99 Red Balloons: A chillingly clever psychological thriller with a stomach-flipping twist
99 Red Balloons: A chillingly clever psychological thriller with a stomach-flipping twist
Elisabeth Carpenter
‘What a rollercoaster of a read!’ LISA HALL, bestselling author of Between You and MeTwo girls go missing, decades apart. What would you do if one was your daughter?When eight-year-old Grace goes missing from a sweetshop on the way home from school, her mother Emma is plunged into a nightmare. Her family rallies around, but as the police hunt begins, cracks begin to emerge.What are the secret emails sent between Emma’s husband and her sister? Why does her mother take so long to join the search? And is Emma really as innocent as she seems?Meanwhile, ageing widow Maggie Taylor sees Grace’s picture in the newspaper. It’s a photograph that jolts her from the pain of her existence into a spiralling obsession with another girl – the first girl who disappeared…This is a gripping psychological thriller with a killer twist that will take your breath away.‘A wonderfully assured debut about every parent’s darkest nightmare – expertly weaving a family’s story together with a real sense of tension and some great twists. Highly recommended.’ TM Logan, bestselling author of LIES‘An intense domestic thriller, twists and turns galore, and a host of family secrets. An absorbing read.’ Paul Finch, bestselling author of Strangers‘An intelligent, taut and compelling thriller’ Sam Carrington, bestselling author of Saving Sophie‘Carpenter emerges as an addictive new talent’ Helen Fields‘The plot is seamless’ Amanda Robson, author of Obsession
LIBBY CARPENTER
99 RED BALLOONS
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Dedication (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
For Dad
Table of Contents
Cover (#u56164d67-4a34-5f78-9f12-440a614908af)
Title Page (#u7082e529-50e0-555b-9925-8d4b6ce56a2a)
Copyright (#u3c25f9a4-2b16-5b4c-a5d5-5450dcb8da01)
Dedication (#u515e36a6-3f06-5939-8146-957cfe7d003e)
Chapter One (#u0f60849d-c901-5737-ae0a-b94ae42d522c)
Chapter Two: Stephanie (#u1f75c53e-7b51-5a4e-94c0-f65f3a18aa81)
Chapter Three: Maggie (#u0d9a8ebf-2bd6-5ee7-a96c-c47fee4eb1fa)
Chapter Four: Stephanie (#u59c6893e-5141-5e7e-a46a-774d1241d8c2)
Chapter Five (#u8d7efbd5-49e6-521f-a8cc-e80be1ce50b7)
Chapter Six: Maggie (#ub357d6ed-a7ce-5713-9b0d-78746486d9a0)
Chapter Seven (#u2124b9e1-8390-5814-b673-6e40c5343a73)
Chapter Eight: Stephanie (#uc33cdc45-e2f5-5fd8-a2da-c2714aab886b)
Chapter Nine (#u3b8dcee3-10e4-5f9d-8d66-121c16d60c9a)
Chapter Ten: Maggie (#u6d18f079-64c1-5970-a826-e90959552550)
Chapter Eleven: Stephanie (#u274b1b91-e3ac-5ab8-906d-1725f947fa6f)
Chapter Twelve: Maggie (#uef85d43b-c95a-5c52-b6be-58c1f21c3614)
Chapter Thirteen: Stephanie (#u7178f050-981e-5eef-8d07-11107bec97ef)
Chapter Fourteen (#u8a6485a1-6fc4-5448-b956-04121bc07d55)
Chapter Fifteen: Stephanie (#uc17fd6be-6aa8-51af-961d-ce9d0017bf17)
Chapter Sixteen: Maggie (#uc351965f-ac5c-532e-ac60-347023e3cb37)
Chapter Seventeen (#u4fd2494a-7582-5148-8586-16b9566ebefb)
Chapter Eighteen: Maggie (#u743a687c-1fa1-5020-896c-77c31d14d395)
Chapter Nineteen: Stephanie (#u2c0fc7e2-4c62-55ab-9c9d-510b73a2d23a)
Chapter Twenty: Maggie (#u789b6e79-0d24-5520-bef0-5e376072c3e3)
Chapter Twenty-One (#ub0248c4d-fc2b-50a4-9b39-18207de8ccb9)
Chapter Twenty-Two: Maggie (#u22504146-6f32-5efb-a1bb-32aa344e1f66)
Chapter Twenty-Three: Stephanie (#u5fb0e10c-5c3b-5d1e-b30e-751819b42e39)
Chapter Twenty-Four: Maggie (#u5399d2d6-7daf-5d1e-a0cd-659ee4e443f1)
Chapter Twenty-Five (#u3709c0d9-e568-5d77-b904-1d267f56679f)
Chapter Twenty-Six: Stephanie (#ubb2abe1d-910b-5671-9c68-2d96572c1184)
Chapter Twenty-Seven (#ue41a4d55-3847-53f5-98e3-b7928d9f6dc8)
Chapter Twenty-Eight: Stephanie (#u8e75e3e8-a587-5886-9859-7e7ef7131924)
Chapter Twenty-Nine (#ucae5bb7d-b9c4-5088-93b0-e0d39f4bd1fc)
Chapter Thirty: Stephanie (#ubc1e5a18-8179-5d46-b449-e34da88206a4)
Chapter Thirty-One: Stephanie (#ub7bd580f-cdcb-5257-b070-16d103e8365b)
Chapter Thirty-Two: Maggie (#u7a72af7a-4dfa-5b8e-9b80-3d67d61caef1)
Chapter Thirty-Three (#u4129825c-3813-581a-b2bd-c6ad28506c3a)
Chapter Thirty-Four: Maggie (#ubfe73cb8-1223-52be-a31f-373bf5d297f0)
Chapter Thirty-Five: Stephanie (#u71fd66c9-51d4-5f78-aefb-a52bdc63bee7)
Chapter Thirty-Six: Maggie (#ueb52b8fe-40a8-5c43-80f1-8263327c5e79)
Chapter Thirty-Seven (#ud5166a21-0dfb-5030-8321-1d5fd9f5bd04)
Chapter Thirty-Eight: Stephanie (#u27f07b02-47a9-5285-8abc-bf3a1cd5b125)
Chapter Thirty-Nine (#u728d3501-229d-5a9d-b886-f03e75bf9b24)
Chapter Forty: Stephanie (#u718b54b9-8b8f-5352-adb5-e5c7d83d8b9f)
Chapter Forty-One: Maggie (#u410f2c10-2cc6-5b3d-881b-98c2db8b0972)
Chapter Forty-Two (#ua20acf33-2deb-5aaa-8eb9-dc5b3056765c)
Chapter Forty-Three: Maggie (#u8c75110a-eb94-5a2d-ac2e-0a34032f283c)
Chapter Forty-Four: Stephanie (#u67e6bc32-aefb-584d-a796-e05a86434ad0)
Chapter Forty-Five (#uc8465572-1829-58ea-b4ba-b4a92ba66e77)
Chapter Forty-Six: Maggie (#ucfe08734-8366-5d52-aa4f-dde9aa86ce2d)
Chapter Forty-Seven (#u7422ad36-6907-5335-9de2-e0e428ea9436)
Chapter Forty-Eight: Stephanie (#ucc8f72ca-e15e-5a90-ae83-ff1743797501)
Chapter Forty-Nine (#u9bfff259-a0c5-58d0-a820-e5bea10178eb)
Chapter Fifty: Maggie (#u4481b351-dfa7-52c4-90f5-4e58aab8a759)
Chapter Fifty-One: Stephanie (#ua3908284-a529-517e-b24f-6dc89a4e0526)
Chapter Fifty-Two (#u9211ce3e-30b4-5208-aa69-4e27b89c9aa6)
Chapter Fifty-Three: Stephanie (#udd399a33-5dd6-5ccf-8154-78d041dc0e4c)
Chapter Fifty-Four: Maggie (#u0bb1a939-4e18-5e6b-936b-543da8234526)
Chapter Fifty-Five (#u81f02661-dc87-5763-ba7c-49f087209a8d)
Chapter Fifty-Six: Maggie (#u1d12521b-6de9-5d57-b624-778b080069bc)
Chapter Fifty-Seven: Stephanie (#u3a4ecf0a-ffdd-5e4e-84bb-29951e85af5a)
Chapter Fifty-Eight: Maggie (#uc1a7965e-9c32-5e15-92cd-3cfcfdc690b7)
Chapter Fifty-Nine: Stephanie (#uaa1a1cdf-3cd7-5685-8a5e-f6368041e857)
Chapter Sixty: Maggie (#u554cd42a-cbf7-5266-8da3-ee94200f7fba)
Chapter Sixty-One: Stephanie (#u4054f0c7-f88a-5416-a327-3cab99b8e38e)
Acknowledgements (#uceaee104-078a-5618-8082-8b80458a6674)
Keep Reading … (#uaf48cafa-94a4-516e-9b2c-f9866ba6d9f1)
About the Author (#u623f1dd1-e7ee-5c56-9160-356d2ebbb58f)
About the Publisher (#ue487b0f2-d564-59b2-a4d5-61a4c08f2f16)
Chapter One (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
I squint at him. The sun’s in my eyes and he looks like a shadow monster.
‘I can’t,’ I tell him. ‘I’ve got to get home. I’m only meant to be getting sweets from the paper shop, then straight back.’
He crouches in front of me. He’s wearing a woolly hat, which is funny as it’s really warm today.
‘But your mum asked me to fetch you.’ His eyes crinkle at the corners as he smiles.
I fold my arms. When I tilt my head, his face blocks out the sun.
‘You might be lying,’ I say. ‘Mummy warned me about men with sweets and puppies.’
The man laughs, like Gramps does when he’s Father Christmas.
‘I know,’ he says. ‘What’s she like? She’s such a worrywart.’
He’s right: she is. I drop my arms to my sides.
‘Anyway,’ he says, holding out both of his hands, ‘I’ve no sweets and I’ve no puppies. My name’s George – she’s always talking about me, isn’t she? She’s waiting at the bus station, says she’s got a surprise for you, for being a good girl at school.’ He taps his nose. ‘And we all know what you’ve been asking for.’
‘Really?’ I try not to jump up and down. ‘They’ve got me a horse?’
He winks and puts his finger on his lips. I try to wink too, but it turns into a messy blink. He holds out his hand, and I take it.
I’m allowed to sit on the front seat, but I’m not allowed to tell Mummy. On the radio, a song plays that I know: ‘Ninety-Nine Red Balloons’. I’m warm inside because Mummy sings it a lot. She sings it in German sometimes: Noin and noinsick or something. It’s an old one, but I like it.
‘Are you feeling all right?’
He’s looking at me as though I’ve got spots all over my face.
‘I think so.’
Mummy’s always worrying about me. When I had a bad cough in the middle of the night three weeks ago, she ran a hot bath and called the ambulance, but it was a false alarm.
He stops the car at a mini car park on the side of the road, just as the song is ending. Without his hat on, he looks older than he did before. He puts his hand on my forehead.
‘You do feel a bit hot.’
As soon as he says it, I feel it. I’m burning up.
He turns to the back seat and grabs a plastic carrier bag. I can’t read the supermarket’s name, but I recognise the red and green. He gets out a flask and pours a drink.
‘Here,’ he says. ‘Your mum gave me this in case you got car sick.’
After I’ve drunk it, I give the plastic cup-lid back to him. I’m really tired. There are things I have to say to him, like, Mummy’s never mentioned anyone called George, and, I never get car sick, but I can’t because my mouth doesn’t work any more. I try to smile at him. I wouldn’t say those things to him anyway ’cos I don’t want to hurt his feelings. Has he turned the radio off? Everything’s quiet. I can’t stop my eyelids from shutting.
Chapter Two (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
Stephanie (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
Emma’s running up and down the street. Angie, her next-door neighbour, is standing at her gate in her dressing gown.
‘What’s happening, Mum?’ asks Jamie, sitting beside me in the passenger seat. ‘Why’s Aunt Emma outside shouting? I thought we were coming for tea.’
‘I don’t know, love. Wait in the car.’
I get out. Angie pulls her dressing gown tight around her middle, shivering, even though it’s not that cold yet.
‘She can’t find Grace,’ she says.
‘What do you mean she can’t find her? Where’s she left her?’
‘Nowhere. She hasn’t come home from school yet.’
It’s nearly half past four.
‘Shit.’
I run after Emma, following her into the newsagent’s a few doors down. She’s showing Mr Anderson a picture of Grace on her phone, even though he already knows what she looks like. He shakes his head.
‘I told you ten minutes ago,’ he says gently. ‘She came in, but she didn’t buy anything. She came in with her friends, and then they went. I thought they all left together. Assumed she was with them.’
‘Did you actually see her leave?’ Emma rushes to the door to the back room of the shop. ‘Could she have sneaked through here? Maybe she’s hiding from someone. Grace!’
The door to the storeroom squeaks as it opens.
‘I doubt it, but you’re welcome to look.’
‘Angie’s calling the police,’ I say.
Emma glances at me, seeing me for the first time. She grabs hold of my arm. It’s dim inside. I pat my hand along the wall for the light switch, flicking it on. Boxes of sweets, crisps, toilet rolls are stacked up in rows – the back room smells sweet, like Nice biscuits.
‘Grace! Grace, it’s me, Mummy. I’m not cross. Come out, love. No one’s angry at you for hiding.’
She moves every cardboard box away from the wall. Nothing. But then, Grace is not the type to play hide and seek, especially in a dark back room of a shop – she’s too sensible to do anything like that. Emma stands in the middle of the room, both hands on her head.
‘It’s not been long,’ I say. ‘Perhaps she’s gone to a friend’s.’
She wrinkles her nose – it’s her way of stopping tears falling from her eyes.
‘She’s usually home ages ago. I’ve phoned her friends – none of them have seen her.’
‘Did she arrange something at school and you’ve forgotten?’
‘I’ve driven to the school already – it’s locked, there weren’t any lights on.’
‘Who was the last to see her?’
‘Um.’ She shakes her head, her eyes flick left and right. ‘Angie’s daughter, Hannah.’
I grab her by the hand. ‘Thanks, Mr Anderson,’ I call to him before leading her out of the shop.
We run past Emma’s neighbours – they’re all standing on their doorsteps now.
‘Have you seen Grace?’ I shout, but they just shake their heads. Bloody useless people, staring at us.
‘It’ll be getting dark soon,’ says Emma, bending over to catch her breath. ‘She’s never home late, never. I need Mum here, can you ring her?’
‘Of course.’ I get my phone from my pocket. I dial Mum’s landline – cursing her that she still doesn’t have a mobile. There’s no reply. I leave a message for her to get here, but don’t tell her why – not over the phone. ‘Someone must have seen Grace – she can’t have just vanished off the street, not so close to home.’
It’s not only her I’m trying to convince.
When we get to Emma’s house, two police cars are parked either side of my car.
‘Shit – Jamie.’
How could I have left him when Grace has disappeared? He might be thirteen, but you never know what kind of maniac is out there. I run over and open the passenger door; the window is open.
‘Have you found Grace?’ he says, his eyes wide.
‘Not yet. Are you okay? Did anyone come to the car?’
He shakes his head.
The police are guiding Emma through her front door.
‘Come on, Jamie.’
I offer my hand to help him out of the car like I used to when he was little, and he takes it.
Two detectives arrived ten minutes after I did. DI Lee Hines is sitting with a notepad resting on his knees. He’s sweating in a long grey overcoat that’s grubby around the cuffs; his tie is loose around his collar. DS Rachel Berry is standing near the living room door; she’s wearing a trouser suit. She hasn’t spoken yet, but she’s looking at us as though we’ve done something wrong.
Emma’s rocking forwards and backwards; her arms wrapped around herself. My hand is resting on hers, but I don’t think she realises I’m here. Where the hell is Mum? She doesn’t usually go out on a Monday evening. Grace has been missing for nearly an hour. I’ve tried to get through to her at least three times. I get out my phone and dial her number. Her machine answers, again. She must be on her way.
‘Is there any chance Grace could have gone to meet a friend that you don’t know?’ asks Detective Hines. ‘Does she talk to anyone online?’
He’s perched on the edge of the armchair that Matt usually sits in. Instead, Matt’s standing up with his hands going crazy – in his pockets, out of his pockets, through his hair. He looks out of the window, but the house lamps inside are too bright against the darkening sky outside. All I can see is the room reflected back at us.
The sound of the police helicopter gets louder as it flies over the house. Police officers traipse in and out, up and down the stairs. They open and shut cupboard doors, look under the stairs, in the bath, behind the shower curtain. Others are opening the upstairs hatch, pulling down the ladder. Their heavy footsteps are loud on the loft floorboards, even from down here.
Emma stops rocking.
‘Chat online? Of course she doesn’t. She’s only eight. She wouldn’t know how to do things like that.’
‘Does she have a laptop? A computer in her bedroom?’
‘No,’ she says. ‘She uses the family laptop for homework.’
Everyone turns to the machine on the desk in the corner of the room as though it might tell us where she is. The two detectives look at each other. I know what they’re thinking: surely this kid will have gone onto chat sites, Facebook, Twitter. But Grace would rather talk to her friends face to face; she’s too young for social media. The police don’t know she’s not the kind to want a mobile phone. I wish now that she were.
Matt walks over to the desk and turns his back on it.
‘I don’t know why you’re asking questions like this. She’s out there.’ His eyes are wide as he points to the window. He’s trembling; there are beads of sweat around his hairline. ‘It’s getting late, for fuck’s sake, and we’re just going over the same fucking things.’
I wince, and hope Jamie doesn’t hear from the kitchen – that he’s too distracted with his homework, but I doubt it – he’s probably listening to every word. He’ll be worried. Jamie and Grace are so close; he treats her like a little sister – they spend hours playing Minecraft together.
Emma’s cry pierces the room. Her shoulders are shaking as she buries her face in her hands. I grab her closer to me and put my arms around her. Her hair is in my face and it blots my tears. Grace is their only child. I can’t believe she’s not here. She should be at home, having her tea with us, talking about school, doing her homework.
DI Hines shifts in his chair and glances at DS Berry.
‘We have everyone we can spare looking for Grace.’ He writes something in his notepad. ‘Can we just go over it one more time?’
Matt runs his hands through his hair. He’s done it so many times his hair’s stringy with sweat. He looks up to the ceiling. If you didn’t know him, you’d think him religious, looking for guidance, but he’s not.
‘She walks home from school,’ says Emma, her voice barely audible. ‘Sometimes with Hannah, sometimes with Amelia – there are three of them usually, but I’ve spoken to their mums. Amelia’s said Grace and another friend decided to stop at the shop for sweets. She’s usually home by quarter to four at the very latest.’
‘So Amelia didn’t wait for Grace?’ says Hines, narrowing his eyes. ‘She just walked away? Does Grace often walk to the shop on her own?’
‘Grace is eight; she’s not a baby. The school’s only down the road. We’ve been through this three times,’ says Matt. ‘We’re repeating ourselves.’
The detective scratches his forehead with his pen. Perhaps he’s thinking that a few minutes ago Grace was too young for a computer, and now she’s old enough to walk home by herself. It feels as though Emma and Matt will be judged on the decisions they made for her.
‘Sometimes it’s the tiny details that are the most important.’
‘Why did we start letting her walk home from school?’ Emma says to Matt. She turns to the detective, wiping her face with the sleeve of her cardigan. ‘They only started coming back by themselves last week – she’d been begging me for ages to let her – they’ve only been in Year 4 for three weeks. We … the other mums and I … told them they had to stick together no matter what. Every day last week I waited across the street from the school gates, followed them until they got to the newsagent’s. Then I’d run home so I could be there when she got back. I should’ve done that today – I thought they’d be fine, like they were last week.’
A thought runs through my mind that plants a heavy feeling in my stomach: what if someone else was watching Grace walk home today?
She went into the newsagent’s and never came out. How is that even possible? The image of Mr Anderson’s face comes into my head. He might have owned the shop for a few years, but how well does anyone know him?
‘Have you questioned Mr Anderson?’ Everyone looks at me and my face burns. ‘The newsagent, I mean.’
Hines gives a brief nod. Did he just roll his eyes?
‘Yes, yes.’
He doesn’t elaborate – they don’t give much away. He makes me feel stupid – guilty even – just by looking at me.
‘Is there anyone you can think of who might have taken her?’ he says. ‘A relative? Someone with a grudge?’
‘No, of course not,’ says Matt. ‘This is real life, not some bloody soap opera. We’re normal people. We don’t go around making enemies.’
My ears tingle as he says it. No.
There is someone, I want to say. But it shouldn’t be me saying that. Has Emma forgotten?
‘Did she argue with you before she left this morning? About something mundane, trivial even?’
‘Grace isn’t like that,’ says Matt. ‘We don’t argue in the morning.’
‘What time did you leave for work today?’
‘Just before eight.’
‘Mrs Harper – Emma.’
She looks up.
‘Did you and Grace argue before she left for school this morning?’
She frowns and shakes her head. She looks to the mantelpiece at the many photos of Grace. One of them is the obligatory school picture. By the time Jamie has left school I’ll have twelve – one for every year. I can’t breathe when I think that photo of Grace might be her last.
Hines writes in his notepad again and looks to me.
‘So just to get everyone’s name right. You’re Stephanie Palmer – Grace’s aunt?’
‘Yes,’ I say, too loud probably.
No one reacts. And why should they?
But it feels like a lie when I say it to a stranger.
My stomach is churning. I stand, swaying slightly, and squeeze past DS Berry in the doorway before rushing up the stairs. I get to the bathroom just in time to empty the contents of my stomach into the toilet.
Chapter Three (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
Maggie (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
I don’t feel old enough for a shopping trolley, but I am. The handles on carrier bags these days cut my hands; they’re much too thin, too cheap. Monday means it’s meat and potato pie for tea, which means calling into the butcher’s, then the vegetable shop.
Everything aches, especially my knees. I’d spend all afternoon in the bath if I could, but I’m not sure I could get myself out of it. Besides, it’s my routine that keeps me from staring at the walls, the television, the photographs.
It’s raining – again. It’s always raining. Wearing my long raincoat and ridiculous matching hat I could be anyone. It’s like my invisible cloak.
‘Are you all right, Maggie?’
The voice makes me jump. I wish I were invisible. I look up, lifting the wide brim of my hat.
‘Oh, hello, Sandra. Didn’t see you there.’
She’s holding an enormous golfing umbrella that’s emblazoned with Benson & Hedges. Do they even sell those any more? A fat drip of rain from it lands on my hand and splats onto the top of my trolley.
‘I’m not surprised,’ she says, ‘with that thing you’re wearing.’ She regards my hat as though it smells of rotten eggs. She shouldn’t pull that expression; someone should tell her it makes her look even older. ‘And you didn’t hear me either. I’ve been shouting you for the past ten minutes.’
Sandra’s a big fan of hyperbole. I don’t reply; she doesn’t notice.
‘How are we this afternoon?’ she says, her head tilted to the side. ‘I said to my Peter, I know I’ll see Maggie this afternoon ’cos it’s Monday. And every Monday she—’
‘Got to run, Sandra.’ I pull the brim of my hat over my eyes and start walking. ‘I’ve got an important appointment later.’
I need a new routine. If I bump into her again I might actually scream in the street – or jump in front of a moving car.
After a few minutes of walking, I’ve left Sandra behind. She’s probably going to tell her Peter that I’m a miserable old crone, but I don’t care.
The rain pauses.
I hear Sarah’s voice.
I look up to see if the face matches the sound. From behind she has the same brown hair in a bob on her shoulders. I can’t stop myself. I walk faster until it’s a light jog. My shopping trolley trips over the cracks in the pavement. I haven’t run for at least ten years and it shows. I slow to a walk before my knees give up, and I’m only a few feet away from her.
She laughs.
It’s Sarah’s laugh. I can’t help myself, again.
‘Sarah,’ I shout.
A passing bus splashes a puddle that misses me by inches.
I tap her right shoulder.
She stops in front of me. She turns round slowly and I know before I see her face that it’s not her at all.
Her eyes meet mine; they’re blue. Sarah’s were brown.
‘Sorry. Wrong person,’ I say, before she says it for me, like others have before her. She looks at me kindly, whoever she is, and smiles. No doubt she sees me as the ridiculous old lady that I am.
‘That’s okay.’
She turns back round and crosses the road. Probably to get out of the path of the crazy woman. I might actually be crazy, I don’t know. Of course that wasn’t Sarah. It could never be Sarah, and I should know that by now. Sometimes I think I could die from this loneliness, but I carry on. It’s torture. It’s too hard being the only one left. Being happy seems such a faraway memory. Why did everyone leave me?
The rain starts again, which is a good job because I’ve reached the butcher’s. The water disguises my tears. It’ll never do to be crying in the street.
Chapter Four (#ulink_5f337e2f-4773-5aea-badb-44b552ec9b93)
Stephanie (#ulink_5f337e2f-4773-5aea-badb-44b552ec9b93)
The detectives have gone. PC Nadia Sharma, the Family Liaison Officer, is opening and closing cupboards in the kitchen, too polite or too considerate to ask where the cups are.
My eyes feel red raw and twice their normal size. Emma’s gripping my hand so hard it’s numb, but it doesn’t matter. Her eyes are glazed and fixed on the carpet. She hasn’t spoken for nearly half an hour. I can’t ask if she’s okay, because I know she isn’t. I can’t ask her if she wants a drink because her mind won’t care what her body needs. I release the hand she’s holding and put my arm around her shoulders.
‘They’ll find her soon, Em,’ I say. ‘She’ll walk back through the front door, you’ll see.’
It’s almost cruel to say it, but it feels like Grace will come home. Any minute now.
Where is she? She’s eight, but she’s not a street-smart eight. Perhaps she’s had an accident, fallen somewhere and can’t get up. She tries to be brave when she’s hurt, especially if she’s in front of Jamie. She fell off her bike last summer. Jamie helped her into the house, her knees and elbows grazed. I’d carried her up the stairs as Jamie watched from the hallway, biting his lip. As soon as we reached the bathroom, the tears rolled down her cheeks.
‘Mum should be here in a minute,’ I say. ‘But with me and Jamie being here, there might not be enough room for us all to stay the night.’
‘I want you here,’ she says, her eyes still focused on the carpet. ‘All of you.’
I reach into my bag and check my mobile. It’s been almost an hour since I managed to get hold of Mum. She said she’d been in the bath when I’d called. I had to tell her about Grace, otherwise she might not have come.
‘But I’ve already dressed for bed,’ she said. ‘She’ll have gone to a friend’s.’She sighed when I told her that none of Grace’s friends had seen her since she went into the shop. ‘I’ll have to get some proper clothes on then and wait for a taxi. She’ll probably be back by the time I get there. You girls were always home late from school.’
‘But we weren’t eight,’ I said.
Mum only lives ten minutes away – traffic can’t be that bad. I don’t know how she stayed so calm. If it were my granddaughter, I’d run as fast as I could to get here.
Matt can’t keep still. He sits in his chair for only a few seconds before going to the window.
‘I shouldn’t be here doing fuck all. I should be out looking for her.’
‘I ought to know where she is.’ Emma’s voice makes me jump. ‘I’m her mother, I should be able to sense it. I keep trying to picture where she is, but I can’t.’ She turns to face me. ‘Why can’t I picture it?’
The tears betray me and trickle down my face.
‘I don’t know.’
I wish I knew.
‘She wanted French toast with Nutella for breakfast this morning,’ she says. ‘Don’t be silly, I said. That’s a weekend breakfast. Coco Pops I gave her.’ She starts rocking back and forth again. I’m rocking with her, my arm across her back. ‘Shit. Why didn’t I just make her the French toast? Fucking work. Rushing out of the door every morning to make it there on time. Why do I work? If I stayed at home, I would have made it for her. And then maybe she wouldn’t have gone for sweets after school.’
Matt strides over and crouches at her feet.
‘How can it be about that? How can she have vanished just because you work in a fucking office?’
He’s almost shouting. He stands while fresh tears pour down Emma’s face.
I wish he hadn’t snapped at her, but then who am I to monitor his behaviour when their child has just disappeared?
‘What is it?’ he says, to himself rather than us. ‘What are we missing? Perhaps she has met someone on the internet – maybe a friend from school told her which sites to go on.’
He looks around the room and walks towards the computer desk.
‘Where’s the laptop?’ he says.
Emma doesn’t move, just stares at the carpet.
‘Did you see them take it?’ he says to me.
I shake my head.
‘The police always take things like that, don’t they?’ I say.
‘How the hell should I know?’
Matt puts both hands on top of his head.
‘Shit.’
Emma said she was going to the bathroom, but she’s been upstairs for twenty minutes. I climb the stairs, but not so quietly that I startle her.
The bathroom door is open; she’s not in there. There’s a glow from underneath Grace’s bedroom door. There’s a sign on the door – one like Emma used to have on hers, only Grace’s is purple and has her name written in silver. I gently push it open.
‘It’s only me, Em.’
She doesn’t look up. She’s sitting on the edge of Grace’s bed. The quilt cover’s laid diagonally across it, and her giraffe teddy bear is near the pillow – she’s had it since she was a baby. Emma’s switched on the fairy lights, which twinkle on the headboard. Loom band bracelets are piled on her bedpost, untouched for months as the phase was replaced by another. I kneel on the floor, not wanting to disturb anything. Under the window is her dressing table, covered with pens, three jewellery boxes, and two mugs that she decorated herself. Above her headboard is a photo collage of her friends from school, and pictures of Emma, Matt, Jamie and me stuck to the wall with Blu-tack. Alongside them are posters of Little Mix and One Direction. One of the boy band members’ faces has been obliterated with a black marker.
Emma’s holding one of Grace’s books. She lifts it up: Everything You Need to Know About Horses.
‘We got it from the library two weeks ago,’ she says. ‘It’s due back on Friday. She’s decided she wants to be a vet. Last week she was going to be a hairdresser. Matt said he’d buy her a shop. At the time, I thought, Don’t be so silly, we can’t buy her a whole hairdresser’s.’ She places the book back on Grace’s bedside table. ‘When she gets back, I’ll get her anything she wants – anything.’
Emma looks around the room. Her eyes rest on a little shoebox that Grace made into a bed when it was her turn to look after the school teddy bear a few years ago.
‘I need to do Grace’s washing,’ says Emma. ‘I’m so crap.’ The white plastic laundry basket next to the desk is overflowing, the lid three feet away from it. ‘But what if I do that and she never comes back? I won’t be able to smell her any more.’ A tear runs down her cheek. ‘Where is she, Steph?’
I crawl to her and rest my head on her lap.
‘I don’t know.’
I try to picture Grace, like Emma tried before, but all I see is her cold and alone, the rain falling on her face as she lies in the dirt. It’s not even raining outside.
On the day she was born it had been snowing. I held her in my arms and looked out of the hospital window; the car park and the treetops were covered in a snow blanket. I hadn’t yet seen her open her eyes, but when I said, We’ll have to wrap you up warm when we take you home, little one, she gripped my finger a little tighter.
She didn’t have a name for the first week. Emma and Matt hadn’t wanted to know if she was a boy or a girl before the birth. They expected a boy, simply because Matt’s family were mainly men. ‘I must get her name right,’ Emma said. Every day they tried a different one for her: Jessica, Natasha, Lily are the few I remember. When Emma said Grace, I knew it was the perfect name for her.
‘You will stay here tonight, won’t you?’ says Emma, breaking the silence.
‘Of course, but—’
‘It’s fine that Jamie’s here. I need him here too. Will you both be all right in the spare room?’
‘We’ll be okay anywhere, don’t worry about it.’
There’s a growl of a diesel engine outside. We both jump to the window.
‘Oh.’
We say it at the same time.
It’s a black cab: Mum. She hasn’t driven since 1996, or whenever she had an experience with an HGV. I can’t remember her ever driving us anywhere before that though – it was always Dad.
Dad. What would he have been like in this nightmare? He’d have come straight over and taken control of everything. It’s been four years since he died. Sometimes it feels a lifetime ago; at other times it seems like yesterday.
I rush downstairs and open the front door, waiting while Mum pays the driver.
‘Where have you been?’
She rakes her fingers through her hair as she walks through the door. Her face, usually impeccably made-up, is red with broken veins on her cheeks. Her eyes are surrounded by puffy skin.
‘I had to get myself together. How’s Emma bearing up? Is she okay? And Matt?’
I narrow my eyes at her. Get herself together? Is she really going to be like this now?
‘Emma’s been asking for you. I rang you ages ago.’ I reach into my pocket for my phone. ‘It was five to six when I finally managed to talk to you after God knows how many times I rang – you said you were on your way. It’s gone seven o’clock.’
She frowns at me; her eyes are bloodshot.
‘It’s not the time to be pedantic, is it? I said I was sorry.’
No, she didn’t.
Jesus. My heart nearly pounds out of my jumper. I can’t think.
‘Where is she?’ she says.
For a moment I think she means Grace.
‘Upstairs.’
In the kitchen, Jamie’s sitting at the table, his face a hint of blue from the light of the laptop he takes with him everywhere.
‘Bedtime soon, love.’
‘It’s only early.’ He glances at me and nods. ‘Okay.’
‘Has there been anything on the internet about Grace?’
‘Not yet.’
How long does a child have to be missing to make it onto the news?
My phone vibrates three times in my pocket. It might be Karl. He and I have only been seeing each other a month, but we’ve worked together for years. This is the first time I’ve thought about him since Grace went missing; should it be like that? I take out my mobile.
It’s a message from Matt.
My heart flips. He’s sitting in the other room – he’s barely looked at me since I got here hours ago. I promised myself I wouldn’t think about him in that way any more. Grace is missing. What kind of person would that make me?
My hands are almost shaking as I click to open the message. Jamie’s standing at the doorway, waiting for me to show him to bed in a house where he seldom spends the night.
The message opens: I forgot to delete the emails.
Chapter Five (#ulink_e9cc92c8-db4e-5a26-b071-d0c05ee7b04f)
Before I open my eyes I feel that I’m rocking. Where was I before? With George, the man wearing the woolly hat. We were in his car. ‘Ninety-Nine Red Balloons’ was on the radio.
I open my eyelids just a little bit, so I can look around without him noticing I’m awake. It worked last week when Mummy came into my bedroom at night to put a coin under my pillow. She couldn’t tell that I waited up until she went to bed. I knew the tooth fairy wasn’t real anyway, so I wasn’t that sad.
I’m lying on an orange seat and there’s a table near my head. I can see his legs under it. He’s wearing the same trousers as before: grey with multi-coloured bits on them – like little dots of rainbow.
‘Ah, you’re awake, little one,’ he says.
I must have opened my eyes properly by accident. I pretend to yawn and sit up.
‘Where are we?’
‘Change of plan. Your mum is planning an even bigger surprise. We’re on the ferry.’
He looks around. I do too, but I can’t see Mummy. There’s hardly anyone here.
‘Are you hungry?’ he says. ‘I picked you up a few things from the café.’ He puts some food in front of me: a bread roll, Jacob’s crackers, and a Mars Bar. I shouldn’t eat the Mars Bar as I’ll get hyper. I’ve never eaten a whole one before – not this size.
I look around again. It’s the biggest café I’ve ever seen, but no one else is eating. I can see other people now, lying on the sofas under the tables like I was. They must be sleeping. I don’t think there are any bedrooms on this boat. Through the windows is blackness – the only thing I can see is the moon.
‘How did you get me here from the car? Did I sleepwalk?’
He laughs. ‘Well aren’t you a clever little thing – thinking about logistics.’
I don’t like him calling me a little thing. My teacher, Mrs Wilson, says that people can’t be things; only objects are things.
‘I pushed you in this.’
He reaches behind the pillar next to him and pulls out a buggy. It has red and white stripes like the one in my gran’s shed. My face feels hot. Everyone must think I’m a big baby. Mummy used to call me that when I couldn’t walk all the way home from the shops without whining.
‘But it doesn’t matter,’ he says, leaning closer. ‘I’ve seen at least four big girls in buggies. It’s night-time you see – how else are they meant to sleep?’
I shrug and swing my legs off the seat. I pull the Mars Bar closer. I slowly unwrap it, looking at George, wondering when he’s going to stop me.
He doesn’t.
He just shakes his head, smiles and goes back to reading the paper.
I take a bite of the chocolate bar and it’s delish – that’s what Mummy says.
There’ll be no sleeping for me tonight.
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Elisabeth Carpenter
‘What a rollercoaster of a read!’ LISA HALL, bestselling author of Between You and MeTwo girls go missing, decades apart. What would you do if one was your daughter?When eight-year-old Grace goes missing from a sweetshop on the way home from school, her mother Emma is plunged into a nightmare. Her family rallies around, but as the police hunt begins, cracks begin to emerge.What are the secret emails sent between Emma’s husband and her sister? Why does her mother take so long to join the search? And is Emma really as innocent as she seems?Meanwhile, ageing widow Maggie Taylor sees Grace’s picture in the newspaper. It’s a photograph that jolts her from the pain of her existence into a spiralling obsession with another girl – the first girl who disappeared…This is a gripping psychological thriller with a killer twist that will take your breath away.‘A wonderfully assured debut about every parent’s darkest nightmare – expertly weaving a family’s story together with a real sense of tension and some great twists. Highly recommended.’ TM Logan, bestselling author of LIES‘An intense domestic thriller, twists and turns galore, and a host of family secrets. An absorbing read.’ Paul Finch, bestselling author of Strangers‘An intelligent, taut and compelling thriller’ Sam Carrington, bestselling author of Saving Sophie‘Carpenter emerges as an addictive new talent’ Helen Fields‘The plot is seamless’ Amanda Robson, author of Obsession
LIBBY CARPENTER
99 RED BALLOONS
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Dedication (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
For Dad
Table of Contents
Cover (#u56164d67-4a34-5f78-9f12-440a614908af)
Title Page (#u7082e529-50e0-555b-9925-8d4b6ce56a2a)
Copyright (#u3c25f9a4-2b16-5b4c-a5d5-5450dcb8da01)
Dedication (#u515e36a6-3f06-5939-8146-957cfe7d003e)
Chapter One (#u0f60849d-c901-5737-ae0a-b94ae42d522c)
Chapter Two: Stephanie (#u1f75c53e-7b51-5a4e-94c0-f65f3a18aa81)
Chapter Three: Maggie (#u0d9a8ebf-2bd6-5ee7-a96c-c47fee4eb1fa)
Chapter Four: Stephanie (#u59c6893e-5141-5e7e-a46a-774d1241d8c2)
Chapter Five (#u8d7efbd5-49e6-521f-a8cc-e80be1ce50b7)
Chapter Six: Maggie (#ub357d6ed-a7ce-5713-9b0d-78746486d9a0)
Chapter Seven (#u2124b9e1-8390-5814-b673-6e40c5343a73)
Chapter Eight: Stephanie (#uc33cdc45-e2f5-5fd8-a2da-c2714aab886b)
Chapter Nine (#u3b8dcee3-10e4-5f9d-8d66-121c16d60c9a)
Chapter Ten: Maggie (#u6d18f079-64c1-5970-a826-e90959552550)
Chapter Eleven: Stephanie (#u274b1b91-e3ac-5ab8-906d-1725f947fa6f)
Chapter Twelve: Maggie (#uef85d43b-c95a-5c52-b6be-58c1f21c3614)
Chapter Thirteen: Stephanie (#u7178f050-981e-5eef-8d07-11107bec97ef)
Chapter Fourteen (#u8a6485a1-6fc4-5448-b956-04121bc07d55)
Chapter Fifteen: Stephanie (#uc17fd6be-6aa8-51af-961d-ce9d0017bf17)
Chapter Sixteen: Maggie (#uc351965f-ac5c-532e-ac60-347023e3cb37)
Chapter Seventeen (#u4fd2494a-7582-5148-8586-16b9566ebefb)
Chapter Eighteen: Maggie (#u743a687c-1fa1-5020-896c-77c31d14d395)
Chapter Nineteen: Stephanie (#u2c0fc7e2-4c62-55ab-9c9d-510b73a2d23a)
Chapter Twenty: Maggie (#u789b6e79-0d24-5520-bef0-5e376072c3e3)
Chapter Twenty-One (#ub0248c4d-fc2b-50a4-9b39-18207de8ccb9)
Chapter Twenty-Two: Maggie (#u22504146-6f32-5efb-a1bb-32aa344e1f66)
Chapter Twenty-Three: Stephanie (#u5fb0e10c-5c3b-5d1e-b30e-751819b42e39)
Chapter Twenty-Four: Maggie (#u5399d2d6-7daf-5d1e-a0cd-659ee4e443f1)
Chapter Twenty-Five (#u3709c0d9-e568-5d77-b904-1d267f56679f)
Chapter Twenty-Six: Stephanie (#ubb2abe1d-910b-5671-9c68-2d96572c1184)
Chapter Twenty-Seven (#ue41a4d55-3847-53f5-98e3-b7928d9f6dc8)
Chapter Twenty-Eight: Stephanie (#u8e75e3e8-a587-5886-9859-7e7ef7131924)
Chapter Twenty-Nine (#ucae5bb7d-b9c4-5088-93b0-e0d39f4bd1fc)
Chapter Thirty: Stephanie (#ubc1e5a18-8179-5d46-b449-e34da88206a4)
Chapter Thirty-One: Stephanie (#ub7bd580f-cdcb-5257-b070-16d103e8365b)
Chapter Thirty-Two: Maggie (#u7a72af7a-4dfa-5b8e-9b80-3d67d61caef1)
Chapter Thirty-Three (#u4129825c-3813-581a-b2bd-c6ad28506c3a)
Chapter Thirty-Four: Maggie (#ubfe73cb8-1223-52be-a31f-373bf5d297f0)
Chapter Thirty-Five: Stephanie (#u71fd66c9-51d4-5f78-aefb-a52bdc63bee7)
Chapter Thirty-Six: Maggie (#ueb52b8fe-40a8-5c43-80f1-8263327c5e79)
Chapter Thirty-Seven (#ud5166a21-0dfb-5030-8321-1d5fd9f5bd04)
Chapter Thirty-Eight: Stephanie (#u27f07b02-47a9-5285-8abc-bf3a1cd5b125)
Chapter Thirty-Nine (#u728d3501-229d-5a9d-b886-f03e75bf9b24)
Chapter Forty: Stephanie (#u718b54b9-8b8f-5352-adb5-e5c7d83d8b9f)
Chapter Forty-One: Maggie (#u410f2c10-2cc6-5b3d-881b-98c2db8b0972)
Chapter Forty-Two (#ua20acf33-2deb-5aaa-8eb9-dc5b3056765c)
Chapter Forty-Three: Maggie (#u8c75110a-eb94-5a2d-ac2e-0a34032f283c)
Chapter Forty-Four: Stephanie (#u67e6bc32-aefb-584d-a796-e05a86434ad0)
Chapter Forty-Five (#uc8465572-1829-58ea-b4ba-b4a92ba66e77)
Chapter Forty-Six: Maggie (#ucfe08734-8366-5d52-aa4f-dde9aa86ce2d)
Chapter Forty-Seven (#u7422ad36-6907-5335-9de2-e0e428ea9436)
Chapter Forty-Eight: Stephanie (#ucc8f72ca-e15e-5a90-ae83-ff1743797501)
Chapter Forty-Nine (#u9bfff259-a0c5-58d0-a820-e5bea10178eb)
Chapter Fifty: Maggie (#u4481b351-dfa7-52c4-90f5-4e58aab8a759)
Chapter Fifty-One: Stephanie (#ua3908284-a529-517e-b24f-6dc89a4e0526)
Chapter Fifty-Two (#u9211ce3e-30b4-5208-aa69-4e27b89c9aa6)
Chapter Fifty-Three: Stephanie (#udd399a33-5dd6-5ccf-8154-78d041dc0e4c)
Chapter Fifty-Four: Maggie (#u0bb1a939-4e18-5e6b-936b-543da8234526)
Chapter Fifty-Five (#u81f02661-dc87-5763-ba7c-49f087209a8d)
Chapter Fifty-Six: Maggie (#u1d12521b-6de9-5d57-b624-778b080069bc)
Chapter Fifty-Seven: Stephanie (#u3a4ecf0a-ffdd-5e4e-84bb-29951e85af5a)
Chapter Fifty-Eight: Maggie (#uc1a7965e-9c32-5e15-92cd-3cfcfdc690b7)
Chapter Fifty-Nine: Stephanie (#uaa1a1cdf-3cd7-5685-8a5e-f6368041e857)
Chapter Sixty: Maggie (#u554cd42a-cbf7-5266-8da3-ee94200f7fba)
Chapter Sixty-One: Stephanie (#u4054f0c7-f88a-5416-a327-3cab99b8e38e)
Acknowledgements (#uceaee104-078a-5618-8082-8b80458a6674)
Keep Reading … (#uaf48cafa-94a4-516e-9b2c-f9866ba6d9f1)
About the Author (#u623f1dd1-e7ee-5c56-9160-356d2ebbb58f)
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Chapter One (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
I squint at him. The sun’s in my eyes and he looks like a shadow monster.
‘I can’t,’ I tell him. ‘I’ve got to get home. I’m only meant to be getting sweets from the paper shop, then straight back.’
He crouches in front of me. He’s wearing a woolly hat, which is funny as it’s really warm today.
‘But your mum asked me to fetch you.’ His eyes crinkle at the corners as he smiles.
I fold my arms. When I tilt my head, his face blocks out the sun.
‘You might be lying,’ I say. ‘Mummy warned me about men with sweets and puppies.’
The man laughs, like Gramps does when he’s Father Christmas.
‘I know,’ he says. ‘What’s she like? She’s such a worrywart.’
He’s right: she is. I drop my arms to my sides.
‘Anyway,’ he says, holding out both of his hands, ‘I’ve no sweets and I’ve no puppies. My name’s George – she’s always talking about me, isn’t she? She’s waiting at the bus station, says she’s got a surprise for you, for being a good girl at school.’ He taps his nose. ‘And we all know what you’ve been asking for.’
‘Really?’ I try not to jump up and down. ‘They’ve got me a horse?’
He winks and puts his finger on his lips. I try to wink too, but it turns into a messy blink. He holds out his hand, and I take it.
I’m allowed to sit on the front seat, but I’m not allowed to tell Mummy. On the radio, a song plays that I know: ‘Ninety-Nine Red Balloons’. I’m warm inside because Mummy sings it a lot. She sings it in German sometimes: Noin and noinsick or something. It’s an old one, but I like it.
‘Are you feeling all right?’
He’s looking at me as though I’ve got spots all over my face.
‘I think so.’
Mummy’s always worrying about me. When I had a bad cough in the middle of the night three weeks ago, she ran a hot bath and called the ambulance, but it was a false alarm.
He stops the car at a mini car park on the side of the road, just as the song is ending. Without his hat on, he looks older than he did before. He puts his hand on my forehead.
‘You do feel a bit hot.’
As soon as he says it, I feel it. I’m burning up.
He turns to the back seat and grabs a plastic carrier bag. I can’t read the supermarket’s name, but I recognise the red and green. He gets out a flask and pours a drink.
‘Here,’ he says. ‘Your mum gave me this in case you got car sick.’
After I’ve drunk it, I give the plastic cup-lid back to him. I’m really tired. There are things I have to say to him, like, Mummy’s never mentioned anyone called George, and, I never get car sick, but I can’t because my mouth doesn’t work any more. I try to smile at him. I wouldn’t say those things to him anyway ’cos I don’t want to hurt his feelings. Has he turned the radio off? Everything’s quiet. I can’t stop my eyelids from shutting.
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Stephanie (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
Emma’s running up and down the street. Angie, her next-door neighbour, is standing at her gate in her dressing gown.
‘What’s happening, Mum?’ asks Jamie, sitting beside me in the passenger seat. ‘Why’s Aunt Emma outside shouting? I thought we were coming for tea.’
‘I don’t know, love. Wait in the car.’
I get out. Angie pulls her dressing gown tight around her middle, shivering, even though it’s not that cold yet.
‘She can’t find Grace,’ she says.
‘What do you mean she can’t find her? Where’s she left her?’
‘Nowhere. She hasn’t come home from school yet.’
It’s nearly half past four.
‘Shit.’
I run after Emma, following her into the newsagent’s a few doors down. She’s showing Mr Anderson a picture of Grace on her phone, even though he already knows what she looks like. He shakes his head.
‘I told you ten minutes ago,’ he says gently. ‘She came in, but she didn’t buy anything. She came in with her friends, and then they went. I thought they all left together. Assumed she was with them.’
‘Did you actually see her leave?’ Emma rushes to the door to the back room of the shop. ‘Could she have sneaked through here? Maybe she’s hiding from someone. Grace!’
The door to the storeroom squeaks as it opens.
‘I doubt it, but you’re welcome to look.’
‘Angie’s calling the police,’ I say.
Emma glances at me, seeing me for the first time. She grabs hold of my arm. It’s dim inside. I pat my hand along the wall for the light switch, flicking it on. Boxes of sweets, crisps, toilet rolls are stacked up in rows – the back room smells sweet, like Nice biscuits.
‘Grace! Grace, it’s me, Mummy. I’m not cross. Come out, love. No one’s angry at you for hiding.’
She moves every cardboard box away from the wall. Nothing. But then, Grace is not the type to play hide and seek, especially in a dark back room of a shop – she’s too sensible to do anything like that. Emma stands in the middle of the room, both hands on her head.
‘It’s not been long,’ I say. ‘Perhaps she’s gone to a friend’s.’
She wrinkles her nose – it’s her way of stopping tears falling from her eyes.
‘She’s usually home ages ago. I’ve phoned her friends – none of them have seen her.’
‘Did she arrange something at school and you’ve forgotten?’
‘I’ve driven to the school already – it’s locked, there weren’t any lights on.’
‘Who was the last to see her?’
‘Um.’ She shakes her head, her eyes flick left and right. ‘Angie’s daughter, Hannah.’
I grab her by the hand. ‘Thanks, Mr Anderson,’ I call to him before leading her out of the shop.
We run past Emma’s neighbours – they’re all standing on their doorsteps now.
‘Have you seen Grace?’ I shout, but they just shake their heads. Bloody useless people, staring at us.
‘It’ll be getting dark soon,’ says Emma, bending over to catch her breath. ‘She’s never home late, never. I need Mum here, can you ring her?’
‘Of course.’ I get my phone from my pocket. I dial Mum’s landline – cursing her that she still doesn’t have a mobile. There’s no reply. I leave a message for her to get here, but don’t tell her why – not over the phone. ‘Someone must have seen Grace – she can’t have just vanished off the street, not so close to home.’
It’s not only her I’m trying to convince.
When we get to Emma’s house, two police cars are parked either side of my car.
‘Shit – Jamie.’
How could I have left him when Grace has disappeared? He might be thirteen, but you never know what kind of maniac is out there. I run over and open the passenger door; the window is open.
‘Have you found Grace?’ he says, his eyes wide.
‘Not yet. Are you okay? Did anyone come to the car?’
He shakes his head.
The police are guiding Emma through her front door.
‘Come on, Jamie.’
I offer my hand to help him out of the car like I used to when he was little, and he takes it.
Two detectives arrived ten minutes after I did. DI Lee Hines is sitting with a notepad resting on his knees. He’s sweating in a long grey overcoat that’s grubby around the cuffs; his tie is loose around his collar. DS Rachel Berry is standing near the living room door; she’s wearing a trouser suit. She hasn’t spoken yet, but she’s looking at us as though we’ve done something wrong.
Emma’s rocking forwards and backwards; her arms wrapped around herself. My hand is resting on hers, but I don’t think she realises I’m here. Where the hell is Mum? She doesn’t usually go out on a Monday evening. Grace has been missing for nearly an hour. I’ve tried to get through to her at least three times. I get out my phone and dial her number. Her machine answers, again. She must be on her way.
‘Is there any chance Grace could have gone to meet a friend that you don’t know?’ asks Detective Hines. ‘Does she talk to anyone online?’
He’s perched on the edge of the armchair that Matt usually sits in. Instead, Matt’s standing up with his hands going crazy – in his pockets, out of his pockets, through his hair. He looks out of the window, but the house lamps inside are too bright against the darkening sky outside. All I can see is the room reflected back at us.
The sound of the police helicopter gets louder as it flies over the house. Police officers traipse in and out, up and down the stairs. They open and shut cupboard doors, look under the stairs, in the bath, behind the shower curtain. Others are opening the upstairs hatch, pulling down the ladder. Their heavy footsteps are loud on the loft floorboards, even from down here.
Emma stops rocking.
‘Chat online? Of course she doesn’t. She’s only eight. She wouldn’t know how to do things like that.’
‘Does she have a laptop? A computer in her bedroom?’
‘No,’ she says. ‘She uses the family laptop for homework.’
Everyone turns to the machine on the desk in the corner of the room as though it might tell us where she is. The two detectives look at each other. I know what they’re thinking: surely this kid will have gone onto chat sites, Facebook, Twitter. But Grace would rather talk to her friends face to face; she’s too young for social media. The police don’t know she’s not the kind to want a mobile phone. I wish now that she were.
Matt walks over to the desk and turns his back on it.
‘I don’t know why you’re asking questions like this. She’s out there.’ His eyes are wide as he points to the window. He’s trembling; there are beads of sweat around his hairline. ‘It’s getting late, for fuck’s sake, and we’re just going over the same fucking things.’
I wince, and hope Jamie doesn’t hear from the kitchen – that he’s too distracted with his homework, but I doubt it – he’s probably listening to every word. He’ll be worried. Jamie and Grace are so close; he treats her like a little sister – they spend hours playing Minecraft together.
Emma’s cry pierces the room. Her shoulders are shaking as she buries her face in her hands. I grab her closer to me and put my arms around her. Her hair is in my face and it blots my tears. Grace is their only child. I can’t believe she’s not here. She should be at home, having her tea with us, talking about school, doing her homework.
DI Hines shifts in his chair and glances at DS Berry.
‘We have everyone we can spare looking for Grace.’ He writes something in his notepad. ‘Can we just go over it one more time?’
Matt runs his hands through his hair. He’s done it so many times his hair’s stringy with sweat. He looks up to the ceiling. If you didn’t know him, you’d think him religious, looking for guidance, but he’s not.
‘She walks home from school,’ says Emma, her voice barely audible. ‘Sometimes with Hannah, sometimes with Amelia – there are three of them usually, but I’ve spoken to their mums. Amelia’s said Grace and another friend decided to stop at the shop for sweets. She’s usually home by quarter to four at the very latest.’
‘So Amelia didn’t wait for Grace?’ says Hines, narrowing his eyes. ‘She just walked away? Does Grace often walk to the shop on her own?’
‘Grace is eight; she’s not a baby. The school’s only down the road. We’ve been through this three times,’ says Matt. ‘We’re repeating ourselves.’
The detective scratches his forehead with his pen. Perhaps he’s thinking that a few minutes ago Grace was too young for a computer, and now she’s old enough to walk home by herself. It feels as though Emma and Matt will be judged on the decisions they made for her.
‘Sometimes it’s the tiny details that are the most important.’
‘Why did we start letting her walk home from school?’ Emma says to Matt. She turns to the detective, wiping her face with the sleeve of her cardigan. ‘They only started coming back by themselves last week – she’d been begging me for ages to let her – they’ve only been in Year 4 for three weeks. We … the other mums and I … told them they had to stick together no matter what. Every day last week I waited across the street from the school gates, followed them until they got to the newsagent’s. Then I’d run home so I could be there when she got back. I should’ve done that today – I thought they’d be fine, like they were last week.’
A thought runs through my mind that plants a heavy feeling in my stomach: what if someone else was watching Grace walk home today?
She went into the newsagent’s and never came out. How is that even possible? The image of Mr Anderson’s face comes into my head. He might have owned the shop for a few years, but how well does anyone know him?
‘Have you questioned Mr Anderson?’ Everyone looks at me and my face burns. ‘The newsagent, I mean.’
Hines gives a brief nod. Did he just roll his eyes?
‘Yes, yes.’
He doesn’t elaborate – they don’t give much away. He makes me feel stupid – guilty even – just by looking at me.
‘Is there anyone you can think of who might have taken her?’ he says. ‘A relative? Someone with a grudge?’
‘No, of course not,’ says Matt. ‘This is real life, not some bloody soap opera. We’re normal people. We don’t go around making enemies.’
My ears tingle as he says it. No.
There is someone, I want to say. But it shouldn’t be me saying that. Has Emma forgotten?
‘Did she argue with you before she left this morning? About something mundane, trivial even?’
‘Grace isn’t like that,’ says Matt. ‘We don’t argue in the morning.’
‘What time did you leave for work today?’
‘Just before eight.’
‘Mrs Harper – Emma.’
She looks up.
‘Did you and Grace argue before she left for school this morning?’
She frowns and shakes her head. She looks to the mantelpiece at the many photos of Grace. One of them is the obligatory school picture. By the time Jamie has left school I’ll have twelve – one for every year. I can’t breathe when I think that photo of Grace might be her last.
Hines writes in his notepad again and looks to me.
‘So just to get everyone’s name right. You’re Stephanie Palmer – Grace’s aunt?’
‘Yes,’ I say, too loud probably.
No one reacts. And why should they?
But it feels like a lie when I say it to a stranger.
My stomach is churning. I stand, swaying slightly, and squeeze past DS Berry in the doorway before rushing up the stairs. I get to the bathroom just in time to empty the contents of my stomach into the toilet.
Chapter Three (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
Maggie (#udf99e8c1-e819-5117-b810-e10f8396932b)
I don’t feel old enough for a shopping trolley, but I am. The handles on carrier bags these days cut my hands; they’re much too thin, too cheap. Monday means it’s meat and potato pie for tea, which means calling into the butcher’s, then the vegetable shop.
Everything aches, especially my knees. I’d spend all afternoon in the bath if I could, but I’m not sure I could get myself out of it. Besides, it’s my routine that keeps me from staring at the walls, the television, the photographs.
It’s raining – again. It’s always raining. Wearing my long raincoat and ridiculous matching hat I could be anyone. It’s like my invisible cloak.
‘Are you all right, Maggie?’
The voice makes me jump. I wish I were invisible. I look up, lifting the wide brim of my hat.
‘Oh, hello, Sandra. Didn’t see you there.’
She’s holding an enormous golfing umbrella that’s emblazoned with Benson & Hedges. Do they even sell those any more? A fat drip of rain from it lands on my hand and splats onto the top of my trolley.
‘I’m not surprised,’ she says, ‘with that thing you’re wearing.’ She regards my hat as though it smells of rotten eggs. She shouldn’t pull that expression; someone should tell her it makes her look even older. ‘And you didn’t hear me either. I’ve been shouting you for the past ten minutes.’
Sandra’s a big fan of hyperbole. I don’t reply; she doesn’t notice.
‘How are we this afternoon?’ she says, her head tilted to the side. ‘I said to my Peter, I know I’ll see Maggie this afternoon ’cos it’s Monday. And every Monday she—’
‘Got to run, Sandra.’ I pull the brim of my hat over my eyes and start walking. ‘I’ve got an important appointment later.’
I need a new routine. If I bump into her again I might actually scream in the street – or jump in front of a moving car.
After a few minutes of walking, I’ve left Sandra behind. She’s probably going to tell her Peter that I’m a miserable old crone, but I don’t care.
The rain pauses.
I hear Sarah’s voice.
I look up to see if the face matches the sound. From behind she has the same brown hair in a bob on her shoulders. I can’t stop myself. I walk faster until it’s a light jog. My shopping trolley trips over the cracks in the pavement. I haven’t run for at least ten years and it shows. I slow to a walk before my knees give up, and I’m only a few feet away from her.
She laughs.
It’s Sarah’s laugh. I can’t help myself, again.
‘Sarah,’ I shout.
A passing bus splashes a puddle that misses me by inches.
I tap her right shoulder.
She stops in front of me. She turns round slowly and I know before I see her face that it’s not her at all.
Her eyes meet mine; they’re blue. Sarah’s were brown.
‘Sorry. Wrong person,’ I say, before she says it for me, like others have before her. She looks at me kindly, whoever she is, and smiles. No doubt she sees me as the ridiculous old lady that I am.
‘That’s okay.’
She turns back round and crosses the road. Probably to get out of the path of the crazy woman. I might actually be crazy, I don’t know. Of course that wasn’t Sarah. It could never be Sarah, and I should know that by now. Sometimes I think I could die from this loneliness, but I carry on. It’s torture. It’s too hard being the only one left. Being happy seems such a faraway memory. Why did everyone leave me?
The rain starts again, which is a good job because I’ve reached the butcher’s. The water disguises my tears. It’ll never do to be crying in the street.
Chapter Four (#ulink_5f337e2f-4773-5aea-badb-44b552ec9b93)
Stephanie (#ulink_5f337e2f-4773-5aea-badb-44b552ec9b93)
The detectives have gone. PC Nadia Sharma, the Family Liaison Officer, is opening and closing cupboards in the kitchen, too polite or too considerate to ask where the cups are.
My eyes feel red raw and twice their normal size. Emma’s gripping my hand so hard it’s numb, but it doesn’t matter. Her eyes are glazed and fixed on the carpet. She hasn’t spoken for nearly half an hour. I can’t ask if she’s okay, because I know she isn’t. I can’t ask her if she wants a drink because her mind won’t care what her body needs. I release the hand she’s holding and put my arm around her shoulders.
‘They’ll find her soon, Em,’ I say. ‘She’ll walk back through the front door, you’ll see.’
It’s almost cruel to say it, but it feels like Grace will come home. Any minute now.
Where is she? She’s eight, but she’s not a street-smart eight. Perhaps she’s had an accident, fallen somewhere and can’t get up. She tries to be brave when she’s hurt, especially if she’s in front of Jamie. She fell off her bike last summer. Jamie helped her into the house, her knees and elbows grazed. I’d carried her up the stairs as Jamie watched from the hallway, biting his lip. As soon as we reached the bathroom, the tears rolled down her cheeks.
‘Mum should be here in a minute,’ I say. ‘But with me and Jamie being here, there might not be enough room for us all to stay the night.’
‘I want you here,’ she says, her eyes still focused on the carpet. ‘All of you.’
I reach into my bag and check my mobile. It’s been almost an hour since I managed to get hold of Mum. She said she’d been in the bath when I’d called. I had to tell her about Grace, otherwise she might not have come.
‘But I’ve already dressed for bed,’ she said. ‘She’ll have gone to a friend’s.’She sighed when I told her that none of Grace’s friends had seen her since she went into the shop. ‘I’ll have to get some proper clothes on then and wait for a taxi. She’ll probably be back by the time I get there. You girls were always home late from school.’
‘But we weren’t eight,’ I said.
Mum only lives ten minutes away – traffic can’t be that bad. I don’t know how she stayed so calm. If it were my granddaughter, I’d run as fast as I could to get here.
Matt can’t keep still. He sits in his chair for only a few seconds before going to the window.
‘I shouldn’t be here doing fuck all. I should be out looking for her.’
‘I ought to know where she is.’ Emma’s voice makes me jump. ‘I’m her mother, I should be able to sense it. I keep trying to picture where she is, but I can’t.’ She turns to face me. ‘Why can’t I picture it?’
The tears betray me and trickle down my face.
‘I don’t know.’
I wish I knew.
‘She wanted French toast with Nutella for breakfast this morning,’ she says. ‘Don’t be silly, I said. That’s a weekend breakfast. Coco Pops I gave her.’ She starts rocking back and forth again. I’m rocking with her, my arm across her back. ‘Shit. Why didn’t I just make her the French toast? Fucking work. Rushing out of the door every morning to make it there on time. Why do I work? If I stayed at home, I would have made it for her. And then maybe she wouldn’t have gone for sweets after school.’
Matt strides over and crouches at her feet.
‘How can it be about that? How can she have vanished just because you work in a fucking office?’
He’s almost shouting. He stands while fresh tears pour down Emma’s face.
I wish he hadn’t snapped at her, but then who am I to monitor his behaviour when their child has just disappeared?
‘What is it?’ he says, to himself rather than us. ‘What are we missing? Perhaps she has met someone on the internet – maybe a friend from school told her which sites to go on.’
He looks around the room and walks towards the computer desk.
‘Where’s the laptop?’ he says.
Emma doesn’t move, just stares at the carpet.
‘Did you see them take it?’ he says to me.
I shake my head.
‘The police always take things like that, don’t they?’ I say.
‘How the hell should I know?’
Matt puts both hands on top of his head.
‘Shit.’
Emma said she was going to the bathroom, but she’s been upstairs for twenty minutes. I climb the stairs, but not so quietly that I startle her.
The bathroom door is open; she’s not in there. There’s a glow from underneath Grace’s bedroom door. There’s a sign on the door – one like Emma used to have on hers, only Grace’s is purple and has her name written in silver. I gently push it open.
‘It’s only me, Em.’
She doesn’t look up. She’s sitting on the edge of Grace’s bed. The quilt cover’s laid diagonally across it, and her giraffe teddy bear is near the pillow – she’s had it since she was a baby. Emma’s switched on the fairy lights, which twinkle on the headboard. Loom band bracelets are piled on her bedpost, untouched for months as the phase was replaced by another. I kneel on the floor, not wanting to disturb anything. Under the window is her dressing table, covered with pens, three jewellery boxes, and two mugs that she decorated herself. Above her headboard is a photo collage of her friends from school, and pictures of Emma, Matt, Jamie and me stuck to the wall with Blu-tack. Alongside them are posters of Little Mix and One Direction. One of the boy band members’ faces has been obliterated with a black marker.
Emma’s holding one of Grace’s books. She lifts it up: Everything You Need to Know About Horses.
‘We got it from the library two weeks ago,’ she says. ‘It’s due back on Friday. She’s decided she wants to be a vet. Last week she was going to be a hairdresser. Matt said he’d buy her a shop. At the time, I thought, Don’t be so silly, we can’t buy her a whole hairdresser’s.’ She places the book back on Grace’s bedside table. ‘When she gets back, I’ll get her anything she wants – anything.’
Emma looks around the room. Her eyes rest on a little shoebox that Grace made into a bed when it was her turn to look after the school teddy bear a few years ago.
‘I need to do Grace’s washing,’ says Emma. ‘I’m so crap.’ The white plastic laundry basket next to the desk is overflowing, the lid three feet away from it. ‘But what if I do that and she never comes back? I won’t be able to smell her any more.’ A tear runs down her cheek. ‘Where is she, Steph?’
I crawl to her and rest my head on her lap.
‘I don’t know.’
I try to picture Grace, like Emma tried before, but all I see is her cold and alone, the rain falling on her face as she lies in the dirt. It’s not even raining outside.
On the day she was born it had been snowing. I held her in my arms and looked out of the hospital window; the car park and the treetops were covered in a snow blanket. I hadn’t yet seen her open her eyes, but when I said, We’ll have to wrap you up warm when we take you home, little one, she gripped my finger a little tighter.
She didn’t have a name for the first week. Emma and Matt hadn’t wanted to know if she was a boy or a girl before the birth. They expected a boy, simply because Matt’s family were mainly men. ‘I must get her name right,’ Emma said. Every day they tried a different one for her: Jessica, Natasha, Lily are the few I remember. When Emma said Grace, I knew it was the perfect name for her.
‘You will stay here tonight, won’t you?’ says Emma, breaking the silence.
‘Of course, but—’
‘It’s fine that Jamie’s here. I need him here too. Will you both be all right in the spare room?’
‘We’ll be okay anywhere, don’t worry about it.’
There’s a growl of a diesel engine outside. We both jump to the window.
‘Oh.’
We say it at the same time.
It’s a black cab: Mum. She hasn’t driven since 1996, or whenever she had an experience with an HGV. I can’t remember her ever driving us anywhere before that though – it was always Dad.
Dad. What would he have been like in this nightmare? He’d have come straight over and taken control of everything. It’s been four years since he died. Sometimes it feels a lifetime ago; at other times it seems like yesterday.
I rush downstairs and open the front door, waiting while Mum pays the driver.
‘Where have you been?’
She rakes her fingers through her hair as she walks through the door. Her face, usually impeccably made-up, is red with broken veins on her cheeks. Her eyes are surrounded by puffy skin.
‘I had to get myself together. How’s Emma bearing up? Is she okay? And Matt?’
I narrow my eyes at her. Get herself together? Is she really going to be like this now?
‘Emma’s been asking for you. I rang you ages ago.’ I reach into my pocket for my phone. ‘It was five to six when I finally managed to talk to you after God knows how many times I rang – you said you were on your way. It’s gone seven o’clock.’
She frowns at me; her eyes are bloodshot.
‘It’s not the time to be pedantic, is it? I said I was sorry.’
No, she didn’t.
Jesus. My heart nearly pounds out of my jumper. I can’t think.
‘Where is she?’ she says.
For a moment I think she means Grace.
‘Upstairs.’
In the kitchen, Jamie’s sitting at the table, his face a hint of blue from the light of the laptop he takes with him everywhere.
‘Bedtime soon, love.’
‘It’s only early.’ He glances at me and nods. ‘Okay.’
‘Has there been anything on the internet about Grace?’
‘Not yet.’
How long does a child have to be missing to make it onto the news?
My phone vibrates three times in my pocket. It might be Karl. He and I have only been seeing each other a month, but we’ve worked together for years. This is the first time I’ve thought about him since Grace went missing; should it be like that? I take out my mobile.
It’s a message from Matt.
My heart flips. He’s sitting in the other room – he’s barely looked at me since I got here hours ago. I promised myself I wouldn’t think about him in that way any more. Grace is missing. What kind of person would that make me?
My hands are almost shaking as I click to open the message. Jamie’s standing at the doorway, waiting for me to show him to bed in a house where he seldom spends the night.
The message opens: I forgot to delete the emails.
Chapter Five (#ulink_e9cc92c8-db4e-5a26-b071-d0c05ee7b04f)
Before I open my eyes I feel that I’m rocking. Where was I before? With George, the man wearing the woolly hat. We were in his car. ‘Ninety-Nine Red Balloons’ was on the radio.
I open my eyelids just a little bit, so I can look around without him noticing I’m awake. It worked last week when Mummy came into my bedroom at night to put a coin under my pillow. She couldn’t tell that I waited up until she went to bed. I knew the tooth fairy wasn’t real anyway, so I wasn’t that sad.
I’m lying on an orange seat and there’s a table near my head. I can see his legs under it. He’s wearing the same trousers as before: grey with multi-coloured bits on them – like little dots of rainbow.
‘Ah, you’re awake, little one,’ he says.
I must have opened my eyes properly by accident. I pretend to yawn and sit up.
‘Where are we?’
‘Change of plan. Your mum is planning an even bigger surprise. We’re on the ferry.’
He looks around. I do too, but I can’t see Mummy. There’s hardly anyone here.
‘Are you hungry?’ he says. ‘I picked you up a few things from the café.’ He puts some food in front of me: a bread roll, Jacob’s crackers, and a Mars Bar. I shouldn’t eat the Mars Bar as I’ll get hyper. I’ve never eaten a whole one before – not this size.
I look around again. It’s the biggest café I’ve ever seen, but no one else is eating. I can see other people now, lying on the sofas under the tables like I was. They must be sleeping. I don’t think there are any bedrooms on this boat. Through the windows is blackness – the only thing I can see is the moon.
‘How did you get me here from the car? Did I sleepwalk?’
He laughs. ‘Well aren’t you a clever little thing – thinking about logistics.’
I don’t like him calling me a little thing. My teacher, Mrs Wilson, says that people can’t be things; only objects are things.
‘I pushed you in this.’
He reaches behind the pillar next to him and pulls out a buggy. It has red and white stripes like the one in my gran’s shed. My face feels hot. Everyone must think I’m a big baby. Mummy used to call me that when I couldn’t walk all the way home from the shops without whining.
‘But it doesn’t matter,’ he says, leaning closer. ‘I’ve seen at least four big girls in buggies. It’s night-time you see – how else are they meant to sleep?’
I shrug and swing my legs off the seat. I pull the Mars Bar closer. I slowly unwrap it, looking at George, wondering when he’s going to stop me.
He doesn’t.
He just shakes his head, smiles and goes back to reading the paper.
I take a bite of the chocolate bar and it’s delish – that’s what Mummy says.
There’ll be no sleeping for me tonight.
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Elisabeth Carpenter
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Дата публикации: 16.04.2024
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О книге: When eight-year-old Grace goes missing from a sweetshop on the way home from school, her mother Emma is plunged into a nightmare. Her family rallies around, but as the police hunt begins, cracks begin to emerge.What are the secret emails sent between Emma’s husband and her sister? Why does her mother take so long to join the search? And is Emma really as innocent as she seems?Meanwhile, ageing widow Maggie Taylor sees Grace’s picture in the newspaper. It’s a photograph that jolts her from the pain of her existence into a spiralling obsession with another girl – the first girl who disappeared…