But then she heard his voice on the other side of the curtain. Hello, Andy.
Well, hello, Tom. Whats going on? You dont have enough of your own kind of patients, so youve had to start poaching mine?
Tom laughed; he had a nice laugh, Josey decided-low and sort of husky, from spending so much time out in the raw Norfolk air. Nojust some woman who ran her car into a ditch. His tone was casually dismissive. I dont think its too seriousfortunately she had her seatbelt on. I think youll find shes broken a bone in her wrist, but apart from that shes just generally a bit bruised and battered.
Any sign of concussion?
No, just shock.
Fine. Well, Id better take a look at her.
The curtain was brushed briskly aside, and the doctor came in. Well, now, what have you done to yourself? he asked pleasantly, bending over the trolley.
Itsjust my wrist, she managed to respond. She could just see Tom, through the half-open curtain, chatting to the nurse again. A stab of stupid jealousy shot through her. The girl was pretty, with a mass of sexily luxuriant ash-blonde hair, tucked up neatly beneath her white cap, and an expression of sweet feminine kindliness. It was a combination that most men would find devastating.
Was he married? Maybe not, after allmaybe the nurse was his girlfriend. In fact, she wouldnt mind betting that every unattached female in the district under the age of sixty was after him. Forget it, she advised herself despondently. Maybe once, a few years ago, she could have stood a chance of competing, but not nowhe wouldnt even look twice.
Wearily she closed her eyes, hardly interested in what was happening to her as the doctor examined her. His touch was light, but not quite as gentle as Toms had been, and Josey found herself wishing that it were he who was examining her instead.
Well, I dont think youve done yourself any serious injury, apart from your wrist, the doctor was saying. Ill send you down for an X-ray on that, and then wed better see about putting it in plaster for you.
She nodded apathetically. Tom had gone, and she just wished they would let her go to sleep. But first the nurse had a form to fill in, with all her personal details, and then a porter camethe irritatingly cheerful sortand wheeled her through deserted corridors to the X-ray department. Then at last it was back to Casualty, where someone put a warm plastic splint on her wrist, and tied it up in a sling.
She was back in her cubicle, half-dozing in the wheelchair, when she heard Toms voice outside again. I thought Id just drop by on my way home and see how she is.
She seems fine, the doctor responded, a note of constraint in his voice. Theres no sign of concussion. The wrist is fractured, but its been set. Apart from a bit of shock, there are no other problems.
So whats wrong?
She heard the doctor sigh. I really cant justify keeping her in, Tomnot on medical grounds. You know the situation were in for bedsIve got a threatened miscarriage in cubicle three, and Ive already had to send a coronary over to the Norwich.
Youre going to discharge her? He sounded surprised.
I dont really have much choice. At the most, I suppose I could stretch a point and keep her here until the morning. But all she needs is a couple of days rest, with someone to keep an eye on her, and shell be perfectly all right. Did she mention to you where she was planning to stay? Does she have friends or relatives up here?
Josey heard Tom laugh drily. She was old Miss Calders nieceremember that old stone cottage out by Brecks Coppice?
She wasnt planning to stay there? The doctor sounded incredulous. But its been empty for yearsit must be practically falling down!
Oh, the structures basically quite sound, but itll need a lot doing to it to make it habitable. Though she looks as if shes got the money, he added, a sardonic inflexion in his voice. Anyone who can afford to write off a Porsche cant be short of a bob or two.
There was a distinct note of contempt in his voice, and Josey felt herself wishing she could crawl into a corner. Of course those who eavesdropped never heard good of themselves, she reflected bitterly, but what else could she do but listen?
But in the meantime, that doesnt solve my problem of what to do with her, does it? the doctor pointed out grimly. Of course, I could ring her husband and get him to come and fetch her.
No! The sharp protest broke involuntarily from Joseys lips, and she tried to stand up.
The curtain was drawn back, and the doctor hurried in, frowning as he saw her struggling to her feet. Now, now! You shouldnt be trying to get up on your own, he chided, pushing her back with a gentle pressure that Josey didnt have the strength to resist.
Theresno need to ring my husband, she insisted weakly. Ill find myself a hotel or something.
Tom had come in behind the doctor, and he laughed mockingly at her words. Where do you think you are, South Kensington? he enquired drily. We dont have too many hotels around here, and those there are will be full for the tourist season.
Besides, I wouldnt be very happy just to let you go to a hotel, the doctor put in seriously. Dont you have anyone up here you could go to for a few days? A relative, or a friend?
No, she admitted reluctantly. Its years since Ive been up here. Itit was just an impulse that I came, really.
The doctor sighed. Well, where are you going to go? He hesitated, glancing round at Tom. I dont suppose?
Tom looked faintly alarmed. What?
It would only be for a day or two, the doctor assured him persuasively. She wont need any special carejust lots of rest. By Monday she should be as right as rain.
Josey gasped in shock as she realised what the doctor was suggesting. Oh, no! I couldnt possibly!
It would really be an enormous help, Tom, the doctor persisted. Besides, if I knew it was you keeping an eye on her, Id know she was all right.
Tom hesitated, then smiled wryly. OK, he conceded with no great deal of enthusiasm. It looks as if thats the only option.
The doctor looked relieved. Ill give you a prescription for some diazepam for herthe pharmacy will be able to make it up for you tomorrow. Where have you parked your car? Nurse, get the porter to bring a chair, will you?
He bustled away without waiting for an answer, leaving Josey looking up at Tom in some embarrassment. Im sorry, she murmured awkwardly. Ive put you to so much inconvenience already.
Its no trouble. But his unsmiling expression did nothing to reassure her.
Ill find a hotel asas soon as I can.
I said its no trouble, he reiterated a little impatiently. Just dont expect the Ritz.
CHAPTER TWO (#ulink_c0214b16-6805-5fec-bfbc-cf376dd205a7)
JOSEY lay in the big bed with her eyes open, trying to make herself believe that all this was actually real. Bright sunlight streamed through yellow chintz curtains, falling on the faded home-made patchwork that covered her bed and warming the mellow oak of the old-fashioned furniture.
Yesterday morning, and most other mornings for years past, she had woken in a stylish Italian bed, in a room with smart white walls and a pale beech floor, where she could just glimpse the south column of Tower Bridge if she leaned slightly to her left. Colin would be in the shower, and she would pad out of bed and into their glossy space-age kitchen, to pour him a glass of orange juice from a carton in the refrigerator.
But yesterday had goneirrevocably. Her marriageor rather the empty shell of it that she had been clinging to as if it were some kind of security blanket for so longwas over, and she had to face the world on her own. And this world was very different from any she would have expected to find herself in.
She didnt remember much about getting here from the hospital. The doctor had injected her with some kind of pain-killer, and she had wanted to do nothing but sleep. She vaguely recalled a low, rambling building of weathered brick and flint, and the perfume of roses on the night air. And a cosy, old-fashioned kitchen, with a slightly uneven quarry-tiled floor, and a wicker dog-basket with a well-chewed red blanket beside a large inglenook fireplace.
These images came back to her like snap-shots in her mind. She could remember too, with a feeling that made her mouth a little dry, how she had stumbled woozily, and Tom had picked her up as if she weighed nothing at all, and carried her up a flight of steep, narrow stairs, and brought her into this room, with its low, oak-beamed ceiling and big comfortable bed.
And she had been so clumsy with her wrist splinted and tied up in a sling that she had had considerable trouble getting out of her clothes and into her nightdress, and he had had to come and help her. But the unceremonious way he had dealt with the task had told her quite unmistakably that any modesty on her part would have been quite wastedshe held absolutely no allure for him whatsoever.
What she didnt remember, though it was the one thing she had been trying to look for, was anything that suggested the presence of a wife or children in the house. She had only the impression of an exclusively male atmospherethe shelf above the fireplace was merely a convenient place to put anything that didnt have an immediate home, none of the roses from the garden had found their way indoors, and the curtains were purely functional and slightly in need of a wash.
With a wry smile she acknowledged to herself that such interest in the details of his domestic arrangements was really rather silly. But maybe she just needed a shred of romantic fantasy, to cushion the shock of the abrupt ending of her marriage. And maybe she was looking to him for just the smallest reassurance that she might still have some attraction for a man because it was so long since Colin had shown the least interest in her.
With a sigh she eased herself gingerly up on the pillows. If it was flattery she was seeking, she was wasting her time with Tom Quinn. Maybe he reserved all his warmth for the animals he cared forhe seemed to have little to spare for the human species, or at least for the female half of it.
But then what did she expect? Maybe five or six years ago she might have been able to make some impression, but she was going to have to take herself seriously in hand if she was ever going to expect any man to be attracted to her again. If it wasnt already too late; she was getting dangerously close to her sell-by date.
Goodness, she felt stiff. Every inch of her body ached, her head was sore, and her wrist was both throbbing and numb at the same time. And she was dying for a cigarette. Forming the thought brought the familiar craving, and she knew that somehow she was going to have to get out of bed to reach the packet, which was on the dressing-table on the far side of the room.
Tears of self-pity rose to her eyes. It was an exhausting effort even to move, and the dressing-table seemed a hundred miles away. But that raw need wouldnt let her have any peace. Tossing aside the quilted bedcover with an exclamation of impatience, she swung herself round and put her feet on the floor.
Dark pain swam before her eyes, and she had to wait a moment for it to clear. Then gritting her teeth she tried to stand up. She had managed about three steps when the door opened, and Tom appeared on the threshold, a breakfast tray in his hands.
What the devil are you doing getting out of bed on your own? he demanded brusquely.
II was trying to get my cigarettes, she explained, giving up and sinking back on to the bed.
Why didnt you call me?
I thoughtyoud probably be busy or something, she mumbled. Suddenly she was all too acutely aware of the way the dipping neckline of her silk nightdress revealed the gaunt hollows of her shoulders, while the pale ivory colour did absolutely nothing for her washed-out complexion. She crawled back under the bedclothes, drawing them up over her. Im sorry.
A flicker of impatience crossed his face. You dont have to keep apologising, he grated, setting the tray down on a low pine chest beside the bed. He moved across and picked up the cigarettes, tossing them on to the bed with undisguised contempt. Eat your breakfast, he advised tersely. Itll do you more good than those things.
II dont know if I can eat very much, she stumbled, eyeing the laden tray without appetite. I dont usually have breakfast.
No. The wry twist of his mouth conveyed what he didnt actually saythat she was too thin. He stood looking down at her in critical appraisal as she lit her cigarette, drawing on it deeply in relief. How many of those do you smoke a day? he asked bluntly.
Ohonly about twenty or so. She shrugged, unable to meet his eyes. I know theyre no good for me, and Ive tried giving them up, but I just cant.
You could if you wanted to.
She slanted him a resentful look from beneath her lashes. It was easy enough for him to say thathed probably never smoked. He didnt look the sort of man who had ever suffered from a lack of will-power. Yes, wellIll give them up some time, she promised vaguely. But not just at the momentthey say you shouldnt try to give up when youre under stress.
Thats the best time to do it, he persisted with ruthless insistence. If you can cope without them now, youll be able to cope without them any time.
Those stupid tears were stinging the backs of her eyes again. Im sorry, she mumbled thickly, and then, remembering that he had told her not to keep saying she was sorry, she apologised for that too. Im sorry.
He laughed drily. Eat your breakfast, he repeated, and went out, closing the door behind him.
Josey leaned back against the pillows, closing her eyes. How had she ever let herself sink into such a mess, that she couldnt start the day without a cigarette? It was no wonder that Tom treated her with such disdain.
Wearily she turned to the breakfast tray he had brought her. There was far more food than she could ever manage, even if she had been feeling more like her usual self. With a groan she realised that she wouldnt be able to manage half of itand Tom was going to be even more annoyed with her.
He had every right to be, of courseshe had been nothing but a nuisance to him since she had all but smashed up his car last night. It would be better if she just took herself off to a hotel somewhere, out of his way. Holding that thought resolutely in her mind, she rolled herself painfully out of bed.
There was a small sink in the corner of the room, and she dragged herself over to it and had a sketchy wash, and then with some considerable difficulty got dressed. She had just finished, and was struggling one-handed to re-fasten her suitcase when Tom came back into the room.
What do you think youre doing now? he demanded. I told you not to try getting out of bed on your ownand you havent even touched your breakfast.
I knowIm sorry. Damnhe had told her not to keep saying that. Youve been very kind to me, and Im very grateful, but I cant trespass on your hospitality any longer. If I could just use your telephone, Ill ring for a taxi, and find a hotel somewhere.
Dont be silly, he rapped, his patience strained. Youre as weak as a kitten. Get back into bed.
NoIm leaving, she insisted, though already just the effort of getting dressed and packing her bag had left her feeling exhausted. Im just a nuisanceyou dont want me here Oh, damnwhy did her voice have to waver so pathetically? She tried to pick up her suitcase, but it was loaded with bricks, and she slumped to her knees, tears of frustration stinging her eyes.
Get back into bed, he repeated, the sudden gentleness in his voice so unexpected that it made her sob harder. Youre in no fit state to go anywhere today. His strong arms came around her, helping her to her feet, and he led her over to the bed, sitting down beside her, still holding her comfortingly close. Im sorry if Ive made you feel so unwelcome. The taut note in his voice made her wonder just how rare it was for him to apologise. I suppose Im more used to four-legged patients than two-legged ones.
Im sorry, she mumbled, her mind half-drugged by the evocative male muskiness of his skin. I must be in your way. Youve got work to do, and Im taking up your time, running around after me, making my breakfast
Vi made your breakfast, he corrected her drily. She couldnt bring it up herselfshes got a touch of arthritis, and cant manage the stairs.
Oh She managed to stifle her tears, helped by a strong dose of curiosity. It didnt seem very likely that this Vi was his wife, if she was old enough to suffer from arthritis. Whos Vi? she asked, trying to sound as if she had no more than a casual interest.
My housekeeper.
Oh. She flickered him a cautious glance from beneath her lashes. Yourenot married then?
No.
Sowho was Maggie?
Maggie? He looked faintly puzzled. Oh, you mean Maggie Hunter? Shes the wife of a farmer over by Saltham Marsh. I was on my way to look at one of their cows when weerran into each other.
Oh She could feel a faint blush of pink colouring her cheeks. Had she revealed a bit too much by asking such a pointed question?
He reached out and took the bowl of cereal from the tray, putting it into her hands. Come onjust try and eat some of this, he coaxed. Youll feel a lot better with some good food inside you.
She doubted it, but she made the effort just to please himand rather to her surprise she was able to eat most of the contents of the bowl.
Thats better, he approved. Dont worry about the restmaybe youll be able to eat a little more later. He glanced at his watch. Now that youre dressed, you might as well come downstairs and rest on the settee. I have to go out, but at least itll be a bit more interesting for you than being stuck up here with nothing to do.
Thank you. She managed to smile, though it was rather a weak effort. Youve been very kind.
He smiled back at herand her heart flipped over. It was the first time she had seen him smile, and it was like the sun coming out, transforming his hard features at a stroke. Some people would say that kindness isnt my strong point, he remarked with an inflexion of sardonic humour. At least as far as human beings are concerned.
Oh, no, she protested a little breathlessly. Youve done so much for me.
Yes, wellYou dont have to keep thanking me, he grated, that terseness back in his voice, as if he found her thanks even more irksome than her presence. Come on, Ill help you downstairs. Can you walk, or shall I carry you?
Oh, noI can walk. The thought of being scooped up in those strong arms again was enough to make her heart thud. Really, it was plain ridiculous, she scolded herself. She was reacting like a schoolgirl, not a sensible married woman of thirty-one. Just because he was so good-looking
And he was. It was no use telling herself that it was simply the circumstances that were making her more than usually vulnerable. She had never even reacted to Colin like this. And the danger was that the powerful tug of physical attraction she was feeling was undermining her common sense, luring her into building all sorts of stupid romantic fantasies about himespecially now she knew that he wasnt married.
But she must be very careful not to give herself away, she reminded herself firmly. He most certainly wouldnt appreciate it.
The kitchen was the main room of the house. It had that old-fashioned country feel about it that interior designers were always trying to recreate, and never could. No one could reproduce the comfort of the huge sofa that she was lying on, with old Jethro curled up in the crook of her knees, nor capture the feeling of sunshine streaming through a window on to whitewashed brick walls.
Last night she hadnt paid much attention to the location of the house, but it seemed to be in the middle of the village, and people were passing by outside all the time, calling to each other in greeting. Dogs barked occasionally; a rumbling farm tractor had gone past twice, the second time leaving a waft of rich country air in its wake; a couple of horses had clattered by; somewhere close to the window she could hear a bird singing.
Josey had wondered what Vi would think of a strange woman turning up in Toms house in the middle of the night, but that lady had been kindness itself. From the minute Josey had come downstairs she had fussed over her, making her comfortable with piles of soft cushions and bringing through some battered old magazines from the waiting-room of Toms surgery for her to read.
Before she had left, she had insisted on bringing her a cup of strong tea, and a thick wedge of moist dark fruit-cake, home-baked. It was years since she had eaten home-baked cakeher mother had always used to make cakes on Fridays for the weekend, and she had learned herself, but Colin never ate cake, and so it had never seemed worth bothering.
But this was delicious. Jethro lifted his head, sniffing hopefully at her hand, hinting that perhaps she might like to share her good fortune with a friend. She stroked his sleek head, laughing.
Are you allowed tit-bits like this? she asked him. Im not sure that cakes very good for you. His liquid eyesso like his mastersgazed at her meltingly, and she could not be immune. All right, she conceded, breaking off a small piece and holding it out for him. But dont tell.
The telephone began to ring, but she ignored it. Vi had told her that the answering service would cut in, and after a moment it did. With a sigh she laid her head back on the cushions, and closed her eyes. Sooner or later she was going to have to ring Colin, an let him know about the accident, and where she wa . But not yet.
The clicking of the latch on the front door brought her awake as she was beginning to slide away into sleep again, and she lifted her head, expecting Tom. But Jethro clearly didntthere was no bark of welcome. He simply shifted his head, turning it away from the door in a manner of bored contempt.
The woman who appeared in the doorway was about the same age as Josey herself, a willowy blonde with the fine bone-structure and peaches-and-cream complexion of the English upper classes. Her white kid jodhpurs and leather riding-whip gave the same impression, and her voice had the cut-glass diction of the county set.
Oh She regarded Josey with refined astonishment, rather as if she were something naughty the Labrador had done on the carpet. I called to see Tom.
That haughty manner made Joseys hackles rise. Hes out, she responded, deliberately unhelpful.
I see
Josey felt the sharp scrutiny of those ice-blue eyes, missing nothing, and sensed a hostility that was a little puzzlingunless this young madam regarded the local vet as her personal property, and resented the interloper. Can I give him a message? she enquired, cuttingly polite.
OhNo, its all right. I thought perhaps Zella had thrown a spavin, but its probably nothing. Ill walk her home gently, and if that doesnt do the trick Ill call him out later.
The smile was confident enough, but the voice held just a hint of uncertainty. It had clearly unsettled her to find another woman ensconced in Toms kitchen, apparently very much at home. And Jethro, bless him, decided at that moment to start licking Joseys hand, as if to demonstrate a bond of deep affection.
FineIll tell him you called, she responded casually.
So who was that? she wondered as the door closed behind the visitor. A proper little lady of the manorwas she a regular girlfriend of Toms? But clearly, in spite of the impression she had tried to give, she wasnt quite sure of himand that gave Josey a kind of perverse satisfaction.
But of course it was all just a daydream. She would only be here for a few daysas soon as she was well enough, she would be leaving. Besides, he wasnt remotely attracted to her anywayhe had made that more than clear.
Automatically her hand reached out for her cigarettes, but then with a muttered curse she remembered that she had smoked the last one half an hour ago. She had known that she was running short, but she hadnt liked to ask Tom to buy some for her.
But now she was beginning to feel that uncomfortable craving. How far was it to a shop that might sell cigarettes? It was so frustrating to feel so weakeven to think of walking a hundred yards made her want to cry with exhaustion. And first she would have to get upstairs to her bedroom to fetch her purse.
If only she could give the horrible things up. She knew the unpleasant smell of tobacco smoke clung to her hair and clothes, and she had lately noticed that her teeth were starting to turn yellow from the nicotine. And she had read somewhere that smoking caused the skin to age prematurelyshed used to have good skin. But she needed a smokeneeded it as a starving man needed food.
The stairs seemed like Mount Everest, but with grim determination she managed to climb them. She had to sit down on the edge of the bed to recover, and at that moment the sound of a car drawing up beside the house came to her ears, and from Jethros excited barking she guessed that it was Tom. Damn, why did he have to come back now, and catch her?
She heard him come in, and speak a few words to Jethro, and then he was coming up the stairs two at a time. She rose to her feet, ready to confront him, feeling as guilty as a naughty schoolgirlthough she knew she had every right to go out and buy herself a packet of cigarettes if she wished to.
On the threshold he paused, a look of angry impatience crossing his face. What are you doing up here? he demanded.
IIm sorry. Automatically she was apologising again. I didnt meanI just came up to
You shouldnt be climbing the stairs when theres no one in the house, he grated. What if youd fallen?
Her temperstrained by the nicotine cravingwas close to snapping. All rightIm not completely stupid, you know, she retorted tartly. If Id thought I might fall, I wouldnt have tried it.
The sharpness of her response had startled her as much as it did him, and as he frowned at her she sighed inwardly, waiting for him to bite her head off. But instead, quite unexpectedly, that incredible smile unfurled. Im sorry, he conceded wryly. I was just worriedyou should be resting.
She couldnt quite meet his eyes, conscious that her cheeks were tinged a delicate shade of pink. IIve been resting all day, she managed, trying hard to keep her voice steady. I ought to be ready for a five-mile run.
A little stiffly, she rose to her feet. She would go without the damned cigarettes now. Maybe he was rightif she could manage to give them up when she was at such a low ebb, she would never need them again. Ohby the way, she added, slanting him a covert look from beneath her lashes, there was a woman here to see you a little while ago. Something about her horse. She said she might call you later.
She didnt leave a name?
No. Sheseemed to think you would know who it was.
A flicker of some expression passed across his eyes, but it was gone too quickly for her to read it. I see, was all he said.
Having asserted that she was sure she wouldnt fall, she was alarmed by how dizzy she felt as she gazed down the steep flight of stairs. But she wasnt going to let him see thathe might offer to carry her again. Resolutely gritting her teeth, she took hold of the banister and slowly made her way down.
It was quite a relief to get back to the settee. She sank down a little more heavily than she had intended, leaning back and closing her eyes. It was hard to believe that just that small amount of effort could be so exhausting. Beside her she heard Tom laugh drily.
Youre not quite as fit as you think you are, are you? he remarked, a sardonic glint in his eyes.
No, Im not, she conceded. I feel perfectly all right when Im sitting down, but when I try to move around it catches up with me.
Youll be better in a day or two, he assured her, his voice surprisingly gentle. Im just going to put the kettle on. Would you like a cup of coffee?
Y-yes, please. It made her nervous when he was being kind to herit felt much safer when he was shouting.
Why did he have to be so utterly gorgeous? Aver-agely good-looking she could have coped with, but in her present highly susceptible state this just wasnt fair. She watched him covertly from beneath her lashes as he made the coffee, fascinated by every economical movement.
There was something so very self-sufficient about him; he was a man who didnt need a woman around. He had Vi to take care of his domestic comfort, and probably a whole posse of willing young ladies to minister to his other needs, without ever being offered much in the way of commitment. He got all the close companionship he needed from his dog.
But, though he wasnt married now, had he been once? She judged him to be maybe in his middle thirtiessurely even he hadnt been able to get off scot-free all these years? There were so many things she wanted to know about him, but she guessed that he wouldnt easily be persuaded to talk about himself.
He brought her coffee, and then folded himself into the battered old armchair beside the fireplace, his long, lean legs sprawled across the stone hearth. Jethro collapsed in a bundle at his feet, his head draped over his ankles, his eyes closed in sheer bliss.
Josey sipped her coffee, searching her mind for something to say, simply to make conversation. This is a nice cottage, she remarked, trying to keep her tone light and casual. Have you lived here long?
It was my uncles place. We were partners for a while, but he retired about five years agothough he still comes in to help with the small animal clinic a couple of afternoons a week.
Youwere born around here, then? she asked.
He nodded. My parents have got a farm, over by Withingham. Cows, mostly, and a few pigs. But my brother does most of the work nowhes the farmer out of the two of us. My fathers nearly seventythough he insists he isnt quite ready to retire yet!
His tone was quite friendly, and, emboldened, she risked probing a little further. Had you always wanted to be a vet?
Ever since I was a kid, he responded with a grin. I was always over here, pestering my uncle to let me help him. I used to drive him mad, bringing in birds that had broken a wing, or a rabbit Id let out of a farmers gin-trap. That didnt make me very popular in certain quarters, either, he added darkly. Sometimes I think that, the more I know about people, the more I prefer animals.
It must be hard work, she mused.
He laughed drily. Yes, it isdamned hard work, and theres no money in it. He slanted her a look of hard mockery. Not the sort of money that would run to a Porsche, anyway.
She blinked in shockthat gibe had stung.
So what sort of work did you do in London? he persisted, a cynical edge in his voice, as if he was expecting something totally frivolous.
Oh, Iused to be a secretary, she stumbled. But I havent worked for several years now. Myhusband didnt want me to.
How long have you been married?
Nearly nine years. A long time, isnt it? You can get less than that for murder these days.
He lifted one dark eyebrow in sardonic enquiry. It seemed like a prison sentence?
Worse! She was unable to keep the bitterness from her laugh. At least with a prison sentence you get time off for good behaviourl
But on the other hand, you wouldnt get to serve your sentence in some posh Docklands penthouse, or drive around in a flash sports car, he pointed out with a touch of asperity.
She flashed him a look of angry indignation. What do you mean?
Well, you werent exactly in a hurry to leave, were you? he taunted.
Well, nobut I
Nine yearswas it worth it for all that comfortable lifestyle? he sneered. The clothes, and the jewellery, and the fast cars
Thats not true! she protested, stung. How can you judge me? You dont even know me.
I dont need to know youI just have to look at you. His eyes lashed her with icy disdain. What is it they sayYou can never be too rich or too thin? Youve dieted so much to fit the fashionable image youre practically a bag of bones, and youre so screwed-up you cant get by without those things. He cast a contemptuous glance at the empty cigarette packet on the table beside her. Ill tell you somethingif you put on a bit of weight you might look halfway decent, but until you sort out whats going on in your head, youll never
His words were interrupted by a sharp ring at the doorbell. He rose swiftly to his feet and crossed the room, to admit a tall, ruddy-faced young man, still in his muddy wellington boots. In his arms he was carrying a drooping bundle, wrapped in an old blanket.
Im sorry to barge in like this, TomI know it aint your surgery tonight. But its our old Shep, he blurted out, agitated and upset. He was perfectly all right this morning, but when the missus came in from fetching the kiddies from school he was like thiscouldnt move, couldnt get up, wasnt even interested in his bone. Daft old mutt, he is, and getting on a bit now, but the kids love him. I dont know if theres anything you can do.
Thats fine, Bob, Tom assured him swiftly. Bring him through to the clinic.
Do youthink hes going to be all right?
Tom hesitated, casting a doubtful eye at the bundle in the young farmers arms. Ill do my best, he promised.
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DRAWN by an instinctive concern for the little dog, Josey followed them. The veterinary clinic was through a thick oak door at the end of the passage. A cluttered office led into a much larger room, with a rubber-topped table in the middle of it and all manner of important-looking equipment stowed neatly around the walls.
Put him down, Bob, Tom instructed, gesturing towards the table. You get off home nowIll have a look at him, and see what I can do.
Right. The farmers voice was suspiciously thickened, and Josey noticed him surreptitiously wipe a tear from the corner of his eye. Well, Ill leave you to it, then. Maybe Ill give you a ring in a couple of hours to see whats what. Reluctantly he turned away from the table, barely even noticing Josey as he stepped past her.
She moved over to the table. The dog was a medium-sized black and white mongrel, with thick shaggy fur and a tail just made to be wagged. But now he was still, and even Josey could see that he was tense with pain. Do you think hell be all right? she asked, unconsciously echoing the farmers words.
Tom was bending over his patient, his sensitive fingers gently examining the small, trembling body. I dont know, he admitted wryly. Ive a nasty feeling hes got peritonitismaybe from a ruptured appendix or a punctured intestine. Im going to have to open him up and have a look.
He didnt sound very hopeful, and Josey felt tears rise to prick the backs of her eyes. Some children were going to be very sad if their pet didnt make it. Is thereanything I can do to help? she asked.
Just sit there by his head and keep an eye on him, he instructed as he deftly slipped a needle into the dogs vein, and hooked it up to a plasma drip. Ill have to try and get his fluid balance right before I can operate. Make sure hes breathing steadily, and tell me if the colour of his gums changes.
She nodded, glad to be able to contribute if only in a token way, and, pulling over a stool, she sat down. Come on, Shep, she coaxed, stroking the small shaggy head. Keep fighting, boy. Just think of all those lovely bones waiting for you if you get well.
As Tom worked, Josey watched, fascinated by the skill in those beautifully made hands. Gone was all trace of that cynical, short-tempered man of so brief a time before; he had turned on the radio, and to the soothing strains of a Rachmaninov violin concerto he was performing the delicate operation on the small furry body that slumbered in anaesthetised bliss on the table.
He seemed so deep in concentration that she was taken by surprise when he sat back. Glancing across at her, he caught the unguarded expression of admiration in her eyes, and a smile of mocking amusement flickered across his face.
Well, I think that should do it, he said, flexing the muscles in his wide shoulders to ease their tension. Hows he looking?
Fine, Josey confirmed, feeling a surge of embarrassed colour in her own cheeks at having betrayed herself. Will he be all right now?
Well, its still touch and go, but if Bob hadnt brought him in when he did he wouldnt have stood a chance. Well know in a few hours whether hes going to pull through. Ill just get him settled in the sick-bay, and then we can see how he gets on over the next couple of hours. Come on, old feller. Gently he stroked his hand over the dogs shaggy head. Just hang in there a bit longer.
With infinite care, he lifted his small patient and carried him through to a back room. There was already one occupanta young tabby cat, who hissed viciously to show her resentment of being confined in her cage.
All right, Tuppence, I know its time for your dinner, Tom remarked to her soothingly as he passed.
Against one wall was a low wooden bench, divided into individual pens, and Shep was laid gently on a cosy pad of fibre bedding, his head arranged so that his tongue wouldnt obstruct his breathing. Josey bent to look at him.
Hehes twitching a bit, she remarked anxiously. Is he all right?
Tom laughed. Hes dreaming. Hes probably out in a field somewhere, chasing rabbits. Thats a good signit shows hes starting to come out of the anaesthetic.
Oh. She managed a reasonably steady smile. I didnt know dogs dreamed.
Those intriguing hazel eyes slanted her an enigmatic smile. Everybody dreams.
He was very close to her, and the faint, evocative muskiness of his skin drifted across her senses. She felt her heartbeat accelerate in response, and turned away quickly, afraid that he might pick up signals that she didnt want to transmit.
Would youwould you like a cup of coffee? she offered, to cover her confusion.
That seems like a good idea.
Right. She hurried away to the kitchen before he could notice that her cheeks were flushing a deepening pink.
But it proved far from easy to manage the simple task of filling the kettle with only one good hand, and she splashed water all over the place. Then trying to unscrew the lid from the coffee jar, she split the granules all over the scullery floor.
Her overwrought nerves seemed to snap in frustration, and she swore fiercely, tears springing to her eyes. From the doorway came the sound of Toms laughter, low and husky. Having trouble? he teased gently.
I couldnt get the lid off. Im sorry, I She knew she was dangerously close to making a complete fool of herself.
Hey! To her surprise, he came over, and took her gently in his arms, drawing her against him. Come onit isnt that important, he soothed, stroking his hand over her hair. Its only a bit of coffee.
She couldnt help itshe knew it was meant to be no more than a comforting gesture, but the impact of being held so close to him, feeling the warm strength of his arms around her, breathing the evocative male muskiness of his skin, fuelled the fires of that fantasy she had been dwelling in, and she lifted her head, her lips softly parted, as if half expecting him to kiss her.
There was an arrested expression in those deep hazel eyes, as if he too had been taken by surprise, and for one timeless moment they hovered in uncertaintyand then with a faintly sardonic smile he let her go.
Id better wipe it up, he said.
Ohno, Ill do that, she offered quickly, her heart pounding in painful embarrassment.
Perhaps youd better not, he advised in mocking amusement. You seem to be seriously accident-prone
Im not usually, she protested, not liking the clumsy, incompetent image he seemed to have of her.
Well, never mind. Its soon done. He had taken a floor cloth from beneath the sink, and mopped the floor quickly. Ill make the coffee.
She flashed a fulminating glare at his indifferent back, and sat down at the big scrubbed-pine table. He had retreated back into those arctic wastes he normally inhabited, and yetsomehow she was sure she hadnt imagined what she had seen in his eyes just a moment ago.
Mind, it was so long since a man had looked at her with any kind of interest that she wasnt sure if she would even recognise it now, she conceded wryly. But it had seemed, just for those few incredible seconds, as if he really was going to kiss her
Impatiently she shook her head. It was dangerous enough to let herself indulge in stupid romantic fantasies about him, but if she was going to start imagining that he might be remotely interested in her she was going to end up making a complete fool of herself.
By the time he brought the coffee she had managed to reassemble some kind of mask of composure, and her voice was commendably even as she thanked him.
Hows the wrist? he enquired, sitting down opposite her.
Ohnot too bad, she responded with a flickering smile. It still hurts a bit.
You were extremely lucky, he reminded her.
I know. She risked a brief glance up at him. I suppose I ought to report the accident to the police?
Ive already reported it. Jackll be down to talk to you about it when youre feeling a bit better.
Do you suppose theyll charge me with careless driving? she asked anxiously.
He shook his head. I doubt it. Apart from Bill Wickhams ditch, you were the only one who suffered any damage. Youll need to put in an insurance claim, of course.
Its on my husbands insurance. She couldnt keep the edge of bitterness from her voice. Personally I dont give a damn whether he makes a claim or not.
Even so, dont you think youd better ring him and let him know where you are? he enquired levelly.
He wont care, she asserted. Hell just be sorry I didnt manage to kill myselfthat would have saved him the bother of going through a divorce.
Those hazel eyes were completely unreadable. What was he thinking? She hadnt meant to tell him about her marital problems, but somehow it was a relief to talk about it.
Why are you getting a divorce? he enquired; there was a kind of empathy in the way he asked the question, and suddenly she was sure that he was divorced too.
Why not? She shrugged her shoulders, still trying to hide her hurt behind a pose of indifference. He wants to marry his secretary, and who am I to stand in the way of true love? Besides, shes pregnant.
He looked surprised. Did you know he was having an affair?
Of course. She was trying to make her voice sound cynical and hard, but she suspected it wasnt quite coming off. He has affairs with all his secretariesits just one of his endearing little habits.
He laughed drily. So why didnt you leave him sooner?
I dont know, she admitted with wry self-mockery. Habit, I suppose. And I didnt have anywhere else to go.
You dont have any family?
Nowell, theres my father, of course, but I couldnt have gone there. I dont get on particularly well with my stepmother.
You could have got a place of your own.
Yes, I suppose so She looked down, swinging her foot in awkward embarrassment. How could she expect him to understand the way Colin had eroded so much of her confidence that she hadnt believed she could manage on her own? She wasnt at all sure that she could nowbut at least she didnt have to think about it for a few more days. She wasnt well enough to leave Toms yet, and go to a hotel.
There was a long silence. She could still feel his eyes resting on her, and a kind of shimmering heat had started deep inside her. Was he aware of the effect he had on her? She was fairly sure he must behe was far too perceptive to miss the signs that gave her away.
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Josey sensed thatpeople were covertlywatching her
She could feel the curiosity of their eyes resting on her. So this was the woman who was living with Tom Quinn. However, she could hardly stand here and announce to the assembled company, Its not what you think.
And Tom wasnt exactly helping matters, standing so close behind her like that, as possessive as a dog with a bone. No one looking at them would doubt that they were lovers
SUSANNE McCARTHY grew up in South London, England, but she always wanted to live in the country, and shortly after her marriage she moved to Shropshire with her husband. They live in a house on a hill, with lots of dogs and cats. She loves to travelbut she loves to come home. As well as her writing, she still enjoys her career as a teacher in adult education, though she only works part-time now.
Second Chance for Love
Susanne McCarthy
www.millsandboon.co.uk (http://www.millsandboon.co.uk)
CHAPTER ONE (#ulink_19513da9-1d19-5bd2-885c-d69fed1a8f60)
MANIAC! The driver of the delivery-van almost had to stand on his brakes, swerving sharply to avoid a head-on collision as the white Porsche took the bend too wide, veering over towards the oncoming traffic. Look where youre damned well going, he advised fiercely, though the woman at the wheel would not have heard him.
In fact, Josey had barely even been aware of the near-accident. She had driven all the way from London in a kind of trance. All she had in the car were the few clothes she had thrown into a bag. Everything else she had left behind her, along with nine years of her life.
She had known for a long time that her marriage was over. But it had come as a bitter blow when Colin had announced, as coolly as you liked, that he wanted a divorceso that he could marry his secretary. It wasnt losing him that hurt. No, it was the fact that Paula was pregnantand that he was delighted.
He had never wanted her to have children, she reminded herself, the bitterness welling up. A baby wouldnt fit in with their lifestyle, he had said. He worked hard all day, he had said. He didnt want to come home to a house full of toys and nappies, and be kept awake all night by a baby crying.
Maybe she should have left him years ago. But somehow there had never seemed to be quite enough reason to take such a serious stepvague suspicions that he was having affairs, which she had never quite been able to bring herself to confront him with. She was sure Paula wasnt the firsthe probably seduced all his secretaries. She ought to knowshe had been his secretary herself once.
She had been just twenty-one when she had first gone to work for himand he had been the stuff of every young girls dreams: good-looking, urbane and dynamic. Too dynamic for the respectable, well-established firm he was inhe was keen to branch out on his own. He had exercised all his considerable charm to persuade her to take the plunge, and go with him.
It had been fun, at first, watching the small company mushroom with success. But she had always kept their relationship strictly businessshe had already had a very nice boyfriend, to whom she was unofficially engaged. Ironically, it was a row with Derek about the long hours she was working that had precipitated the change. Colin had been so incredibly kind and understanding. He had taken her out to dinner to cheer her upand somehow she had found herself in his bed.
Why, out of all his conquests, had he chosen to marry her? Probably to secure her loyalty, at a time when she would have been indispensable to the business, she mused wryly. And he had probably seen her as a social asset, toosomeone to organise the vitally important social side of his life, preside over his dinner parties with grace, making intelligent conversation with all his tedious guests.
And of course she had been beautiful then. She hardly recognised herself now in the thin, pallid creature she had become. Her hair was lank and lifeless, the russet glints it had once held dimmed, and her eyes were dull. She was only thirty-one, but she looked nearer forty. Maybe she couldnt blame him for looking elsewhere.
It was hard to know when it had all started to go wrong. Maybe it was since she had given up her career. She had been overjoyed when Colin had first suggested that, since the company was prospering so well, she no longer needed to work; at last, she had believed, it was his intention that they should start a family. But she had been in for a bitter disappointment.
In the beginning she had tried to persuade him. But every time she had brought the subject up he had accused her of nagging, and eventually he had begun to get more and more annoyed. She had hated the rows, so gradually she had ceased to even try to discuss the issue.
And gradually they had grown further and further apart. She had already grown disillusioned with their shallow lifestyle, with friends who seemed as disposable as last years fashions. If they could even have had a proper house with a garden to tend, and maybe room for a dog, she might have been a little happier. But their ultra-smart City apartment had begun to seem like a prison: she had been bored, with nothing to do but shop and go the hairdressersand that hollow, aching longing for a baby had never gone away.
With a hand that shook slightly she reached out to the dashboard, and found the half-empty pack of cigarettes. That was something else, she mused bitterly as she fumbled for her lighter. She had only begun smoking a couple of years ago, to calm her nerves. She had tried countless times to give them upit was a habit she hatedbut she couldnt do without them.
Colin had caught her by surprise, coming home in the middle of the afternoon like that. She had been slopping around the apartment in a pair of old jeans and a faded T-shirt. Somehow that made it all so much worsehe liked a woman to be elegant, and the look of faintly veiled contempt in his eyes had undermined any hope she might have had of dealing with the situation with any kind of dignity.
If Paula hadnt been pregnantShe hadnt been able to handle that. She had cried, making her eyes ugly and red, and he had become exasperated. In the end she had fled to the bedroom, packed a bag, and told him he could have his divorce, have the apartment, have anything he wanted. Then she had just climbed into her car and driven off.
She had had no clear idea of where she was going. It wasnt until she had found herself driving around the M25, the orbital motorway around London, for the second time, that she had given that problem any consideration. And then she had thought of the cottage out in the wilds of Norfolk, left to her by her great-aunt Floss a couple of years before.
She hadnt been there since she was a child, but she remembered that it was remote, on the edge of a tiny village, miles from anywhere. Suddenly that had seemed enormously appealing, and she had set off, with only a vague idea of how far it was to Cottisham.
Through the fine Norfolk drizzle misting the windscreen, a road-sign showed her that the next turn was to her destination, and she took it. The road was dark, but even if it had been daylight she doubted that she would have recognised itshe would have been no more than about ten years old the last time she was here.
What sort of state would the cottage be in? Aunt Floss had diedoh, it must have been three years ago. For the first time, she began to consider that the place would probably be in a bit of a mess. The electricity would probably have been turned off, and maybe even the water too. But at least she was nearly thereshe could just go straight to bed tonight, and sort out any problems in the morning.
Her hand found the cigarette-lighter at last, and she flicked it into flame, bending her head to draw deeply on the tobacco
The headlights came out of nowhere, straight towards her, and too late she realised that the road bent away sharply to the left. In an instinct of panic she snatched at the wheel, braking hard, and the tyres lost their grip on the damp road, sliding into a lazy treacherous skid. In front of her, the beam of her own headlights stabbed out into nothingness
She wasnt dead, thenit couldnt have been as bad as she had thought it was going to be. She had had an image, fleetingly, of the car tipping over some steep incline and rolling over and over, crushing her. But she seemed to be the right way up, though the car was tipped up at an odd angle, and the windscreen was shatteredAnd someone was asking her if she was all right.
Damnhow was she going to get to the cottage now? And that was blood trickling down her cheekSuddenly she realised that she was hurt, and started to scream.
All rightsteady. You cant be too badly injured if you can make that sort of noise. The voice was calm and competent, and he had reached into the car, unfastening her seatbelt, and was running what felt like an expert hand over her body.
Are you a doctor? she whispered, looking up to find a pair of intriguing hazel eyes just a few inches above her own.
He laughed drily. No, Im a vet. You dont seem to have done yourself too much harmwhich is more than can be said for your car. Do you think you can move?
I think so. But my wrist hurts.
Show me.
She held it out to him gingerly, but his examination was so gentle that she hardly felt it. Some part of her mind was incongruously registering the thought that he was one of the most attractive men she had ever seen: thick dark hair, shaggily cut, fell over a high, intelligent forehead, and his face was starkly masculine, with a strong aquiline nose, and a lean, hard jaw.
Are you really a vet? she asked curiously.
Yesbut the principles pretty much the same, he reassured her. I think youve broken this. If you can get to my car, Ill take you to the hospital.
Your cars all right?
You didnt hit meI managed to brake and get out of your way, he told her, a faintly sardonic inflexion in his voice. What happened? Didnt you see the sign for the bend?
She tried to shake her head, but found it a jarring experience.
Steady, he advised. Youve been pretty badly shaken up. Take it slowly.
Supporting her with one strong arm around her shoulders, the other holding her injured arm steady, he eased her very gradually from the car. It was crazy, but she found herself leaning on him just a little more than was strictly necessary; it just felt so good to have a man treating her with a little tenderness, a little kindness, after so many years of Colins indifference.
His car was just a few feet away, slewed across on to the wrong side of the road, and with a small stab of horror she realised just how dangerously close she had come to a much more serious accident. That thought made her feel slightly sick, and she found that she really did need all his support to make it the short distance to his car.
Dimly she took in that it was an old Land Rover: of coursehe would need a tough car if he was a vet. An elderly black and white border collie was sitting in the front seat, but he gave it a crisp order, and with a look of mild indignation at being banished it skipped over into the back.
It was a relief to be able to collapse into the front seat. She closed her eyes, for a few moments conscious only of the fires of pain in her wrist and her head. But she had had a very lucky escape. Opening her eyes, she peered across at her own car.
Well, she had certainly made a mess of that! It was tail-up in a ditch, the bonnet crumpled and the offside badly smashed in. It was probably going to be a complete insurance write-off. Well, that was Colins problem, she reflected with vicious satisfactionboth the car and the insurance were in his name.
Her rescuer had placed a warning triangle in front of the wreck to alert any oncoming cars, and was coming back with her suitcase and her handbag. She offered him a grateful smilebut what she really needed was something to steady her nerves.
Did you bring my cigarettes? she pleaded urgently.
Your cigarettes? The impatient frown that crossed his brow warned her that he didnt much approve of the habit.
They were on the dashboard guiltily she remembered that it had been in lighting a cigarette that she had taken her eyes off the road for just that fatal fraction of a second and my lighter, she begged. It might have fallen down.
All right, he conceded grudgingly. Ill get them.
Josey watched him walk back to her car, registering the easy, athletic stride, and the impressive breadth of shoulder beneath his green oiled-cotton jacket. She found herself wishing she hadnt asked him to fetch her cigaretteshe had made her feel about two inches tall, as if she hadnt felt bad enough already. If only she had been able to give up the disgusting things. Somehowfoolishlyit mattered to her what he thought of her.
Not that he was going to think much anyway, she reminded herself miserably. The glass of the Land Rovers windscreen reflected her face to her all too clearly. She looked awful; correctioneven more awful than usual. Her eyes were hollow and puffy from crying, and now there was a nice graze on her forehead, still trickling blood. She sought in her handbag for a tissue to dab it away as he came back.
He swung himself behind the steering-wheel, tossing her cigarettes and lighter into her lap, making no effort to conceal his contempt. No, I dont mind if you smoke in my carjust this once, he grated, preempting her routinely polite enquiry as if he had doubted whether she would have the manners to ask.
Thank you, she mumbled, clumsily trying to open the packet with her one good hand. Tears of frustration welled into her eyes.
Oh, here, give them to me, he snapped, taking them from her. He drew one cigarette from the packet and put it between her lips, and then flicked the lighter for her. You seem pretty determined to kill yourself, one way or another.
She stared up at him in shock. I wasnt trying to kill myself, she protested.
Werent you? he queried drily, starting up the Land Rover. It was pretty suicidal, the way you were driving.
Ihad things on my mind. She looked down into her lap. Just at the moment she didnt feel like telling anyone about her marital problemsleast of all this man. He already thought she was a pretty pathetic specimen.
What were you doing on this road anyway? he enquired. Were you lost?
No. I was heading for the village.
Cottisham? At this time of night?
I was left a cottage there, by my aunt, she explained. I was going to stay there for aa holiday.
He slanted her a look of surprise. You dont mean old Florrie Calders place?
Do you know it? she asked.
He laughed with sardonic humour. Yes, I do. If you were planning to stay there, its a pity you didnt do something about it beforethe place is practically derelict.
Derelict? Oh, dearI didnt realise
How many years is it since you bothered to visit the old lady? he enquired, a hard edge in his voice.
I havent been up since I was a little girl, she countered defensively. She was my mothers aunt, really, and my mother died when I was twelve.
She was all on her own. Dont you think you could have taken a little more interest in her welfare?
She hung her head, feeling ashamed. He was perfectly rightbut it had simply never occurred to her to keep in touch. Even her mother had never been particularly close to the rather eccentric old lady, and after she had diedto be honest she had virtually forgotten her existence, until the letter had come from the solicitor informing her that she had been left the cottage. At the time even that had been of little interestas Colin had said, it was really not very well located for a holiday home.
II never thought she mumbled.
No, I dont suppose you did. His tone implied that he would have expected no better of her. Turning his attention impatiently away from her, he pulled over for a moment, reached down and switched on the car-phone. First he called the hospital and warned them of their arrival, then he dialled another number. A womans voice answered. Hello, Maggie, he said. Its Tom. Look, Im sorryIm ringing to let you know Ive been delayed. There was a bit of an accident on the road, and Im running someone to the hospital. Ill get to you as soon as I can.
OhRight, came the steady response. Thank you for letting me know, Tom.
So who was Maggie? Josey wondered dully. His wife? She had sounded as if it was a regular occurence for him to be held up by something or other. It must take a great deal of patience to be the wife of a country vet, she reflectedalways on call, never knowing when he would have to go out or when he would be back. She would have to be a remarkably strong woman.
She felt a twinge of envy as her imagination began to paint a pictureof a warm, rambling cottage, with the elderly collie snoozing beside the hearth, and a couple of fine strapping sons who took after their father
They had set off again. Her head was beginning to ache quite badly, and she felt as if she would have liked to cry. Today had very definitely been the worst day of her whole life.
Is there anyone you want to get in touch with, to let them know youre all right? he asked, his voice suddenly gentle.
No. One single tear escaped from the corner of her eye, and began to track slowly down her cheek. She brushed it away with her good hand. Thank youyouve been very kind.
Youre in shock, he said. Dont worrywell be at the hospital in a couple of minutes.
She nodded gratefully. It would be nice to be able to lie down, and have someone take away the pain. But a strange pang of regret tugged at her heartonce he had deposited her at the hospital, Tom would go away, and she wouldnt see him again. He probably wouldnt even spare her another thought, except as the crazy woman who had almost smashed into his car.
Stupid, she scolded herself crossly. The last thing she needed at the moment was to start fancying she was attracted to some total stranger, who had crossed her path by complete chance. And yethe was very attractive, she conceded, slanting him a covert glance from beneath her lashes. Six feet plus of rangy, well-built male, the kind that no woman could ignore.
And his handsThey were beautiful, with long, sensitive fingers, and strong wrists. She found herself remembering the gentle way those hands had examined her, and a shimmer of heat ran through her
Noit was all just reaction. The shock of Colins announcement, followed by the accident, had left her off balance. And he was so very different from ColinColin with his immaculately combed hair, his designer suits, his decaffeinated coffee. She couldnt imagine this man drinking decaffeinated coffee. He wouldnt need to fuss with such things, not with the healthy, active life he must lead. So very different
It was pleasant, this feeling of being close to him, cocooned in the warmth of the carlike some comfortable dream from which she never wanted to wake up
Here we are.
She opened her eyes quickly to find that he had brought the car to a halt beside a wide porch, with a pair of battered plastic swing doors of the type used so much in hospitals. A sign above the entrance said ACCIDENT AND EMERGENCY. A young nurse had come out to the car, bringing a wheelchair.
I dont need a chair, Josey mumbled, feeling guilty for causing such a lot of fuss.
Better if you do, Tom insisted firmly, climbing out of the Land Rover and coming round to help her out.
And indeed she found that she did. During the short drive her body seemed to have stiffened; she could hardly move, and as he helped her gently to her feet her head swam sickeningly. She dropped heavily into the chair, and half closed her eyes again.
With part of her mind she was conscious of the nurse flirting with him somewhere above her head, but she was past caring. They wheeled her into a small reception area, and straight over to a narrow cubicle, curtained with some ancient flowered cotton.
Could you just pop up on the trolley? asked the nurse, gratingly bright.
She looked round for Tom, but he had goneand he hadnt even said goodbye. But then she heard his voice on the other side of the curtain. Hello, Andy.
Well, hello, Tom. Whats going on? You dont have enough of your own kind of patients, so youve had to start poaching mine?
Tom laughed; he had a nice laugh, Josey decided-low and sort of husky, from spending so much time out in the raw Norfolk air. Nojust some woman who ran her car into a ditch. His tone was casually dismissive. I dont think its too seriousfortunately she had her seatbelt on. I think youll find shes broken a bone in her wrist, but apart from that shes just generally a bit bruised and battered.
Any sign of concussion?
No, just shock.
Fine. Well, Id better take a look at her.
The curtain was brushed briskly aside, and the doctor came in. Well, now, what have you done to yourself? he asked pleasantly, bending over the trolley.
Itsjust my wrist, she managed to respond. She could just see Tom, through the half-open curtain, chatting to the nurse again. A stab of stupid jealousy shot through her. The girl was pretty, with a mass of sexily luxuriant ash-blonde hair, tucked up neatly beneath her white cap, and an expression of sweet feminine kindliness. It was a combination that most men would find devastating.
Was he married? Maybe not, after allmaybe the nurse was his girlfriend. In fact, she wouldnt mind betting that every unattached female in the district under the age of sixty was after him. Forget it, she advised herself despondently. Maybe once, a few years ago, she could have stood a chance of competing, but not nowhe wouldnt even look twice.
Wearily she closed her eyes, hardly interested in what was happening to her as the doctor examined her. His touch was light, but not quite as gentle as Toms had been, and Josey found herself wishing that it were he who was examining her instead.
Well, I dont think youve done yourself any serious injury, apart from your wrist, the doctor was saying. Ill send you down for an X-ray on that, and then wed better see about putting it in plaster for you.
She nodded apathetically. Tom had gone, and she just wished they would let her go to sleep. But first the nurse had a form to fill in, with all her personal details, and then a porter camethe irritatingly cheerful sortand wheeled her through deserted corridors to the X-ray department. Then at last it was back to Casualty, where someone put a warm plastic splint on her wrist, and tied it up in a sling.
She was back in her cubicle, half-dozing in the wheelchair, when she heard Toms voice outside again. I thought Id just drop by on my way home and see how she is.
She seems fine, the doctor responded, a note of constraint in his voice. Theres no sign of concussion. The wrist is fractured, but its been set. Apart from a bit of shock, there are no other problems.
So whats wrong?
She heard the doctor sigh. I really cant justify keeping her in, Tomnot on medical grounds. You know the situation were in for bedsIve got a threatened miscarriage in cubicle three, and Ive already had to send a coronary over to the Norwich.
Youre going to discharge her? He sounded surprised.
I dont really have much choice. At the most, I suppose I could stretch a point and keep her here until the morning. But all she needs is a couple of days rest, with someone to keep an eye on her, and shell be perfectly all right. Did she mention to you where she was planning to stay? Does she have friends or relatives up here?
Josey heard Tom laugh drily. She was old Miss Calders nieceremember that old stone cottage out by Brecks Coppice?
She wasnt planning to stay there? The doctor sounded incredulous. But its been empty for yearsit must be practically falling down!
Oh, the structures basically quite sound, but itll need a lot doing to it to make it habitable. Though she looks as if shes got the money, he added, a sardonic inflexion in his voice. Anyone who can afford to write off a Porsche cant be short of a bob or two.
There was a distinct note of contempt in his voice, and Josey felt herself wishing she could crawl into a corner. Of course those who eavesdropped never heard good of themselves, she reflected bitterly, but what else could she do but listen?
But in the meantime, that doesnt solve my problem of what to do with her, does it? the doctor pointed out grimly. Of course, I could ring her husband and get him to come and fetch her.
No! The sharp protest broke involuntarily from Joseys lips, and she tried to stand up.
The curtain was drawn back, and the doctor hurried in, frowning as he saw her struggling to her feet. Now, now! You shouldnt be trying to get up on your own, he chided, pushing her back with a gentle pressure that Josey didnt have the strength to resist.
Theresno need to ring my husband, she insisted weakly. Ill find myself a hotel or something.
Tom had come in behind the doctor, and he laughed mockingly at her words. Where do you think you are, South Kensington? he enquired drily. We dont have too many hotels around here, and those there are will be full for the tourist season.
Besides, I wouldnt be very happy just to let you go to a hotel, the doctor put in seriously. Dont you have anyone up here you could go to for a few days? A relative, or a friend?
No, she admitted reluctantly. Its years since Ive been up here. Itit was just an impulse that I came, really.
The doctor sighed. Well, where are you going to go? He hesitated, glancing round at Tom. I dont suppose?
Tom looked faintly alarmed. What?
It would only be for a day or two, the doctor assured him persuasively. She wont need any special carejust lots of rest. By Monday she should be as right as rain.
Josey gasped in shock as she realised what the doctor was suggesting. Oh, no! I couldnt possibly!
It would really be an enormous help, Tom, the doctor persisted. Besides, if I knew it was you keeping an eye on her, Id know she was all right.
Tom hesitated, then smiled wryly. OK, he conceded with no great deal of enthusiasm. It looks as if thats the only option.
The doctor looked relieved. Ill give you a prescription for some diazepam for herthe pharmacy will be able to make it up for you tomorrow. Where have you parked your car? Nurse, get the porter to bring a chair, will you?
He bustled away without waiting for an answer, leaving Josey looking up at Tom in some embarrassment. Im sorry, she murmured awkwardly. Ive put you to so much inconvenience already.
Its no trouble. But his unsmiling expression did nothing to reassure her.
Ill find a hotel asas soon as I can.
I said its no trouble, he reiterated a little impatiently. Just dont expect the Ritz.
CHAPTER TWO (#ulink_c0214b16-6805-5fec-bfbc-cf376dd205a7)
JOSEY lay in the big bed with her eyes open, trying to make herself believe that all this was actually real. Bright sunlight streamed through yellow chintz curtains, falling on the faded home-made patchwork that covered her bed and warming the mellow oak of the old-fashioned furniture.
Yesterday morning, and most other mornings for years past, she had woken in a stylish Italian bed, in a room with smart white walls and a pale beech floor, where she could just glimpse the south column of Tower Bridge if she leaned slightly to her left. Colin would be in the shower, and she would pad out of bed and into their glossy space-age kitchen, to pour him a glass of orange juice from a carton in the refrigerator.
But yesterday had goneirrevocably. Her marriageor rather the empty shell of it that she had been clinging to as if it were some kind of security blanket for so longwas over, and she had to face the world on her own. And this world was very different from any she would have expected to find herself in.
She didnt remember much about getting here from the hospital. The doctor had injected her with some kind of pain-killer, and she had wanted to do nothing but sleep. She vaguely recalled a low, rambling building of weathered brick and flint, and the perfume of roses on the night air. And a cosy, old-fashioned kitchen, with a slightly uneven quarry-tiled floor, and a wicker dog-basket with a well-chewed red blanket beside a large inglenook fireplace.
These images came back to her like snap-shots in her mind. She could remember too, with a feeling that made her mouth a little dry, how she had stumbled woozily, and Tom had picked her up as if she weighed nothing at all, and carried her up a flight of steep, narrow stairs, and brought her into this room, with its low, oak-beamed ceiling and big comfortable bed.
And she had been so clumsy with her wrist splinted and tied up in a sling that she had had considerable trouble getting out of her clothes and into her nightdress, and he had had to come and help her. But the unceremonious way he had dealt with the task had told her quite unmistakably that any modesty on her part would have been quite wastedshe held absolutely no allure for him whatsoever.
What she didnt remember, though it was the one thing she had been trying to look for, was anything that suggested the presence of a wife or children in the house. She had only the impression of an exclusively male atmospherethe shelf above the fireplace was merely a convenient place to put anything that didnt have an immediate home, none of the roses from the garden had found their way indoors, and the curtains were purely functional and slightly in need of a wash.
With a wry smile she acknowledged to herself that such interest in the details of his domestic arrangements was really rather silly. But maybe she just needed a shred of romantic fantasy, to cushion the shock of the abrupt ending of her marriage. And maybe she was looking to him for just the smallest reassurance that she might still have some attraction for a man because it was so long since Colin had shown the least interest in her.
With a sigh she eased herself gingerly up on the pillows. If it was flattery she was seeking, she was wasting her time with Tom Quinn. Maybe he reserved all his warmth for the animals he cared forhe seemed to have little to spare for the human species, or at least for the female half of it.
But then what did she expect? Maybe five or six years ago she might have been able to make some impression, but she was going to have to take herself seriously in hand if she was ever going to expect any man to be attracted to her again. If it wasnt already too late; she was getting dangerously close to her sell-by date.
Goodness, she felt stiff. Every inch of her body ached, her head was sore, and her wrist was both throbbing and numb at the same time. And she was dying for a cigarette. Forming the thought brought the familiar craving, and she knew that somehow she was going to have to get out of bed to reach the packet, which was on the dressing-table on the far side of the room.
Tears of self-pity rose to her eyes. It was an exhausting effort even to move, and the dressing-table seemed a hundred miles away. But that raw need wouldnt let her have any peace. Tossing aside the quilted bedcover with an exclamation of impatience, she swung herself round and put her feet on the floor.
Dark pain swam before her eyes, and she had to wait a moment for it to clear. Then gritting her teeth she tried to stand up. She had managed about three steps when the door opened, and Tom appeared on the threshold, a breakfast tray in his hands.
What the devil are you doing getting out of bed on your own? he demanded brusquely.
II was trying to get my cigarettes, she explained, giving up and sinking back on to the bed.
Why didnt you call me?
I thoughtyoud probably be busy or something, she mumbled. Suddenly she was all too acutely aware of the way the dipping neckline of her silk nightdress revealed the gaunt hollows of her shoulders, while the pale ivory colour did absolutely nothing for her washed-out complexion. She crawled back under the bedclothes, drawing them up over her. Im sorry.
A flicker of impatience crossed his face. You dont have to keep apologising, he grated, setting the tray down on a low pine chest beside the bed. He moved across and picked up the cigarettes, tossing them on to the bed with undisguised contempt. Eat your breakfast, he advised tersely. Itll do you more good than those things.
II dont know if I can eat very much, she stumbled, eyeing the laden tray without appetite. I dont usually have breakfast.
No. The wry twist of his mouth conveyed what he didnt actually saythat she was too thin. He stood looking down at her in critical appraisal as she lit her cigarette, drawing on it deeply in relief. How many of those do you smoke a day? he asked bluntly.
Ohonly about twenty or so. She shrugged, unable to meet his eyes. I know theyre no good for me, and Ive tried giving them up, but I just cant.
You could if you wanted to.
She slanted him a resentful look from beneath her lashes. It was easy enough for him to say thathed probably never smoked. He didnt look the sort of man who had ever suffered from a lack of will-power. Yes, wellIll give them up some time, she promised vaguely. But not just at the momentthey say you shouldnt try to give up when youre under stress.
Thats the best time to do it, he persisted with ruthless insistence. If you can cope without them now, youll be able to cope without them any time.
Those stupid tears were stinging the backs of her eyes again. Im sorry, she mumbled thickly, and then, remembering that he had told her not to keep saying she was sorry, she apologised for that too. Im sorry.
He laughed drily. Eat your breakfast, he repeated, and went out, closing the door behind him.
Josey leaned back against the pillows, closing her eyes. How had she ever let herself sink into such a mess, that she couldnt start the day without a cigarette? It was no wonder that Tom treated her with such disdain.
Wearily she turned to the breakfast tray he had brought her. There was far more food than she could ever manage, even if she had been feeling more like her usual self. With a groan she realised that she wouldnt be able to manage half of itand Tom was going to be even more annoyed with her.
He had every right to be, of courseshe had been nothing but a nuisance to him since she had all but smashed up his car last night. It would be better if she just took herself off to a hotel somewhere, out of his way. Holding that thought resolutely in her mind, she rolled herself painfully out of bed.
There was a small sink in the corner of the room, and she dragged herself over to it and had a sketchy wash, and then with some considerable difficulty got dressed. She had just finished, and was struggling one-handed to re-fasten her suitcase when Tom came back into the room.
What do you think youre doing now? he demanded. I told you not to try getting out of bed on your ownand you havent even touched your breakfast.
I knowIm sorry. Damnhe had told her not to keep saying that. Youve been very kind to me, and Im very grateful, but I cant trespass on your hospitality any longer. If I could just use your telephone, Ill ring for a taxi, and find a hotel somewhere.
Dont be silly, he rapped, his patience strained. Youre as weak as a kitten. Get back into bed.
NoIm leaving, she insisted, though already just the effort of getting dressed and packing her bag had left her feeling exhausted. Im just a nuisanceyou dont want me here Oh, damnwhy did her voice have to waver so pathetically? She tried to pick up her suitcase, but it was loaded with bricks, and she slumped to her knees, tears of frustration stinging her eyes.
Get back into bed, he repeated, the sudden gentleness in his voice so unexpected that it made her sob harder. Youre in no fit state to go anywhere today. His strong arms came around her, helping her to her feet, and he led her over to the bed, sitting down beside her, still holding her comfortingly close. Im sorry if Ive made you feel so unwelcome. The taut note in his voice made her wonder just how rare it was for him to apologise. I suppose Im more used to four-legged patients than two-legged ones.
Im sorry, she mumbled, her mind half-drugged by the evocative male muskiness of his skin. I must be in your way. Youve got work to do, and Im taking up your time, running around after me, making my breakfast
Vi made your breakfast, he corrected her drily. She couldnt bring it up herselfshes got a touch of arthritis, and cant manage the stairs.
Oh She managed to stifle her tears, helped by a strong dose of curiosity. It didnt seem very likely that this Vi was his wife, if she was old enough to suffer from arthritis. Whos Vi? she asked, trying to sound as if she had no more than a casual interest.
My housekeeper.
Oh. She flickered him a cautious glance from beneath her lashes. Yourenot married then?
No.
Sowho was Maggie?
Maggie? He looked faintly puzzled. Oh, you mean Maggie Hunter? Shes the wife of a farmer over by Saltham Marsh. I was on my way to look at one of their cows when weerran into each other.
Oh She could feel a faint blush of pink colouring her cheeks. Had she revealed a bit too much by asking such a pointed question?
He reached out and took the bowl of cereal from the tray, putting it into her hands. Come onjust try and eat some of this, he coaxed. Youll feel a lot better with some good food inside you.
She doubted it, but she made the effort just to please himand rather to her surprise she was able to eat most of the contents of the bowl.
Thats better, he approved. Dont worry about the restmaybe youll be able to eat a little more later. He glanced at his watch. Now that youre dressed, you might as well come downstairs and rest on the settee. I have to go out, but at least itll be a bit more interesting for you than being stuck up here with nothing to do.
Thank you. She managed to smile, though it was rather a weak effort. Youve been very kind.
He smiled back at herand her heart flipped over. It was the first time she had seen him smile, and it was like the sun coming out, transforming his hard features at a stroke. Some people would say that kindness isnt my strong point, he remarked with an inflexion of sardonic humour. At least as far as human beings are concerned.
Oh, no, she protested a little breathlessly. Youve done so much for me.
Yes, wellYou dont have to keep thanking me, he grated, that terseness back in his voice, as if he found her thanks even more irksome than her presence. Come on, Ill help you downstairs. Can you walk, or shall I carry you?
Oh, noI can walk. The thought of being scooped up in those strong arms again was enough to make her heart thud. Really, it was plain ridiculous, she scolded herself. She was reacting like a schoolgirl, not a sensible married woman of thirty-one. Just because he was so good-looking
And he was. It was no use telling herself that it was simply the circumstances that were making her more than usually vulnerable. She had never even reacted to Colin like this. And the danger was that the powerful tug of physical attraction she was feeling was undermining her common sense, luring her into building all sorts of stupid romantic fantasies about himespecially now she knew that he wasnt married.
But she must be very careful not to give herself away, she reminded herself firmly. He most certainly wouldnt appreciate it.
The kitchen was the main room of the house. It had that old-fashioned country feel about it that interior designers were always trying to recreate, and never could. No one could reproduce the comfort of the huge sofa that she was lying on, with old Jethro curled up in the crook of her knees, nor capture the feeling of sunshine streaming through a window on to whitewashed brick walls.
Last night she hadnt paid much attention to the location of the house, but it seemed to be in the middle of the village, and people were passing by outside all the time, calling to each other in greeting. Dogs barked occasionally; a rumbling farm tractor had gone past twice, the second time leaving a waft of rich country air in its wake; a couple of horses had clattered by; somewhere close to the window she could hear a bird singing.
Josey had wondered what Vi would think of a strange woman turning up in Toms house in the middle of the night, but that lady had been kindness itself. From the minute Josey had come downstairs she had fussed over her, making her comfortable with piles of soft cushions and bringing through some battered old magazines from the waiting-room of Toms surgery for her to read.
Before she had left, she had insisted on bringing her a cup of strong tea, and a thick wedge of moist dark fruit-cake, home-baked. It was years since she had eaten home-baked cakeher mother had always used to make cakes on Fridays for the weekend, and she had learned herself, but Colin never ate cake, and so it had never seemed worth bothering.
But this was delicious. Jethro lifted his head, sniffing hopefully at her hand, hinting that perhaps she might like to share her good fortune with a friend. She stroked his sleek head, laughing.
Are you allowed tit-bits like this? she asked him. Im not sure that cakes very good for you. His liquid eyesso like his mastersgazed at her meltingly, and she could not be immune. All right, she conceded, breaking off a small piece and holding it out for him. But dont tell.
The telephone began to ring, but she ignored it. Vi had told her that the answering service would cut in, and after a moment it did. With a sigh she laid her head back on the cushions, and closed her eyes. Sooner or later she was going to have to ring Colin, an let him know about the accident, and where she wa . But not yet.
The clicking of the latch on the front door brought her awake as she was beginning to slide away into sleep again, and she lifted her head, expecting Tom. But Jethro clearly didntthere was no bark of welcome. He simply shifted his head, turning it away from the door in a manner of bored contempt.
The woman who appeared in the doorway was about the same age as Josey herself, a willowy blonde with the fine bone-structure and peaches-and-cream complexion of the English upper classes. Her white kid jodhpurs and leather riding-whip gave the same impression, and her voice had the cut-glass diction of the county set.
Oh She regarded Josey with refined astonishment, rather as if she were something naughty the Labrador had done on the carpet. I called to see Tom.
That haughty manner made Joseys hackles rise. Hes out, she responded, deliberately unhelpful.
I see
Josey felt the sharp scrutiny of those ice-blue eyes, missing nothing, and sensed a hostility that was a little puzzlingunless this young madam regarded the local vet as her personal property, and resented the interloper. Can I give him a message? she enquired, cuttingly polite.
OhNo, its all right. I thought perhaps Zella had thrown a spavin, but its probably nothing. Ill walk her home gently, and if that doesnt do the trick Ill call him out later.
The smile was confident enough, but the voice held just a hint of uncertainty. It had clearly unsettled her to find another woman ensconced in Toms kitchen, apparently very much at home. And Jethro, bless him, decided at that moment to start licking Joseys hand, as if to demonstrate a bond of deep affection.
FineIll tell him you called, she responded casually.
So who was that? she wondered as the door closed behind the visitor. A proper little lady of the manorwas she a regular girlfriend of Toms? But clearly, in spite of the impression she had tried to give, she wasnt quite sure of himand that gave Josey a kind of perverse satisfaction.
But of course it was all just a daydream. She would only be here for a few daysas soon as she was well enough, she would be leaving. Besides, he wasnt remotely attracted to her anywayhe had made that more than clear.
Automatically her hand reached out for her cigarettes, but then with a muttered curse she remembered that she had smoked the last one half an hour ago. She had known that she was running short, but she hadnt liked to ask Tom to buy some for her.
But now she was beginning to feel that uncomfortable craving. How far was it to a shop that might sell cigarettes? It was so frustrating to feel so weakeven to think of walking a hundred yards made her want to cry with exhaustion. And first she would have to get upstairs to her bedroom to fetch her purse.
If only she could give the horrible things up. She knew the unpleasant smell of tobacco smoke clung to her hair and clothes, and she had lately noticed that her teeth were starting to turn yellow from the nicotine. And she had read somewhere that smoking caused the skin to age prematurelyshed used to have good skin. But she needed a smokeneeded it as a starving man needed food.
The stairs seemed like Mount Everest, but with grim determination she managed to climb them. She had to sit down on the edge of the bed to recover, and at that moment the sound of a car drawing up beside the house came to her ears, and from Jethros excited barking she guessed that it was Tom. Damn, why did he have to come back now, and catch her?
She heard him come in, and speak a few words to Jethro, and then he was coming up the stairs two at a time. She rose to her feet, ready to confront him, feeling as guilty as a naughty schoolgirlthough she knew she had every right to go out and buy herself a packet of cigarettes if she wished to.
On the threshold he paused, a look of angry impatience crossing his face. What are you doing up here? he demanded.
IIm sorry. Automatically she was apologising again. I didnt meanI just came up to
You shouldnt be climbing the stairs when theres no one in the house, he grated. What if youd fallen?
Her temperstrained by the nicotine cravingwas close to snapping. All rightIm not completely stupid, you know, she retorted tartly. If Id thought I might fall, I wouldnt have tried it.
The sharpness of her response had startled her as much as it did him, and as he frowned at her she sighed inwardly, waiting for him to bite her head off. But instead, quite unexpectedly, that incredible smile unfurled. Im sorry, he conceded wryly. I was just worriedyou should be resting.
She couldnt quite meet his eyes, conscious that her cheeks were tinged a delicate shade of pink. IIve been resting all day, she managed, trying hard to keep her voice steady. I ought to be ready for a five-mile run.
A little stiffly, she rose to her feet. She would go without the damned cigarettes now. Maybe he was rightif she could manage to give them up when she was at such a low ebb, she would never need them again. Ohby the way, she added, slanting him a covert look from beneath her lashes, there was a woman here to see you a little while ago. Something about her horse. She said she might call you later.
She didnt leave a name?
No. Sheseemed to think you would know who it was.
A flicker of some expression passed across his eyes, but it was gone too quickly for her to read it. I see, was all he said.
Having asserted that she was sure she wouldnt fall, she was alarmed by how dizzy she felt as she gazed down the steep flight of stairs. But she wasnt going to let him see thathe might offer to carry her again. Resolutely gritting her teeth, she took hold of the banister and slowly made her way down.
It was quite a relief to get back to the settee. She sank down a little more heavily than she had intended, leaning back and closing her eyes. It was hard to believe that just that small amount of effort could be so exhausting. Beside her she heard Tom laugh drily.
Youre not quite as fit as you think you are, are you? he remarked, a sardonic glint in his eyes.
No, Im not, she conceded. I feel perfectly all right when Im sitting down, but when I try to move around it catches up with me.
Youll be better in a day or two, he assured her, his voice surprisingly gentle. Im just going to put the kettle on. Would you like a cup of coffee?
Y-yes, please. It made her nervous when he was being kind to herit felt much safer when he was shouting.
Why did he have to be so utterly gorgeous? Aver-agely good-looking she could have coped with, but in her present highly susceptible state this just wasnt fair. She watched him covertly from beneath her lashes as he made the coffee, fascinated by every economical movement.
There was something so very self-sufficient about him; he was a man who didnt need a woman around. He had Vi to take care of his domestic comfort, and probably a whole posse of willing young ladies to minister to his other needs, without ever being offered much in the way of commitment. He got all the close companionship he needed from his dog.
But, though he wasnt married now, had he been once? She judged him to be maybe in his middle thirtiessurely even he hadnt been able to get off scot-free all these years? There were so many things she wanted to know about him, but she guessed that he wouldnt easily be persuaded to talk about himself.
He brought her coffee, and then folded himself into the battered old armchair beside the fireplace, his long, lean legs sprawled across the stone hearth. Jethro collapsed in a bundle at his feet, his head draped over his ankles, his eyes closed in sheer bliss.
Josey sipped her coffee, searching her mind for something to say, simply to make conversation. This is a nice cottage, she remarked, trying to keep her tone light and casual. Have you lived here long?
It was my uncles place. We were partners for a while, but he retired about five years agothough he still comes in to help with the small animal clinic a couple of afternoons a week.
Youwere born around here, then? she asked.
He nodded. My parents have got a farm, over by Withingham. Cows, mostly, and a few pigs. But my brother does most of the work nowhes the farmer out of the two of us. My fathers nearly seventythough he insists he isnt quite ready to retire yet!
His tone was quite friendly, and, emboldened, she risked probing a little further. Had you always wanted to be a vet?
Ever since I was a kid, he responded with a grin. I was always over here, pestering my uncle to let me help him. I used to drive him mad, bringing in birds that had broken a wing, or a rabbit Id let out of a farmers gin-trap. That didnt make me very popular in certain quarters, either, he added darkly. Sometimes I think that, the more I know about people, the more I prefer animals.
It must be hard work, she mused.
He laughed drily. Yes, it isdamned hard work, and theres no money in it. He slanted her a look of hard mockery. Not the sort of money that would run to a Porsche, anyway.
She blinked in shockthat gibe had stung.
So what sort of work did you do in London? he persisted, a cynical edge in his voice, as if he was expecting something totally frivolous.
Oh, Iused to be a secretary, she stumbled. But I havent worked for several years now. Myhusband didnt want me to.
How long have you been married?
Nearly nine years. A long time, isnt it? You can get less than that for murder these days.
He lifted one dark eyebrow in sardonic enquiry. It seemed like a prison sentence?
Worse! She was unable to keep the bitterness from her laugh. At least with a prison sentence you get time off for good behaviourl
But on the other hand, you wouldnt get to serve your sentence in some posh Docklands penthouse, or drive around in a flash sports car, he pointed out with a touch of asperity.
She flashed him a look of angry indignation. What do you mean?
Well, you werent exactly in a hurry to leave, were you? he taunted.
Well, nobut I
Nine yearswas it worth it for all that comfortable lifestyle? he sneered. The clothes, and the jewellery, and the fast cars
Thats not true! she protested, stung. How can you judge me? You dont even know me.
I dont need to know youI just have to look at you. His eyes lashed her with icy disdain. What is it they sayYou can never be too rich or too thin? Youve dieted so much to fit the fashionable image youre practically a bag of bones, and youre so screwed-up you cant get by without those things. He cast a contemptuous glance at the empty cigarette packet on the table beside her. Ill tell you somethingif you put on a bit of weight you might look halfway decent, but until you sort out whats going on in your head, youll never
His words were interrupted by a sharp ring at the doorbell. He rose swiftly to his feet and crossed the room, to admit a tall, ruddy-faced young man, still in his muddy wellington boots. In his arms he was carrying a drooping bundle, wrapped in an old blanket.
Im sorry to barge in like this, TomI know it aint your surgery tonight. But its our old Shep, he blurted out, agitated and upset. He was perfectly all right this morning, but when the missus came in from fetching the kiddies from school he was like thiscouldnt move, couldnt get up, wasnt even interested in his bone. Daft old mutt, he is, and getting on a bit now, but the kids love him. I dont know if theres anything you can do.
Thats fine, Bob, Tom assured him swiftly. Bring him through to the clinic.
Do youthink hes going to be all right?
Tom hesitated, casting a doubtful eye at the bundle in the young farmers arms. Ill do my best, he promised.
CHAPTER THREE (#ulink_29f91070-3e45-5308-9eb3-bc577adc731d)
DRAWN by an instinctive concern for the little dog, Josey followed them. The veterinary clinic was through a thick oak door at the end of the passage. A cluttered office led into a much larger room, with a rubber-topped table in the middle of it and all manner of important-looking equipment stowed neatly around the walls.
Put him down, Bob, Tom instructed, gesturing towards the table. You get off home nowIll have a look at him, and see what I can do.
Right. The farmers voice was suspiciously thickened, and Josey noticed him surreptitiously wipe a tear from the corner of his eye. Well, Ill leave you to it, then. Maybe Ill give you a ring in a couple of hours to see whats what. Reluctantly he turned away from the table, barely even noticing Josey as he stepped past her.
She moved over to the table. The dog was a medium-sized black and white mongrel, with thick shaggy fur and a tail just made to be wagged. But now he was still, and even Josey could see that he was tense with pain. Do you think hell be all right? she asked, unconsciously echoing the farmers words.
Tom was bending over his patient, his sensitive fingers gently examining the small, trembling body. I dont know, he admitted wryly. Ive a nasty feeling hes got peritonitismaybe from a ruptured appendix or a punctured intestine. Im going to have to open him up and have a look.
He didnt sound very hopeful, and Josey felt tears rise to prick the backs of her eyes. Some children were going to be very sad if their pet didnt make it. Is thereanything I can do to help? she asked.
Just sit there by his head and keep an eye on him, he instructed as he deftly slipped a needle into the dogs vein, and hooked it up to a plasma drip. Ill have to try and get his fluid balance right before I can operate. Make sure hes breathing steadily, and tell me if the colour of his gums changes.
She nodded, glad to be able to contribute if only in a token way, and, pulling over a stool, she sat down. Come on, Shep, she coaxed, stroking the small shaggy head. Keep fighting, boy. Just think of all those lovely bones waiting for you if you get well.
As Tom worked, Josey watched, fascinated by the skill in those beautifully made hands. Gone was all trace of that cynical, short-tempered man of so brief a time before; he had turned on the radio, and to the soothing strains of a Rachmaninov violin concerto he was performing the delicate operation on the small furry body that slumbered in anaesthetised bliss on the table.
He seemed so deep in concentration that she was taken by surprise when he sat back. Glancing across at her, he caught the unguarded expression of admiration in her eyes, and a smile of mocking amusement flickered across his face.
Well, I think that should do it, he said, flexing the muscles in his wide shoulders to ease their tension. Hows he looking?
Fine, Josey confirmed, feeling a surge of embarrassed colour in her own cheeks at having betrayed herself. Will he be all right now?
Well, its still touch and go, but if Bob hadnt brought him in when he did he wouldnt have stood a chance. Well know in a few hours whether hes going to pull through. Ill just get him settled in the sick-bay, and then we can see how he gets on over the next couple of hours. Come on, old feller. Gently he stroked his hand over the dogs shaggy head. Just hang in there a bit longer.
With infinite care, he lifted his small patient and carried him through to a back room. There was already one occupanta young tabby cat, who hissed viciously to show her resentment of being confined in her cage.
All right, Tuppence, I know its time for your dinner, Tom remarked to her soothingly as he passed.
Against one wall was a low wooden bench, divided into individual pens, and Shep was laid gently on a cosy pad of fibre bedding, his head arranged so that his tongue wouldnt obstruct his breathing. Josey bent to look at him.
Hehes twitching a bit, she remarked anxiously. Is he all right?
Tom laughed. Hes dreaming. Hes probably out in a field somewhere, chasing rabbits. Thats a good signit shows hes starting to come out of the anaesthetic.
Oh. She managed a reasonably steady smile. I didnt know dogs dreamed.
Those intriguing hazel eyes slanted her an enigmatic smile. Everybody dreams.
He was very close to her, and the faint, evocative muskiness of his skin drifted across her senses. She felt her heartbeat accelerate in response, and turned away quickly, afraid that he might pick up signals that she didnt want to transmit.
Would youwould you like a cup of coffee? she offered, to cover her confusion.
That seems like a good idea.
Right. She hurried away to the kitchen before he could notice that her cheeks were flushing a deepening pink.
But it proved far from easy to manage the simple task of filling the kettle with only one good hand, and she splashed water all over the place. Then trying to unscrew the lid from the coffee jar, she split the granules all over the scullery floor.
Her overwrought nerves seemed to snap in frustration, and she swore fiercely, tears springing to her eyes. From the doorway came the sound of Toms laughter, low and husky. Having trouble? he teased gently.
I couldnt get the lid off. Im sorry, I She knew she was dangerously close to making a complete fool of herself.
Hey! To her surprise, he came over, and took her gently in his arms, drawing her against him. Come onit isnt that important, he soothed, stroking his hand over her hair. Its only a bit of coffee.
She couldnt help itshe knew it was meant to be no more than a comforting gesture, but the impact of being held so close to him, feeling the warm strength of his arms around her, breathing the evocative male muskiness of his skin, fuelled the fires of that fantasy she had been dwelling in, and she lifted her head, her lips softly parted, as if half expecting him to kiss her.
There was an arrested expression in those deep hazel eyes, as if he too had been taken by surprise, and for one timeless moment they hovered in uncertaintyand then with a faintly sardonic smile he let her go.
Id better wipe it up, he said.
Ohno, Ill do that, she offered quickly, her heart pounding in painful embarrassment.
Perhaps youd better not, he advised in mocking amusement. You seem to be seriously accident-prone
Im not usually, she protested, not liking the clumsy, incompetent image he seemed to have of her.
Well, never mind. Its soon done. He had taken a floor cloth from beneath the sink, and mopped the floor quickly. Ill make the coffee.
She flashed a fulminating glare at his indifferent back, and sat down at the big scrubbed-pine table. He had retreated back into those arctic wastes he normally inhabited, and yetsomehow she was sure she hadnt imagined what she had seen in his eyes just a moment ago.
Mind, it was so long since a man had looked at her with any kind of interest that she wasnt sure if she would even recognise it now, she conceded wryly. But it had seemed, just for those few incredible seconds, as if he really was going to kiss her
Impatiently she shook her head. It was dangerous enough to let herself indulge in stupid romantic fantasies about him, but if she was going to start imagining that he might be remotely interested in her she was going to end up making a complete fool of herself.
By the time he brought the coffee she had managed to reassemble some kind of mask of composure, and her voice was commendably even as she thanked him.
Hows the wrist? he enquired, sitting down opposite her.
Ohnot too bad, she responded with a flickering smile. It still hurts a bit.
You were extremely lucky, he reminded her.
I know. She risked a brief glance up at him. I suppose I ought to report the accident to the police?
Ive already reported it. Jackll be down to talk to you about it when youre feeling a bit better.
Do you suppose theyll charge me with careless driving? she asked anxiously.
He shook his head. I doubt it. Apart from Bill Wickhams ditch, you were the only one who suffered any damage. Youll need to put in an insurance claim, of course.
Its on my husbands insurance. She couldnt keep the edge of bitterness from her voice. Personally I dont give a damn whether he makes a claim or not.
Even so, dont you think youd better ring him and let him know where you are? he enquired levelly.
He wont care, she asserted. Hell just be sorry I didnt manage to kill myselfthat would have saved him the bother of going through a divorce.
Those hazel eyes were completely unreadable. What was he thinking? She hadnt meant to tell him about her marital problems, but somehow it was a relief to talk about it.
Why are you getting a divorce? he enquired; there was a kind of empathy in the way he asked the question, and suddenly she was sure that he was divorced too.
Why not? She shrugged her shoulders, still trying to hide her hurt behind a pose of indifference. He wants to marry his secretary, and who am I to stand in the way of true love? Besides, shes pregnant.
He looked surprised. Did you know he was having an affair?
Of course. She was trying to make her voice sound cynical and hard, but she suspected it wasnt quite coming off. He has affairs with all his secretariesits just one of his endearing little habits.
He laughed drily. So why didnt you leave him sooner?
I dont know, she admitted with wry self-mockery. Habit, I suppose. And I didnt have anywhere else to go.
You dont have any family?
Nowell, theres my father, of course, but I couldnt have gone there. I dont get on particularly well with my stepmother.
You could have got a place of your own.
Yes, I suppose so She looked down, swinging her foot in awkward embarrassment. How could she expect him to understand the way Colin had eroded so much of her confidence that she hadnt believed she could manage on her own? She wasnt at all sure that she could nowbut at least she didnt have to think about it for a few more days. She wasnt well enough to leave Toms yet, and go to a hotel.
There was a long silence. She could still feel his eyes resting on her, and a kind of shimmering heat had started deep inside her. Was he aware of the effect he had on her? She was fairly sure he must behe was far too perceptive to miss the signs that gave her away.
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SUSANNE MCCARTHY
Тип: электронная книга
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О книге: Second Chance For Love, электронная книга автора SUSANNE MCCARTHY на английском языке, в жанре современные любовные романы