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The Best Laid Plans
Sarah Mayberry
On the edge of something big! Boundaries. The key to how corporate lawyer Alexandra Knight manages her busy life. However, lately all her precisely drawn lines are getting blurred. Blame it on her out-of-control biological clock that is ignoring her single status…Because her sexy, no-strings colleague Ethan Stone has posed an outrageous solution to her dilemma – he’ll be her baby daddy. This from the guy who avoids all commitment? OK, so they’re attracted to each other. Really, really attracted. But crossing the line from co-worker to co-parent with Ethan could ruin Alex for all other men. After all, when you’ve had the best…




A slow smile spread across Ethan’s mouth.
“I’m not saying yes, Ethan,” Alexandra felt compelled to point out.
“But you’re not saying no.” He was trying to temper his smile but she could see the relief in his eyes. The hope.
He wants this as much as I do.
She’d forgotten that there were men who craved children as much as women did.
“We need to talk more,” she said. “A lot more.”
“Absolutely. How about dinner at my place on Saturday night?”
It would be the first time they’d seen each other outside the office or the racquetball court. And it seemed like a huge leap into the unknown. Still … “Okay. That sounds good.”
“Then it’s a date,” he said.
And even though she knew there were so many things that could go wrong, she felt lighter than she had in weeks. If this worked out.
Dear Reader,
I grew up in a world where I was told girls (women!) could do anything and become anyone when they grew up. An astronaut, a doctor, a lawyer, a soldier. The notion of having a career was something that was, well, normal for the generation of women I went to school with, and this is definitely the case for my heroine, Alexandra Knight. She’s been determined to make her mark in the world and secure her own future ever since she was a little girl.
But she has another dream—the dream of being a mother. A dream she’s afraid she’s left too late to pursue at the ripe old age of thirty-eight. But Alex has never been the type to roll over without a fight. The Best Laid Plans is Alex’s story—and the story of the wonderful, damaged, generous man she stumbles across on her way to the maternity ward.
I hope you enjoy Alex and Ethan’s journey to happiness. I had a wonderful—and emotional—time writing it. If you’d like to drop me a line, I love to hear from readers and you can reach me via my website at www.sarahmayberry.com
Until next time, happy reading,
Sarah Mayberry

About the Author
After several international moves, SARAH MAYBERRY now lives in Melbourne, Australia, her home town, with her partner of nearly twenty years. She is the proud owner of a mini orchard, complete with quince and fig trees and raspberry canes. When she’s not writing or thinking about all the jam she will make one day, she likes to shop for shoes and almost anything else. She also loves cooking, movies and, of course, reading.

The Best Laid Plans
Sarah Mayberry


www.millsandboon.co.uk (http://www.millsandboon.co.uk)
This was a hard one. Big thanks and hugs and commiserations and air kisses to Chris and Wanda, my frontline pit crew who cheered me on from the sidelines and gave me the occasional kick when I needed it and listened to all my whining and gnashing of teeth.
Also thanks to the Libster for very generously sharing her knowledge of artificial insemination with me.

CHAPTER ONE
“DAMN YOUR EYES, WHERE did you come from?”
Alexandra Knight plucked at the run climbing the right leg of her panty hose, sending it racing even farther up her leg. When she’d pulled on her hose ten minutes ago, they’d been perfect. And she knew for a fact that there wasn’t another pair anywhere in her apartment since she’d already dragged these ones out of the laundry in desperation.
She checked her watch. She was already in the underground garage of her apartment building. If she went upstairs and changed into a pantsuit, she’d chew up ten minutes, minimum. But if she swung into the convenience store near her downtown Melbourne office, she might make her first meeting. If she hustled.
Decision made, she strode the final few feet to her car and beeped it open. She reversed out of her spot with a rev of the engine, then shot up the ramp and into the street.
The parking gods were smiling on her and she drove straight into a space in front of the minimart on St. Kilda Road. She was out of the car and heading for the door in no seconds flat.
She had three pairs of panty hose in hand when she hurried out the door two minutes later, only to find the sidewalk blocked by a tall blond man attempting to wrangle a complicated-looking stroller that had become entangled with one of the many bags hanging from its handle. She sidestepped, her thoughts on the day ahead. Her corporate client Jamieson was keen to have the contract of sale she was negotiating on their behalf signed off by the end of the week, which meant she had to redraft the contract by this afternoon so they could—
“Alex.”
She turned instinctively.
“Jacob,” she said, one foot on the curb, the other in the gutter, stunned by the unlikely coincidence of seeing her ex. Her gaze dropped to the small body strapped securely in the stroller he was pushing. There was no missing the resemblance between man and child.
He was a father.
Jacob, the man she’d lived with for seven years, the man who had refused to even discuss having a child with her, had had a child with someone else. Some other woman.
For a moment Alex could do nothing but blink.
She had begged him to reconsider his anti-child stance. They’d fought over it so many times she’d lost count. He’d always been so adamant. So certain, even when they were packing their things and going their separate ways.
And now …
She dragged her gaze from his baby to his face. He had the grace to look sheepish.
“I thought you might have heard through the grapevine,” he said.
But she hadn’t. If she’d known … She had no idea what she would have done.
“How old is he?” she asked. Amazing how calm her voice sounded when the rest of her was reeling.
“Four months.”
She flinched. She and Jacob had broken up eighteen months ago. That meant he’d met someone and gotten her pregnant pretty damn quickly.
“Congratulations,” she said, even though she wasn’t feeling the least bit congratulatory. “What’s his name? “
And her. What’s her name, this mysterious, magical woman who got you to cough up your DNA when I couldn’t even get you to discuss becoming a parent after seven years together?
“Theodore. Teddy for short.”
“That was your grandfather’s name, wasn’t it?”
“That’s right.”
He was blushing. And she’d run out of things to say—except for the one burning question that her pride would never allow her to ask: why not me?
Hadn’t he loved her enough? Had she been missing some vital, essential ingredient that had stopped him from fully committing to her?
Her hand curled into a fist. She wanted to hurt him. Punch him in the face. Grab him by the lapels and demand to know why, how, when. Instead, she forced her hand to relax and made a show of checking her watch.
“I really have to go if I’m going to make my first meeting. Good luck with everything, Jacob.”
She stepped blindly into the street.
“Alex. Before you go … Just in case you thought—I mean, it was an accident,” Jacob said.
“What?” Despite herself, she lingered and turned to face him when she should have gotten in her car and driven away.
“Mia didn’t realize she’d missed a pill and then we found out she was pregnant. So, you know, all this was unplanned.” His gesture took in his child, the stroller, the tangled diaper bag.
“Well. I guess that makes it all okay,” she said.
She escaped to the sanctuary of her car. Except it wasn’t really a sanctuary, since Jacob remained where he was, watching her, an expression on his face that was an equal mix of guilt and defensiveness. Alex concentrated on starting the engine so she could get the hell out of here.
She pulled over the moment she was around the corner and out of sight. She stared out the windshield, her hands gripped the steering wheel so tightly that her knuckles ached.
Jacob was a father. He had a beautiful baby boy. With someone else. A woman named Mia, who had “forgotten” to take a pill or two and forced Jacob into a position he had adamantly, passionately, avowedly claimed he wanted to avoid for the entire duration of his relationship with Alex.
He’d named his child Theodore, after his paternal grandfather. He was even on child-care duty, pushing one of the contraptions he’d once dubbed a “blight on civilization” because of the way they choked supermarket aisles and cafés.
She could hear her own breathing, fast and harsh as though she’d just run a race. She told herself that the past was the past and that what Jacob had done once they’d split was nothing to do with her. But not for a minute did she believe it.
The thing was—the thing that stung so bloody bitterly—was that he’d always been so certain about what he wanted. He’d informed her six months into their relationship that he wasn’t interested in having children. By then she’d loved him so much, wanted to be a part of his life so badly, she’d convinced herself that he would change with time. Lots of men did, after all, and they’d both been only thirty. She’d told herself that once he saw his friends have kids, he’d understand the joy and challenges that children could bring. The love and hope and energy. All she’d have to do was wait him out.
And she had. She’d concentrated on achieving partnership at Wallingsworth & Kent and back-burnered her baby dreams until the issue had become a wedge between them.
And now Jacob was a father, and she was single and thirty-eight and still looking for the man she’d left Jacob to find. A man she loved who loved her and wanted to have the family that had always formed the cornerstone of her hopes and dreams.
For the second time that morning her hands curled into fists and she pounded them once, twice, three times against her steering wheel.
An electronic beep drew her attention back to the moment. She blinked, looking around to identify the source of the sound. Her gaze fell on her bag and her brain clicked into gear. Her phone. That’s what the sound was. She pulled it from her handbag and touched the screen. It was her legal secretary, Franny, letting Alexandra know her first client had arrived and was waiting in reception.
Alex laughed.
A client. Right. She had a meeting scheduled. Hell, she had a whole day scheduled. And here she was, thinking that the world had contracted to only her and the sick, angry feeling in the pit of her stomach.
She took a deep breath, then texted a quick reassurance that she was five minutes away.
Seeing Jacob pushing a stroller had dredged up a lot of the old feelings she thought she’d put to rest. But she didn’t have time to sit in her car and gnash her teeth. People were relying on her.
She continued to talk herself down as she drove to the office.
She might feel justifiably angry and cheated by the way things had turned out, but it wasn’t as though she was out of options. At thirty-eight, she had at least five good childbearing years ahead of her—Madonna had had her second child at forty-two, after all, and Geena Davis had had twins at forty-seven. Alex was fit and healthy and active. There was plenty of time for her to find Mr. Right and have the family she’d always wanted.
Plenty of time.
Ignoring the flutter of panic behind her breastbone, Alex reeled in her feelings and focused on the day ahead.
Plenty of time.
EIGHT HOURS LATER, Alex waited on the examination table as her doctor washed her hands after Alex’s annual physical. As it had all day, her mind circled back to the encounter with Jacob. She made it a policy not to brood. It was a huge waste of energy, and it never changed anything. She had better things to do with her time and emotion. Still, she couldn’t erase the image of Jacob and little Teddy. To be so close to everything she wanted and yet be so far removed.
Dr. Ramsay turned back from washing her hands. “Okay, we’ll check your abdomen, then we’re done. Hands by your sides, please. And a nice relaxed belly.”
“Sure you don’t want me to beg or fetch?” Alex asked.
“As if you’d listen to me anyway.” Dr. Ramsay smiled, the lines around her eyes deepening.
She’d been Alex’s doctor for ten years now and she always managed to fit Alex in, no matter how crazy her work schedule.
Dr. Ramsay’s expression grew distant as she pressed down on Alex’s lower belly.
“Let me know if you feel any pain or discomfort.”
“Okay.”
“How’s that?” Dr. Ramsay asked, pressing near where Alex imagined her ovaries were located.
“All good.”
“And here?”
Over her bladder this time.
“Fine.”
A few more pokes, then her doctor was done.
“You can get dressed now. So unless there’s anything else you were worried about, we’re finished.”
Alexandra sat up, swinging her legs over the side of the table.
“Nothing major. I have noticed my periods have been getting heavier over the past few months. More cramping, that sort of thing.”
“Unfortunately, that’s something that happens for a lot of women as they age. You’re, what, thirty-nine this year?”
“That’s right.”
“We’ll keep an eye on it and if it becomes a problem we can look at your options. But given the average age of menopause is fifty-one, it might be an issue that will simply resolve itself.”
Alex laughed nervously. “Menopause? I’m not even forty yet.”
Dr. Ramsay shrugged. “But you are on the tail end of your fertility, and quite a few women go into menopause in their forties.”
“But … I haven’t had children yet.”
Dr. Ramsay looked startled. “Oh. I didn’t realize that was something you wanted. I always assumed you were a career woman.”
“No. I mean, I am. I love my career. But I want a family, too.”
There was concern in Dr. Ramsay’s eyes now. “I see. Well, you probably don’t need me to tell you that the clock is ticking.”
“I’ve still got a few years up my sleeve yet, right?” Alex asked.
She hesitated a beat before speaking again. “Why don’t you get dressed and we can discuss this further?”
The curtain hissed shut between them. Alex tried to push beyond the growing sense of dread as she reached for her clothes. It took her two attempts to button her skirt.
Dr. Ramsay was seated at her desk when Alex opened the curtain.
“Grab a seat,” the doctor said, patting the chair she’d pulled up alongside her desk.
Alex sat and folded her hands into her lap. “Why do I feel as though I’ve been called to the principal’s office?”
Dr. Ramsay drew a diagonal line on the paper in front of her, sloping from the top left corner down to the right. Then she jotted some figures along the horizontal and vertical axes of her impromptu graph.
“Here’s a crash course in female fertility,” she said when she’d finished her sketch. “When it comes to having babies, the quality of the egg is what’s important. The current understanding is that fertility as well as egg quality hit their peak at around twenty-seven. From then onward, it’s a steady decline. After thirty-five—” Dr. Ramsay tapped the appropriate point on her downward-sloping graph “—fertility drops off dramatically. Statistically, the likelihood of a woman in her early forties having a successful pregnancy with her own ovum is only ten percent.”
“Ten percent?” Alex repeated.
“Ten percent.”
“But I’m only thirty-eight right now. Where does that place me on the graph?” Alex leaned forward urgently.
Dr. Ramsay tapped a spot scarily close to the bottom of her sloping line. “At about thirty-five percent. But remember, these figures are averages. There are always people who fall outside of the norm.”
Alex stared at the tiny indentation the doctor’s pen had made in the page. Thirty-five percent. She had a thirty-five percent chance of getting pregnant and successfully carrying a child to term. And next year that figure would drop again.
“I thought I had more time. I mean … Madonna. And Geena Davis. And I’m sure I read about a woman in her early fifties having triplets….”
“Unfortunately these high-profile late-in-life pregnancies give women a false sense that having a baby is as simple as deciding the time is right and going for it. Many, many older women have to resort to IVF to get pregnant in their late thirties and early forties. Many fail and are forced to look to donor eggs.”
Alex’s palms were damp with sweat. For so many years she’d dreamed of being a mother. She’d drawn up a list of names, she’d even bought her sensible, safe sedan with an eye to the future. She’d always assumed that she would be a mother, that when she was ready, her body would cooperate and she’d get pregnant.
“Are you telling me that it might already be impossible for me to have a child?” she asked. It was hard to get the words past the lump in her throat.
“Without invasive tests, without you having tried and failed to conceive for an extended period of time, it’s impossible for us to know how fertile you are. What I’m trying to say and perhaps not doing a very good job of it is that if this is something you want, Alex, you need to move quickly. The sooner the better as far as your body is concerned.”
Alex smoothed her hands down her skirt. She could feel how tense her thigh muscles were beneath the fine Italian wool. Her belly muscles were quivering and she was frowning so fiercely her forehead ached.
“I see,” she said.
And she did. She saw Jacob’s baby boy, his big blue eyes taking in the world, his fingers clutching the edge of his blanket.
So small and soft, so full of promise.
All the rage and resentment and bitterness that she’d suppressed this morning rolled over her.
She’d given Jacob seven years. Seven of her best years, apparently. He’d said no to children again and again, and now he had what she’d always dreamed of and she was left to face the possibility that she would only ever be a godmother to her friends’ children.
It was so unfair, so bloody cruel …
Alex realized Dr. Ramsay was watching her, an expectant expression on her face. She’s missed something, obviously.
“I’m sorry, what did you say?”
“I said I’d be happy to jot down the names of some good books on the subject for you,” her doctor said.
“Yes. That would be great. Thank you,” Alex said.
She waited while Dr. Ramsay wrote down a couple of titles, then somehow found the strength to make polite small talk as the doctor saw her to the door.
She drove on autopilot to the gym to meet her coworker Ethan for their weekly racquetball game. It wasn’t until she was pulling on her Lycra leggings and hooking the eyes on her sports bra that she registered where she was and what she was doing.
She sat on the bench that bisected the change room and put her head in her hands. She didn’t want to run around a court and exchange smart-ass banter with Ethan between points. She wanted to go home and curl up in the corner with her thumb in her mouth.
She pressed her fingertips against her closed eyelids and sighed heavily. Then she straightened, pulled on her tank top, laced up her shoes and shoved her work clothes into her gym bag. As much as she wanted to go home, she couldn’t leave Ethan hanging. Not when he was probably already standing on the court, waiting for her. She’d made a commitment to him and she always honored her commitments.
Shouldering her bag, she made her way to the wing that housed the racquetball courts. As she’d guessed, Ethan was already there, warming up. She eyed him through the glass panel in the door, for once not feeling a thing as she looked at his long, strong legs, well-muscled arms and fallen-angel’s face.
She smiled a little grimly. After months of telling herself that it was really, really inappropriate to have a low-level crush on her fellow partner and racquetball buddy, it seemed that all it took to neutralize his ridiculous good looks and rampant sex appeal was the news that she might have left it too late to have children.
She tucked her chin into her chest, squared her shoulders and fixed a smile on her face. Then she pushed open the door and entered the court.
“Hey. Thought you were going to chicken out on me,” Ethan said as she threw her bag on top of his in the corner. A lock of dark hair fell over his forehead and he brushed it away with an impatient hand.
“Sorry. Got caught up,” she said.
“No shame in admitting you’re intimidated, slowpoke,” Ethan said, his dark blue eyes glinting with amused challenge.
Most of the women in the office would turn into a puddle of feminine need if he gave them one of those looks, but Alex had been building up her immunity from day one. It was part of their shtick, the way he twinkled and glinted and flirted with her and the way she batted it all back at him, supremely unimpressed by his charmer’s tricks.
According to their usual routine, she was supposed to rise to the bait of him using his much-disputed nickname for her but she didn’t have it in her tonight. Instead, she concentrated on unzipping the cover on her racquet before turning to make brief eye contact with him.
“Let’s play,” she said. The sooner they started, the sooner this would be over.
He raised his eyebrows. “Don’t want to warm up?”
“Nope.”
She took her position on the court.
He frowned. “You okay?”
“I’m fine,” she said. “You want to serve first …?”
Ethan’s gaze narrowed as he studied her. She adjusted her grip on her racquet and tried to look normal. Whatever that was.
Finally he shrugged and moved to the other side of the court. After all, it wasn’t as though they had the kind of friendship that went beyond the realm of the stuffy oak-paneled offices of Wallingsworth & Kent and the racquetball court. They might be the two youngest partners, and they might see eye to eye on most issues that came up during the weekly partners’ meetings, but she had no idea what he did in his downtime—although she could take an educated guess, thanks to office scuttle-butt—and vice versa. Their friendship—if it could even be called that—was made up of nine-tenths banter and one-tenth professional respect. He was the last person she would confide her fears in.
Ethan bounced the ball a few times before sending it speeding toward the wall with his powerful serve. She lunged forward, racquet extended, and felt the satisfying thwack as she made contact. In a blur of stop-and-go motion they crisscrossed the court, slamming the ball into corners, trying to outmaneuver each other.
He was taller than her, and stronger, but she was faster and more flexible, as well as having four years on him agewise. The result was that they usually gave each other a good run for their money—although Ethan was slightly ahead on their running scoreboard, having beaten her last week.
Tonight she went after every point as though her life depended on it, pushing herself until she was gasping for breath and sweat was stinging her eyes.
After twenty minutes she’d won the first game and was ahead by three points on the second. Ethan shot her a grin as they swapped sides for her serve.
“You’re on fire, slowpoke. But don’t get too comfortable.”
She didn’t bother responding, bouncing the ball and sending it slamming toward him instead. Another frenetic few minutes passed as they fought for the point.
“I pity him or her, I really do,” Ethan said after she’d won the battle with an overhead slam.
Alex tucked a stray strand of brown hair behind her ear. “Sorry?”
“Whoever pissed you off.”
“I’m not angry,” she said.
“If you say so.”
She prepared to serve again but he walked to the corner and grabbed a bottle of water from his bag. She waited impatiently for him to drink, tapping her racquet against the side of her sneaker.
They’d just started their third game when she went long, lobbing a shot at the wall. It hit the high line and ricocheted toward Ethan but he let it fly past him to hit the rear wall without even attempting to take the shot.
“One, love,” he said, his chest heaving, a big grin on his face. “Nice volley.”
“Hang on, that was my point,” she said. She wiped her forearm across her forehead.
“Sorry, it was out.” His tone was final, utterly confident.
“It was in, Ethan. Right on the line, sure, but the line is in.” She pointed toward the front wall with her racquet.
“Trust me, it was out.”
“Oh, well, if you say so, it must be right. I mean, it’s not like you’d ever lie to get your own way, is it? You’re a man, and if it suits you, I’m sure anything goes—until it doesn’t, right?”
Her words echoed off the hard surfaces of the court. There was a short silence as Ethan looked at her, his expression unreadable. Then she was looking at his back as he turned to collect the ball.
Heat burned its way up her chest and into her face. Talk about out of line.
“I’m sorry. That was really … I’m sorry,” she said.
Ethan regarded her for a long beat. “Maybe we should take a break. Or call it quits until next week.”
“No!” She heard the desperation in her own voice and tried to find the words to convince him to keep playing. It seemed vitally important that she be allowed to keep running around this small box, smashing the hell out of a rubber ball. She opened her mouth, but her throat seized and heat pressed at the back of her eyes. She spun away.
Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t you dare cry.
She stared fiercely at the floor, clenching and unclenching her hand on the grip of her racquet.
“Hey.” Ethan’s hand landed on her shoulder. “What’s going on, Alex? “
“I’m fine,” she managed to say.
“No, you’re not.”
“I’m fine.” But her voice caught on the last word then tears were falling down her face.
“Shit,” she said under her breath. Of all the people to break down in front of.
“It’s okay,” Ethan said from behind her. “Whatever it is, I’m sure you can work it out.”
It was so far from the truth that she laughed harshly. “Sure I can. I can make myself younger. I can turn back time and make Jacob want to have a child with me. Hell, I can probably click my fingers and make myself pregnant.”
The moment the words were out of her mouth she was acutely aware of how much she’d revealed, how exposed she was and how really inappropriate this conversation was. This was Ethan Stone, after all. Mr. Suave and Sophisticated, her fellow partner. Just because they shared lunch occasionally and played racquetball regularly didn’t mean he wanted to know all the gory, messy details of her private life. And she didn’t want him to know. Work was work, this was … very private.
“Who’s Jacob?” Ethan asked.
“Nobody important. Forget I said anything.”
She wiped her cheeks with her fingertips and sucked in a shaky breath. She had to get a grip. Had to put on her game face and convince him that she was good and to forget what she’d said.
“Alex …”
“I’m okay. A little stressed, that’s all.” But the damned tears wouldn’t stop.
Warm, strong arms closed around her, pulling her toward a big, broad chest. Instinctively she resisted his embrace, trying to pull away.
“Don’t be an idiot,” he said, the sound vibrating through his chest and into hers, his arms tightening around her.
Finally she gave in, although she couldn’t bring herself to return the embrace—that would be admitting too much, asking for too much. Instead, she stood with her arms hanging uselessly by her sides, her body rigid with tension, waiting for this moment of pity or sympathy or whatever it was to be done with so she could make her excuses and get the hell out of here.
He didn’t seem in any hurry to let her go, however. She could hear his heart beating steadily beneath her ear and she could smell his aftershave, something with sandalwood and musk notes. It had been a long time since she’d been held by a man—eighteen months.
She’d forgotten how good it felt.
Slowly, despite herself, some of the tension eased from her body.
“Nothing wrong with being upset, Alex,” Ethan said.
She sniffed, in desperate need of a tissue. This time when she pushed Ethan away he let her go. She kept her face averted as she crossed to her gym bag. She squatted to rummage inside for her towel, then pressed the soft fabric against her face until she was sure she’d blotted away all evidence of her outburst. Then and only then did she push herself upright and face him again.
They eyed each other for a long beat. Finally Alex cleared her throat.
“I don’t suppose you’d be prepared to pretend the last few minutes never happened? “
“Who’s Jacob?” he asked again.
“I appreciate the concern, I really do, but you don’t want to hear the pathetic details of my personal life.” She worked hard to keep her tone light and dry.
His gaze searched her face for a long moment. “Let me guess. Jacob’s your ex, right? What happened? Is he getting married? Moving countries? Dying from an obscure disease?”
“I really don’t want to talk about it.”
“So he’s getting married.”
“He’s not getting married. Can we just leave it?”
“How long ago did you break up?”
She threw her hands in the air. “He was pushing a baby stroller, okay? He’s a father. Is that what you wanted to know?”
There was a short silence. She could see the surprise on Ethan’s face, as though she’d presented him with a puzzle piece and he didn’t know where it fit. Like Dr. Ramsay, he was probably shocked that she wanted to be a mother. She’d done such a good job of building the facade of Alexandra Knight, cool, efficient corporate lawyer, that no one had any idea what lay behind the power suits and overtime. Which was the way she liked it. Most of the time.
“How old are you?” Ethan asked.
“Excuse me?”
“Thirty-five? Thirty-six?”
“I’m thirty-nine this year.”
“Thirty-nine’s not old—”
She held up a hand. “Please don’t tell me that I have plenty of time to meet someone else and have a child. I know it might be hard for someone who only has to click his fingers to have half a dozen women panting at his front door to understand, but men over thirty-five who want to get married and have kids are a little thin on the ground. And I have it on the good authority of my doctor that my chances of conceiving drop to ten per cent once I hit my forties.”
“I see,” he said.
And she knew he did—too much.
She stood, shouldering her bag. “Look, I really have to go. I’m sorry about the game. And the blubbering. I’ll make it up to you next week.”
She didn’t wait for him to respond, simply strode for the door. She should have stuck to her first instinct and canceled the game. Should have gone home and gotten all the anger and hurt and despair out of her system before she’d had to face the world again.
She didn’t relax until she was behind the wheel of her car, cocooned by the dark outside and the instant warmth of her heater. Then and only then did her shoulders and stomach muscles relax. She sank against the seat and exhaled noisily. She felt so bloody weary and defeated. Overwhelmed. Filled with regret.
But she couldn’t turn back time, could she? Couldn’t go back eighteen months and be the one to “accidentally” forget a few vital pills so that she could be the mother of Jacob’s child and force him into fatherhood against his will.
Not that she hadn’t considered doing that toward the end. She’d been tempted, more than once. The bottom line was that she hadn’t wanted to build their family on the foundation of a lie. She’d respected Jacob too much to take such an important decision out of his hands.
And now it was too late. Or close enough as made no difference. She’d missed the boat. Waited too long. And no amount of temper tantrums on the racquetball court was going to change that fact. She was simply going to have to suck it up and get on with playing the hand she’d been dealt. And if that hand meant no children … well, so be it.

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